I just realized why. I was wondering why I am still crying a month later, when I was sad, but not crying so much when some family members passed away.

First of all, music is my therapy. Music has more meaning in some people's lives more than others. Some people like or enjoy music. Some people NEED music. I NEED music. It is my therapy.

Prince's music, his aura, his guitar playing, his spirit, fed a part of my spirit that no other relative, friend, or other person could ever do. that will never be replaced. That part in me that needs spiritual nourishment was provided by Prince, and was so important to my happiness. I don't know why he and his music affected me that way, I just don't know why.

It was a different type of fulfillment, I get fulfillment from my mate, my friends, my relatives, but the music was something else, if felt a deep part of my spirit. That is why I will never, ever forget what Prince meant to me. I listened to Lovesexy this morning and when I heard, "I wish you Heaven", I cried.

sharonbell said:

I just realized why. I was wondering why I am still crying a month later, when I was sad, but not crying so much when some family members passed away.

First of all, music is my therapy. Music has more meaning in some people's lives more than others. Some people like or enjoy music. Some people NEED music. I NEED music. It is my therapy.

Prince's music, his aura, his guitar playing, his spirit, fed a part of my spirit that no other relative, friend, or other person could ever do. that will never be replaced. That part in me that needs spiritual nourishment was provided by Prince, and was so important to my happiness. I don't know why he and his music affected me that way, I just don't know why.

It was a different type of fulfillment, I get fulfillment from my mate, my friends, my relatives, but the music was something else, if felt a deep part of my spirit. That is why I will never, ever forget what Prince meant to me. I listened to Lovesexy this morning and when I heard, "I wish you Heaven", I cried.

Sharon, I trillion% understand. I've lost close loved ones in my family, and I've not reacted or felt this deeply in pain. I have to allot a certain amount of time per day by myself to cry about him being gone. i'm 50, and since age 15 I've geared my entire spirit, art, phyiscal and emotional self around who Prince was/is. He is part of me and why i chose the partners I chose in my life, why my art is the way it is, why my physical body is the way it is. I am and always have been so deeply inspirted by him in many ways. He was such a blueprint for me since age 15. Love him so much. I wish he knew how very much he was loved. I really wish he knew. FULL MOON, ONE MONTH. wish we lived close to each other so we could connect..... HUGE HUGS, KMichelle

sharonbell said:

I just realized why. I was wondering why I am still crying a month later, when I was sad, but not crying so much when some family members passed away.

First of all, music is my therapy. Music has more meaning in some people's lives more than others. Some people like or enjoy music. Some people NEED music. I NEED music. It is my therapy.

Prince's music, his aura, his guitar playing, his spirit, fed a part of my spirit that no other relative, friend, or other person could ever do. that will never be replaced. That part in me that needs spiritual nourishment was provided by Prince, and was so important to my happiness. I don't know why he and his music affected me that way, I just don't know why.

It was a different type of fulfillment, I get fulfillment from my mate, my friends, my relatives, but the music was something else, if felt a deep part of my spirit. That is why I will never, ever forget what Prince meant to me. I listened to Lovesexy this morning and when I heard, "I wish you Heaven", I cried.

Wow well put.. I can totally relate. I am a musician and Prince touched a part in me no other music ever did or ever will.

Biggest loss to music in my life.

I never had a father figure growing up. I never had a spiritual mentor growing up.

Through the power of his music, Prince transcended boundaries.

In essence, by the amount of time I spent with Prince--

searching for his music, listening to his music and playing his music for others--

he became my "father"...

That's the only way I can make sense of crying over 20 times since his passsing...

and crying only a few times for my grandmother and grandfather's passing...

That's just a testament to how powerful his music played a part in my life

love this thread by the way

[Edited 5/21/16 15:45pm]

Just think how much you hear Prince's voice, compared to that of your family and friends. Yes those are stronger bonds, but Prince sings beautifully to you..sometimes for hours a day. We hear him just as if he was standing in front of us. In fact our brains think that he is there, because humans didn't evolve to understand recorded audio and video. That is a very recent invention. So of course he meant so much to us and he will be missed, although if we are still seeing and hearing him, it's just the same as if he was still on the planet, although we know he is not.

Prince said it best.

"4 people who don’t understand why others mourn the death of artists, u need 2 understand that these people have been a shoulder 2 cry on. Our rock. They’ve been family, friends, leaders, teachers, & role models.

