KoolEaze said:

I miss his presence on this planet a lot.

I had always thought Prince would live to a very old age, so I still find it sad and weird that he is gone.

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I agree with others here that the world feels different since Prince's passing, naturally for us Prince fans.

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Still smdh. I listened to Art Official Age and PlectrumElectrum again yesterday and just shook my head. This man still had so much more music to share with us. This F'n sucks.

Hi, I'm a newbie to the Org, but not to the joy that is Prince.

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I'm 42, so he's always been in my life as it were, pretty much as long as I can remember. Although I don't have every album and I only saw him perform live once, at the fabulous Lovesexy '88 at Wembley, I loved his music, his immense talent, his individuality, his DGAF attitude and of course, him, the beautiful one.

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But I took it for granted, took him for granted, that he'd always be around, making music, wowing the world with his neverending stream of songs. This last 10 years, I've been busy raising kids so I haven't taken advantage of seeing him perform live here in London. I thought there's time, he'll be back - cos he was so frequently here.

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Like so many people, Prince provided the sound track to so many events in my life, from going to junior high school in the States, to parties and celebrations, there he was. So to hear that newsflash on the radio at 6.45pm on 21st April, was so shocking, so sudden, it took a while to percolate the tragic reality. I didn't realise how much it would hurt. His passing is so premature, it feels like it may have been preventable. It's just such a total crying shame.
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So looking for likeminded people, I discovered the Org and it's been comforting to come on here and read through all the memories, interviews and other gems. I feel I have probably worn out the subject with my friends, apart from one, who is a massive fan, having seen him live 13 times and met him in person. So to find this place and listening to all the amazing songs he created has helped.


But the thought that he's not here anymore, that we now have to live the rest of our lives without him in this world, is truly crushing.


Love to you all.
Never say the words "they're gone", They'll come back

Mumio said:

nursev said:

Its very painful still and I feel like I keep cycling back and forth out of it and then back again. I see a picture of him or hear and song and get sad again

Yes. This.

Just like me. I can't listen to some songs , it makes me cry.

I don't cry like I used to, but P is constantly in my thoughts. Went shopping with one of my non-Prince friends, and it took everything in me not to talk about him. That's a sad feeling to have. Now I'm trying to wrap my head around doing what I need to do for me. I've been too consumed with his death.

It's more like a numb pain for me now. I miss him and I find it quite hard to read peoples stories about him and stuff because it makes it worse. I try to channel my feelings about his death into positives even if they are silly (like this past weekend I was hoping his spirit would be with me because I was wearing high heels for a costume and would be walking around all day in them when I normally wear boots on a day to day basis ).

So yeah, it's hard but you just gotta plod on.

I am more alarmed that maybe deep down I don't have much of a heart. I feel indifferent for the most part just like I did when my mother passed away. Yeah I hear music or something that reminds me of the fact they use to be here on earth and get a little wistful and wish they were here but just like I wish I could win the lottery, I know it aint gonna happen. I know this is part of life and just accept it and go on without much interruption to my daily life. I find it very hard to emotionally relate to those who are sad when these things happen because frankly I don't like to be sad and I have always been one to fight tooth and nail my whole life to stay out of the sad holes of life. I will crack jokes at a funeral about dead, watch a comedy/feel good movie, or put on some seriously upbeat jamming music and flood my ears and brainwaves til that feeling disappears or focus on an activity to occupy myself. I will do anything to escape the horrible feeling that being sad does to a person.

Like most of you guys I have alternated moments. Sometimes dancing like crazy to his songs, when it suddenly hits me: he´s no longer here... Most of the times I avoid thinking about this and focus on his music.

Like many here I have been listening to him non stop , reading interviews and watching videos. I talk about him with my mother (she was intrigued to my reaction when he passed and googled some videos and music. She was amazed) and now we exchange interviews and music we find interesting.

Joining the org was also helpful; reading about all diferent perspectives and opinions about the man and his music in many levels. Really nice

I'm not in shock any longer, but still incredibly sad at times. I have been able to find some joy in watching his concert video from when he was young, but his most recent music and video from age 50 or so onward, is still very painful for me. I suppose because I'm close to his age (55) that I see his maturing and mine simultaneously and it frightens me. Honestly until this happened, I never felt that I was "old" or "aging". I have an 11 year old son, so that helps, but yeah it was a shock of reality I didn't see coming and it knocked me for a serious melancholy loop. Also sharing his genius with my son has helped. Prince has new lifelong fan now. He told me yesterday he wants to live in a home like Paisley Park when he grows up. Yeah, me too kid, me too

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Wow, really moving posts from y'all. I can relate to something in every post.

Hugs to you all today!

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Denial denial denial

contropurple said:

I guess I'm doing better than this same time a month ago, definitely much better than the days and weeks immediately following his passing. April 21. I don't cry nearly as often or as much as I did then, though I am having a hard time not tearing up as I type this.

Listening to his music doesn't make me sad anymore, it actually has helped me through my grief. I'm glad I found the Org, a place that also has helped me through my grief.

Bunsterdk said:

For the most part I look ahead now. Like Selah I am confident that we'll all meet again in the new world he sang about in The Love We Make. I'm trying to hold onto that thought, but I do still cry for him and others I have lost whenever the subject of death and resurrection comes up. And I still have days when I'm really sad all the way through to the bone. They get further between, but they happen. [Edited 8/2/16 8:08am]

I hear you and I'm with you. When it stings it stings.

Im just used to the hole in my heart now.

I'm back to normal mostly though the world seems much more dark.

