I don't drink or smoke though I've experimented in the past years ago, and won't start anytime soon cause I know I would have gotten addicted today with the high amount of stress I put myself through mentally. But I still have a price to pay and don't know how to slow down my thoughts sometimes and de-stress, especially when I've been very, very hard on myself and can't shut it off, or I'm too numb to cry it out.

I sometimes drink tea at times I shouldn't to calm down or get hyper and mindless, or I sleep it off or take comfort in food I enjoy.

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alphastreet said:

I don't drink or smoke though I've experimented in the past years ago, and won't start anytime soon cause I know I would have gotten addicted today with the high amount of stress I put myself through mentally. But I still have a price to pay and don't know how to slow down my thoughts sometimes and de-stress, especially when I've been very, very hard on myself and can't shut it off.

Try meditation works wonders.

MrA said:

alphastreet said:

I don't drink or smoke though I've experimented in the past years ago, and won't start anytime soon cause I know I would have gotten addicted today with the high amount of stress I put myself through mentally. But I still have a price to pay and don't know how to slow down my thoughts sometimes and de-stress, especially when I've been very, very hard on myself and can't shut it off.

Try meditation works wonders.

Everyone says that, but my mind never shuts off, I can't sit still though I guess it takes practice.

alphastreet said:

MrA said:

Try meditation works wonders.

Everyone says that, but my mind never shuts off, I can't sit still though I guess it takes practice.

You have to let your mind thing of what it wants dont try and force eventually it will slow down.

MrA said:

alphastreet said:

Everyone says that, but my mind never shuts off, I can't sit still though I guess it takes practice.

You have to let your mind thing of what it wants dont try and force eventually it will slow down.

but I don't always agree with what I think and end up thinking I'm a sick fu.ck most of the time and end up banging my fists on a pillow feeling two years old again

It's a good thing the labels on my meds say not to drink or I might have started to casually when out now, just to relax. But I just stick to my caffienne diet.

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Less often than say a year ago...but definitely YES.

I've been told to look into meditation as well...just haven't made it a priority (yet).

Mindfulness Meditation is great, but I'm too lazy and broke for it

I've been numbing myself on and off from the age of 7 with starvation. It became second nature to me and sometimes I feel like I unintentionally do it, even to this day. Nowadays, I no longer wish to numb my feelings. And I would love to feel emotions as they come rather than after the fact. I'm always looking for a positive distraction from my overwhelming feelings/thoughts. Here's my list of things that have helped me.

~walking, getting out into nature

~doing makeup

~crafts, being creative

~cooking and actually eating

~scrapbooking, making cards

~organizing, making things simpler

I hope this helps. And if there is a way you can eliminate what is causing the stress, I hope you consider it because your health, mental or otherwise, is the most important thing.

lookin for somethin to 'numb' feelins if not found within

turns into an everlastin search to find it externally, which

carrys with it the copacity to cause severe damage in the

long run.

it took decades for me to realize the simple truth of it

but once i did i found that it would have been much

simpler to gain peace in the early days...

Nah, not even in my moments of pain. My spirituality has kept me going at this point.

Every fucking day of my life I want to numb my feelings.

I mean, in my daily life, people just don't see what goes on with me emotionally. There's just many times I feel anger, hurt, pain, and frustration...and they're sadly becoming more and more frequent with me.

How do I keep my calm?

In the words of Dr. David Banner...

"I'm always angry..."

ThruTheEyesOfWonder said:

Every fucking day of my life I want to numb my feelings.

I mean, in my daily life, people just don't see what goes on with me emotionally. There's just many times I feel anger, hurt, pain, and frustration...and they're sadly becoming more and more frequent with me.

How do I keep my calm?

In the words of Dr. David Banner...

"I'm always angry..."

Couldn't have said it better myself. I feel the same way.

