i dont normally do this..

but..

damn..

it's getting harder to keep smiling..

yesterday, i lost :

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she was almost 16 years old!!

and i knew it was going to happen..

but it was the last straw..i want this year to go away, without a trace..

september 25th, lost the doggie...

living with realtives, was struggling to hold onto even the part time job, but

as of november 7th, not working..i have worked only 3 days since then... does that go on the good list??!!

i cant tell anymore

that was the 2nd job that ended this year and neither of them were full time..

i did locate my younger son, only i havent heard a thing from him since halloween..

i dont know..

i'm just ready for it to be gone..

the one thing i can hope for is for the next year to be better..

but i dont want to smile right now..

i know im not that well known here, but i see rant threads, and sad threads, and huggin threads..

and i think,yeah i'd like a hug right about now..please??

that above?? it's not everything, but it's enough..

(i promise i'll hug back )

and if you have good stories, well i'd like to hear them!!

i want my mommy....

*sigh*...me too....

Hope next year is full of blessings, Peb.

I know exactly how you feel. 2009 was the worst year of my life. All I can say is that it will get better.

1994 was the worst year of my life followed by 2004. 2010 was AMAZING for me. I have never been so free, so happy, so prosperous in my entire life. THANK YOU GOD. 2011 is looking like its going to be even better!!!

I have lost pets - it is terribly sad because it is like losing part of your family.

Things will eventually turn around in the end and I hope that 2011 turns out better for you.

I have had a bad year (kidney stones - depression) and have had to give up my job because of illness so money is quite tight as well and Xmas is a pain right now but needs must.....

I shall be thinking of you this Xmas and pray for a better New Year

I am also hoping 2011 is a better year.

please hang in there.

Peb

I cant wait for it to be over either... Puts it that much closer for my son to get home and my daughter to have her baby!

I'm ready to forget this year. It was hell. Next year has to be better!

2010 was a decent year until about September/October.

First my good friend comes clean about an adulterous relationship. A divorce is forthcoming.

Then my brother and his wife have a blow-out and it seems that their marriage is teetering on the brink of divorce.

Now life has thrown me a curveball, that I care not explain right now.

Yeah...I'm about ready to end this f#cking year.

The good....

I forgave my sister, I forgave my father... my relationships are better with the both of them.

My son is doing better in school this year, and my older son broke up with his lying ass girlfriend. My mother and I get along so much better, things are looking up.

Life for me is steady and quiet... the way I like it with zero stress. I guard that part of my life fiercely.

The bad...

I have fewer clients, people are holding on to their money just to buy electronics.

Found out that my family is only more screwed up than I realized because of incest and rape.

So I gotta cut off more family members in my life because of it. I am better off not having that toxin in my life or around my children.

I worry for my grand neice, her mother is stripping and she looks wasted all the time, I think my neice is on hard drugs.

This year has been easy.... the real shit will hit the fan in 2011....

I may seek custody of my grandneice and confront my cousin who is depressed and over 450lbs now due to what has happened to her, that or watch her die.

Be blessed in 2011 everyone, count your blessings.

What I wouldn't give for a drama free life right now!

Think I'll get pissed tonight and see how that interfers with my anti-depressants!!

Sorry for your loss and I hope next year is better for you. This year hasn't been as awful as the couple previous for me, so I'm actually hoping it's the beginning of an upward trend.

Just hope for things to get better. We're all gonna have storms in our lives. Stay strong.

Sorry you've had such a horrible 2010.

My year was good, but I'm always ready for the holidays to be over.

thank you all for the

and may i give some back..

and the stories of hope

im glad to hear it.

it's been a long year..lots of things going wrong..

it's not gonna get fixed overnight..

but i wish i had a glimmer of something..

I wish you all the best for 2011, Peb.

many hugs to you, and i'm hoping that next year will be a much better time for your life.

this has been a very mixed up year for me, i've had a lot of things happen that i can feel blessed about. but also a lot of things that have been very negative have happened in my life too. so this has not been the best year for me or my family at all. at times it was very difficult and i didn't know what to do to solve some of the issues (and still don't?). i'm hopeful though that 2011 will be a better year for my family. i'm not going to lose my faith, and i always want to make sure i focus on the positive and not get dragged down with the bad stuff.

take care....

Peb, babe there is always gonna be some new twist on life or drama. Guard your heart and spirit because depression is a royal bitch to wrestle away from if it takes hold of you. So please do not acquire the bad habit of sadness, like my niece and cousin have done.

Do something everyday that will bring a smile to your face and keep the joy close to your heart. It will keep you going strong. You deserve that dammit!

Here is to your loved ones gone and here is to looking forward to experiencing new love and joy in the year to come.