I don't want to take it, I need more time to decide.

But when trying to sleep today, I screamed so much and kept waking up, and now my throat is so sore from all the screaming. I was replaying shit from a few years ago that I never quite accepted, it was coming in flashes and I could scream it out, it was hard for years. I'm letting myself experience the emotions now, even though they are coming out as strong urges I can't hold back too, almost unhibited. It is helping that I'm reading over your advice. I think the more I let myself experience it, it will run it's course and now I know I'll be fine eventually. But I also wonder if my other meds are making me act this way too...

[Edited 7/21/12 19:22pm]