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Apollonia Kotero's Post on Facebook

Working very early into the morning and noticed Apollonia's post.

My Dear Prince,
I have never known you to leave the stage so early.
4 long, dreadful months have passed since God welcomed you home. I miss you so much, the pain is unbearable, making it hard to breathe. Grief, depression, anger, and loneliness are like those bullies who taunted me in grade school. They have been relentless. My life has been a vortex of rage and despair. Waves of sadness washing away the pieces of my broken heart. My own personal hell on Earth. I feel like your widow.
I see you everywhere. I see you in everything. I know you wanted to live. You were so happy to be getting your music back. You told me of all your plans. Your plans for me. For A6. I was so excited because you were going to bring me back to Paisley Park to see the finished Purple Rain Room with our images in murals painted on the walls. You wanted to celebrate with A6 and present to us our Platinum Albums.
The weekend of April 15, 2016, you knew I was on my way to see you. I kept calling your manager to confirm my arrival, and continued to call for you desperately to no avail. On the morning of April 21, I woke up to the worst day of my life. Suddenly my phone began to scream with calls,texts,alerts! I hear messages from Jill Jones, Susan Moonsie and Brenda Bennett. I return their calls. "No...No..." It must be someone else. An employee. A fan possibly? They said something horrible happened inside your home. I turn on CNN. It has to be a hoax. It's a mistake I thought.
After what feels like broken glass ripping at my heart, they confirm my worst nightmare. I touch your sweet face with my fingertips, but it's only my TV screen. The TV is shut off. It remained that way for weeks.
I could not cry. I could not feel. I could not believe it. It was a parallax view combined with a dissociative state. I was no longer part of my body. I was no longer part of this world. My heart exploded into a million pieces that morning. Prince, I am overwhelmingly saddened by what happened to you. How it happened. It is absolutely gut-wrenching to see what continues to happen. I am devastated by the horrible things said by those who do not know you. The vile gossip. The cruel, merciless tabloids. I could not watch, listen or read about you. The vultures circling your still warm body. The greed. The lies. The false claims. Shame on them.
I am certain you are watching, having the last laugh because you predicted this. "The enemy sends people into our lives just as God does. Be wise enough to know who to let in and who to let go." "The devil will walk into a room with tears and will try to make you feel sorry for him." You said these exact words to me in 2014. "Jubilant Judas fakes tears."
Without knowing, on April 21 you changed my life once again, Prince. Let me try to explain why I feel like your widow.
On June 28th, 2014, at your home at Paisley Park, I told you when you love someone so much for so long, you become as one. As we have. I gave you a bejeweled gold crown charm I bought for you at Kensington Palace. I said to you the entire world calls you Prince, but to me you are a King. We kissed. We both had tears. I leaned my head on your shoulder. You celebrated us that night. Our 30th Anniversary. You then escort me on a private tour. Your doves cooed. Your Oscar shined brightly. You were like a kid. It's a museum with a secret maze. Your secret doors and the secret panels. A fun house. "It's a city," I say. You tell me it's your sanctuary. Then you ask me if I would like to see your vault. "I do not wish to see your money" I respond. We walk towards a bank vault-like door. You politely explain what's inside is far more important than money. You open the vault and say "MY MUSIC."
"I have a surprise for you", you say with a huge grin. We walk into a soundstage so gigantic it needs it's own zip code. Third Eye Girl is waiting for me, suited up and stage ready. So talented and beautiful! I was honored. You sat me right next to your mike on the stage. Close. So close. Thisclose. You sang our songs. You stared at me and I stared right back at you. It was beautiful. I fell more in love with you. Imagine that. You filmed us. You then posted it. That entire night you made me feel like Charlie Bucket. Prince and The Music Factory. It was like a romantic sequel to our movie. You made me feel like a Princess.
We spoke about family, love, music, and the future. Deep discussions. How we are family. 33 years now. You wrote another song about us, you proudly tell me. You show me the meme "This Could Be Us." Your happy face lit up. I gushed as always. I kiss you again. The plans you share with me take my breath away. You are so gracious.
On April 21st you changed the lives of many. That morning was made even more difficult because of the news journalists. They hid outside my home. They offered compensation. It was horrendous. I could not breathe, let alone speak. I respect your preference for privacy. I did not want to run and desperately grab a microphone and be part of the frenzy. I was incapable of using this tragedy as a PR moment as was done by others.
The world cried purple tears on April 21, 2016. Monuments world-wide were lit purple in your Honor on that sad day. Sting expressed his condolences to me. Lenny is crushed. CeeLo loves you. Your Purple Family grieved. They love you so much. They still mourn you. You greatly affected so many, it's beyond words. Their love and dedication to you has given me strength. I am so grateful to my dear friends that came to my home to provide comfort and strength during these challenging times. My "Purple Rain Family" has been my glue. My sisters Susan Moonsie, Brenda Bennett and Jill Jones and I are together.
Your brother Omarr and sister Tyka and siblings are doing their best under the most difficult of circumstances. I am there for them. Our entire Purple Rain Family, Omarr and Tyka are as one. Sadly, it has been hard for us to heal, as this is still not over. Omarr and I have spent time consoling one another and reflecting on how we wish to celebrate your life. Your stellar legendary life.
In my days of reflection and at times the reluctant observer, I thought of ways to truly honor your life. There are so many beautiful moments that I cherish. There is so much to say. I will do my best for you. To bring great minds together and only present the finest to your world-wide Purple Family. Prince, when I am ready to talk to the media about our unique and loving friendship, I promise to always be truthful and I will keep private the things you would never want me to discuss.
My love for you is great, but my grief is even greater. I promise to stay strong. I know you are with me. Thank you for your guidance and protection. It brings great comfort and solace when I think of your last words to me, "I LOVE U 2".
I can feel the prayers of many and I am forever grateful for their love. I know you are joyful now. In a state of absolute bliss. With God at your side. The music up there must be off the hook, now that you're a member of the greatest band in Heaven.
You told Jill J. and the girls on February 28th that I was a clown. I figured God made me just to make you laugh. I will try my best to find my humor again. My heart needs more time. I really miss your laughter. Your silly voices. But mostly, I miss your pancakes.
I'm sure you're busy socializing with all your friends and music making up there, but where can I send this letter to you? Maybe I should call The Duffer Brothers for help, as we know stranger things have happened? I promise to check in with you often.
Finally surfed today. I thought about you there on the sand. Under the umbrella , watching me. Sand in your fro. Made me smile. I miss you Skipper <3

Te Quiero mucho, Apollonia x

Heap see, few know. .. Heap say, very few go ...
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Reply #1 posted 08/29/16 2:40am

LuxLove

These 2 parts stuck me the most:



Prince, I am overwhelmingly saddened by what happened to you. How it happened. It is absolutely gut-wrenching to see what continues to happen. I am devastated by the horrible things said by those who do not know you. The vile gossip. The cruel, merciless tabloids. I could not watch, listen or read about you. The vultures circling your still warm body. The greed. The lies. The false claims. Shame on them.

I am certain you are watching, having the last laugh because you predicted this. "The enemy sends people into our lives just as God does. Be wise enough to know who to let in and who to let go." "The devil will walk into a room with tears and will try to make you feel sorry for him." You said these exact words to me in 2014. "Jubilant Judas fakes tears."



but where can I send this letter to you? Maybe I should call The Duffer Brothers for help, as we know stranger things have happened? I promise to check in with you often.


It's a very sweet post.

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Reply #2 posted 08/29/16 3:11am

thedance

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From the sweet old purple-days:



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heart

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Reply #3 posted 08/29/16 3:12am

purpleforeverl
ove

NOH said:

Working very early into the morning and noticed Apollonia's post.

My Dear Prince,
I have never known you to leave the stage so early.
4 long, dreadful months have passed since God welcomed you home. I miss you so much, the pain is unbearable, making it hard to breathe. Grief, depression, anger, and loneliness are like those bullies who taunted me in grade school. They have been relentless. My life has been a vortex of rage and despair. Waves of sadness washing away the pieces of my broken heart. My own personal hell on Earth. I feel like your widow.
I see you everywhere. I see you in everything. I know you wanted to live. You were so happy to be getting your music back. You told me of all your plans. Your plans for me. For A6. I was so excited because you were going to bring me back to Paisley Park to see the finished Purple Rain Room with our images in murals painted on the walls. You wanted to celebrate with A6 and present to us our Platinum Albums.
The weekend of April 15, 2016, you knew I was on my way to see you. I kept calling your manager to confirm my arrival, and continued to call for you desperately to no avail. On the morning of April 21, I woke up to the worst day of my life. Suddenly my phone began to scream with calls,texts,alerts! I hear messages from Jill Jones, Susan Moonsie and Brenda Bennett. I return their calls. "No...No..." It must be someone else. An employee. A fan possibly? They said something horrible happened inside your home. I turn on CNN. It has to be a hoax. It's a mistake I thought.
After what feels like broken glass ripping at my heart, they confirm my worst nightmare. I touch your sweet face with my fingertips, but it's only my TV screen. The TV is shut off. It remained that way for weeks.
I could not cry. I could not feel. I could not believe it. It was a parallax view combined with a dissociative state. I was no longer part of my body. I was no longer part of this world. My heart exploded into a million pieces that morning. Prince, I am overwhelmingly saddened by what happened to you. How it happened. It is absolutely gut-wrenching to see what continues to happen. I am devastated by the horrible things said by those who do not know you. The vile gossip. The cruel, merciless tabloids. I could not watch, listen or read about you. The vultures circling your still warm body. The greed. The lies. The false claims. Shame on them.
I am certain you are watching, having the last laugh because you predicted this. "The enemy sends people into our lives just as God does. Be wise enough to know who to let in and who to let go." "The devil will walk into a room with tears and will try to make you feel sorry for him." You said these exact words to me in 2014. "Jubilant Judas fakes tears."
Without knowing, on April 21 you changed my life once again, Prince. Let me try to explain why I feel like your widow.
On June 28th, 2014, at your home at Paisley Park, I told you when you love someone so much for so long, you become as one. As we have. I gave you a bejeweled gold crown charm I bought for you at Kensington Palace. I said to you the entire world calls you Prince, but to me you are a King. We kissed. We both had tears. I leaned my head on your shoulder. You celebrated us that night. Our 30th Anniversary. You then escort me on a private tour. Your doves cooed. Your Oscar shined brightly. You were like a kid. It's a museum with a secret maze. Your secret doors and the secret panels. A fun house. "It's a city," I say. You tell me it's your sanctuary. Then you ask me if I would like to see your vault. "I do not wish to see your money" I respond. We walk towards a bank vault-like door. You politely explain what's inside is far more important than money. You open the vault and say "MY MUSIC."
"I have a surprise for you", you say with a huge grin. We walk into a soundstage so gigantic it needs it's own zip code. Third Eye Girl is waiting for me, suited up and stage ready. So talented and beautiful! I was honored. You sat me right next to your mike on the stage. Close. So close. Thisclose. You sang our songs. You stared at me and I stared right back at you. It was beautiful. I fell more in love with you. Imagine that. You filmed us. You then posted it. That entire night you made me feel like Charlie Bucket. Prince and The Music Factory. It was like a romantic sequel to our movie. You made me feel like a Princess.
We spoke about family, love, music, and the future. Deep discussions. How we are family. 33 years now. You wrote another song about us, you proudly tell me. You show me the meme "This Could Be Us." Your happy face lit up. I gushed as always. I kiss you again. The plans you share with me take my breath away. You are so gracious.
On April 21st you changed the lives of many. That morning was made even more difficult because of the news journalists. They hid outside my home. They offered compensation. It was horrendous. I could not breathe, let alone speak. I respect your preference for privacy. I did not want to run and desperately grab a microphone and be part of the frenzy. I was incapable of using this tragedy as a PR moment as was done by others.
The world cried purple tears on April 21, 2016. Monuments world-wide were lit purple in your Honor on that sad day. Sting expressed his condolences to me. Lenny is crushed. CeeLo loves you. Your Purple Family grieved. They love you so much. They still mourn you. You greatly affected so many, it's beyond words. Their love and dedication to you has given me strength. I am so grateful to my dear friends that came to my home to provide comfort and strength during these challenging times. My "Purple Rain Family" has been my glue. My sisters Susan Moonsie, Brenda Bennett and Jill Jones and I are together.
Your brother Omarr and sister Tyka and siblings are doing their best under the most difficult of circumstances. I am there for them. Our entire Purple Rain Family, Omarr and Tyka are as one. Sadly, it has been hard for us to heal, as this is still not over. Omarr and I have spent time consoling one another and reflecting on how we wish to celebrate your life. Your stellar legendary life.
In my days of reflection and at times the reluctant observer, I thought of ways to truly honor your life. There are so many beautiful moments that I cherish. There is so much to say. I will do my best for you. To bring great minds together and only present the finest to your world-wide Purple Family. Prince, when I am ready to talk to the media about our unique and loving friendship, I promise to always be truthful and I will keep private the things you would never want me to discuss.
My love for you is great, but my grief is even greater. I promise to stay strong. I know you are with me. Thank you for your guidance and protection. It brings great comfort and solace when I think of your last words to me, "I LOVE U 2".
I can feel the prayers of many and I am forever grateful for their love. I know you are joyful now. In a state of absolute bliss. With God at your side. The music up there must be off the hook, now that you're a member of the greatest band in Heaven.
You told Jill J. and the girls on February 28th that I was a clown. I figured God made me just to make you laugh. I will try my best to find my humor again. My heart needs more time. I really miss your laughter. Your silly voices. But mostly, I miss your pancakes.
I'm sure you're busy socializing with all your friends and music making up there, but where can I send this letter to you? Maybe I should call The Duffer Brothers for help, as we know stranger things have happened? I promise to check in with you often.
Finally surfed today. I thought about you there on the sand. Under the umbrella , watching me. Sand in your fro. Made me smile. I miss you Skipper <3

