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..the wheel on which our silence 1st is broken..
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..sex..which breaks up our intregrity..our single inviolability..
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..our deep silence..
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..tearing a cry from us..
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..sex..which breaks us in2 voice..sets us calling across the deeps..
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..CALLING,CALLING 4 THE COMPLEMENT..
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..singing,and calling,and singing again,BEING ANSWERED..
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..HAVING FOUND..
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..torn 2 Bcome WHOLE AGAIN..after LONG SEEKING 4 what..
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..the SAME cry from the tortoise as from Christ..the Osiris-cry of ABANDONMENT..
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..that which is whole..torn asunder..
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..that which is in part..FINDING ITS WHOLE AGAIN THROUGHOUT..
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..D-UNIVERSE..
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..MY-TRIUMPH....is that i am not dead..i have outlived my mission..and know no more of it..IT IS MY TRIUMPH..i have survived the day and the death of my interference..and am still a man...
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..the teacher and the saviour R dead 2 me..how good it is 2 have fulfilled my mission..and 2 B beyond it..NOW I CAN BE ALONE..and leave all things 2 themselves...
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..what a pity i preached 2 them!!!!..
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..a sermon is so much more likely 2 cake in2 mud..and 2 close the fountains..than is a psalm or a song...
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..now i am risen in my OWN ALONENESS..and inherit the earth..since I LAY NO CLAIM ON IT...
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..THE LONG-NOSED..SENSITIVE-FOOTED..SUBTLY-SMILING ETRUSCANS..
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..WHO MADE SO LITTLE NOISE OUTSIDE THE CYPRESS GROVES..
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..MZSEXYBABY'study of Etruscan art and the visit 2 Tarquinia'

...HOW HAPPY WERE our days at Tarquinia..
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..from the jewelled splendour of these DARK TOMBS we came in2 the brightness of an APRIL DAY and a blue sky..
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..broken by hurrying white clouds: the field through which we walked were gay with red poppies: our guide unlocked the door leading 2 ANOTHER TOMB..and we would descend again 2 behold the joyous scenes with which the Etruscans..of such a distant world..chose 2 decorate the homes of their dead..
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..the natural flowering of life!!!!!..
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..it is not so easy 4 human beings as it sounds..
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..behind all the Etruscan liveliness was a RELIGION OF LIFE...
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..behind all the dancing was a VISION..and even a science of life..a conception of the universe and man's place in the universe...
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..2 the Etruscan all was alive..THE WHOLE UNIVERSE LIVED..and the business of man was 2 live amid it all..he had 2 draw life in2 himself..out the wandering huge vitalities of the world..the cosmos was alive..like a vast creature...
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..the whole thing was alive..and had a great SOUL or ANIMA: and in spite of 1 great SOUL..they were myriad roving..lesser souls..every man..every creature and tree and lake and mountain and stream...WAS ANIMATE..had its own PECULIAR CONSCIOUSNESS...
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...communion with the Godhead..THEY USED 2 SAY IN THE PAST..
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..but even that is human-tainted now..
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..tainted with the ego and the personality..
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..2 feel a fine..FINE BREEZE blowing through the navel and the knees..
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..and have a cool sense of TRUTH..inhuman truth at last..
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..softly fluttering the senses..in the exquisite orgasm of coition..
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..with the godhead of energy THAT CANNOT TELL LIES..
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..the cool..the cool truth of pure vitality..
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..pouring in2 the veins from the direct contact with the source..
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..uncontaminated by even the beginnings of a lie..
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..MZSEXYBABY'..a future full of isolated boys&girls!'

NeferAsetTiti said:

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...i welcome all 2 share in this space of thread...and i do mean all especially words of praise 2 my 1st true L-O-V-E Jehovah...God,Lord,THE-ALMIGHTY,MOST-HIGH!!!!..
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...others come b-4 me..i had 2 learn the hard way...this thread is about what life has done 2 me..and the expressing of it can be complicated but life was NEVER simple 4 me...no matter how hard i have tried 2 make it simple...

