Just a small ramble to the very few people in the world who I believe REALLY loved him the way I did

Sometimes I feel silly that my heart aches for someone that I never met or didn't know personally. Honestly, I can't tell you WHY I'm so sad about it. I didn't know the man, I never met him, never talked to him, never seen or heard him laugh at anything I said, never hugged him, never cried with him. But nevertheless, I miss him.

I never knew him, but at the same time (at least I felt like) I did. I knew him through his music, and (I think) that's how HE would say is the best and purest way to know him. Being 24 years old, I never got to see the rise of Purple Rain in theaters as well as hearing When Doves Cry played on the radio while he was in (what the mainstream media would call) his peak. Now, knowing the man, I truly believe that he didn't have a PEAK (in the traditional sense of the word), but that he just WAS. He was an eccentric genius, a beautifully disturbed indivual that had a light and playful side. He was the perfect storm. He was feeling.

As I type this, Last December is playing, and it just pulls at my being the way only Prince can. I remember all the times in my life that Prince's music was there, and I think of all the times that his music will follow me. The first time I dedicated Take Me With U to my first girlfriend, the first time that I made love while Call My Name played softly in the background, the way that watching the movie Purple Rain spurred me to have a love for electric guitar, laughing with my best friend while 1999 blasts in the car, crying and sitting apprehensively waiting for my cheating ex-girlfriend to come home while The Dance plays... There are too many to list.

I said it was a ramble, so I'll cut it short while I'm semi-coherent in my thoughts. I miss him, I really do. The flood of concert footage and interviews that I've never seen before are truly a gift, although they pale in comparison to the gift that is his pure music.

Sometimes It Snows In April. Indeed it does

[Edited 4/30/16 9:15am]

I'm sorry dear. His passing is a shock.

I hate to bring up MJ, but he was my other fave artist and when he died I was very depressed. That's exactly what I'm feeling with Prince. I have never and will never fully get over MJ passing and I feel the same about Prince. There will always be something "missing" for me.

Some magic died for me when Prince passed:

-I will never be as excited about seeing anyone in concert the way I was when I saw Prince.

-Award shows will truly be boring to me now because I know Prince isn't going to be making an appearance (suprise or otherwise).

-No more looking forward to him releasing new music

Music just isn't the same for me. Everyone else seems so hollow compared to Prince and his music. I didn't only love his music but I loved the person (as much as you could love someone you never met anyway).

I will always miss Prince and be sad about his untimely death.

We have to be thankful though that he left behind so much wonderful music and concert footage. Truly astounding what he accomplished. It does make me feel comforted in some way. When I watch interviews and some performances, he seems very much alive to me and I forget that he's gone.

I still can't refer to him in the past tense. I know the reality but it makes me feel better to imagine that he's retired and off on an island somewhere enjoying life and not wanting to be bothered with anyone.

Cinnamon234 said:

I'm sorry dear. His passing is a shock.

I hate to bring up MJ, but he was my other fave artist and when he died I was very depressed. That's exactly what I'm feeling with Prince. I have never and will never fully get over MJ passing and I feel the same about Prince. There will always be something "missing" for me.

Some magic died for me when Prince passed:

-I will never be as excited about seeing anyone in concert the way I was when I saw Prince.

-Award shows will truly be boring to me now because I know Prince isn't going to be making an appearance (suprise or otherwise).

-No more looking forward to him releasing new music

Music just isn't the same for me. Everyone else seems so hollow compared to Prince and his music. I didn't only love his music but I loved the person (as much as you could love someone you never met anyway).

I will always miss Prince and be sad about his untimely death.

We have to be thankful though that he left behind so much wonderful music and concert footage. Truly astounding what he accomplished. It does make me feel comforted in some way. When I watch interviews and some performances, he seems very much alive to me and I forget that he's gone.

I still can't refer to him in the past tense. I know the reality but it makes me feel better to imagine that he's retired and off on an island somewhere enjoying life and not wanting to be bothered with anyone.

I think you're my new best friend! Lol I was 16 when my mom (who was an avid 80's child) introduced me to Michael Jackson, and I definitely was depressed for months when I found out he died. Michael was definitely tragic, just seeing the light of a gentle soul rejected and scourned by a sick culture who called him "wacko" and "pedophile". Ugh

And I completely agree about not being able to refer to Prince in the past tense. I definitely still say "Prince IS the best guitarist" or "Prince IS the best performer".

And the new music bit... yes, that sucks big time. I'm going to miss that feeling of exhilaration that I would get sitting down with the newest Prince album like I did with AOA, Plectrum, HnR1&2 and listening to it back to back, being serenaded and enthralled with that raw talent...

It's going to take a while to adjust. I'm so happy this forum exists, because I the "average" Prince listener just doesn't get it

AnnaSantana said:

Right back at you

Don't feel that it's silly that you miss him and loved him so much. We can definitely relate. I just can't believe that we will never be able to go see him in concert again. I didn't think about that much, but that possibility was always there and just something abstract in the uncertain future that we could look forward to. He made us so happy, and I would like to think that we made him happy too.

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And now the finality of it all is just so depressing and just makes my head spin and makes the tears come. They are slowly drying up over the last few days but still am teary every day at some point, if only for a moment. I always knew his death would rock me, but maybe has been worse than even I expected. I miss him too.

