tiara195 said:

It's been 6 days. My heart still hurts. I cant sleep at all. I cant watch his movies or sit down to listen to full album. All this new news makes me wonder how bad he was hurting and now he's free. Free.

HarleyQ said:

tiara195 said:

I'm in acceptance now. I still think about him and the fact that he isn't physically here daily and I find myself comparing any and everything to him but I'm okay with that. Yesterday, I had a long talk with myself saying everything happens when it is suppose to happen,and everything has its season. Prince was meant to be here when he was, he was meant to touch the lives that he touched. If Prince was born 20 years earlier he wouldn't have the same affect on us. It all happens when it is suppose to and it was simply his time to go. I thanked God for giving him to us and for blessing him the talents and ability to touch my life the way he has. I thank Prince for creating great masterpieces and allowing us to witness them. I am truly grateful for this experience and I know there will be none like it that will impact my life in the greatest way Prince has and still is. I am appreciative and he will continue to live through all of us. I love you forever Prince!

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Beautiful post.

HarleyQ said:

It's been 6 days. My heart still hurts. I cant sleep at all. I cant watch his movies or sit down to listen to full album. All this new news makes me wonder how bad he was hurting and now he's free. Free.

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Same for me.

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I'm bouncing between denial and depression, with some anger thrown in. It's very hard for me right now to separate all the emotions I'm feeling every day. It's like a rollercoaster. A nightmare rollercoaster.

Right now I'm in anger. So frustrated with the media and the salacious stories being reported. I think I'll be in this stage for awhile as long as they continue to scrutinize him so much. Just let the man rest in peace.

I was really sad and hurt last week and over the weekend but dealing with it a little better. Still feeling pain in my heart though about the whole thing and still a bit in denial. I still can not believe he is gone.

^I'm still in Denial too. I can't feel any emotions. It's gonna be a long and bumpy ride for me having to deal with this on top of the issues I'm already going through

I've reached acceptance. Trying really hard to not listen to what the media has to say, or people around me throwing different things left and right about how he died. I've just been listening to his music and remembering him as the great artist he was. A Korean artist I'm a fan of said on his radio show just this week, when he found out Prince died he was really shocked and in denial, but he imagines Prince is in a better place now. That really comforted me and so right now I'm just hoping Prince is in a better place.

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Acceptance. Not nearly as broken up as I was over MJ's passing and was a bit angry about that. Now with the rumor mills, I'm just exhausted. We don't even know if it was 'truly' his hip causing the pain as he was so private. Did he get a hip replacement in secret and that go wrong or was he just trying to manage the ever-increasing pain; a suicide move which makes me dislike organized religion even more. What religion prohibits someone from getting surgery due to blood transfusions? Now the Christians are chiming in with their satanic contract / illuminati theories and I'm just like... ENOUGH.

Dude could have gone on public record to communicate with fans so there isn't all of this speculation. How could this possibly distract us from the music when an album (or 2) had been fed to us every year for nearly 40 years - some of us needed the break.

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In a weird way, I sometimes drift in and out of believing this to be true.

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It's hard to explain, I'll be at work doing what I do and I'll get an odd feeling that the last week has been a dream and that it isn't true and then I'll remember it is true, but still hope it was a mistake.

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It's hard to explain and it occurs for just a couple of seconds.

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I guess that's how grief can effect us.

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I'm not entirely sure how to get closure as we don't have a funeral to be able to say a last goodbye.

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On that note there is NO WAY I've been able to listen to the track Goodbye. I have totally been avoiding that one.

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prodigalfan said:

Let me just say this… I'm surprised of my feelings of anger but I can't help it… When I see other people performing purple rain as a tribute to Prince. I get angry because I don't want to see anyone else performing purple rain!! I just want to see Prince performing purple rain.I know this sounds crazy but it makes me cry when I see other people performing HIS song.

Me too

I'm fcking MAD.

Mad at the feeding frenzy happening - and realizing the superhuman effort it took for Prince to lead his life.

Mad at the price someone pays when they're extraordinarily gifted - the universe exacts its equal counterpart of blessings with pain, heartbreak and misery.

Mad that he's gone. Mad that his music makes me cry now for all the wrong reasons. Mad that he was denied a family and children of his own. Mad that it his transition appears to be an accident that could have been prevented.

I keep wondering why he didn't call 911 and maybe it's because he's famous and didn't want that in the news and just makes me angry and sad for him, if that's the case and what a messed up world.

I am still in denial. I keep thinking its just that time when you don't hear much from him and then boom he has an album coming and is going out on tour! That is my happy place right now. Its hard to accept because nothing makes sense: why was he alone, why didn't he call 911, why didn't he have a will, why didnt someone demand to watch him more closely after tha scare, etc. There are so many questions! On the other hand, I am sad...I guess my head and heart aren't meeting up like they should I consider myself a fan since...well I can't remember when, but now I feel like I should have done more..Spent that extra $$ on concerts, bought every single album, etc. While I have a good amount, I am now playing catch up, I guess. I just bought Art Official Age and was so suprised bc its SO GOOD. I don't know why I didn't buy it beforehand but now listening to it over and over, it has a different meaning The song "Time" is so beautiful and it makes me sad that he didn't get enough of it. I wish he was abe to have his own family..teach his son or daughter about music... there just wasn't enough time. He was so much more than Purple Rain and the clothes he wore...there will never be another like him Sorry this was a lot of rambling..but no one seems to understand except for the kind souls on here...