Trying to create my own pockets of happy and am grateful for what was.

saviour7 said:

leslievette said:

I don't speak about him to anyone other than you all here on the org. Especially not my family, I think they started to worry for a minute there and some still do. He's all I listen to now, and I spend majority of my free time watching footage and videos that I never had access to/seen before. I feel like if I constantly keep him going (music/videos) it's as if he hasn't left us so I can't get myself to pull away. At least not anytime soon, not sure when it'll pass if ever. I think the "shock" is gone, but the hurt and the pain is not. I think about all the "What if's" on a daily basis, and wonder had I done this, or had I gone here would things be different somehow. Not with how things ended, but more so the experiences. Constant disbelief. I find myself getting emotional over the most random things. For instance, I noted in another thread that as I was watching PR the other night (for the first time since that day), I became overwhelmed with sadness while Jerome and Morris were dancing to Jungle Love. Of all things! I saw Jerome and it immediately brought me back to the BET tribute, seeing him up there with Sheila. I never know when it'll hit me next, that's the worst part. You all here have made it easier whether you're aware or not so I geniunely thank you all

Hugs xo😪

Just pissed off. Everytime I commit myself to the fact I have told him goodbye for the last time, I find myself doing it over again.

It still feels horrible...it's changed me forever. I've reconciled myself to the fact that it's just not getting better.

I don't know how I'm doing-for my birthday I went crazy on ebay and bought some things I shouldn't have. Sometimes I'm afraid I won't be able to get certain things-Madhouse, Jill Jones, Sign of the Times DVD. I don't know.

I've read most of the replies and wish I could cut and paste individual sentences together to create a proper response. Extremely sad to have lost someone who was clearly the most influential person in my life. From my walk, to my talk, to the way that I looked at life. Yea, I had very similar feeling about things and it was great to know that there was someone out there who felt the same way for much of my life. Someone once asked me a good 5 years ago what I would do if Prince died. I never answered but I guess the response would be to feel a sadness that I have never felt before. 3 and a half months, nothing has really changed. This was a chapter of my life that I was not prepared to write...

Losing Prince so suddenly and unexpectedly has left all of us heartbroken and devestated. I think connecting with others and sharing our stories here will help to lessen the pain, and also to love and honor this incredible artist, Prince, who was the "mozart" of our time. I miss him terribly and I never felt this way about any other musician. The way he left us was suden and tragic and that's what makes it so much harder to deal with and accept. I lost my dear Mother 2-1/2 years ago and the best advice I can give to someone who lost a loved one is "let time heal" -- they say that time is the best healer, but the pain of loss never really goes away. Love never dies. I feel this way about Prince. He left behind his beautiful music and his legacy--he loved each and every one of us, and we owe him that same love and respect in return. Prince was one in a million.

Reading these posts made those tears stream. This is still quite raw for so many of us. And it is starting to isolate some of us, as our friends and family grow tired of hearing Prince discussion.

A different Prince concert each morning is the most exhillerating way to start a day. I'm in Paris today, 2011. Andy Allo - The Look of Love. Maceo Parker. Good times.

My college radio show has been mostly dedicated to Prince lately. In the month of April, those of us at KDVS were in the middle of our spring fundraiser. My show, Geneva Dance Convention, happened to fall on April 21. It was difficult to get through that show without breaking down on the air. But hopefully I made the spirit of Prince proud. Week in and week out I am now curating more and more Prince music for non-commercial airplay. My 2 hour show has become a 3 hour show for the summer. It continues to be therapeutic to play Prince and associated music. And I get more requests now than I ever had before.

I hope these forums stick around for a good while, cause we need each other right now. We are going through prolonged pain, and only other fans understand.

Some songs make me jump up and dance and sing. Others almost always make me cry, sometimes rather hysterically.

songs that kill me:

S'cuse me, but is this really goodbye?

Eye Love U, But Eye Don't Trust U Anymore

Anything regarding Snow in April

Future Soul Song

Nothing Compares...

One Song

One of Your Tears

Old Friends 4 Sale

Silver Tongue

Breakdown

Let's Have a Baby

A Million Days

Still Would Stand All Time

When I was told P was dead my reply was, "No! That ain't right!"

Well I wasn’t crying much anymore until I read this thread! Maybe I just need a good cry once a week? I’m not even like you guys, and Prince’s death still hurts more than I can explain to people who know me. I won’t claim to be a diehard superfan, though I can say I’m a lifelong fan. From the first time I heard “I wanna be your lover” on the radio. My mom was driving me to high school and I turned it up just in time to hear the DJ say a *guy* was singing.” What?! Since then I’ve never lost touch, but I made a lot of mistakes. Through the broke years of college (twice!), then raising a family, never seeing him in concert. If I had it to do over again I’d skip the ramen noodles I was living on and buy concert tickets instead.

What helps now is… the most amazing thing. You all will have done this before, but I haven’t: grief opened my mind. Really opened it, and music came pouring in. I’m listening to entire albums now, learning the lyrics, considering when and why the songs were written. I bought and re-bought 16 albums so far since Prince died, and every week some song blows a little hole in my mind and in my heart. Sweet young Prince singing love songs in a falsetto so high your ears can hardly follow, horny young Prince singing Head. Where did Venus de Milo come from? I had Parade back in the day (cassette!), but I don’t remember that song hitting me as hard before. I never owned Emancipation, and I’m listening to it this week for hours at a time. Curious Child over and over again… where does this Prince come from?? It’s so different and so him at the same time; I want to laugh with the sheer joy of it.

Some songs I can’t buy (yet), but I’ll discover and enjoy while I can: Moonbeam Levels, Beautiful Strange, a zillion other tracks. Motherless Child!! Who knew the man could wail the blues like that?? I guess you all did. And now my neighbors do too, when I crank it up and try to blow the roof off my house! 

I’ve been lurking for a while and I’m so glad you’re all here. If I can get a ticket, I’ll be at the tribute in October, 100%. Even if I have to drive there from CT all by myself.

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