Te Quiero mucho, Apollonia x

This is so beautiful, Prince was love by so many people worldwide! it had 2 be a honor if you were his friend. We'll always have the music, hopefully the youtube concerts are here forever. Sorry for your lost Apollonia, friends & family. We'll always love you Prince, they'll never be another you! guitar prince yes

You and me are like two ships passing
Never reaching shore
If we ever, ooh, if we ever did
We'd just want more
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Reply #4 posted 08/29/16 3:15am

thedance

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right, I always had a soft spot in my heart for Apollonia. love



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Reply #5 posted 08/29/16 3:41am

Musze

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Lovely.

I Love U, But I Don't Trust U Anymore...
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Reply #6 posted 08/29/16 3:54am

captiveunicorn

Wow. So moving.
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Reply #7 posted 08/29/16 3:54am

Vashtix

It seems Prince was truly a person who was loved and he knew their were thieves in his temple.

He was not dumb or knaive.

Apples seems so wonderful. Prayers for her - it has to be very, very, hard.

R.I.P. Beautiful One

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Reply #8 posted 08/29/16 4:07am

kittycat108

Wow, so moving. I felt her emotion in every word.

Thank u 4 a funky time
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Reply #9 posted 08/29/16 4:30am

RachB65

This was utterly moving n beautiful. Poor Apples...Poor everyone, all of us...
She doesnt seem to have a question as to what really happened...Her description of their recent meetings, the nostalgic feel of it all. She, like some others very close to P, know pretty much know the what n y of what happened...
[Edited 8/29/16 4:31am]
"Almost all art is trying to become an anaesthetic and at the same time a healing session drawing up the magical electrics.”
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Reply #10 posted 08/29/16 4:33am

dance4me3121

Wow so they were romantically involved ?? I thought that was just a publicity stunt and I read she was married at the time of the filming of purple rain
It was a very sweet post though
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Reply #11 posted 08/29/16 4:45am

eightiesbrat

Wow, this is is so sad. Had to reach for a tissue.
We all want the stuff that's found in our wildest dreams. . .
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Reply #12 posted 08/29/16 4:54am

jayseajay

So moving, so much love for Apples. Oh P P P, why did you have to go and smash up everyone's hearts like this? sad sad sad