First can I say that I am so so glad to have you all here. Every post I've read is a reflection of how I'm feeling, questions I've been asking and wouldn't have any other place to turn if it weren't for the org. With that being said, I started in denial. I really thought i'd wake up the next day and hear "false alarm", he's in the hospital but he's still here. I could not get myself to believe it. The devastation has not gone away and I'm sure it won't, but unfortunately now I'm just angry. Angry because he was still so young, he had so much more to give. Angry at him because if he knew something was off he should have taken the time to rest and get better. Angry at God even, because this could not have been his time. I just cannot accept it. And also angry at myself because he was just here in the Bay area a month ago, and I decided not to pay that much money to go. My absolute last chance to see him and I turned it down. I feel like such an idiot. Money wouldn't have mattered had I known it would have come to this.

This is wierd for me, because for teh last week I would wake up and the first thought in my head was how Prince was dead.

6 Years ago in January my Kid Brother passed away, and I went through the same process, where in my first waking moments I would wake up to realise my loss.

Thing is, with Prince, it isn't my loss as such, I feel guilty for being selfish, the World lost Prince. Not just me.

I am not in any stage other than happiness. This may seem wierd or offensive but..........

I am happy that Prince gave me personally something that nobody will ever take away from me, this is how I percieved his Music and Talent.

Memories and joy.

Such is the same as my Kid Brother, I was so angry when my Brother died, I nearly broke my Marriage through my Hate and anger.

But I came to accept what I had lost and I kept my head above water by focusing on the good things, the memories, the Joy, the silliness we enjoyed.

That is how I focus on Prince now and how I will continue to do so.

That is how I will endure the loss.

Prince gave me a feeling of belonging in a time I felt I did not fit into society, where all my acquaintances where fitting square pegs in square holes, but Ihad only round pegs and square holes.....

Tonight my 11 Year old son hugged me and said he was sad that Prince had died.

This is the same Son who I announced my Wife was carrying on the NPGMC and shared his first Photo on the Forums there.

As he showered tonight, he sang Purple Rain.........

Prince will live on through him and your Children

tiara195 said:

I'm in acceptance now. I still think about him and the fact that he isn't physically here daily and I find myself comparing any and everything to him but I'm okay with that. Yesterday, I had a long talk with myself saying everything happens when it is suppose to happen,and everything has its season. Prince was meant to be here when he was, he was meant to touch the lives that he touched. If Prince was born 20 years earlier he wouldn't have the same affect on us. It all happens when it is suppose to and it was simply his time to go. I thanked God for giving him to us and for blessing him the talents and ability to touch my life the way he has. I thank Prince for creating great masterpieces and allowing us to witness them. I am truly grateful for this experience and I know there will be none like it that will impact my life in the greatest way Prince has and still is. I am appreciative and he will continue to live through all of us. I love you forever Prince!

Very nice post!

Grog said:

Let's face it, we're all going through at least one of these stages of grief and will likely continue to do so for quite some time. I think it's healthy to identify where you are and deal with the reality of your specific stage or stages. This link could be useful:http://www.webmd.com/mental-health/mental-health-coping-with-grief

There are other sources out there as well. I am glad we are all here for each other (We need love4oneanother, y'all, love4oneanother).

Peace,

Grog

I am so sad, I keep crying. I have to say I went through them much faster than losing my mom and dad, so I might be in acceptance now. Still depressed that Prince is no longer with us. I went to 22 shows! I stood in the front so many times! Danced on stage with him, went to sound checks, after parties, flew around the country to see Him!! He was always in my life since I was a teenager. He taught me the Lord's Prayer! I always wanted to tell him this, as I know he would have happy to know this.

no acceptance, several times a day my brain goes "Nah that isnt actually possible, he is a music FIXTURE" then I hear a note of a tribute song and have to cover my face as I'm overtaken with weeping

my disbelief is twofold because I can't swallow what the music world has lost, I try to conceptualise the creative ripples he generated in the last 30 years and then cannot get over what he *would* have given us for the next 30.

I don't know if I will ever accept this, every time I see his face and his smile there is a presence I'm convinced belongs here - why don't we get to see snowy haired lil old man prince like in that video for Come On !

reading the other posts here gives me a bit of perspective, I should be thankful that we ever had the guy, its far worse to imagine what we would have missed had he never been here.

I heard Fire and Regeneration which is just instrumental atmospheric stuff Wendy and Lisa did for the show heroes and its gripping

I need a 12 hours documentary with long speeches by hundreds of artists he launched or shaped

my 5 year old is already learning Nothing Compares 2 U and starfish & Coffee and singing them to my 5 week old

my wife was not a fan (just through not being exposed) and is now gobsmacked that all her favourite artists are coming out saying he was the greatest or inspired them to be musicians AND she is learning half the songs she liked in the 80s were written or inspired by prince too

you need to put confusion in those stages, i'm listening to his final performance and although he does sound like he's saying goodbye, he's in his usual top form. Not sounding like someone who'd be dead in a week. Just don't get it. Michael Jackson didn't really look all that good in "this is it" Elvis sounded great but you could tell he was loaded to the gills on drugs. Prince just seems like Prince. I don't get it. But, you know, any of us can go at any time.

Denial at this stage. I'm still coming down and in disbelief that I saw him in February. It's hitting me harder than Michael because I felt so close to him having just seen him, being 20 meters away from him, I even snuck up the aisle and stood just five meters from him for a few seconds. Up until last friday (it was friday here) I was so excited to possibly see him again in the future. I still go on and on about the concert to anyone who listens. I'm still listening to his music as it has been on high rotation anyway since it was announced he was coming. Its just that my heart breaks every time I remember and I cry at least once on my drive home. Then I remember how he said "Auckland- my first time here"...then his traditional smirk..."it wont be my last." Everyone around me expects that I'm sad but I can't really convey just how much this is effecting me.