peb319 said:

chocolate1 said:

Honestly? I thought it was just me.

I have very little money, and I'm stressed about other aspects of my life. And I probably won't see him for Christmas.

We buried my Granny 2 days before Thanksgiving, but went Black Friday shopping. It's been slow for my family to realize the "holiday season".

I'm going to attempt to put up my tree this weekend, but I'm sure the kitten will make it difficult since she's into everything.

Maybe by next week I'll start to feel it... I get paid on Dec. 15th.

it was starting to shine for me, and then i found out a cousin of mine was murdered thanksgiving day.. my dad's niece.. i remember her from when i was a kid..already a teen when i was young, but she let me ride her bike..

found beaten to death in her home.. by her ex boyfriend.. and lucky he is that he's locked up..

just waiting for the mood to return..

last night i started filling stockings..

so maybe..

I am so sorry for your loss.

Machaela said:

I understand the psychology of my seasonal disconnect this year ...

My Mom WAS christmas ~ Santa in the flesh ... an amazing holiday decorator and embracer of the true holiday spirit

So it being the 1st X-mas season without her in my life is a bit tough

I'm doing the best I can and that's all I can do ... I have to allow myself to grieve her loss while also celebrating her life

so ...yeah

Me too. I'm more broke than I ever have been the past four months, and I miss my father more during this time. Meh, the only thing I've done is get the kids some gifts and put a tree up with decorations. Other than that, I'm just not really feeling it. I did think that instead of a gift for myself I would donate to a one year old's medical expenses after being declared brain dead from being shot in Oakland.

so...yeah also.

peb319 said:

chocolate1 said:

Honestly? I thought it was just me.

I have very little money, and I'm stressed about other aspects of my life. And I probably won't see him for Christmas.

We buried my Granny 2 days before Thanksgiving, but went Black Friday shopping. It's been slow for my family to realize the "holiday season".

I'm going to attempt to put up my tree this weekend, but I'm sure the kitten will make it difficult since she's into everything.

Maybe by next week I'll start to feel it... I get paid on Dec. 15th.

it was starting to shine for me, and then i found out a cousin of mine was murdered thanksgiving day.. my dad's niece.. i remember her from when i was a kid..already a teen when i was young, but she let me ride her bike..

found beaten to death in her home.. by her ex boyfriend.. and lucky he is that he's locked up..

just waiting for the mood to return..

last night i started filling stockings..

so maybe..

Oh my God.

PurpleJedi said:

chocolate1 said:

My church is having a Christmas Concert on the 16th.

The lead organist had invited me to something else before Thanksgiving, but it was when my Granny was really sick, so I told him that my family was not willing to commit at that time.

He came up to me Sunday, making small talk about this program. That ass said, "My condolences. Now I guess you guys have no excuse for this program."

Are you effin' kidding me?!?!

Slap that MFer with a hymn book next time u see him.

That was a pretty cold thing for that guy to say to you, when he knows that you just suffered a loss in your family. He's a first class asshole.

Vendetta1 said:

TheFreakerFantastic said:

Miserable bastards!

Get the tree and decorations up and celebrate a holy man..

I can't rmember the last time Xmas was about a holy man.

I'm with you on that. Christmas now is so damn commercialized, it turns my stomach. They start playing Christmas songs on the radio and show Christmas commercials on TV right before Halloween. You would think that the advertisers would at least wait until around Thanksgiving to start with the commercials. It's all about advertising now, and the companies making as much money as they possibly can this time of year. It's less about Jesus' birthday now, and more about what presents to buy, how much to spend on them, etc. etc. I've disconnected myself from all of that years ago. Heck, I haven't put a Christmas tree up in the last 5 or 6 years, and I don't send Christmas cards either (never have). The only thing I like about Christmas is seeing my niece and nephews' faces when they get the gift that they've been wanting all year. Everything else, not so much.

Machaela said:

I understand the psychology of my seasonal disconnect this year ...

My Mom WAS christmas ~ Santa in the flesh ... an amazing holiday decorator and embracer of the true holiday spirit

So it being the 1st X-mas season without her in my life is a bit tough

I'm doing the best I can and that's all I can do ... I have to allow myself to grieve her loss while also celebrating her life

so ...yeah

i think more of these are in order..

thank you..

I can't say that I'm 100% not in the holiday spirit but I sure am not 100% into it. I'd say I'm about 40% into it. My feelings this year for the holiday has been lukewarm. I do want to say to all of those who lost loved ones recently or this year and this is your first Christmas without them that I really feel for you all My dad passed away 10 years ago and the last time I was 100% into Christmas was my last Christmas with him. I swear every year it feels like its the "first Christmas" without him. Like I relive it every year. I don't think I'll ever regain the Christmas spirit until I finally have a family of my own one day...if that ever happens. These days I'm prepping to be the old, lonely cat lady. I'm so tired of men disappointing the fuck out of me that it makes me fucking sick. Oh well. Merry freaking Christmas.

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psychodelicide said:

PurpleJedi said:

Are you effin' kidding me?!?!

Slap that MFer with a hymn book next time u see him.

That was a pretty cold thing for that guy to say to you, when he knows that you just suffered a loss in your family. He's a first class asshole.

Yeahthat to both statements.

Going to a funeral this week. But, I'm actually relieved that he passed on. He was very sick-in the end it was better that he died rather quickly, almost unexpected like.

missfee said:

I can't say that I'm 100% not in the holiday spirit but I sure am not 100% into it. I'd say I'm about 40% into it. My feelings this year for the holiday has been lukewarm. I do want to say to all of those who lost loved ones recently or this year and this is your first Christmas without them that I really feel for you all My dad passed away 10 years ago and the last time I was 100% into Christmas was my last Christmas with him. I swear every year it feels like its the "first Christmas" without him. Like I relive it every year. I don't think I'll ever regain the Christmas spirit until I finally have a family of my own one day...if that ever happens. These days I'm prepping to be the old, lonely cat lady. I'm so tired of men disappointing the fuck out of me that it makes me fucking sick. Oh well. Merry freaking Christmas.

[Edited 12/11/11 14:54pm]

GetAwayFromMe said:

Machaela said:

I understand the psychology of my seasonal disconnect this year ...

My Mom WAS christmas ~ Santa in the flesh ... an amazing holiday decorator and embracer of the true holiday spirit

So it being the 1st X-mas season without her in my life is a bit tough

I'm doing the best I can and that's all I can do ... I have to allow myself to grieve her loss while also celebrating her life

so ...yeah

Me too. I'm more broke than I ever have been the past four months, and I miss my father more during this time. Meh, the only thing I've done is get the kids some gifts and put a tree up with decorations. Other than that, I'm just not really feeling it. I did think that instead of a gift for myself I would donate to a one year old's medical expenses after being declared brain dead from being shot in Oakland.

so...yeah also.

My Best Friend's Mom died a few days ago ~

...

yeah