Many have taught us what we need 2 know, and what 2 do when times get rough. They’ve helped us move on. They’ve pushed us out of bed. They’ve helped us live when nobody else had the time 2.

Artists have inspired us in endless ways, and have been with us through stages in our lives.

We’ve made memories with them. So when they die, a part of us dies."

passione said:

sharonbell said:

I just realized why. I was wondering why I am still crying a month later, when I was sad, but not crying so much when some family members passed away.

First of all, music is my therapy. Music has more meaning in some people's lives more than others. Some people like or enjoy music. Some people NEED music. I NEED music. It is my therapy.

Prince's music, his aura, his guitar playing, his spirit, fed a part of my spirit that no other relative, friend, or other person could ever do. that will never be replaced. That part in me that needs spiritual nourishment was provided by Prince, and was so important to my happiness. I don't know why he and his music affected me that way, I just don't know why.

It was a different type of fulfillment, I get fulfillment from my mate, my friends, my relatives, but the music was something else, if felt a deep part of my spirit. That is why I will never, ever forget what Prince meant to me. I listened to Lovesexy this morning and when I heard, "I wish you Heaven", I cried.

Wow well put.. I can totally relate. I am a musician and Prince touched a part in me no other music ever did or ever will.

Biggest loss to music in my life.

Mine too, one of my biggest ones that excited me the most

ComeHereLetMeCutYourHair said:

I never had a father figure growing up. I never had a spiritual mentor growing up.

Through the power of his music, Prince transcended boundaries.

In essence, by the amount of time I spent with Prince--

searching for his music, listening to his music and playing his music for others--

he became my "father"...

That's the only way I can make sense of crying over 20 times since his passsing...

and crying only a few times for my grandmother and grandfather's passing...

That's just a testament to how powerful his music played a part in my life

love this thread by the way

[Edited 5/21/16 15:45pm]

Love it too. My dad is also not in my life cause he chose that path years ago, and even if he was physically there sometimes, he really was somewhere else, and for me all those issues erupted in addition to the abrupt way of mj passing. I'm sorry I keep bringing this up cause I know it's about Prince, I'm deeply saddened by his death too cause I've loved both my whole life and disturbed by how it happened, but I was in a bad place in life when mj's happened and though I still deal with struggles I have a better hold on them and have worked through those other issues so the impact of Prince's death is not leaking into other areas of life now though it felt that way for the first 1-2 weeks for sure and I lost sleep and time I had put aside for a deadline was compromised. I can certainly share with you though, no matter how long it takes or doesn't, be kind to yourself, there's no time stamp on the grief, and allow yourself to feel or even not feel sometimes. It was sudden and neither of us were prepared for his death or the nature of it.

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FunkiestOne said:

Just think how much you hear Prince's voice, compared to that of your family and friends. Yes those are stronger bonds, but Prince sings beautifully to you..sometimes for hours a day. We hear him just as if he was standing in front of us. In fact our brains think that he is there, because humans didn't evolve to understand recorded audio and video. That is a very recent invention. So of course he meant so much to us and he will be missed, although if we are still seeing and hearing him, it's just the same as if he was still on the planet, although we know he is not.

Great point!! It's like he's closer to us on headphones than any of our family members can speak to us.

alphastreet said:

ComeHereLetMeCutYourHair said:

I never had a father figure growing up. I never had a spiritual mentor growing up.

Through the power of his music, Prince transcended boundaries.

In essence, by the amount of time I spent with Prince--

searching for his music, listening to his music and playing his music for others--

he became my "father"...

That's the only way I can make sense of crying over 20 times since his passsing...

and crying only a few times for my grandmother and grandfather's passing...

That's just a testament to how powerful his music played a part in my life

love this thread by the way

[Edited 5/21/16 15:45pm]

Love it too. My dad is also not in my life cause he chose that path years ago, and even if he was physically there sometimes, he really was somewhere else, and for me all those issues erupted in addition to the abrupt way of mj passing. I'm sorry I keep bringing this up cause I know it's about Prince, I'm deeply saddened by his death too cause I've loved both my whole life and disturbed by how it happened, but I was in a bad place in life when mj's happened and though I still deal with struggles I have a better hold on them and have worked through those other issues so the impact of Prince's death is not leaking into other areas of life now though it felt that way for the first 1-2 weeks for sure and I lost sleep and time I had put aside for a deadline was compromised. I can certainly share with you though, no matter how long it takes or doesn't, be kind to yourself, there's no time stamp on the grief, and allow yourself to feel or even not feel sometimes. It was sudden and neither of us were prepared for his death or the nature of it.