JuliePurplehead said:

I've been numbing myself on and off from the age of 7 with starvation. It became second nature to me and sometimes I feel like I unintentionally do it, even to this day. Nowadays, I no longer wish to numb my feelings. And I would love to feel emotions as they come rather than after the fact. I'm always looking for a positive distraction from my overwhelming feelings/thoughts. Here's my list of things that have helped me.

~walking, getting out into nature

~doing makeup

~crafts, being creative

~cooking and actually eating

~scrapbooking, making cards

~organizing, making things simpler

I hope this helps. And if there is a way you can eliminate what is causing the stress, I hope you consider it because your health, mental or otherwise, is the most important thing.

I was starving myself at 7 too, forgot all about it. I didn't like lunches that were packed for me cause I hated eating in public, and would throw them out or hide them until a teacher caught me and contacted my parents. I kept getting sick that fall and missed a lot of school and no one understood why until that happened. I guess looking back, there were lots of huge life changes going on, and no one sat down to talk to me about that and help me be in touch emotionally though I was a crybaby naturally that turned to cartoons, reading, barbies and nintendo , and though I had lots of family.

I didn't realize I was doing the same thing a few years ago when my appetite was lost, though I would eat big amounts of food when hungry, and I ended up losing so much weight and my stress level went up. So many people including medical professionals believed I was anorexic, and I'm not proud of that even if I have a small build. I want to look thin and healthy yes, but not sickly.

Anyways those are great idea you've listed. I've done some scrapbooking too several times in the past year and bought dozens and dozens of items and stickers to do it. I go all out financially if I find a hobby sometimes it's hard to eliminate what is causing stress cause though I do it to myself, I let other people get to me so much. I get hypersensitive if I'm criticized, and I get so depressed over mortality issues, that one was there for so many years, but nearly destroyed me a few years ago and I've come a long way but am still adjusting. I hate how I'm always angry and banging my fists or screaming and swearing in my sleep at people, waking everyone up. But like you, I'm starting to paint my nails again after not caring for years about them and do it with family while cranking tunes or watching something funny, which is where I try to direct all my energy sometimes. It is relaxing for sure

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Timmy84 said:

Nah, not even in my moments of pain. My spirituality has kept me going at this point.

Preach it Pastor Timmy.

ThruTheEyesOfWonder said:

Every fucking day of my life I want to numb my feelings.

I mean, in my daily life, people just don't see what goes on with me emotionally. There's just many times I feel anger, hurt, pain, and frustration...and they're sadly becoming more and more frequent with me.

How do I keep my calm?

In the words of Dr. David Banner...

"I'm always angry..."

People don't get it either. They say I should be more grateful, and I am very grateful for a lot of things, but have inner demons to deal with and suffer from a mental illness, which leads to me getting stressed over certain things obsessively though I realize it has to do with my perception and pent up feelings.

Someone suggested that since I bang my fists , I shoud get into boxing at a gym, but lightly. I feel I'll injure myself though cause of past injuries that still flare up sometimes.

missfee said:

Timmy84 said:

Nah, not even in my moments of pain. My spirituality has kept me going at this point.

Preach it Pastor Timmy.

I really feel God took care of me too, but felt I was being tested at times and had to really back up and look at everything, or that he already rejected me, sometimes I get nightmares about that, recently too in fact. For a short time, I found it hard to keep believing but that didn't last long, and I had to remind myself how much I got through in the past and that I can fight whatever is going on with me too. I was worse off than I am today but stil struggle though I'm learning how to manage it.

alphastreet said:

ThruTheEyesOfWonder said:

Every fucking day of my life I want to numb my feelings.

I mean, in my daily life, people just don't see what goes on with me emotionally. There's just many times I feel anger, hurt, pain, and frustration...and they're sadly becoming more and more frequent with me.

How do I keep my calm?

In the words of Dr. David Banner...

"I'm always angry..."

People don't get it either. They say I should be more grateful, and I am very grateful for a lot of things, but have inner demons to deal with and suffer from a mental illness, which leads to me getting stressed over certain things obsessively though I realize it has to do with my perception and pent up feelings.