..i get pleasure from expressing myself here because i do it as SAFELY as possible...and u all know what Mr.Nelson said...'as long as she is having FUN..ain't nobody scared!''....2-funny but oh so true!!!..
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..MZSEXYBABY'be my-guest and after-U'
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..this is the 33rd post..a mile-stone post because 33 was also the yr my Jesus was crucified..
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..God is the great urge that has not yet found a body..
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..but urges 2wards incarnation with the GREAT-CREATIVE-URGE..
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..and becomes at last a clove carnation: lo! that is god!..
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..and becomes at last Helen..or Ninon: any lovely and generous woman..
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..at her best and her most beautiful..being god..made manifest..
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..any clear and fearless man being god..very god..
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..darkness enfolded in the deeper dark..
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..of the arms Plutonic..and pierced with the passion of dense gloom..
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..among the splendour of torches of darkness..shedding..
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..darkness on the LOST BRIDE AND HER GROOM..
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..it is not easy 2 fall out the hands of the living God:..
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..THEY R SOO LARGE..AND THEY CRADLE SO MUCH OF A MAN..
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..and still through knowledge and will..he can break away..
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..man can break away..and fall from the hands of God..
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..in2 himself alone..down the godless plunge of the abyss..
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..a god-lost creature turning upon himself..
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..the 'unhappy dead' R those who cannot truly die but cling 2 their little human "selves" or personalities...these R the dead who moan and beat..against the silvery adamant walls of life's exclusive city..
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..4 those souls who R "willing 2 continue on the longest journey"..death is 'inward and lovely peace'..'the sleep of God'..where 'the world is created afresh'...
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..now launch the small ship..now as the body dies..
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..and life departs..launch out the fragile soul..
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..in the fragile ship of courage..the ark of faith..
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..with its store of food and little cooking pans..
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..and change of clothes..
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..upon the flood's black waste..
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..upon the sea of death..where still we sail..
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..darkly..4 we cannot steer..and HAVE NO PORT..
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...MZSEXYBABY'..man what his God is and what he himself is'

mzkqueen03 said:

Okie dokie artichoke Get it all out girl... u 2 fine 2 be holdin all these tears!!! Plus its time 2 get a move on!! Life's a knockin at ur door!! I'm waitin for u 2 ride 2 the other side... Hope I c ya soon!!

NeferAsetTiti said:

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... well at least i know ur sex now..thought u was a woman there 4 a hot-sec..but i can tell u male NOW..don't worry i am putting in double-shifts has we speak..only 2 happy 2 flex the brain-muscle...2-stimulating!!
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..LIFE'S A-KNOCKING...SO LET'S GIT-2-ROCKING!!!...
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...i am that i am..
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..but i have with me..
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..a physiologue..
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..a pedagogue..
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..4 i leave out of account mere artists and journalists whose titles do not end with the magic syllable..
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..plain Dog..
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..which being intrepreted kabalistically backwards signifies GOD..
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..at ur service..
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..MZSEXYBABY'..may recommend reading 'Do What You Will' published in 1929'

...RIDE 2 THE OTHER SIDE...HUMMMM??...2 the other side of what..my-insanity??..
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...ok...hold on..i have a 'heavy-foot'..and i drive like a lady-cab-driver!!..NOTHING BUT HANDLES!!!...>steering-wheel..getting turn around 4 the U-turn<...
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..webs R inevitable..
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..spiders can't help making fly-traps..
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..and men can't help making symbols..
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..that's what the human brain is there 4..
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..2 turn the chaos of given experience in2 a fairly manageable symbols..
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..sometimes the symbols correspond fairly closely 2 some of the aspects of the eternal reality behind our experience..
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..then U have science and common sense..
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..their mission..
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..was 2 infect the rest of humanity with a belief which...
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..prevented them from having any part..
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..any philosophy..
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..not forty..
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..but 4 thousand years in their repulsive wilderness..
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..MZSEXYBABY'i should know..i have been in my-repulsive wilderness..32yrs!'

mzkqueen03 said:

