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nursev

Feeling Kinda Disconnected

You know the first week I was just a mess....just couldnt stop crying sad then I went to periodic crying sad Now Im able to listen to his music and function, but I feel kinda weird like disconnected from stuff eek I lay down at night, but I dont feel really rested. I just feel like something is missing within me and I cant correct it sad Ive been trying hard to feel like myself again, but its not working sad How do I get back to feeling like me again? Is it ever gonna happen?

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Reply #1 posted 05/08/16 9:26am

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nursev said:You know the first week I was just a mess....just couldnt stop crying sad then I went to periodic crying sad Now Im able to listen to his music and function, but I feel kinda weird like disconnected from stuff eek I lay down at night, but I dont feel really rested. I just feel like something is missing within me and I cant correct it sad Ive been trying hard to feel like myself again, but its not working sad How do I get back to feeling like me again? Is it ever gonna happen? It will take a few years to get used to this feeling, but it never really goes away fully!
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Reply #2 posted 05/08/16 9:29am

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nursev said:You know the first week I was just a mess....just couldnt stop crying sad then I went to periodic crying sad Now Im able to listen to his music and function, but I feel kinda weird like disconnected from stuff eek I lay down at night, but I dont feel really rested. I just feel like something is missing within me and I cant correct it sad Ive been trying hard to feel like myself again, but its not working sad How do I get back to feeling like me again? Is it ever gonna happen? It will take a few years to get used to this feeling, but it never really goes away fully!

Years eek God I cant function like this for that long. Im not sad I just feel weird like a part of me is gone or something...its hard to describe.

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Reply #3 posted 05/08/16 9:31am

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nursev said:You know the first week I was just a mess....just couldnt stop crying sad then I went to periodic crying sad Now Im able to listen to his music and function, but I feel kinda weird like disconnected from stuff eek I lay down at night, but I dont feel really rested. I just feel like something is missing within me and I cant correct it sad Ive been trying hard to feel like myself again, but its not working sad How do I get back to feeling like me again? Is it ever gonna happen? Just know that you are not alone. We all feel the same pain. The same emptyness, helplessness, FAILURE! I feel that way anyway. I failed MJ, Now I have failed Prince! I say that cause I should have known this would happen. It was just a few months ago I believe I saw that report about the WB deal on CNN or MSNBC and My heart fell! I knew this was going to happen in my heart anyway. My mind kept going no, He is too healthy. But I got the same sinking feeling as during last curtain call with mj and I should have done something. But how....u r so helpless.why didn't he have a bodyguard near his appartment or at paisley park...security guard.
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Reply #4 posted 05/08/16 9:31am

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nursev said:

panpac777 said:

nursev said:You know the first week I was just a mess....just couldnt stop crying sad then I went to periodic crying sad Now Im able to listen to his music and function, but I feel kinda weird like disconnected from stuff eek I lay down at night, but I dont feel really rested. I just feel like something is missing within me and I cant correct it sad Ive been trying hard to feel like myself again, but its not working sad How do I get back to feeling like me again? Is it ever gonna happen? It will take a few years to get used to this feeling, but it never really goes away fully!

Years eek God I cant function like this for that long. Im not sad I just feel weird like a part of me is gone or something...its hard to describe.

Turn it into something good. Be a better you for the memory of Prince! That's what I'm trying to do atleast.

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Reply #5 posted 05/08/16 9:34am

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nursev said: panpac777 said: nursev said:You know the first week I was just a mess....just couldnt stop crying sad then I went to periodic crying sad Now Im able to listen to his music and function, but I feel kinda weird like disconnected from stuff eek I lay down at night, but I dont feel really rested. I just feel like something is missing within me and I cant correct it sad Ive been trying hard to feel like myself again, but its not working sad How do I get back to feeling like me again? Is it ever gonna happen? It will take a few years to get used to this feeling, but it never really goes away fully! Years eek God I cant function like this for that long. Im not sad I just feel weird like a part of me is gone or something...its hard to describe. A part of you is gone. He took part of your heart and soul with him. But hopefully we will get it back someday when we crossover.
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Reply #6 posted 05/08/16 9:37am

nursev

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nursev said:You know the first week I was just a mess....just couldnt stop crying sad then I went to periodic crying sad Now Im able to listen to his music and function, but I feel kinda weird like disconnected from stuff eek I lay down at night, but I dont feel really rested. I just feel like something is missing within me and I cant correct it sad Ive been trying hard to feel like myself again, but its not working sad How do I get back to feeling like me again? Is it ever gonna happen? Just know that you are not alone. We all feel the same pain. The same emptyness, helplessness, FAILURE! I feel that way anyway. I failed MJ, Now I have failed Prince! I say that cause I should have known this would happen. It was just a few months ago I believe I saw that report about the WB deal on CNN or MSNBC and My heart fell! I knew this was going to happen in my heart anyway. My mind kept going no, He is too healthy. But I got the same sinking feeling as during last curtain call with mj and I should have done something. But how....u r so helpless.why didn't he have a bodyguard near his appartment or at paisley park...security guard.

