Sadness. I never got the chance to experience him in concert as so many of you. I only have the music.

Anger with a springle of Acceptance/I feel a void, and emptiness........and it's sadness with me, he was just twitting one day, and the next few days he was gone and cremated......it feels odd-

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Anger because something is not right. Tomorrow will be a month

nursev said:

Acceptance...Looking back I think his death has been even sadder than MJ and Whitney...I liked them and miss them, but Prince was like family. This one is hard.

Very hard.

nursev said:

At least the world got a chance to say goodbye to Mike and Whitney

um....no they didn't.

Pain, deep deep pain and sadness. I can't believe tomorrow is one month since he left his body. And anger. I'm so angry. This didn't have to happen. I'm so sick of losing people.

I will always love you, my sweet Prince.

Denial and bargaining. But denial always feels like the safest route.

isobelfq said:

Pain, deep deep pain and sadness. I can't believe tomorrow is one month since he left his body. And anger. I'm so angry. This didn't have to happen. I'm so sick of losing people.

I will always love you, my sweet Prince.

You summed it up Isobelfq-----------Marvin Gaye, and MJ hit me pretty hard, but Prince hit me to my core of my very being, his music touched so many area's within my soul . The only music I hear for now is violins, because his death took away all other instruments in my life right now-Violins and tears is all I have for now-

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Charm4ever said:

Allanya said:

nursev said:

Acceptance...Looking back I think his death has been even sadder than MJ and Whitney...I liked them and miss them, but Prince was like family. This one is hard.

Very hard.

I agree - Prince's loss was more devestating. I think it's because he took us on a journey of self discovery -- the other's were just great entertainers. But, with Prince, it was philosophical. He had deep messages embedded into his lyrics and music -- he connected to our souls.

Charm4ever said:

isobelfq said:

Pain, deep deep pain and sadness. I can't believe tomorrow is one month since he left his body. And anger. I'm so angry. This didn't have to happen. I'm so sick of losing people.

I will always love you, my sweet Prince.

You summed it up Isobelfq-----------Marvin Gaye, and MJ hit me pretty hard, but Prince hit me to my core of my very being, his music touched so many area's within my soul . The only music I hear for now is violins, because his death took away all other instruments in my life right now-Violins and tears is all I have for now-

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I can't even look at his picture some times...a lot of the times. I can't watch Purple Rain. I can't watch the end of Under the Cherry Moon. A couple of days ago I listened to "Sometimes It Snows in April" for the first time since I D'Angelo's tribute crushed me to pieces and that kicked me off. I spoke with a friend of mine (most of whom, btw, have been excellent about this. I'm realizing how lucky I am to have surrounded myself with people who, even if they don't really understand it, accept and respect what I'm going through. My roommate took off work early to sit with me the day of) and told her that I was seriously thinking of getting grief counseling and she thinks its a great idea. I'm seeing my GP soon and I'm going to ask him about doing it. Seriously, you guys, I didn't feel this bad when my dad died. I just miss him so much.

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isobelfq said:

Charm4ever said:

You summed it up Isobelfq-----------Marvin Gaye, and MJ hit me pretty hard, but Prince hit me to my core of my very being, his music touched so many area's within my soul . The only music I hear for now is violins, because his death took away all other instruments in my life right now-Violins and tears is all I have for now-

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I can't even look at his picture some times...a lot of the times. I can't watch Purple Rain. I can't watch the end of Under the Cherry Moon. A couple of days ago I listened to "Sometimes It Snows in April" for the first time since I D'Angelo's tribute crushed me to pieces and that kicked me off. I spoke with a friend of mine (most of whom, btw, have been excellent about this. I'm realizing how lucky I am to have surrounded myself with people who, even if they don't really understand it, accept and respect what I'm going through. My roommate took off work early to sit with me the day of) and told her that I was seriously thinking of getting grief counseling and she thinks its a great idea. I'm seeing my GP soon and I'm going to ask him about doing it. Seriously, you guys, I didn't feel this bad when my dad died. I just miss him so much.