LOL I am female n male.. *ADAM never left EVE* find it within thats balance YIN YANG. Hummanity forgot her in the Garden, it's become a masculine world she isn't honored like she 1nce was but thats all bout 2 change very soon the dawning of a new era is near. I don't segregate:) lol in Paradise Earth in EDEN there is no seperation u are 1 under the Sun who is the Most High.. but 2 understand on this physical 3rd dimension I am female.. U r what u r so no need 2 appologize for u being u, if u I am what I am.. Just stand proud! All I'm sayin is Your 2 FINE meaning u r fine thats a play on words ur FINE (looking good) if ur FINE (all things r good) then u r what u are therefore u become. U just IS !!!!
U become HUMAN+Be-I-NG Now if I were 2 say what the real apple was in the garden ya'll would start tripping ha ha ha literally hey maybe thats what it iz??? HINT

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mzkqueen03 said:

Symbols r ways 2 control or condense the power of God in2 a particular form. (they r keys 2 the Digital GARDEN)That is a Zionist/Kaballah Secret, that flows in2 the Illumintai and the Serpent. So 1 is not left allowed 2 experience God in it's complete form which is all that is and it is FREE. (we r told what 2 believe or what is REAL) Manipulation steps in 2 run a game on those that r blind that is when slavery begins. Being AWAKE means u free ur mind (from slavery) out of the Digital Garden. U use the Apple which is found in EDEN (the Female/Earth) u r then within the vast kingdom of The All Mighty (the heavens above) which becomes the Alpha n Omega. This becomes the Kingdom is where the Throne is which lives in the Kingdom Found in the Christ which is in the heart (IB).. That is what has been forgot, The FEMININE the Earth and the balance with the 1 (Male) which is 2 (Female) and that equals 3 (God allmighty) As Above So Below which in turn becomes Paradise on Earth
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NeferAsetTiti said:

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..stimulating indeed!!!!!..
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..evil is that separates man from man..manifestations of evil..such as hatred,greed, and lust should be avoided..good is that which UNITES..L-O-V-E,compassion and understanding R demonstrations of unity...unity is difficult 2 achieve..but man should at least attempt 2 achieve it through meditation and inner serenity..through the attainment of inner peace..he will be able 2 withstand the external evil which is the condition of the world...
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..ONE...we R all capable of L-O-V-E 4 other human beings..
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..TWO...we impose limitations on that L-O-V-E..
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..THREE..we can transcend all these limitations-if WE choose 2(it is a matter of observation that any1 who so desires can overcome personal dislike,class feeling,national hatred,colour prejudice..not easy..but it can be done..if we have the will and know how 2 carry out our good intentions)..
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...FOUR..L-O-V-E expressing itself in good treatment breeds L-O-V-E..hate expressing itself in bad treatment breeds hate..
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...in the LIGHT of these facts..
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..it's obvious what inter-personal..
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..interclass and inter policies should be..
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..knowledge cuts little ice..
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..we all know..
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..we almost fail 2 do..
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..of the best methods of implementing intentions..
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..among other things..
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..peace propaganda must be a set of instructions in the art of modifying character..
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..MZSEXYBABY'land of hope and glory!'
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NeferAsetTiti said:

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..no..it's not fools who turn mystics..it takes a certain amount of intelligence and imagination 2 realize the extra-ordinary queerness and mysteriousness of the world in which we live..the fools..the innumerable fools..take it all 4 granted..skate about cheerfully on the surface and never think of inquiring what's underneath...proceed 2 abuse any 1 who takes an interest in what lies underneath these superficial symbols..as a romantic imbecile..
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..THE FACT THAT MEN HAVE HAD STUPID AND OBVIOUSLY INCCORRECT IDEAS ABOUT GOD DOES NOT JUSTIFY US IN TRYING 2 ELIMINATE GOD FROM OUT THE UNIVERSE..MEN HAVE HAD STUPID AND INCORRECT IDEAS ON ALMOST EVERY SUBJECT THAT CAN BE THOUGHT ABOUT..
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..on the level below the human and on the level above..on the animal level and on the level..well..u can take ur choice of names: the level of eternity..the level..if u don't object..of God..the level of the spirit..only happends 2 be about the most ambiguous word in the language..on the lower level..good exist as the proper functing of the organism in accordance with the laws of its own being..on the higher level..it exist in the form of a knowledge of the world without desire or aversion..it exists as the experience of eternity..as the transcendence of personality..the extension of consciousness beyond the limits imposed by the ego...strictly human activities R the activities that prevent the manifestations of good on the other 2 level...directly or indirectly..most of our physical ailments and disabilities R due 2 worry and craving...we worry and crave ourselves in2 high blood pressure,heart disease,tuberculosis,peptic ulcer,low resistance 2 infection,neurasthenia,sexual aberrations,insanity,suicide..not 2 mention all the rest...
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..MZSEXYBABY'..and this is why i come 2 this place 2 unload the Pain INSIDE my-soul!'