Not like I love my guitar....
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Reply #13 posted 08/29/16 4:57am

Guitarhero

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Love you Apollonia hug heart grouphug

Love and miss you so much Julita xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx heart Rest in Peace. I'm heartbroken bheart
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Reply #14 posted 08/29/16 5:01am

bondno9

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Now THIS is the statement I've been waiting for. I knew I was gonna have to pull out the tissue. Love how she addressed it to him "My Dear Prince ..." P and Apples were special and it comes out in her statement. She feels like his widow cry I'm glad she took some time before coming out with a statement. Cause this right here came straight from the heart cry

[Edited 8/29/16 5:05am]

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Reply #15 posted 08/29/16 5:14am

Purplestar88

Very heartfealt post. Money can't buy that kind loyalty and respect. I could only imagine after Prince died how the media came after her for information.

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Reply #16 posted 08/29/16 5:15am

gandorb

Beautiful and poignant. More evidence that he was reaching out to the people of his past.
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Reply #17 posted 08/29/16 5:20am

xRachx

In floods of tears!!!! So beautiful
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Reply #18 posted 08/29/16 5:27am

bigtimefan

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I'm glad she spoke; it's a lot to take in.

.

So I guess as of 6/14 he was optomistic about the future and was going to reunite A6?

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This part confuses me: "The weekend of April 15, 2016, you knew I was on my way to see you. I kept calling your manager to confirm my arrival, and continued to call for you desperately to no avail. On the morning of April 21, I woke up to the worst day of my life." I would think if it was a prearranged visit and the plane thing had just happened she'd definately still go, whether he called back or not. I can't imagine the guilt she must have for not going. So sad. I feel sorry for her.

Eventually every cloud runs out of rain.
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Reply #19 posted 08/29/16 5:30am

justAmeda

eek sad no words! sad

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Reply #20 posted 08/29/16 5:32am

anangellooksdo
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This was very sweet and moving.
Yes, he is with God now. We all will be. It's still hard.
I happen to he groovin on This Could Be Us right now. Beautiful vocals. Is she saying he wrote it for her?
~Paisley Park is in your heart~
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Reply #21 posted 08/29/16 5:42am

rogifan

Just saw it this morning and it had me in tears all over again. Much love to Apollonia. Just beautiful. 💜
Paisley Park is in your heart
#PrinceForever 💜
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Reply #22 posted 08/29/16 5:46am

LBrent

This is a lot for me to process right now.

I'm not sure how to feel about this.

On the one hand I feel the love and pain coming through from her.

On the other hand, I wonder if he'd mind that she shared a bit of their private interaction.

I dunno.

As nosey as I am regarding all of P's details, I feel uncomfortable "peeking through the curtains" of Apple's private moments with P.

I feel honored that she shared, but unworthy of it, too.

confused
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Reply #23 posted 08/29/16 5:48am

justAmeda

LBrent said:

This is a lot for me to process right now. I'm not sure how to feel about this. On the one hand I feel the love and pain coming through from her. On the other hand, I wonder if he'd mind that she shared a bit of their private interaction. I dunno. As nosey as I am regarding all of P's details, I feel uncomfortable "peeking through the curtains" of Apple's private moments with P. I feel honored that she shared, but unworthy of it, too. confused

I agree! Talk about a bomb dropping! It was so sweet but yet you feel like you just something in someone's diary at the same time!

