Shyra said:

Stymie said:

I think you need to work on yourself before you seriously think about getting a partner.

See. This is what I believe. Some women get desperate trying to find that fulfillment through another person. That just doesn't make sense to me. It just seems sad that a woman does not feel complete without having a man. But I guess I have to understand that people are different, and that some need more companionship. I guess being alone is natural for me. I have always been a loner. Even as a child, I could sit in my room alone and play with my dolls, paperdolls or read for hours and be snug as a bug in a rug.

I remember my daddy calling me a "spinster." It didn't bother me at all; in fact, I laughed and told him, "Yeah, but I'm still fine and sexy as hell."

I could have been married several times, but I knew me. I knew that it would not last because I would eventually get bored, (I blame my Venus being in Gemini for that ). Plus, by a certain age, marriage seemed futal. I was past childbearing age, and to me, that's the main reason for marrying.

My brother never married either. He laments that there will be no one to take care of him when he gets old/sick. Hell, having children does not guarantee that they will take care of you. Who's to say they wouldn't end up putting his ass in a nursing home? I told him he needn't worry. I would take care of him.

Our mom used to say that she did not think that we were supposed to take care of her when she got sick and disabled. She felt she was being a burden. We never felt that way. We felt just the opposite, that it would be an abomination and a sin not to take care of her.

Yeah Shyra, I'm kinda the same as you are. I mean, I'm a friendly person but I keep my circle of friends very small for a reason. I can't be bothered with shallow people or whatever.

But I am also getting to the point where I feel like even if I met a nice guy tomorrow, in the time it would take to get to know him well and if things don't work out, I'll be a few years older trying to start again. I also think I am coming to grips with the fact that I don't think I will meet a man anytime soon and probably won't meet someone and feel like I'd be even remotely interested in starting a family. The idea of "starting a family" at an older age is terrifying.

I work a dead end job, my credit is awful when it was once good and I feel a bit more pessimistic now more than ever. I just don't see this chagning soon enough to make me feel like my life will be better in a few more years...

SeventeenDayze said:

never ever give up baby....
cuz think about it...as a woman what r ur alteratives?
battery? then what? u need ur soul mate!
btw....i have never used abtract objects. never (tools) but ....im not
sayin if u have need ... release. its better than not.!!!
[Edited 9/5/12 2:39am]

i am not a lesbian...but i get it!!
im not a lesbian but if only i could show u.
im not a lesbian but.....
my female knows.

wiggleme said:

im not a lesbian but.....
i know how 2. love u.

tru.

wiggleme said:

wiggleme said:

i am not a lesbian...but i get it!! im not a lesbian but if only i could show u. im not a lesbian but...... my female knows.

im not a lesbian but.............. i know how 2. love u. tru.

Good! Now we know you are not a lesbian but...