This whole thing has just left me feeling empty inside. As fans there was only so much we could do eek U cant help someone if they dont ask for help eek I feel bad because I know if Prince had asked for help earlier he wouldve gotten it from us and many others. Then again I tell myself that maybe he was terminal and just wanted to be left alone and I can respect that. How can u hurt this much for somebody u didnt even know?

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Reply #7 posted 05/08/16 9:37am

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Replica said: nursev said: Years eek God I cant function like this for that long. Im not sad I just feel weird like a part of me is gone or something...its hard to describe. Turn it into something good. Be a better you for the memory of Prince! That's what I'm trying to do atleast. Yes, We will have to turn out attention into something positive that he would have wanted or be proud of. Don't know what that is yet....God Better have some kind of plan!?!!!???
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Reply #8 posted 05/08/16 9:39am

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Replica said:

nursev said:

Years eek God I cant function like this for that long. Im not sad I just feel weird like a part of me is gone or something...its hard to describe.

Turn it into something good. Be a better you for the memory of Prince! That's what I'm trying to do atleast.

Ive told myself that too and I know he would want us to carry on and be positive, but it just feel like there's a whole inside of me eek and I cant fill it sad It feels truly strange.

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Reply #9 posted 05/08/16 9:43am

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Replica said: nursev said: Years eek God I cant function like this for that long. Im not sad I just feel weird like a part of me is gone or something...its hard to describe. Turn it into something good. Be a better you for the memory of Prince! That's what I'm trying to do atleast. Yes, We will have to turn out attention into something positive that he would have wanted or be proud of. Don't know what that is yet....God Better have some kind of plan!?!!!???

How do u take that feeling that u got when listening to Prince or seeing him perform and turn that into something else? First of all how do u even describe such a feeling? Its impossible to replace that...you cant eek

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Reply #10 posted 05/08/16 10:42am

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nursev said:

panpac777 said:

Replica said: nursev said: Years eek God I cant function like this for that long. Im not sad I just feel weird like a part of me is gone or something...its hard to describe. Turn it into something good. Be a better you for the memory of Prince! That's what I'm trying to do atleast. Yes, We will have to turn out attention into something positive that he would have wanted or be proud of. Don't know what that is yet....God Better have some kind of plan!?!!!???

How do u take that feeling that u got when listening to Prince or seeing him perform and turn that into something else? First of all how do u even describe such a feeling? Its impossible to replace that...you cant eek

It's change of habits and circumstances that we were all accustomed to. We were fans of a living bad ass artist. We were excited knowing he was there for us and we were there for him. Now it's unsual thinking we are fans of a death artist, so it feels not so much mutual. However, not much has changed. I mean if you stop thinking that Prince died everything seems ok. I decided to think that way. As long as my attitude towards the music and how I perceived things etc. won't change, Prince in my universe will live on.

Prince I will always miss and love U.
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Reply #11 posted 05/08/16 10:53am

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OzlemUcucu said:

nursev said:

How do u take that feeling that u got when listening to Prince or seeing him perform and turn that into something else? First of all how do u even describe such a feeling? Its impossible to replace that...you cant eek

It's change of habits and circumstances that we were all accustomed to. We were fans of a living bad ass artist. We were excited knowing he was there for us and we were there for him. Now it's unsual thinking we are fans of a death artist, so it feels not so much mutual. However, not much has changed. I mean if you stop thinking that Prince died everything seems ok. I decided to think that way. As long as my attitude towards the music and how I perceived things etc. won't change, Prince in my universe will live on.

For a few days I did this...said to myself he's not gone just somewhere else, but it cant work that way forever sad I mean he's gone sad

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Reply #12 posted 05/08/16 11:14am

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nursev said:

You know the first week I was just a mess....just couldnt stop crying sad then I went to periodic crying sad Now Im able to listen to his music and function, but I feel kinda weird like disconnected from stuff eek I lay down at night, but I dont feel really rested. I just feel like something is missing within me and I cant correct it sad Ive been trying hard to feel like myself again, but its not working sad How do I get back to feeling like me again? Is it ever gonna happen?

cry I'm right there with you. I guess time will tell. I thought I was kinda getting back to normal until yesterday, not sure what happened but I was a mess all over again. I went out with friends for the first time since it happened. I had a good time, but as soon as I was left to my own thoughts for a split second it became overwhelming. This is clearly not something we're going to get over quickly. Quite frankly I don't want to get over it, I just hope it becomes easier to deal with. I wish the same for you and all of us hug

From now on, 4 U I shall be wild 💜
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Reply #13 posted 05/08/16 11:21am

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nursev said:

You know the first week I was just a mess....just couldnt stop crying sad then I went to periodic crying sad Now Im able to listen to his music and function, but I feel kinda weird like disconnected from stuff eek I lay down at night, but I dont feel really rested. I just feel like something is missing within me and I cant correct it sad Ive been trying hard to feel like myself again, but its not working sad How do I get back to feeling like me again? Is it ever gonna happen?