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..MZSEXYBABY'how beautiful do the words have 2 be..b-4 u can just'KILL-ME'..2-many TEAR-DROPS..i can't find my rubber-boats or the body-bag!

..in all the historic formulations of the Perennial Philosophy it is axiomatic that the end of human life is contemplation..or the direct and intuitive awareness of God...
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..that society is good which does not emphasize technological advances but makes possible and desirable the pursuit of contemplation...the L-O-V-E which is released by the exercise of this intuitive comtemplation will cure many of the evils that R plaguing mankind..thus this L-O-V-E will lead 2 the treating of nature kindly: the earth's resources will no longer be ravaged by people motivated only by self-interest...similarly..this L-O-V-E will restore man's creativity in work so that he will no longer be a slave 2 the machine...this L-O-V-E will also make it impossible 4 political rulers 2 oppress their people..above all..it will release the individual from bondage 2 selfhood and from the fetters of time and sensual demands...the liberation from these fetters will even rid us of the aliments of "most of the degenerative diseases": our heart,kidneys,pancreas,intenstines,and arteries R now subject 2 deterioration because we do not live in harmony with "THE DIVINE NATURE OF THINGS"...self-denial will not only bring us in2 union with the essence of the Godhead..but will in doing so..relieve us of all our physical pain..
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..man should not be troubled by such problems as the origin of the Divine Ground or the seeming injustice of seeing evil people prosperous and good people impoverished...God IS because HE IS: only when the individual also 'simply is'..by reason of his union through L-O-V-E-knowledge with the Ground..can there be any question of complete and eternal liberation..
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..the bad man in prosperity may..all unknown 2 himself..be darkened and corroded with inward rust..while the good man under afflictions may be in the rewarding process of spiritual growth..
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..1st..RIGHT BELIEF in the all 2 obvious TRUTH that the cause of pain and evil is craving 4 separative..egocentred existence..with its corollary that there can be no deliverance fromevil..whether personal or collective..except by getting rid of such craving and the obsession of.."I".."me".."mine"...
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..3rd..RIGHT SPEECH..directed by compassion and charity 2wards all sentient beings..
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..4th..RIGHT ACTION..with the aim of creating and maintaining peace and good will..
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..5th..RIGHT MEANS of LIVELI-HOOD..or the choice only of such professions as R not harmful..in their exercise..2 any human being or..if possible..any living creature..
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..6th..RIGHT EFFORT..2wards SELF-CONTROL..
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..7th..RIGHT ATTENTION or Rcollectedness..2 B practised in all the circumstances of life..so that we may never do evil by mere thoughtlessness..because.."we know not what we do"..
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..8th..RIGHT CONTEMPLATION..the unitive knowledge of the Ground..2 which recollectedness and the ethical self-naughting prescribed in the 1st 6 branches of the PATH give access..such then R the means which it is within the power of the human being 2 employ in order 2 achieve man's final end and be "SAVED"..
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..THE GIANT MISERY OF THE WORLD is only aggravated by mass violence and cannot be mitigated by inspirational twaddle..misery will yield only 2 an intelligent attack upon the causes of misery..
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..MZSEXYBABY'..no u guys i'm NOT on lysergic acid diethylamide..the metaphysical quest ended with a pharmacological solution'