[Edited 5/21/16 16:13pm]

Love when you said that Alpha!! You have no idea how deep that hit me!

It seems like MJ was you're number 1 and Prince you're number 2...

at least I think that's why MJ hit you harder...

ComeHereLetMeCutYourHair said:

I never had a father figure growing up. I never had a spiritual mentor growing up.

Through the power of his music, Prince transcended boundaries.

In essence, by the amount of time I spent with Prince--

searching for his music, listening to his music and playing his music for others--

he became my "father"...

That's the only way I can make sense of crying over 20 times since his passsing...

and crying only a few times for my grandmother and grandfather's passing...

That's just a testament to how powerful his music played a part in my life

love this thread by the way

[Edited 5/21/16 15:45pm]

Too close to home! TOO CLOSE. I've always called him "music dad".

[Edited 5/21/16 17:33pm]

NikkiH said:

ComeHereLetMeCutYourHair said:

I never had a father figure growing up. I never had a spiritual mentor growing up.

Through the power of his music, Prince transcended boundaries.

In essence, by the amount of time I spent with Prince--

searching for his music, listening to his music and playing his music for others--

he became my "father"...

That's the only way I can make sense of crying over 20 times since his passsing...

and crying only a few times for my grandmother and grandfather's passing...

That's just a testament to how powerful his music played a part in my life

love this thread by the way

[Edited 5/21/16 15:45pm]

Too close to home! TOO CLOSE. I've always called him "music dad".

[Edited 5/21/16 17:33pm]

Really?? Thank you!

ComeHereLetMeCutYourHair said:

alphastreet said:

Love it too. My dad is also not in my life cause he chose that path years ago, and even if he was physically there sometimes, he really was somewhere else, and for me all those issues erupted in addition to the abrupt way of mj passing. I'm sorry I keep bringing this up cause I know it's about Prince, I'm deeply saddened by his death too cause I've loved both my whole life and disturbed by how it happened, but I was in a bad place in life when mj's happened and though I still deal with struggles I have a better hold on them and have worked through those other issues so the impact of Prince's death is not leaking into other areas of life now though it felt that way for the first 1-2 weeks for sure and I lost sleep and time I had put aside for a deadline was compromised. I can certainly share with you though, no matter how long it takes or doesn't, be kind to yourself, there's no time stamp on the grief, and allow yourself to feel or even not feel sometimes. It was sudden and neither of us were prepared for his death or the nature of it.

[Edited 5/21/16 16:13pm]

Love when you said that Alpha!! You have no idea how deep that hit me!

It seems like MJ was you're number 1 and Prince you're number 2...

at least I think that's why MJ hit you harder...

Aw I'm glad to hear it touched you, I can truly share that cause I know how it feels.

I believed that for years, but I don't think that's quite it either, and especially in recent years since Prince covers more mature and relatable material as well. I can say I like almost every mj song, but with Prince his catalogue is too huge and like a huge dessert that's too rich to take in all at once and enjoying him and continuously discovering him has been lifelong and fitting at perfect times. I can honestly say I respect him greatly for being a musician calling his own shots, and for doing whatever he wants with putting out so much music and I may like it right away, and if I don't, it's too ahead of it's time and I appreciate it better. I didn't appreciate his 90's music till I was grown for example, and his 80's music stood out way more cause of discovering him through family though I was feeling him again in 00'. Plus I think his falsetto in his earlier years is so and between us, his slow jams and raw funk are more authentic and I appreciate the fact he has no filter and doesn't worry about his audience and image. Also, I think I turned mj into an emotional crutch coinciding with shit in life so that was part of why it was so hard and the nature of the death. I really hope prince's was natural and there was no manhandling, I was so triggered by that possibility for days upon hearing of prince's death, but also find a little bit of relief I saw him live than not at all, I never got to see mj at all and came so close with o2 and regretted turning down opportunities to see him for non music events cause I thought going outside a courtroom or watching him outside a hotel was stupid and I would have preferred to be in the audience of an awards show or concert.

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