I don't know if he realized how much his fans loved him, how important he was to us, as well as his family and close friends. This has been devastating to so many people. A part of what made me happy in life is gone. I loved looking forward to the next Prince concerts, looking forward to him showing up at the BET Awards or Grammys, now, that is gone. When they announce the appearances on the shows, Prince's name won't be there anymore. I won't hear radio stations Prince promotions anymore, people screaming when they call in and have been the 10th caller for Prince tickets or promotions. I love to hear other people talk about how much they love P too. But I guess when you are human and have an illness, that doesn't matter. If only he didn't have so much pride, he would have gotten help sooner, or stayed in the hospital in Moline. I guess he didn't want his image tainted.

People seem comforted by the thought that he knew how much he was loved, but I can't help but think he couldn't fathom this level of sincere feeling toward him as a human being.

I stopped watching award shows years ago, so I won't miss random appearances BUT I'm gutted at the thought of never seeing him play live again, doing what he loves, eating it up & smirking, slaying the room. I just love the thought of him piddling around PP thinking up stuff to do musically. It hurts my heart that it's so final.

nonames said:

A few weeks before he passed he went to a basket ball game and the headlines were 'Prince goes to event, and apparently there is a game in the background' and similar.

I was at that game, & yes - it was a moment when he walked on the court, & they showed him on the screen. Jesse Jackson came over like a little schoolgirl to say hello

Wannabeyourlover1 said:

He knows now.... From heaven..

see, I get how that's comforting, & maybe it's my way of "dealing" or something, but I feel like once you cross over you're no longer "you". Yes, there's the spirit of a person, but I don't believe it's connected with earthly things anymore (like fan love). I'm not poo-pooing your beliefs or anyone elses, I just see it as final (even though I admit believing in the spirit world, & I don't quite understand all that)...

Then again there is that whole "unfinished business" thing w/ spirits, but that always seems like angry spirits, not peaceful ones. I just think he's gone, like GONE gone, & it makes me sad. The last things he knew were the last things he knew. He's not seeing/knowing any of the tributes & grieving... I hope I'm wrong & you're right! but my mind just doesn't buy it

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CalhounSq said:

Wannabeyourlover1 said:

CalhounSq said:

see, I get how that's comforting, & maybe it's my way of "dealing" or something, but I feel like once you cross over you're no longer "you". Yes, there's the spirit of a person, but I don't believe it's connected with earthly things anymore (like fan love). I'm not poo-pooing your beliefs or anyone elses, I just see it as final (even though I admit believing in the spirit world, & I don't quite understand all that)...

Then again there is that whole "unfinished business" thing w/ spirits, but that always seems like angry spirits, not peaceful ones. I just think he's gone, like GONE gone, & it makes me sad. The last things he knew were the last things he knew. He's not seeing/knowing any of the tributes & grieving... I hope I'm wrong & you're right! but my mind just doesn't buy it

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I respect your beliefs....

& I yours, I kinda envy it actually, wish I could see it that way

BillieBalloon said:

One thing that has helped me a lot is being here and grieving with other fans..knowing that we understand each other and that this is a place that you can be honest about how you feel without being judged. If it wasn't for the org I would feel isolated and a lot worse as I'm not near any other fans offline. .the fact that none of us will ever see him live again is crushing. I don't think he envisaged that he would be mourned quite in the way he has. I don't think his peers did..I honestly think people like madonna are surprised at the public reaction. She is even more shocked at what a drubbing she got for her tribute. I'll bet That she didn't realise how much people care about his legacy hence the criticism Anyway, wish we weren't having this conversation. I'm kind of surprised at myself never realising how deeply this would hurt when it happened I feel like I've lost a close friend.. Someone I loved very much.

I agree with every word you said especially about that hag thinking she could just roll up on a purple throne & be loved for it - I wish it was a purple toilet that could have flushed her stankin' ass!!!!

CalhounSq said:

I don't think so, if he was in the condition we're hearing, honestly, he probably wouldn't have been in shape to give it much thought.

CalhounSq said:

Wannabeyourlover1 said:

CalhounSq said: I respect your beliefs....

& I yours, I kinda envy it actually, wish I could see it that way

It makes me sick to my stomach to think there is nothing there, that we won't ever see him or anybody. My baby girl is there and I have to see her again.

No, because if he thought he was going to die, he would have wrote a will. He didn't think about dying, apparently -- because if he had, he would have had a will. I doubt he even once thought about how it would have impacted the fans if he had died so soon. If anything, he might have thought about what charities would have benefited the most from his estate. I imagine the last thing he wanted was that he wanted to leave it all to his son in prison.

floralelephants said:

I personally think he realized and prepped a lot of people (fans included!) for the possibility. I know, I know.. officially not a suicide.. but whatever he had going on healthwise, I think he knew for a few years that his treatment options were not something he was going to go through and he'd more than likely leave this life sooner than his fans were expecting.

I wish he did know but I am not certain.

I know people around me like my husband have said the thought occurred to him that should P ever die I was going to be a mess. And I still am although I keep a lot of it inside me now as I know people don't understand. Life goes on for them. For me like some of you all have said I stop and think about P randomly or something happens and I think of him. I am still crying over it and know a part of me has died with him. I am no longer the same person.

It definitely has helped coming here and talking to people, knowing there are others that feel the same, dream of him and speak to him in their thoughts. But I also know how I feel when my eyes glance over at the "concerts" section of this forum. Never again and that's when I start to well up - like now. No more live shows... I will miss that so bad.

Sorry I feel I went off topic..

funksterr said:

I personally think he realized and prepped a lot of people (fans included!) for the possibility. I know, I know.. officially not a suicide.. but whatever he had going on healthwise, I think he knew for a few years that his treatment options were not something he was going to go through and he'd more than likely leave this life sooner than his fans were expecting.

So, what makes you think it was a suicide?

I doubt it because his religious beliefs would never make him commit suicide.

username00 said:

funksterr said:

I personally think he realized and prepped a lot of people (fans included!) for the possibility. I know, I know.. officially not a suicide.. but whatever he had going on healthwise, I think he knew for a few years that his treatment options were not something he was going to go through and he'd more than likely leave this life sooner than his fans were expecting.

I too got that feeling. He was very spiritual, very connected. I think he knew, maybe a little afraid in spite of his belief. It all showed in his beautiful sad eyes.