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..we must not look 4 sensitivity where it does not exist..brave men..however rough..win respect..they look at me as if i were some rare bird..as if goodness were stuck about me like feathers..
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..beauty and truth MORE BRIGHT AND KEEN than a SPEAR..
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..JOY 4 the sorrowing man and STRENGTH 4 the weak..
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..I FEAR NO HORROR THAT DEATH AND THE WORLD MAY WREAK..
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..i am a thing the FIRE that burned me bought..
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..I HAVE BEEN AWARE of the wilds and living is nought..
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..but where is MY-FIRE???..where can he be??...up-town,down-town,middle-town???..
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..AS HE WAKES..the figures R again the old frescos..a smell of burning mingles with his-memory of the command 2 be gone..warned in time..he escapes a bush FIRE..later..LOST AMONG MOUNTAINS..he sees in "dream or fever" a female figure like the "spirit" of his-ship.....FIERCE,HARD AND OF GREAT-BEAUTY....it says: "i am Path-finder...i can find a path 4 u"....he is directed 2-SAFETY..afterward.."it was in his-mind all blurred..like the events of a fever..sometimes it seemed the ONLY reality among things DREAMED"....
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..MZSEXYBABY'..i am on the borderline of sleep and waking!'
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NeferAsetTiti said:

Thanks 4 making me smile....you made my day.May Jehovah bless you. And if you mean what you say dont take it back. Stop editing... love you, Keep making me smile,I need it.

ladychel61 said:

Awww I do mean it girl .. Gracias for ur wishes ur r very kind indeed! I edit a lot cuz of the ocd and perfectionism lol I always find a typo after I post hehe n it sticks in the brain till I fix it.. I drives me kookoo 4 cocco puffs

..i was only able 2 sleep 3hrs cuz there was a dream..i was asleep in my dream..
...plunged in2 a succession of appalling jungle experiences...ALONE..with my horse..i come up against a horrible bog and a pool of reddened water like.."stagnant blood"..with hundreds of dead trees standing in it..i was starving,blistered,nearly blind..
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..once earlier i had awaken in the dream[still-dreaming..weird]by night in mid-jungle: an impulse.."from the heart of things was calling me 2 rise"..the horse is staring at something i cannot see..and "a wave of fear" passes from animal 2 man..whether the enemy is beast,or ghost i cannot tell..the tension lessens..and the horse's eyes follow the enemy as it moves slowly round....it again returns: "when it deliberated..its will hardened against them...the horse knew it..and Hi knew it from the horse"....THERE IS IN OR BEHIND NATURE A MORE THAN NATURAL EVIL..COMPARED WITH WHICH NATURE'S NORMAL EVIL R A RELIEF:..
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..DAWN brings the brighter energies of daylight nature..meanwhile..Hi "had never understood what night was..now he know"..
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..later in a dream and also after 'waking' Hi sees him 'distinctly'..and..as he fades ..the-wall 2..through him....one was murdered the other had 2 escape...words come immediately without sound: "a sentence floated in2 his mind as clearly as though a voice had spoken in his ear"...on the way 2 escape..Hi sees clearly..by day..and under direction eludes..
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..afterwards..again in dire straits..Hi is visited in sleep by a figure known in his childhood-dreams: "all peace,courage,goodness and happiness were in her face" AND "hope so bright" that danger pales...as on other occasions..but even more powerfully..the spirit-reality is not confined 2 sleep...she helps him rise..leads and accompanies him..gives him medicaments..and empowers him with A SONG....
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.."what happend 2 him these hours he never knew..save that he was miraculously helped..they were among the intensest hours of his life..
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..MZSEXYBABY'..i felt i was in The Old Testament'

NeferAsetTiti said:

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..MZSEXYBABY'..relax and let go'

mzkqueen03 said:

The knowledge is the only thing that I live for...The truth will set you free ...Praise Jehovah you people.

NeferAsetTiti said:

Its perfect when you make me laugh ...You are so funny. You remind me of myself...I love 2 make people laugh Its a way 2 escape all of the pain you face in life ..You have 2 roll with the punches.Only the strong will survive.Remember Prince words in one of his songs....Without God its like the blind leading the blind... ..I hope that I always trust Jehovah.