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Reply #24 posted 08/29/16 5:51am

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RachB65 said:

This was utterly moving n beautiful. Poor Apples...Poor everyone, all of us...
She doesnt seem to have a question as to what really happened...Her description of their recent meetings, the nostalgic feel of it all. She, like some others very close to P, know pretty much know the what n y of what happened...
[Edited 8/29/16 4:31am]

--- She is not the first one to imply that something else was going on other than pills. Only it appears something was going on as early as 2014. Very sad if he knew he was ill for so long.
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Reply #25 posted 08/29/16 5:51am

jjam

I'm beginning to feel like I'm the only person who Prince didn't shag.

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Reply #26 posted 08/29/16 5:53am

slowlywiltingf
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What a beautiful letter, so clearly written from the heart and with genuine emotion, written focusing on Prince and his influence and impact on her, and her love for him (and his for her)...yet her words remained still all about Prince, not making it about herself.

-

Always have loved Apples. She's a sweet soul. I send her all my love and condolences, and hope she finds peace soon. hug Appolonia hug heart

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Reply #27 posted 08/29/16 5:53am

justAmeda

NOH said:

Working very early into the morning and noticed Apollonia's post.

My Dear Prince,
I have never known you to leave the stage so early.
4 long, dreadful months have passed since God welcomed you home. I miss you so much, the pain is unbearable, making it hard to breathe. Grief, depression, anger, and loneliness are like those bullies who taunted me in grade school. They have been relentless. My life has been a vortex of rage and despair. Waves of sadness washing away the pieces of my broken heart. My own personal hell on Earth. I feel like your widow.
I see you everywhere. I see you in everything. I know you wanted to live. You were so happy to be getting your music back. You told me of all your plans. Your plans for me. For A6. I was so excited because you were going to bring me back to Paisley Park to see the finished Purple Rain Room with our images in murals painted on the walls. You wanted to celebrate with A6 and present to us our Platinum Albums.
The weekend of April 15, 2016, you knew I was on my way to see you. I kept calling your manager to confirm my arrival, and continued to call for you desperately to no avail. On the morning of April 21, I woke up to the worst day of my life. Suddenly my phone began to scream with calls,texts,alerts! I hear messages from Jill Jones, Susan Moonsie and Brenda Bennett. I return their calls. "No...No..." It must be someone else. An employee. A fan possibly? They said something horrible happened inside your home. I turn on CNN. It has to be a hoax. It's a mistake I thought.
After what feels like broken glass ripping at my heart, they confirm my worst nightmare. I touch your sweet face with my fingertips, but it's only my TV screen. The TV is shut off. It remained that way for weeks.
I could not cry. I could not feel. I could not believe it. It was a parallax view combined with a dissociative state. I was no longer part of my body. I was no longer part of this world. My heart exploded into a million pieces that morning. Prince, I am overwhelmingly saddened by what happened to you. How it happened. It is absolutely gut-wrenching to see what continues to happen. I am devastated by the horrible things said by those who do not know you. The vile gossip. The cruel, merciless tabloids. I could not watch, listen or read about you. The vultures circling your still warm body. The greed. The lies. The false claims. Shame on them.
I am certain you are watching, having the last laugh because you predicted this. "The enemy sends people into our lives just as God does. Be wise enough to know who to let in and who to let go." "The devil will walk into a room with tears and will try to make you feel sorry for him." You said these exact words to me in 2014. "Jubilant Judas fakes tears."
Without knowing, on April 21 you changed my life once again, Prince. Let me try to explain why I feel like your widow.
On June 28th, 2014, at your home at Paisley Park, I told you when you love someone so much for so long, you become as one. As we have. I gave you a bejeweled gold crown charm I bought for you at Kensington Palace. I said to you the entire world calls you Prince, but to me you are a King. We kissed. We both had tears. I leaned my head on your shoulder. You celebrated us that night. Our 30th Anniversary. You then escort me on a private tour. Your doves cooed. Your Oscar shined brightly. You were like a kid. It's a museum with a secret maze. Your secret doors and the secret panels. A fun house. "It's a city," I say. You tell me it's your sanctuary. Then you ask me if I would like to see your vault. "I do not wish to see your money" I respond. We walk towards a bank vault-like door. You politely explain what's inside is far more important than money. You open the vault and say "MY MUSIC."
