Be careful with the Extacy, I had a terrible reaction after only one time. But my friends had similar reactions after doing a lot of it regularly--panic attacks, depression, etc. The feeling you get when you're on it is balanced by the crash afterward, especially the more you do it and the older you get.

I also had a pretty bad problem smoking pot. I smoked first thing in the morning & last thing at night & all moments in between. It's like alcohol. It depends on the person. I have no problem with drinking, but I know plenty of people who do.

The hard part about stopping all of it is that being sober seems boring (even scary, and you don't even know why that is!), but it is the most lasting high once you get used to it. The peaks that come are real, not artificially induced. They come because stuff in your life is working out. And there is no crash afterward.

my uncle is addicted to drugs, and a very heavy drinker. over the last several years my entire family has watched him ruin everything he worked hard to build in life, and nearly die in a drinking and driving accident where he hit a tree head on in his truck. he's been arrested, been in jail more times than i can remember! and we've all tried everything we know to help him, but nothing works! i am truly worried, because i am just dreading the day when i get the call that he's dead! he's that far gone. before his addiction issues he had a good life, served in the military, was a well known chef at a posh resturant in bev. hills, ca., now he's living with my grandma in a 1 bedroom apt. sleeping on her sofa, no job, no girlfriend, on parole, etc....don't let this happen to your life! it's not worth it!! you can still turn it all around and sober up and lead a productive life.

Also, you're still young so it hasn't affected your looks yet. But if you keep going like you are it will eventually catch up to you and 10-15 years from now you'll look in the mirror and think "Damn, what happened to me?"

Nysey...
We only know each other from here but I feel like we're friends and I felt so sad readin your post.
I know you're lookin for encouragement and I will orgnote u, but for now I feel too sad knowin the details of your situations

I'm a pothead so.....
No honestly, don't take advice from people who've never been on drugs. They don't know what they're talking about-simple as that. I started smoking weed with my mom LONG ago and did some other things along the way; the thing she told me that stuck so hard that I never lost control was "Do the drug. Don't let the drug do you." SO do with that what you will and i wish you the best!

no but i seen what it does to family members big time and the effect it has. even if you don't take that stuff and are around it. the violence the outburst of a controling alcholic is not a joke. i just try to handle it the best i can. and alot of times i can't which is why im seeking outside help. it's sad my father's wife alcholic and now he is. he wont' admit it but its kinda of a generational thing. its not something to be proud of to watch someone destroy themselves and it effects the people around them. i can say that smoking ciggerattes is not something i admit but ya sometimes i have to have it. and thats just the way it is. i don't flip out or anything but thats just me. if i do stuff like that its usually once and while. but ya there are times i don't like to be around other's when i drink/ it depends, only smoking but thats me.

my ex did drugs and probley sold it for all i know. also it was kinda like normal in my relationships. they are always in and of jail/or associated with it. but i wouldn't say everyone does it but i do not know everybody....so....
i guess the same i have smoke ciggs when around people or something.
it's not such a cool topic i like talking about...
ya but i can tell you drug users/alcholic's they not the happiest people. my ex never smiled/or laughed just sometimes. but im thinking it was not the real him more of a watered down part of himself if that makes sense. and i think thats what messed up our relationship now that i think about it. but who am i to judge if all users are not happy? maybe they front and just say they are or maybe they really are?
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I'm a pothead so.....
No honestly, don't take advice from people who've never been on drugs. They don't know what they're talking about-simple as that. I started smoking weed with my mom LONG ago and did some other things along the way; the thing she told me that stuck so hard that I never lost control was "Do the drug. Don't let the drug do you." SO do with that what you will and i wish you the best!

Thanks 2 everyone who had kind and sopporting words.
I have been doing alot better latley...

I do not drink in the morning any more

when I do drink it is very moderate (only wine)

I have not touched the drug exstacy.

instead of drinking I have been reading, writing, Playing music

Like I said I don't believe in "getting help"...the only person who
can change me is...me. and my will is strong enough 2 do so.
alot of the posts were very helpful and eye opening... I thank u again.
much love and grace
GOD bless

& B-

for some reason i keep relating my experience with prince in the movie purple rain in the domestic voilence scean of the movie, i've had plenty of those acts.
lol but not much any more. sorrta.


ya well at least your doing your best thats good.
of course i can't relate cuz im not that heavy with it but ya i have been tempted many times. Cuz running to get that escape i can somewhat relate


ya these things are good to talk about in this day in age i hope
((((mespree)))


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booty said:

domestic violence is no joke and I take that seriousy...as a youth till this day
I witness domestic violence...My mum and pops was allways fighting verbaly and physicaly....much like the scenes in purple rain...

it was nothing to see the people I love the most hurt each other...and Because of it I tend to keep emotions bottled up...wich leeds me to the actual bottle