NeferAsetTiti said:

Oh...that goes 4 you also Mzkqueen stop all of the editing...what is your excuse?...this better be good...You are good 4 showing me love,giving me hugs and then you take it back,this drives me kookoo 4 real... whats up with that You need a good spanking girl...Sorry,you see IIIII wanted 2 ask you this a long time ago....you see ...well iiiii guess NeferAsetTiti kinda got this started... Oh here we go... Im being like Adam and Eve I have 2 blame someone...lol the both of you are my favorite girls... :luv you....Im acting more like you everday....JUST KEEP ME LAUGHING

NeferAsetTiti said:

hey mzqueen heres my hug for u
just let it all out..... just like we all need to sometimes.....
u knw we all have to move on with GODS LOVE .....in life...
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ladychel61 said:

lol I'm taking it wayyyyy back 2 Pangea baby! Now thats old school Oh I forgot 2 mention the fact in all my comments above
Why do u think we are going Green?? What is the welcome of the Dawn? What is the Dawning of a new Era mean??? I will give hints Gaia Feminine Age of Aquarius Crown Chakra Humanity Purple Lotus Venus Project 5th earth Galatic Center Back in 2 balance with the 1 LOVE
[Edited 2/7/10 18:35pm]

Never drink and dial.

Never pop pills and post.

NeferAsetTiti said:

once again the liars raise the flag of truth the confusion and illusion overwhelms the observer she searches for herself in her search for god jehovah or whatever the newest trend is called awake for hours beyond our natural gift she wants more selfishly excusing this taking for neccesity but it is just another taking more than her share no men are not wrong or right the gender bender looking for the light but the light comes from within knowing what is inside and that is when u run and hide from yourself creating this world of confusion around you dumping thoughts more like excuses to reenact the abuses thrust upon you and so it goes u thrust upon as if you know what you are doing but you dont. when love is brewing then you wont need this disease to find yourself u will find your peace and your wealth sure a few may crave your kiss the confusion you speak may sound like bliss but only in a moment of doubt and remiss and when it passes the spiritual classes will cease to exist thru the maze i hear u are searching but the answer is in the mirror so much clearer we are creating life with every moment yet chosen is the digital garden the digital lie that gets u high so high u cannot sleep u cannot keep your self awake the glamourous life comes in many forms the opiate surrounds and swarms until the coldness feels like warmth and bonds we once had with ourself are gone we search for someone else to see inside the love that did reside somewhere in a moment when we stopped being someone else i saw u there but oh so brief i am sure u just wanted relief from this hell u created laughed aloud and debated who was proud and who was hated and that time alleviated all wounds self inflicted children hurt unrestricted as is the way we must grow or pass away stagnation only leads to rot and bragging about what u've got only shows me what u are not this is only a passing thought but for now it rings true only as true as anything else i've shared with a few all of myself if only i knew in my truest health what it is to be used then the cards as they are dealt would not cause anger in me its this stranger who commits blasphemy preaching and teaching she knows not why people listen and try to help her see the infinity is not the answer its just a distraction from the cancer that eats from the inside out the searching that came from self doubt the doubt that came from not seeing herself and choosing to be instead she chooses to flee making excuses pretending she is honestly trying to be but one does not have to try to be being comes simplistically being just is without confusion without illusion and if u follow what is in your heart without trying so hard to take what is not yours without faking the love that pours from your lips then u can see your loves destiny it does not cause strife or confusion or doubt it does not lead to give to those without it does not end in a cloud of hurt no pure love does not act this way in fact it does not act at all but again i have seen this beautiful play acted out in such romantic ways spelling those who listen but ultimately leaves them feeling empty inside yes that is the nature of games played and slayed by the armies of the heart she begins again weaving the tale to whomever will listen avoiding what is within scared and scarred to even look shes trusting you to tell her and no one wants to see such beauty cry over what is and why and sadness over takes me realizing in the wake of this illusion that i was a believer in something untrue for a time but with every rhyme my love is renewed re nude i reply naked news no coverings no lie u may be amused by those who chose to try in a world where so many have accepted an honest life rejected burried under confusing relations safely hiding from humans and being thru the illusion is what i am seeing the words are the spelling and it hurts when i am dwelling in a heart that knows no definition the excuse is the premonition of one who knows not herself and therefore knows no one else and that leaves me realizing that i am no more there to her than she is to herself and if she would rather be someone else she would rather me be that too and i cant be sorry may u find your way home its a journey we must take alone

TrevorAyer said:

That was well said: And I hope she does...