"I have a surprise for you", you say with a huge grin. We walk into a soundstage so gigantic it needs it's own zip code. Third Eye Girl is waiting for me, suited up and stage ready. So talented and beautiful! I was honored. You sat me right next to your mike on the stage. Close. So close. Thisclose. You sang our songs. You stared at me and I stared right back at you. It was beautiful. I fell more in love with you. Imagine that. You filmed us. You then posted it. That entire night you made me feel like Charlie Bucket. Prince and The Music Factory. It was like a romantic sequel to our movie. You made me feel like a Princess.
We spoke about family, love, music, and the future. Deep discussions. How we are family. 33 years now. You wrote another song about us, you proudly tell me. You show me the meme "This Could Be Us." Your happy face lit up. I gushed as always. I kiss you again. The plans you share with me take my breath away. You are so gracious.
On April 21st you changed the lives of many. That morning was made even more difficult because of the news journalists. They hid outside my home. They offered compensation. It was horrendous. I could not breathe, let alone speak. I respect your preference for privacy. I did not want to run and desperately grab a microphone and be part of the frenzy. I was incapable of using this tragedy as a PR moment as was done by others.
The world cried purple tears on April 21, 2016. Monuments world-wide were lit purple in your Honor on that sad day. Sting expressed his condolences to me. Lenny is crushed. CeeLo loves you. Your Purple Family grieved. They love you so much. They still mourn you. You greatly affected so many, it's beyond words. Their love and dedication to you has given me strength. I am so grateful to my dear friends that came to my home to provide comfort and strength during these challenging times. My "Purple Rain Family" has been my glue. My sisters Susan Moonsie, Brenda Bennett and Jill Jones and I are together.
Your brother Omarr and sister Tyka and siblings are doing their best under the most difficult of circumstances. I am there for them. Our entire Purple Rain Family, Omarr and Tyka are as one. Sadly, it has been hard for us to heal, as this is still not over. Omarr and I have spent time consoling one another and reflecting on how we wish to celebrate your life. Your stellar legendary life.
In my days of reflection and at times the reluctant observer, I thought of ways to truly honor your life. There are so many beautiful moments that I cherish. There is so much to say. I will do my best for you. To bring great minds together and only present the finest to your world-wide Purple Family. Prince, when I am ready to talk to the media about our unique and loving friendship, I promise to always be truthful and I will keep private the things you would never want me to discuss.
My love for you is great, but my grief is even greater. I promise to stay strong. I know you are with me. Thank you for your guidance and protection. It brings great comfort and solace when I think of your last words to me, "I LOVE U 2".
I can feel the prayers of many and I am forever grateful for their love. I know you are joyful now. In a state of absolute bliss. With God at your side. The music up there must be off the hook, now that you're a member of the greatest band in Heaven.
You told Jill J. and the girls on February 28th that I was a clown. I figured God made me just to make you laugh. I will try my best to find my humor again. My heart needs more time. I really miss your laughter. Your silly voices. But mostly, I miss your pancakes.
I'm sure you're busy socializing with all your friends and music making up there, but where can I send this letter to you? Maybe I should call The Duffer Brothers for help, as we know stranger things have happened? I promise to check in with you often.
Finally surfed today. I thought about you there on the sand. Under the umbrella , watching me. Sand in your fro. Made me smile. I miss you Skipper <3

Te Quiero mucho, Apollonia x

eek Wish I knew what is meant by this! Even Andre Crutchfield referenced #ThievesInTheTemple! Why do us fans have to be left in the dark about this stuff? It's like ya know folks wouldn't have conspiracies and crap if someone/someones would just come forward and speak the truth! mad

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Reply #28 posted 08/29/16 5:54am

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jayseajay said:

So moving, so much love for Apples. Oh P P P, why did you have to go and smash up everyone's hearts like this? sad sad sad

sad

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Reply #29 posted 08/29/16 6:05am

lwr001

I'll say again Prince's pimp hand was strooongggggg

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