You know the first week I was just a mess....just couldnt stop crying then I went to periodic crying Now Im able to listen to his music and function, but I feel kinda weird like disconnected from stuff I lay down at night, but I dont feel really rested. I just feel like something is missing within me and I cant correct it Ive been trying hard to feel like myself again, but its not working How do I get back to feeling like me again? Is it ever gonna happen?

panpac777 said:

nursev said:You know the first week I was just a mess....just couldnt stop crying then I went to periodic crying Now Im able to listen to his music and function, but I feel kinda weird like disconnected from stuff I lay down at night, but I dont feel really rested. I just feel like something is missing within me and I cant correct it Ive been trying hard to feel like myself again, but its not working How do I get back to feeling like me again? Is it ever gonna happen? It will take a few years to get used to this feeling, but it never really goes away fully!

Years God I cant function like this for that long. Im not sad I just feel weird like a part of me is gone or something...its hard to describe.

nursev said:

panpac777 said:

nursev said:You know the first week I was just a mess....just couldnt stop crying then I went to periodic crying Now Im able to listen to his music and function, but I feel kinda weird like disconnected from stuff I lay down at night, but I dont feel really rested. I just feel like something is missing within me and I cant correct it Ive been trying hard to feel like myself again, but its not working How do I get back to feeling like me again? Is it ever gonna happen? It will take a few years to get used to this feeling, but it never really goes away fully!

Years God I cant function like this for that long. Im not sad I just feel weird like a part of me is gone or something...its hard to describe.

Turn it into something good. Be a better you for the memory of Prince! That's what I'm trying to do atleast.

panpac777 said:

nursev said:You know the first week I was just a mess....just couldnt stop crying then I went to periodic crying Now Im able to listen to his music and function, but I feel kinda weird like disconnected from stuff I lay down at night, but I dont feel really rested. I just feel like something is missing within me and I cant correct it Ive been trying hard to feel like myself again, but its not working How do I get back to feeling like me again? Is it ever gonna happen? Just know that you are not alone. We all feel the same pain. The same emptyness, helplessness, FAILURE! I feel that way anyway. I failed MJ, Now I have failed Prince! I say that cause I should have known this would happen. It was just a few months ago I believe I saw that report about the WB deal on CNN or MSNBC and My heart fell! I knew this was going to happen in my heart anyway. My mind kept going no, He is too healthy. But I got the same sinking feeling as during last curtain call with mj and I should have done something. But how....u r so helpless.why didn't he have a bodyguard near his appartment or at paisley park...security guard.

This whole thing has just left me feeling empty inside. As fans there was only so much we could do U cant help someone if they dont ask for help I feel bad because I know if Prince had asked for help earlier he wouldve gotten it from us and many others. Then again I tell myself that maybe he was terminal and just wanted to be left alone and I can respect that. How can u hurt this much for somebody u didnt even know?

Replica said:

nursev said:

Years God I cant function like this for that long. Im not sad I just feel weird like a part of me is gone or something...its hard to describe.

Turn it into something good. Be a better you for the memory of Prince! That's what I'm trying to do atleast.

Ive told myself that too and I know he would want us to carry on and be positive, but it just feel like there's a whole inside of me and I cant fill it It feels truly strange.

panpac777 said:

Replica said: nursev said: Years God I cant function like this for that long. Im not sad I just feel weird like a part of me is gone or something...its hard to describe. Turn it into something good. Be a better you for the memory of Prince! That's what I'm trying to do atleast. Yes, We will have to turn out attention into something positive that he would have wanted or be proud of. Don't know what that is yet....God Better have some kind of plan!?!!!???

How do u take that feeling that u got when listening to Prince or seeing him perform and turn that into something else? First of all how do u even describe such a feeling? Its impossible to replace that...you cant

nursev said:

panpac777 said:

Replica said: nursev said: Years God I cant function like this for that long. Im not sad I just feel weird like a part of me is gone or something...its hard to describe. Turn it into something good. Be a better you for the memory of Prince! That's what I'm trying to do atleast. Yes, We will have to turn out attention into something positive that he would have wanted or be proud of. Don't know what that is yet....God Better have some kind of plan!?!!!???

How do u take that feeling that u got when listening to Prince or seeing him perform and turn that into something else? First of all how do u even describe such a feeling? Its impossible to replace that...you cant

It's change of habits and circumstances that we were all accustomed to. We were fans of a living bad ass artist. We were excited knowing he was there for us and we were there for him. Now it's unsual thinking we are fans of a death artist, so it feels not so much mutual. However, not much has changed. I mean if you stop thinking that Prince died everything seems ok. I decided to think that way. As long as my attitude towards the music and how I perceived things etc. won't change, Prince in my universe will live on.

OzlemUcucu said:

nursev said:

How do u take that feeling that u got when listening to Prince or seeing him perform and turn that into something else? First of all how do u even describe such a feeling? Its impossible to replace that...you cant

It's change of habits and circumstances that we were all accustomed to. We were fans of a living bad ass artist. We were excited knowing he was there for us and we were there for him. Now it's unsual thinking we are fans of a death artist, so it feels not so much mutual. However, not much has changed. I mean if you stop thinking that Prince died everything seems ok. I decided to think that way. As long as my attitude towards the music and how I perceived things etc. won't change, Prince in my universe will live on.

For a few days I did this...said to myself he's not gone just somewhere else, but it cant work that way forever I mean he's gone

nursev said:

You know the first week I was just a mess....just couldnt stop crying then I went to periodic crying Now Im able to listen to his music and function, but I feel kinda weird like disconnected from stuff I lay down at night, but I dont feel really rested. I just feel like something is missing within me and I cant correct it Ive been trying hard to feel like myself again, but its not working How do I get back to feeling like me again? Is it ever gonna happen?

I'm right there with you. I guess time will tell. I thought I was kinda getting back to normal until yesterday, not sure what happened but I was a mess all over again. I went out with friends for the first time since it happened. I had a good time, but as soon as I was left to my own thoughts for a split second it became overwhelming. This is clearly not something we're going to get over quickly. Quite frankly I don't want to get over it, I just hope it becomes easier to deal with. I wish the same for you and all of us

nursev said:

You know the first week I was just a mess....just couldnt stop crying then I went to periodic crying Now Im able to listen to his music and function, but I feel kinda weird like disconnected from stuff I lay down at night, but I dont feel really rested. I just feel like something is missing within me and I cant correct it Ive been trying hard to feel like myself again, but its not working How do I get back to feeling like me again? Is it ever gonna happen?

Hang in there All your pics of Prince are a wondeful pick me up.

[Edited 5/8/16 11:23am]

nursev said:

leslievette said:

nursev said:

You know the first week I was just a mess....just couldnt stop crying then I went to periodic crying Now Im able to listen to his music and function, but I feel kinda weird like disconnected from stuff I lay down at night, but I dont feel really rested. I just feel like something is missing within me and I cant correct it Ive been trying hard to feel like myself again, but its not working How do I get back to feeling like me again? Is it ever gonna happen?

I'm right there with you. I guess time will tell. I thought I was kinda getting back to normal until yesterday, not sure what happened but I was a mess all over again. I went out with friends for the first time since it happened. I had a good time, but as soon as I was left to my own thoughts for a split second it became overwhelming. This is clearly not something we're going to get over quickly. Quite frankly I don't want to get over it, I just hope it becomes easier to deal with. I wish the same for you and all of us

Yes me too cuz obviously its gonna take a while to get over.

Guitarhero said:

nursev said:

You know the first week I was just a mess....just couldnt stop crying then I went to periodic crying Now Im able to listen to his music and function, but I feel kinda weird like disconnected from stuff I lay down at night, but I dont feel really rested. I just feel like something is missing within me and I cant correct it Ive been trying hard to feel like myself again, but its not working How do I get back to feeling like me again? Is it ever gonna happen?

Hang in there All your pics of Prince are a wondeful pick me up.

[Edited 5/8/16 11:23am]

aww...thats so sweet

RiotPaisley said:

Listening to his music and dancing has really been helpful. I didn't think I could handle it but now I can't sit still. It think the thought that he's alive in song forever. It's good. That's how he connected to us so Dance On!! It's when I sit still that it hurts the most. Waking up is a close second though...

When Im listening to the music its not so bad, but when Im just sitting thinking....it over takes me again

NinaB said:

nursev said:

For a few days I did this...said to myself he's not gone just somewhere else, but it cant work that way forever I mean he's gone

Aw love It is awful, a terrible shock. It's very surreal. Take it easy V.

Im trying to...just every day is different

mikeyaddict said:

nursev, love you loads and big loves to the whole Purple Family. We can and will all get through this, days pass and time marches on - we can't change it. Take ur time petal. Things will feel right and everyone is different. It'll click for you - just don't judge how u are compared to others. U r u, what u feel is real. Hope you start feeling it soon - there's love and happiness and joy in this world and I'm willing it to u. Take care of urself innit. And take whatever time u need. Ur not alone.

Aww

It's the new reality that we have to adjust to. It's hard because its change and most people hate change. I do. It's not easy, in fact it is very very hard but it is the new reality. You aren't discounnected, you got us. I know for myself if I didn't hae the org to come to and share my experiences, I would be a basket case.

tish9311 said:

It's the new reality that we have to adjust to. It's hard because its change and most people hate change. I do. It's not easy, in fact it is very very hard but it is the new reality. You aren't discounnected, you got us. I know for myself if I didn't hae the org to come to and share my experiences, I would be a basket case.

Indeed it is...and yes all u guys and ladies on the Org have been a saving grace to me. Its the first place I came to when I could get on

nursev said:

nursev said:

You know the first week I was just a mess....just couldnt stop crying then I went to periodic crying Now Im able to listen to his music and function, but I feel kinda weird like disconnected from stuff I lay down at night, but I dont feel really rested. I just feel like something is missing within me and I cant correct it Ive been trying hard to feel like myself again, but its not working How do I get back to feeling like me again? Is it ever gonna happen?

I made a post about this recently and I have been feeling the same way...like a part of me is missing.It's hard to describe...but I have been listening to other music for awhile,I had to take a break mentally from it all.It will get better..I promise.The org has helped me tremendously to get through this because I know I'm not alone in how I feel.My family is tired of me talking about it and they have been supportive but they tell me enough is enough.Just hang in there..we are here for you...

mikeyaddict said:

nursev, love you loads and big loves to the whole Purple Family. We can and will all get through this, days pass and time marches on - we can't change it. Take ur time petal. Things will feel right and everyone is different. It'll click for you - just don't judge how u are compared to others. U r u, what u feel is real. Hope you start feeling it soon - there's love and happiness and joy in this world and I'm willing it to u. Take care of urself innit. And take whatever time u need. Ur not alone.

Doozer said:

I know the feeling Nursev

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I just cannot stand to hear one note of Purple Rain anywhere and have to slam it off immediately. It's become so haunting I don't know if I will ever be able to listen to it again.