Yes, do that if your mind and body is saying that you need this too heal, I know it will get better, but it still feels like something is missing and of course that is Prince, but it will get better as long as we come here and vent out our feelings. U take Care-

cardinal said:

Charm4ever said:

You summed it up Isobelfq-----------Marvin Gaye, and MJ hit me pretty hard, but Prince hit me to my core of my very being, his music touched so many area's within my soul . The only music I hear for now is violins, because his death took away all other instruments in my life right now-Violins and tears is all I have for now-

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mj hit me hard, too. but not like this. and i couldnt listen to his music for almost two yrs. cant think how long before i can hear princes beautiful voice again. hang in there,

I know exactly How you feel Cardinal. You hang in there too........matter of fact 'All of us, hang in there" it's so nice to be able to come in here, and read encouraging comments, it is very calming to the soul-TY

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Lizzypoo said:

Allanya said:

Very hard.

I agree - Prince's loss was more devestating. I think it's because he took us on a journey of self discovery -- the other's were just great entertainers. But, with Prince, it was philosophical. He had deep messages embedded into his lyrics and music -- he connected to our souls.

Yes, Lizzypoo! Prince made you really listen to his music, and take it all in-Omgosh -Light up some candles, shut off the lights, throw on his love tunes, and it is simply "SUMBLIME"....when you open your eyes, your breathing is intense, your eyes feel a bit watery, and you are simply "EUPHORIC"!! and have to get your bearings back, like "where am I? , because you were transported into Prince's universe, my dear......"smiles"

Somehow, the release of the official medical report has helped. I am not at peace by any means, but I feel closer to acceptance. The investigation will likely continue for a while, but I hope we can all find peace in the meantime.

I went from disbelief to acceptance within about the first week. For some reason, I felt a surety that Prince was fine, that he was finally happy, and I didn't need to worry overmuch about whatever. The very day I found that acceptance, I found one of those plastic rosary necklaces. It's child-sized, so I don't wear it, but I distinctly remember thinking, "The wee bastard had it all his way right up til the end." I walked by this thing on the ground and picked it up. It was hilarious, like he was saying "Yes I did. And I am #transformed."

I'm in the selfishly angry stage at this point. I just feel mad that he's not here so I can feel good about him being alive and see him in concert again or whatever. It just pisses me off and it's just wrong.

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hifidelity67 said:

I need therapy im pretty damn depressed. Seriously this is got me fucked up.

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I said at the start that this was really going to push some people over the edge into a clinical depression. I am always just a stone's throw from that and his passing has put in me in a funk for sure. It just changed my brain chemistry and fo.r the wore. But don't be afraid to get help if you need it

Acceptance...however. I need to know more about why he was on these painkilllers and how he was getting them before I can say I have closure.

For me it's a mixture.

Sadness that he's gone of course, and gone too soon. Extreme sadness that he was living alone in his recording studio (why didn't he have a proper house???) and he died in the lift, probably on his way to bed after being dropped off by his driver following a trip to the chemist for painkillers, which he then overdosed on and lay in that elevator for hours, dying. That's an horrendous thought.

Depression that I'll never get to see him play live again (selfish, I know.) I've unsubscribed from some ticket agency mailing lists I used to use as these days their mails don't excite me like they did. There's no "will Prince be on it?" anymore. I've lost interest in concerts now.

Anger at the manner in which he died. For someone who always maintained this stance of clean living, no alcohol, no drugs, no meat etc. to die from an overdose of painkillers he's allegedly been taking for years and addicted to for so long, it just feels wrong, and in a weird way I feel strangely cheated. It feels such a small, mundane way for someone who played such a huge part in our lives to die. Part of me wishes it had been something else, even AIDS. Of course I wish he was still here now, posting random tweets on Twitter, and of course playing more amazing gigs.

At least I've stopped crying now, and one positive is I've listened to more of his music since April than I've listened to in a long while. It's like I've lost the man but rediscovered his albums.

I thought I was getting to acceptance and then the reports came out yesterday and I am right back at anger and EXTREME sadness. I'm so angry because this didn't have to happen and extremely sad that he died alone and it was an overdose. I know addiction is a disease and I am very familiar with it, but a part of me is very anger at him for doing this to himself. If only the addiction doctor could have gotten to him a day before maybe this would have never happened. Please don't jump on me or try to school me on blaming the addict. I get it and like I said it's a disease (one that I have been directly affected by in my life) but I feel so cheated by his death. But I know everything happens for a reason and hopefully his death can once again bring awareness to the opiod addiction we are suffering from in this country. If one life is saved by his death then I guess it was all part of the master plan. I pray he is at peace " />

I'm confused and shocked still. His complexities were deeper than I had always thought. At this point I don't know what was real and what was just a show for the public.