Someone suggested that since I bang my fists , I shoud get into boxing at a gym, but lightly. I feel I'll injure myself though cause of past injuries that still flare up sometimes.

Oh it's not that I'm not grateful for what I have. Every day I am.

And as someone who's battled depression and a lot of issues myself, I understand where you're coming from. Just this is how I manage to keep my calm. That and asking God for guidaince. I really have no one else to turn to...

ThruTheEyesOfWonder said:

alphastreet said:

People don't get it either. They say I should be more grateful, and I am very grateful for a lot of things, but have inner demons to deal with and suffer from a mental illness, which leads to me getting stressed over certain things obsessively though I realize it has to do with my perception and pent up feelings.

Someone suggested that since I bang my fists , I shoud get into boxing at a gym, but lightly. I feel I'll injure myself though cause of past injuries that still flare up sometimes.

Oh it's not that I'm not grateful for what I have. Every day I am.

And as someone who's battled depression and a lot of issues myself, I understand where you're coming from. Just this is how I manage to keep my calm. That and asking God for guidaince. I really have no one else to turn to...

I used to pray obsessively, but once I realized I was operating from a place of fear and guilt, it became hard to pray and I felt I was materialistic and couldn't stop it. I'm still a believer and do it, but it's hard and I try to focus on being spiritual and good now, but it's hard when, like I said, I end up labeling myself all the time based solely on my thoughts brought on by anger or reprimanding myself in the real world. I was misdiagnosed with depression years ago and the meds messed me up, I know what it is now and take stuff for that though I don't know if it's good enough and am terrified of becoming a mess years from now and getting addicted or killed from this stuff if I'm ever asked to take something else. It scares the shit out of me.

Sometimes I get hyper if praying or believing, but it goes out the window if I feel low and I feel guilty for that cause it shouldn't be conditional even though I act like it, I don't mean it I've stopped asking for things after whatever I wanted really badly never happened and just stay pro-active and say if it's meant to be, it will come, but have to be pro-active now cause it won't fall into my lap.

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ThruTheEyesOfWonder said:

Every fucking day of my life I want to numb my feelings.

I mean, in my daily life, people just don't see what goes on with me emotionally. There's just many times I feel anger, hurt, pain, and frustration...and they're sadly becoming more and more frequent with me.

How do I keep my calm?

In the words of Dr. David Banner...

"I'm always angry..."

i luh that shit!!!

the thing is, that i don't carry anger about any one

thing, longer than the thing exist...

anger is a natural state of bein, and a qwite healthy one

if it isn't just focused on ONE PARTICULAR THING

i got anger on levels people don't even know exist

and i'm at peace with that.

i have no need to numb this feelin

as for those others you mentioned,

i deal with them as they come and

i haven't had to deal with them much,

and this is a greater freedom than i have

yet experienced in the past.

yippy kai yay mothafuckahs

KingBAD said:

ThruTheEyesOfWonder said:

Every fucking day of my life I want to numb my feelings.

I mean, in my daily life, people just don't see what goes on with me emotionally. There's just many times I feel anger, hurt, pain, and frustration...and they're sadly becoming more and more frequent with me.

How do I keep my calm?

In the words of Dr. David Banner...

"I'm always angry..."

i luh that shit!!!

the thing is, that i don't carry anger about any one

thing, longer than the thing exist...

anger is a natural state of bein, and a qwite healthy one

if it isn't just focused on ONE PARTICULAR THING

i got anger on levels people don't even know exist

and i'm at peace with that.

i have no need to numb this feelin

as for those others you mentioned,

i deal with them as they come and

i haven't had to deal with them much,

and this is a greater freedom than i have

yet experienced in the past.

yippy kai yay mothafuckahs

Do you ever worry about anger being self-destructive like in my case that I end up hurting myself? :lo:

I think what also happens is that sometimes I know I need to feel angry, but I turn numb and once the anger or sadness comes through, it's too unbearable and painful, especially if it's a very upsetting situation.

alphastreet said:

KingBAD said:

i luh that shit!!!

the thing is, that i don't carry anger about any one

thing, longer than the thing exist...

anger is a natural state of bein, and a qwite healthy one

if it isn't just focused on ONE PARTICULAR THING

i got anger on levels people don't even know exist

and i'm at peace with that.

i have no need to numb this feelin

as for those others you mentioned,

i deal with them as they come and

i haven't had to deal with them much,

and this is a greater freedom than i have

yet experienced in the past.

yippy kai yay mothafuckahs

Do you ever worry about anger being self-destructive like in my case that I end up hurting myself? :lo:

I think what also happens is that sometimes I know I need to feel angry, but I turn numb and once the anger or sadness comes through, it's too unbearable and painful, especially if it's a very upsetting situation.

oh my dear,

you don't HOLD IT IN!!!

no no no,

i am concidered to be qwite rude

in that i don't hold shit in, nor do i hold it

back. when i feel i am bein violated in any

(repeat) ANY manner i let it be known.

i've spent a lot of these last couple of years

alone but NOT lonely, and i thought that to be

IMPOSSIBLE, but it's not.

the anger doesn't control me.

Sleep is good for me.

No, I haven't.

There's nothing that can happen that you can't cope with anyway and no feeling that you can have, that won't pass at some point. The problem is that we tend to think we can't handle it and need some escape route.

I don't know how to explain it without sounding cheesy. In fact, im a bit embrassed as to say it. Well, i work in a very high stress place(as do most of you, i am sure). The patrons, i happen to be in contact with are 50% of time, real rude, intoxicated, problematic, etc. Some of them are nice, but the bad ones stay in my memory the longest.

music helps me calm down. lately, i've been exploring this new genre of music.

Ambient and Dark Ambient. even though to some dark ambient sound real creepy, to me its very smoothing just like brian eno, etc. in fact anything electronic,noise, robotic, etc is quite smoothing to me. I can't really explain it. the best way i can explain it, perhaps, because its synthesize and cold--that makes me feel detached from the situation, which is very calming to me.

Fantasy and Sleep also help me.

Art---i make collages or doodle, until im in a tranquil state.

No.

sometimes i sit in the dark and i cry i feel so alone

then i walk around the house like a zombie

then i eat like i piggy

nothing realy helps except for company....

i play with the dog, she is so much fun

i call family and friends who are always great and caring

and then i decide to pamper myself and that always feels good!!!!

No...

alphastreet said:

^ I myself work in a high stress environment with people facing issues along the same lines, but need to take my own advice sometimes, so I can relate Kingbad: I've been told I'm rude and inconsiderate too, but it's cause I'm outspoken at home and let go of feelings though I also know not everyone is receptive to it. I've pissed guys off cause of being blunt and stubborn with them, and yes, selfish which I needed to be with those ones. Anyways I'm reserved in public and come off as awkward and naive at work and in public, when really I just want to break out into singing Bad lolll as in bad-ass, strong willed, interesting, but feel I'll be rejected and I don't take criticism well so I get brain freezes and can't make comebacks. But with some friends I cut off last year, call this tasteless but with one I said a rude goodbye through text and sent a detailed email after a response later, calling her out for everything though also trying to sound objective. With others, I just ignored texts or was blunt if they incovenienced me or stepped on my boundaries.

if it hurts to NOT be yo'self

you may need another occupation....

DON'T TAKE MY ADVICE, I DON'T WORK!!!

with that bein said, i'm only sayin this because

of the earlier post.

i don't have anything that i take from home to the public

or any thing that i bring from the public to my home.

i live my life to entertain myself, and that keeps me pretty mellow.

a lot of times it flows out to those around me and that makes me

happier...

BE HAPPY!!!