Trevor is Prince charming. Sleeping Beauty better wake up and see that her Prince has come in a form she might not be willing to see. Trevor I love u and your words are such a comfort.

mayrain said:

Awww how thats 2 sweet maybe he didn't find the right Princess, and his heart feels bitterness about it. Maybe she didn't know her hearts truth when they met and was ridding destiny with a vision and connection in her (IB) heart and she had 2 follow it with being honest. Maybe she just thinks and lives differently than him maybe he's juddging her 4 it, does that make her all the things which have become his opinions or are they things he thinks she should CHANGE, if she did would that be true unconditional love?? Could be she didn't change cuz she cared about him as a being n wanted n wished happyness 4 him so she stayed true 2 herself n honest 2 him so he wouldn't be lead in2 falsehood or pain. Maybe she shared her heart in hopes he could understand her n who she is and she decided she was still in love with someone. For love is bare, like a wise person said 2 me 1nce when I was a different person and used a different name if u don't let urself open how do u know if the other is the 1 for u? If u share 1 thing yet u r another than how can some1 really c u? Man it's a journey 2 understand urself sometimes. HMM I read the line about being glamourus if u do it from ur heart what is wrong with it?? If u do it from ur mind ur coming from needing it that's where it gets greedy and messy. Well that's how I believe it 2 be so, but hey my opinions n ideas only matter 2 me or are my truth sometimes they merge with anothers other times they don't I just like 2 give and share how I see this world, I don't want any 1 2 think like me I just want 2 inspire others 2 think for themselves. Hey 2 me life is about growing in my book it takes care 2 find a partner who shares the same foundation with u n sometimes u can't see who u are until u find urself submersed and u can change a lot in life in the mean time, then when u do meet ur 1 n only u can then be adventerous and exciting and u grow 2gether for that is what creates passion for me. Hey maybe she could be dancing in Infinity like u.. I truly wish that for him he finds some1 who he loves for her and she loves him for him I 2 think he is very special inside and out..

TrevorAyer said:

So funny the more truth u become
Explaining how u feel 2 someone
They wanna bring up ur past n bring u down
Because u don’t come around
Because they were not what u looked 4 n found
Within the heart n master plans destiny
It’s still cool I love ya 4ever anyway
No matter what ever Satan’s mind does say
The Architects blue print where in the galaxy he gave me the key
My view of reality is different from u
That’s what makes us individuals unique creations of God its true
My life is a journey and experience that doesn’t mean it’s the same for me n u
It is what made us incompatible I hope u find the 1 for u eternally
So away from bitterness, judgement and lack of compassion sets u free
From saying ur opinions of me not, who and what I am
U say u wish so much for me yet u can’t even see this lamb
Sorry I am here 2 dance love laugh n play without rules
Designed by a hierarchy which the blind can’t see
That others may wish 2 have I am happy
Isn’t that what’s cool for us 2 be?
From such a wretched road, I had 2 bare
Where I’m at now the streets r gold
They were prophesized long ago for 1 2 be foretold
Don’t u care
That I now wake up with a smile everyday.
I claim this 4-ever I can truly say
I am joy
Not just a body a play thing or a toy
I was introduced 2 the Most High from my LoVe
I met him upon my feet the other night in some space above
As we made love under a Copper Pyramid covering our bed
It was after we consummated the relationship when wed
He took me 2 the Queens chamber 2 deliver me forth 2 remember
My divinity he took me 2 could 9 where the babies are born
Judah’s Lion and the Heavenly Father’s trumpet horn
Did roar
For
I have been walked in2 heaven anew
As we kneeled on our feet in humbleness so true
We asked 2 be blessed so we could do
All things in the lord’s name in service 2 be blessed 4 humanity
Our Family
2gether 4ever under the sun
We will be laughing like children having fun
Loving in Paradise Earth 4-ever under Aton
Jehovah the Most High lives in the Dawn
Rainbow Children Arise
My Crown is upon my head humbly am I at ur feet under the Purple Reign so wise
A heavenly Queen who serves the land of milk n Honey
In love with the 1 Eternaly
“Let love fill ur life with love let love fill ur life 4ever” DH