quick note, not feeling to well....


i had the surgery.... i think things with that are ok, however, when they put me under, whoever is in charge of taping your eyes shut, failed to put the artificial moisture in there and during surgery my left eye was open a bit, causing the tape to adhere to my eyeball itself.

i woke in the most horrible god aweful pain i could imagine, noone would listen to me.... my mother drove me home where we turned right around and went back to the ER at the hospital.

they found an abrasion that covers the entire pupil and colored area of the eye.


at this point, i cannot see anything out of my left eye other than bright light and large objects.

the surgeon called here last night, he feels horrible, talked to my mom (i was asleep)... he arranged for me to see the eye doctor of his choice, he claims is the best in town and totally paid for my visit there.

when they tested my eyesight, i have 20/20 out of the right eye, and 2400 out of the left.


this was totally unexpected, and im not sure who is to blame, but it sure does suck.... my eye hurts so bad, i have YET to even have pain that rregisters from the surgery site itself... however, that will change tomorrow im sure as they are to unpack/clean/and repack the surgical site tomorrow at about 10AM.

anyway, im going back to bed, i just wanted you to know i am still alive.

Oh, gawd.

I saw this chart once that was designed for dosing pain control, and they put corneal abrasions in the same category as broken bones, as far as intensity of pain.

That sucks, girlie.

Glad you're doing ok otherwise. Rest.

I talked to NPP on the phone last night. Her eye is patched and I think that today she goes to an opthamologist. She was pretty wiped, and they (drs?) mentioned that they hope there will be no scarring...but she is NPP! so she is hangin in there! She misses you all and says hello.

lately, my surgeon has tried several times to say that i could have been the one that did this - and i am the one that is saying that i woke up to this pain

OH ! one other thing... i was kinda giggling the morning of surgery, i was there, nervous as hell, and wishing i could have been anywhere else but where i was, mom gave me a magazine to read. on one of the pages, there were clothes and things that were on some type of show of some kind... anyway, there was a DVD sitting in the middle of there that didnt have ANYTHING to do with anything.... and it was purple rain i know this doesnt mean shit, but in my mind, it was all of you saying that you were there with me, and thinking of me and it brought a strange sense of peace to me, i hope you understand what im saying.... thank you

I talked to NPP on the phone last night. Her eye is patched and I think that today she goes to an opthamologist. She was pretty wiped, and they (drs?) mentioned that they hope there will be no scarring...but she is NPP! so she is hangin in there! She misses you all and says hello.

bluesbaby said:

i wanted to call but didn't want to disturb her...
perhaps i will try tomorrow

and i talked to dex briefly last week...
he didn't mention the hair
but we did talk about something else

emm said:

what about his hair?