The Mayor of Gary wants Mj buried there.

The Mayor of Gary wants Mj buried there.

.....now excuse why I go cry again...

Jay

tourist attraction??? lord.

Now make sure you stick around so you can return the favor when this place turns into a vortex of tragedy when Prince kicks the bucket

He Knew.

Years ago Michael and I were having a deep conversation about life in general.

I can't recall the exact subject matter but he may have been questioning me about the circumstances of my Fathers Death.

At some point he paused, he stared at me very intensely and he stated with an almost calm certainty, "I am afraid that I am going to end up like him, the way he did."

I promptly tried to deter him from the idea, at which point he just shrugged his shoulders and nodded almost matter of fact as if to let me know, he knew what he knew and that was kind of that.

14 years later I am sitting here watching on the news an ambulance leaves the driveway of his home, the big gates, the crowds outside the gates, the coverage, the crowds outside the hospital, the Cause of death and what may have led up to it and the memory of this conversation hit me, as did the unstoppable tears.

A predicted ending by him, by loved ones and by me, but what I didn't predict was how much it was going to hurt when it finally happened.

The person I failed to help is being transferred right now to the LA County Coroners office for his Autopsy.

All of my indifference and detachment that I worked so hard to achieve over the years has just gone into the bowels of hell and right now I am gutted.

I am going to say now what I have never said before because I want the truth out there for once.

Our relationship was not "a sham" as is being reported in the press. It was an unusual relationship yes, where two unusual people who did not live or know a "Normal life" found a connection, perhaps with some suspect timing on his part. Nonetheless, I do believe he loved me as much as he could love anyone and I loved him very much.

I wanted to "save him" I wanted to save him from the inevitable which is what has just happened.

His family and his loved ones also wanted to save him from this as well but didn't know how and this was 14 years ago. We all worried that this would be the outcome then.

At that time, In trying to save him, I almost lost myself.

He was an incredibly dynamic force and power that was not to be underestimated.

When he used it for something good, It was the best and when he used it for something bad, It was really, REALLY bad.

Mediocrity was not a concept that would even for a second enter Michael Jackson's being or actions.

I became very ill and emotionally/ spiritually exhausted in my quest to save him from certain self-destructive behavior and from the awful vampires and leeches he would always manage to magnetize around him.

I was in over my head while trying.

I had my children to care for, I had to make a decision.

The hardest decision I have ever had to make, which was to walk away and let his fate have him, even though I desperately loved him and tried to stop or reverse it somehow.

After the Divorce, I spent a few years obsessing about him and what I could have done different, in regret.

Then I spent some angry years at the whole situation.

At some point, I truly became Indifferent, until now.

As I sit here overwhelmed with sadness, reflection and confusion at what was my biggest failure to date, watching on the news almost play by play The exact Scenario I saw happen on August 16th, 1977 happening again right now with Michael (A sight I never wanted to see again) just as he predicted, I am truly, truly gutted.

Any ill experience or words I have felt towards him in the past has just died inside of me along with him.

He was an amazing person and I am lucky to have gotten as close to him as I did and to have had the many experiences and years that we had together.

I desperately hope that he can be relieved from his pain, pressure and turmoil now.

He deserves to be free from all of that and I hope he is in a better place or will be.

I also hope that anyone else who feels they have failed to help him can be set free because he hopefully finally is.

The World is in shock but somehow he knew exactly how his fate would be played out some day more than anyone else knew, and he was right.





I really needed to say this right now, thanks for listening.


~LMP

bite yo tongue. Prince will live to be an old old old old man. 102. and maybe a tad bitter.
[Edited 6/26/09 12:49pm]

If you all dislike it so much, then why did you repost the news/photos here? Why not just ignore it?

I've not posted any paparazzi photos on MJ's death so....

I'm gonna say this and then I'll be done

****

Being almost 22 years old, I didn't get to experience Michael during his "peak" years but I did get to experience everything from 1990 onwards

In my opinion, there was NO brighter star than Michael Joesph Jackson to me.I love James Brown, I love Prince, and I love Stevie, but Michael, from the day I heard Human Nature at the age of 3, has been part of my life and my heart. I remember watching the videos when they premiered, listening to the albums non stop, rejoicing when the 2005 verdict came. There will never be another Michael Jackson

I can't really listen to the music and watch the videos that have been such an important part of my life, the singer...the dancer....the writer...the person I've become. I've made friends for the simple fact we were fans. That was a beautiful thing about Michael. He WANTED people to come together and enjoy themselves through his work, he wanted to bring people of different races, creeds, and backgrounds together. That kind of quality is surely missing in this day of "artists"

Today, I can't listen to his work without feeling such a huge feeling of sorrow and emptiness, yet relief

Relief because he doesn't have to deal with the crap that the world threw at him anymore and the vultures who were constantly trying to get him. But sorrow and emptiness because the world does feel a bit more empty, a bit less happy, a bit less together....a bit less musical without Michael Jackson

Today is really the first day of my life without Michael Jackson and although the tears have stopped (temporarily....), the feeling of loss yet respect and rememberance lingers


I lost my favorite artist. I lost one of my biggest inspirations in my life, I lost my hero



I lost my dear friend


Michael Jackson 1958-2009


.....now excuse why I go cry again...



Jay

.....now excuse why I go cry again...

Jay

CNN is reporting Michael had a shot of morphine. What the hell was that for? Was he in any pain or just abusing drugs in general? I agree with Liza Minelli once this autopsy reveals his death, all hell might break loose.

That was really beautiful Jay.

My comment was in reference to the Janet photos and comments regarding them so "so..." yourself.

PS. Reading is fundamental.

maybe you should clarify that the first time around and save yourself a post

I wouldn't be surprise that when the tox report comes out that he had more drugs in him than a pharmacy. CNN has already been hinting on this.

Music has lost one of it's most important sons. A sad day for music.


It seems appropriate to post this short video of Prince at a press conference and talking about Michael back in 1999....

I wouldn't be surprise that when the tox report comes out that he had more drugs in him than a pharmacy. CNN has already been hinting on this.