SirPsycho said:

No that's one of the things I cannot relate to from experience.

Serious said:

...what does your birth name mean if you dont mind me asking? (you dont have to tell me your birth name obviously)

SirPsycho said:

It's Martina and it comes from Mars, the roman God of war. It means something like brave and martial .
What about you?

Serious said:

it's Matthew which is hebrew for "Gift of Yaweh"

which if you ask me, is a trip

Serious said:

it's Matthew which is hebrew for "Gift of Yaweh"

which if you ask me, is a trip

SirPsycho said:

So why's that a burden?

SCNDLS said:

cuz i dont believe in coincidence, and people have been trying to make me into my father since day 1 (he doesnt tho, mind you)

SirPsycho said:

But you use it or have you changed it like some pop stars do ? And do English speaking people usually know what it means? And what don't you like about the meaning? Is it too religious for you?

SirPsycho said:

So are you a Jr.?

SCNDLS said:

no...his name means "horse-servant"

SirPsycho said:

Ya'll PK's got mo' issues.

mods, make this shit a sticky.

I was actually entertained by this entire post. Plus he's hot.

Serious said:

pretty much i feel like its something i couldnt live up to, then i feel guilty about it

SirPsycho said:

IMO it's a beautiful meaning. Being a gift doesn't mean you have to live up to something, but that you are welcome and appreciated. If I ever had a daughter I would have called her Amanda as it means "the one you have to love". Just because she would be who she is, unconditional, no matter what she would achieve or not. You should look at your name the same.
[Edited 8/6/08 14:29pm]

Serious said:

noted. thanks alot! ...and Amanda is a very pretty name

You really fucking love yourself, don't you?

Shocking?

I thought you were going to say you had a second head or something. Or maybe that you were that sea creature that everyone thinks is a turtle.

i'm actually a "sweet" "thoughtful" preacher's kid (as i've been told) who digs pyschology and art more than anything else and would rather discuss God and spiritual matters than sex.{btw, i know how odd it is to say this having rarely posted in P&R but i lurk there more than any of you would know} i'm far from the man-whore or player i pretend to be, because i have too much of a conscience in the end (even tho i enjoy "the role" and have taken note of how women/girl respond to it*). i flirt terribly but have never cheated and i won't fuck a girl if i can tell sex isn't really what she's looking for. i'm terribly insecure and feel guilty for not having to struggle in life as much as my brothers and sisters. i have small feet and a big head. i'm told i'm "cute" and i roll with it [see:*] tho as far as i'm concerned, i'm ok and it wouldnt be too hard to "steal a girl away from me". i'll completely lose all interest in a woman if we can't discuss abstract things, regardless of how "pretty" she is and worry constantly about not being enough for my lover. i take "forgiving your enemies" very serious, and have swallowed enough pain to give me seizures apparently (had em as a baby..they came back by 19). i daydream constantly. i have mad trust issues and the meaning of my birth name haunts me.



i also dancin in my underwear when i brush my teeth.


















and i know you dont care, but i had this thread idea for a long time and it seemed like the perfect time.

see.. that's where you're wrong....

i do care.


you're probably one of the most eclectic friends i've ever had. i value that.

sammij said:

damn u..




[stop making me feel thangs...]


it's bad enough that your new beau has made you 7x more desirable

SirPsycho said:

soundin like prince in 'temptation' up there





aww shucks... why do guys always want me more when they can't have me?








on the real tho, reading about your seizures... i was all
got me scared for a minute.

sammij said:

it isn't (or hasn't been) a big issue....apparently i had em all the time as an infant [i was all premature and shit]...if would stop breathing and/or my heart would stop beating...and then out of the blue at 19 i started waking up on the floor...it happened 3 times and the doctor's cant really do shit about it, cuz you'd have to be wired up during a seizure for them to tell you why it's happened...but they usually link it to stress and shit like that...since 20 tho i haven't had another one, and i refuse to let the possibility of it loom over my head anyway...once i was fucked up and i swore i felt one coming on {to describe it in visual turns you get dizzy and then it's like when someone plays with the tint on a tv...shit gets fuzzy and distorted...i think it's your brain shorts out or somethin } and i drew my way out of it...it was the most surreal drawing i've ever done...i'll have to scan it one day..

As if we didn't know


Insecurity is like a bitch.

You have to tame her with the right tools.