Hang in there hug All your pics of Prince are a wondeful pick me up.

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Reply #14 posted 05/08/16 11:32am

RiotPaisley

Listening to his music and dancing has really been helpful. I didn't think I could handle it but now I can't sit still. It think the thought that he's alive in song forever. It's good. That's how he connected to us so Dance On!!

It's when I sit still that it hurts the most. Waking up is a close second though...
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Reply #15 posted 05/08/16 11:33am

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nursev said:



OzlemUcucu said:




nursev said:



How do u take that feeling that u got when listening to Prince or seeing him perform and turn that into something else? First of all how do u even describe such a feeling? Its impossible to replace that...you cant eek




It's change of habits and circumstances that we were all accustomed to. We were fans of a living bad ass artist. We were excited knowing he was there for us and we were there for him. Now it's unsual thinking we are fans of a death artist, so it feels not so much mutual. However, not much has changed. I mean if you stop thinking that Prince died everything seems ok. I decided to think that way. As long as my attitude towards the music and how I perceived things etc. won't change, Prince in my universe will live on.





For a few days I did this...said to myself he's not gone just somewhere else, but it cant work that way forever sad I mean he's gone sad


Aw love
comfort It is awful, a terrible shock. It's very surreal. Take it easy V.
"We just let people talk & say whatever they want 2 say. 9 times out of 10, trust me, what's out there now, I wouldn't give nary one of these folks the time of day. That's why I don't say anything back, because there's so much that's wrong" - P, Dec '15
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Reply #16 posted 05/08/16 11:43am

nursev

leslievette said:

nursev said:

You know the first week I was just a mess....just couldnt stop crying sad then I went to periodic crying sad Now Im able to listen to his music and function, but I feel kinda weird like disconnected from stuff eek I lay down at night, but I dont feel really rested. I just feel like something is missing within me and I cant correct it sad Ive been trying hard to feel like myself again, but its not working sad How do I get back to feeling like me again? Is it ever gonna happen?

cry I'm right there with you. I guess time will tell. I thought I was kinda getting back to normal until yesterday, not sure what happened but I was a mess all over again. I went out with friends for the first time since it happened. I had a good time, but as soon as I was left to my own thoughts for a split second it became overwhelming. This is clearly not something we're going to get over quickly. Quite frankly I don't want to get over it, I just hope it becomes easier to deal with. I wish the same for you and all of us hug

Yes me too hug cuz obviously its gonna take a while to get over.

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Reply #17 posted 05/08/16 11:43am

nursev

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nursev said:

You know the first week I was just a mess....just couldnt stop crying sad then I went to periodic crying sad Now Im able to listen to his music and function, but I feel kinda weird like disconnected from stuff eek I lay down at night, but I dont feel really rested. I just feel like something is missing within me and I cant correct it sad Ive been trying hard to feel like myself again, but its not working sad How do I get back to feeling like me again? Is it ever gonna happen?

Hang in there hug All your pics of Prince are a wondeful pick me up.

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aww...thats so sweet hug

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Reply #18 posted 05/08/16 11:44am

nursev

RiotPaisley said:

Listening to his music and dancing has really been helpful. I didn't think I could handle it but now I can't sit still. It think the thought that he's alive in song forever. It's good. That's how he connected to us so Dance On!! It's when I sit still that it hurts the most. Waking up is a close second though...

When Im listening to the music its not so bad, but when Im just sitting thinking....it over takes me again sad

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Reply #19 posted 05/08/16 11:45am

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hug heart nursev, love you loads and big loves to the whole Purple Family. We can and will all get through this, days pass and time marches on - we can't change it. Take ur time petal. Things will feel right and everyone is different. It'll click for you - just don't judge how u are compared to others. U r u, what u feel is real. Hope you start feeling it soon - there's love and happiness and joy in this world and I'm willing it to u. Take care of urself innit. And take whatever time u need. Ur not alone. hug
Comin str8 outta Preston...
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Reply #20 posted 05/08/16 11:45am

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nursev said:

For a few days I did this...said to myself he's not gone just somewhere else, but it cant work that way forever sad I mean he's gone sad

Aw love comfort It is awful, a terrible shock. It's very surreal. Take it easy V.

Im trying to...just every day is different hug

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Reply #21 posted 05/08/16 11:46am

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hug heart nursev, love you loads and big loves to the whole Purple Family. We can and will all get through this, days pass and time marches on - we can't change it. Take ur time petal. Things will feel right and everyone is different. It'll click for you - just don't judge how u are compared to others. U r u, what u feel is real. Hope you start feeling it soon - there's love and happiness and joy in this world and I'm willing it to u. Take care of urself innit. And take whatever time u need. Ur not alone. hug

Aww touched hug

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Reply #22 posted 05/08/16 11:47am

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It's the new reality that we have to adjust to. It's hard because its change and most people hate change. I do. It's not easy, in fact it is very very hard but it is the new reality. You aren't discounnected, you got us. I know for myself if I didn't hae the org to come to and share my experiences, I would be a basket case.

pray hug

Beautiful, Loved and Blessed

Thank You Prince
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Reply #23 posted 05/08/16 11:52am

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tish9311 said:

It's the new reality that we have to adjust to. It's hard because its change and most people hate change. I do. It's not easy, in fact it is very very hard but it is the new reality. You aren't discounnected, you got us. I know for myself if I didn't hae the org to come to and share my experiences, I would be a basket case.

pray hug

Indeed it is...and yes all u guys and ladies on the Org have been a saving grace to me. Its the first place I came to when I could get on giggle hug

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Reply #24 posted 05/08/16 11:59am

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nursev said:



NinaB said:


nursev said:


For a few days I did this...said to myself he's not gone just somewhere else, but it cant work that way forever sad I mean he's gone sad



Aw love comfort It is awful, a terrible shock. It's very surreal. Take it easy V.


Im trying to...just every day is different hug


I know love. I ain't ready 2 assimilate...his presence being a thing of the past... a memory
shake It's devastating. I cry every morning when I wake & sporadically throughout the day. I find myself talking 2 him. Grief does a number on the immune sys, i don't need 2 tell u that. Be gentle with yourself sweetheart xxx
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Reply #25 posted 05/08/16 12:04pm

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Years and years invested in his music and artistry...it's simply going to take more than two and a half weeks to feel better. He was family. Feeling "not right" is a good thing.
Check out The Mountains and the Sea, a Prince podcast by yours truly and my wife. More info at https://www.facebook.com/TMATSPodcast/
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Reply #26 posted 05/08/16 12:08pm

bambi777

nursev said:

You know the first week I was just a mess....just couldnt stop crying sad then I went to periodic crying sad Now Im able to listen to his music and function, but I feel kinda weird like disconnected from stuff eek I lay down at night, but I dont feel really rested. I just feel like something is missing within me and I cant correct it sad Ive been trying hard to feel like myself again, but its not working sad How do I get back to feeling like me again? Is it ever gonna happen?

I made a post about this recently and I have been feeling the same way...like a part of me is missing.It's hard to describe...but I have been listening to other music for awhile,I had to take a break mentally from it all.It will get better..I promise.The org has helped me tremendously to get through this because I know I'm not alone in how I feel.My family is tired of me talking about it and they have been supportive but they tell me enough is enough.Just hang in there..we are here for you... pray

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hug heart nursev, love you loads and big loves to the whole Purple Family. We can and will all get through this, days pass and time marches on - we can't change it. Take ur time petal. Things will feel right and everyone is different. It'll click for you - just don't judge how u are compared to others. U r u, what u feel is real. Hope you start feeling it soon - there's love and happiness and joy in this world and I'm willing it to u. Take care of urself innit. And take whatever time u need. Ur not alone. hug

There u go again spreading lovelyness! wink hug
"We just let people talk & say whatever they want 2 say. 9 times out of 10, trust me, what's out there now, I wouldn't give nary one of these folks the time of day. That's why I don't say anything back, because there's so much that's wrong" - P, Dec '15
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Doozer said:

Years and years invested in his music and artistry...it's simply going to take more than two and a half weeks to feel better. He was family. Feeling "not right" is a good thing.

Yeah, means he was loved & is loved.
"We just let people talk & say whatever they want 2 say. 9 times out of 10, trust me, what's out there now, I wouldn't give nary one of these folks the time of day. That's why I don't say anything back, because there's so much that's wrong" - P, Dec '15
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Reply #29 posted 05/08/16 12:18pm

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I know the feeling hug Nursev

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I just cannot stand to hear one note of Purple Rain anywhere and have to slam it off immediately. It's become so haunting I don't know if I will ever be able to listen to it again.

"Free URself, B the best that U can B, 3rd Apartment from the Sun, nothing left to fear" Prince Rogers Nelson - Forever in my Life -
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