Okay, a couple of weeks ago for about 4 or 5 days I felt like everything was finally starting to turn around. My 9 year old daughter had a couple of good nights where she slept in her bed most of the night. I at least had some hope that there was a slight possibility we might save the house. I received a small bonus at work. Now everything is crap again. My daughter is coming in our room earlier than ever and acts like she is terrified. The house is as good as lost as we have exhausted all of our options and it is being sent to foreclosure. And, to top it off, I have developed what I believe to be hemorhhoids from hell or something down there that will not go a damn way. My life is falling to complete crap. I know everyone goes through hard times but I don't know whether to feel despondent or pissed off. I pray every day, my faith never waivers, and I thank God for my life and my family. But I feel like I pissed off the big guy somehow because I can't get anything to go right. The irony is I'm up for a 15% raise, we're off Chapter 13 in October..by the end of the year everything was going to be better. But I just don't feel like I can make it...I don't know what reserve of strength I have left. But I have to because my family depends on me and I can't let them down any more than I already have.

Sorry so depressing. It's not like I can put any of this on my Facebook page. I just don't understand why every little bit of hope is crushed by a tidal wave of suckiness. It doesn't matter if you're a good or bad person. If you do stupid stuff like I have you reap what you sow.

Just please tell me it'll get better somehow...

Keep your head up...It does get better!

Sending positive vibes your way ..........

nowhere to go from here except up!

i wish you well! i don't know what i would do in your place.

i don't think you are cursed though. take care and keep the faith

Most of 2009 was like that for me.

And most of 2010 was recontruction.

Now it's, 2011 and I'm still in reconstruction mode, but it's ok. I'm having a great time.

I'm not going to tell you that it gets better of course. I don't know that it does, honestly.

In my case it did.

But what I can tell you is that it could always always be worse. And sometimes

what seem like terrible events end up being part of a solution.

I'll send positive vibes your way.

I think something is up in the air because I've been having crap luck as well but not on the same scale as you. Right after a wave of good things happening, now bad stuff has been happening. Mainly electronics breaking down one after the other and now health and relationship stuff. Gotta keep the faith!

Keep your faith in YOURSELF

i think your daughter is not sleeping cause she is stressing out about what you are stressing out about..... kids know more than you realize, and it affects them differently

i'm sorry u r losing your home.... but things will improve for you... new home fresh start...

try and b positive esp around your kids..... kids need reassurance in times like this

and u need to see a doctor about your health.....

This, too, shall pass.

GottaLetitgo said:

But I just don't feel like I can make it...I don't know what reserve of strength I have left. But I have to because my family depends on me and I can't let them down any more than I already have.

Maybe you'll have to make-do with less, but you'll find a way. Regarding the house, there's a Tom Waits song that goes:

What makes a house grand

Ain't the roof or the doors

If there's love in a house

Then it's a palace, for sure

Sounds to me like you got a palace there, my friend. And you're a very talented writer. It'll all work out.

Get some rest, "smile, breathe and go slowly":

http://zenhabits.net/12-e...-zen-monk/

GottaLetitgo said:

Okay, a couple of weeks ago for about 4 or 5 days I felt like everything was finally starting to turn around. My 9 year old daughter had a couple of good nights where she slept in her bed most of the night. I at least had some hope that there was a slight possibility we might save the house. I received a small bonus at work. Now everything is crap again. My daughter is coming in our room earlier than ever and acts like she is terrified. The house is as good as lost as we have exhausted all of our options and it is being sent to foreclosure. And, to top it off, I have developed what I believe to be hemorhhoids from hell or something down there that will not go a damn way. My life is falling to complete crap. I know everyone goes through hard times but I don't know whether to feel despondent or pissed off. I pray every day, my faith never waivers, and I thank God for my life and my family. But I feel like I pissed off the big guy somehow because I can't get anything to go right. The irony is I'm up for a 15% raise, we're off Chapter 13 in October..by the end of the year everything was going to be better. But I just don't feel like I can make it...I don't know what reserve of strength I have left. But I have to because my family depends on me and I can't let them down any more than I already have.

Sorry so depressing. It's not like I can put any of this on my Facebook page. I just don't understand why every little bit of hope is crushed by a tidal wave of suckiness. It doesn't matter if you're a good or bad person. If you do stupid stuff like I have you reap what you sow.

Just please tell me it'll get better somehow...

It will get better. Small steps. Take a bunch of small steps, one thing at a time instead of trying to be Superperson.

Holiding you in the light that you get the turnaround you desire

damn.

my daughter suffered from night terrors for a few years from about 4 to 7 or so. She was always so terrified and I hated that there wasn't much I could do.

I love you guys. I really do. I cannot tell you how much I appreciate the words of encouragement.

You know, I wake up this morning and I see that there's an earthquake in Japan and you have all of these lost lives and I'm like "Damn, dude, get over yourself. " I try really hard to put things into proper perspective and today I'm thinking a lot more about than I am about me.

Life is so damn fragile. A decision here, a decision there and one completely makes or breaks their destiny. I know the decisions I have made. I know that in a parallel universe I could be a very rich man...came so close so many times to being in the right place at the right time. That's what hurts. If one thing, any one thing, had gone right instead of wrong than things would be so different.

My girls and my wife are the three things that have gone right in my life. I thank God every day for them. I am mad I have let them down and scared about what is coming next.

But today, my heart goes out to those who woke up this morning thinking it was a regular day and had no idea that it was their last day on earth.

Now of course in the middle of financial meltdown Prince is coming to Columbia. You have to laugh after a while. Some cosmic force is getting a damn kick out of this.

GottaLetitgo said:

Things will get better.

Hang in there.

GottaLetitgo said:

Okay, a couple of weeks ago for about 4 or 5 days I felt like everything was finally starting to turn around. My 9 year old daughter had a couple of good nights where she slept in her bed most of the night. I at least had some hope that there was a slight possibility we might save the house. I received a small bonus at work. Now everything is crap again. My daughter is coming in our room earlier than ever and acts like she is terrified. The house is as good as lost as we have exhausted all of our options and it is being sent to foreclosure. And, to top it off, I have developed what I believe to be hemorhhoids from hell or something down there that will not go a damn way. My life is falling to complete crap. I know everyone goes through hard times but I don't know whether to feel despondent or pissed off. I pray every day, my faith never waivers, and I thank God for my life and my family. But I feel like I pissed off the big guy somehow because I can't get anything to go right. The irony is I'm up for a 15% raise, we're off Chapter 13 in October..by the end of the year everything was going to be better. But I just don't feel like I can make it...I don't know what reserve of strength I have left. But I have to because my family depends on me and I can't let them down any more than I already have.

Sorry so depressing. It's not like I can put any of this on my Facebook page. I just don't understand why every little bit of hope is crushed by a tidal wave of suckiness. It doesn't matter if you're a good or bad person. If you do stupid stuff like I have you reap what you sow.

Just please tell me it'll get better somehow...

I had a time like that once: it was awful, one thing and then another thing and then a WORSE thing and then a HORRIBLE thing- it seemed like it would never stop or get better! At the end of those couple of years I really should have been sitting in a corner speaking gibberish and peeing on myself, I'd been thru so much, but really, somehow, things DO get better. They just inexplicably do. So hang in there! It will be okay