FunkiestOne said:

Don't feel that it's silly that you miss him and loved him so much. We can definitely relate. I just can't believe that we will never be able to go see him in concert again. I didn't think about that much, but that possibility was always there and just something abstract in the uncertain future that we could look forward to. He made us so happy, and I would like to think that we made him happy too.

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And now the finality of it all is just so depressing and just makes my head spin and makes the tears come. They are slowly drying up over the last few days but still am teary every day at some point, if only for a moment. I always knew his death would rock me, but maybe has been worse than even I expected. I miss him too.

I'm with you on knowing that his death would rock me too. I'm not sure if it would've been easier to know that it was coming... It was just too sudden to even prepare, goodness.

I get choked up at random times, and unexpectedly. I really hope he knew how much we loved him

Love your family, friends, and co-workers..now..Before you "miss" them...Now.

[Edited 4/30/16 10:12am]

PhukdNtheHead said:

Just a small ramble to the very few people in the world who I believe REALLY loved him the way I did

Sometimes I feel silly that my heart aches for someone that I never met or didn't know personally. Honestly, I can't tell you WHY I'm so sad about it. I didn't know the man, I never met him, never talked to him, never seen or heard him laugh at anything I said, never hugged him, never cried with him. But nevertheless, I miss him.

I never knew him, but at the same time (at least I felt like) I did. I knew him through his music, and (I think) that's how HE would say is the best and purest way to know him. Being 24 years old, I never got to see the rise of Purple Rain in theaters as well as hearing When Doves Cry played on the radio while he was in (what the mainstream media would call) his peak. Now, knowing the man, I truly believe that he didn't have a PEAK (in the traditional sense of the word), but that he just WAS. He was an eccentric genius, a beautifully disturbed indivual that had a light and playful side. He was the perfect storm. He was feeling.

As I type this, Last December is playing, and it just pulls at my being the way only Prince can. I remember all the times in my life that Prince's music was there, and I think of all the times that his music will follow me. The first time I dedicated Take Me With U to my first girlfriend, the first time that I made love while Call My Name played softly in the background, the way that watching the movie Purple Rain spurred me to have a love for electric guitar, laughing with my best friend while 1999 blasts in the car, crying and sitting apprehensively waiting for my cheating ex-girlfriend to come home while The Dance plays... There are too many to list.

I said it was a ramble, so I'll cut it short while I'm semi-coherent in my thoughts. I miss him, I really do. The flood of concert footage and interviews that I've never seen before are truly a gift, although they pale in comparison to the gift that is his pure music.

Sometimes It Snows In April. Indeed it does

[Edited 4/30/16 9:15am]

I feel the same.

I still halfway expect to come here one day and read that this has all been an elaborate hoax, and they found him on some island or something with an even bigger complex dedicated to just...creating, because in the end that's just what he does.

Cinnamon234 said:

I'm sorry dear. His passing is a shock.

I hate to bring up MJ, but he was my other fave artist and when he died I was very depressed. That's exactly what I'm feeling with Prince. I have never and will never fully get over MJ passing and I feel the same about Prince. There will always be something "missing" for me.

Some magic died for me when Prince passed:

-I will never be as excited about seeing anyone in concert the way I was when I saw Prince.

-Award shows will truly be boring to me now because I know Prince isn't going to be making an appearance (suprise or otherwise).

-No more looking forward to him releasing new music

Music just isn't the same for me. Everyone else seems so hollow compared to Prince and his music. I didn't only love his music but I loved the person (as much as you could love someone you never met anyway).

I will always miss Prince and be sad about his untimely death.

We have to be thankful though that he left behind so much wonderful music and concert footage. Truly astounding what he accomplished. It does make me feel comforted in some way. When I watch interviews and some performances, he seems very much alive to me and I forget that he's gone.

I still can't refer to him in the past tense. I know the reality but it makes me feel better to imagine that he's retired and off on an island somewhere enjoying life and not wanting to be bothered with anyone.

me too. i already wrote a different ending where the 'real' prince was shipped out and went into rehab on friday morning and is on st maartens, while his body double, his occasional decoy person, the one who was seen out on the bike and watching the show at the dakota jazz club, is actually the person who died at paisley park.

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i know it ain't real but i like my ending better because somehow prince ends up still with us now i understand how all those 'elvis is alive' people feel

I totally understand. We're here for you. This is probably the only place you'll find where people actually get it. There has never been ONE DAY that he hasn't been apart of my life. I take solace in the fact that God is real and alive and death is merely sleep until we can be apart of a new world where hurt no longer exists. Even for those that don't believe, his presence will always be felt. Someone on here said "He's not gone, he's just somewhere else." I TRULY believe this. Some days will still be tough, but I think his purpose is made even greater if we don't let what he did be in vain. That means, continue to love others, teach others, and strive for a better world. If you remember these things, he will always be there. Stay strong. Lord knows I'm trying. You are DEFINITELY not alone. It's so important to remember that =)

I think that most true Prince fans, can sympathize with you, because they are feeling the exact same way....at least I know I am. There's not a day that goes by since his passing that I have not been thinking about him, and gets sad again knowing that he's no longer on the earth. It still hurts.

Saw "The Cross" from the movie last night. Cried again.

You know that feeling that you're feeling so many things simutanaeously that you just can't describe it with words? That how I've been feeling for the past few days. I'm angry, searching for answers, sad, devastated, nostalgic, numb....all at the same time it's so freaking frustrating.....

PhukdNtheHead said:

ditto that^ can't really talk about this with outsiders

XxAxX said: