Love u all.

It' good to be not alone with this mess.

razord said:

Feeling very sad still, each time I see it on the news, the words on the screen, people saying it feels so surreal, this morning I momentarily forgot when I woke up and the dread hit me again, my heart is hurting, didn't think I'd react this much but I'm not ashamed to say I'm hurting a lot, there is lonely..........

there is lonely.......... that is it for sure i don't recommend anyone listening 2 that song right now!

I always thought I'd melt when Prince died - almost as if a part of me had died but I've been strangely calm about it. On Thursday night (UK time when I heard) everybody was phoning me up to see if I was okay; I guess they all thought I'd fall to pieces. Yet I've long recognised the joy of being a musician, artist or author in that your work lives on long after you leave. I feel like that about Prince - he will always live on within me. I will always play his music. I will always be grateful that he was such a massive part of my life for 30 years. I'm glad I stuck up for Prince when I was at school and getting bullied for liking him, I'm glad I stuck up for him when everyone said I should be growing out of my teenage crush and I'm glad that I stuck up for him all through the name change business and the other stuff that sometimes made him very misunderstood.

There were parts of Prince that made me mad, frustrated and exasperated, but above all his music kept me alive. It helped me through the good times and bad. That's the joy of the man - there's literally a song for every emotion that you could feel. Right now, perhaps wrongly, I want to play his funky music, music that makes me smile and appreciate the fun and games he had with instruments and voice. Music that makes me want to dance and not wallow in his departure. Maybe when I play some of his ballads it will hit me harder? Who knows?

I'm sad my children will never get to see him perform and I don't know if I'll ever listen to the bootleg of Piano & a Microphone that I was saving until after he came to the UK but I do feel truly blessed that I've been on the Prince rollercoaster for so long and have had such a great time. I've met some great people through Prince, made some great friends and have some of the best memories of my life. Long may his music live on.

Alxndrstff, thanks for your words - it makes me feel a bit more normal about how I've been feeling since Thursday night.


I'm in much the same place as you (I'm a year older than you, I'm in Coatbridge, and like you I got messages from people I hadn't even spoken to in ages because I was the resident Prince fan. I've not shed any tears, but have felt tears in my eyes since Thursday - especially when listening to SOTT on Friday morning. I couldn't feel happy listening to it at all, and some songs just tore me up. I hate to think that every time I listen to a Prince song from now on he'll not be alive. He's not the first artist that I liked a lot to have died, but the last time (Kurt Cobain), I was still pretty young and ultimately it had been a much shorter love affair than with Prince. Even frm before I was a big Prince fan, he's always been there, and my emotion comes from the fact that he's provided me with so much joy and memories, and seemed to have so much joy doing what he loved - it makes me sad (for us and him) that he won't get the opportunity to do it for another 20+ years.


I still can't quite believe it when I see it on the news, and I'm not sure when it will hit home. I know that eventually I'll be able to listen to the music without feeling as much emotion - I handled Purple Rain today a lot better than I had SOTT yesterday. I hope that I'll be able to listen to the music in the future and only think of the good memories I have and the sheer joy in the music - surely Beatles fans from back in the day listen to the music without feeling the pain of losing Lennon or Harrison. At the moment it's too entwined with something that I'll call 'grief'.


I'm trying not to think too much about the circumstances around his death, and I just hope that he wasn't and hasn't been in pain, and he is peaceful now.


I take some comfort from the fact that-

1. In 57 years he achieved so much more and lived a much fuller life than most people, and he surely knew it;

2. He lived life the way he wanted, and doing the thing he was surely put on this Earth to do; and he gave us so much great music;

3. I'm lucky to have lived in an era when I got to see Prince live (and was lucky enough to do so 4 times), and to know what it's like to anticipate a new Prince record. I'm sure there will be further releases, but nothing beats new music.

4. We were lucky to get 4 releases in the last couple of years. Personally, I liked two a lot (AOA and HNR2), and two less so, but across the board opinions were split over which were the stronger releases - that point to him releasing good material, just not to everyone's tastes, but surely everyone heard something they loved over the past 2 years. For me, HNR2 was the peak, and possibly my favourite release since 3121.


I may change my mind again, but his death has changed the way I feel about Vault releases. I'm a massive Dylan fan, and his Bootleg Series provides a whole alternative catalogue for Dylan, but he chooses what gets released and not released - I'm not sure I like the idea of anyone other than Prince deciding what is released. We may like to hear a lot of this material, but it's his legacy, so I think if he didn't want it released (if, I'm not saying he didn't - maybe he had a raft of planned Vault releases), then I don't think it's for anyone else to decide.



I am coping by posting. I don't post, I just read and agree and check for show dates. But as I read the posts today, I feel like everyone else. But I must admit I have some really great friends who have reached out to me. I had one college friend that I hadn't spoken to in years call. So while I am sad, I am also happy that an old friend is back in my life.

Take care!!

2freaky4church1 said:

Where are you Nancy?

Nancy has been posting up a storm on facebook. She's just as messed up as the rest of us over this

I cant say i'm coping really. I cant sleep. I feel numb. I have little bursts of normal and then it sets in again.

babynoz said:

It just doesn't sink it. I feel my eyes are full of tears that have not come out yet. There is a lump in my throat and I don't feel well. Usually I'd read my Twitter timeline, I haven't touched Twitter or any other social media for the last two days. I somehow don't care about any other "news" right now. I am a 48-year-old male and this shouldn't be normal. But this is what it is.

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babynoz said:

I'm not coping. I'm having a hard time accepting it. I haven't screamed like that since my mom passed. I didn't sleep and can't bring myself to listen to his music. I can barely get through the news reports. I must have gotten fifty calls and texts of condolences yesterday. It's like when my sibling passed last month.

Still crying off and on.

For now all I can do is take it one day at a time. I am glad that we have each other though.....who else really understands?

I´m a complete mess and been feeling fucked up since he passed away, and it seems it´s getting worse with each day that passes. I have important, urgent stuff to do but can´t really bring myself to do anything at the moment. And I have a hard time seeing him on TV....like I want to watch but I´m not really watching. It´s so unreal to see him all over the news like in the old days but this time for a whole different reason.

KoolEaze said:

babynoz said:

I'm not coping. I'm having a hard time accepting it. I haven't screamed like that since my mom passed. I didn't sleep and can't bring myself to listen to his music. I can barely get through the news reports. I must have gotten fifty calls and texts of condolences yesterday. It's like when my sibling passed last month.

Still crying off and on.

For now all I can do is take it one day at a time. I am glad that we have each other though.....who else really understands?

I´m a complete mess and been feeling fucked up since he passed away, and it seems it´s getting worse with each day that passes. I have important, urgent stuff to do but can´t really bring myself to do anything at the moment. And I have a hard time seeing him on TV....like I want to watch but I´m not really watching. It´s so unreal to see him all over the news like in the old days but this time for a whole different reason.

databank said:

I found it very comforting to discuss it with fellow fans today on FB. We share a similar grief.

to y'all

I felt the same doing that or talking with friends on the phone who are fans

babynoz said:

I'm not coping. I'm having a hard time accepting it. I haven't screamed like that since my mom passed. I didn't sleep and can't bring myself to listen to his music. I can barely get through the news reports. I must have gotten fifty calls and texts of condolences yesterday. It's like when my sibling passed last month.

Still crying off and on.

For now all I can do is take it one day at a time. I am glad that we have each other though.....who else really understands?

I do! I had my mom died from tragic murder 2 years ago. When I go the news at my job (around 8:30am PST) when Prince died, I lost it! I cried all day at work. On my way home, I mourned and wailed for Prince just like my mom death. I cant listen to any of his heartfelt depressing songs like Free, The Ladder, Condition of the Heart, etc without crying all over. Then reading tweets from Andre Cymone, see Van Jones on CNN and listening to other associates devastated over his death make me wail all over again. So I totally understand. I totally understand.

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It is a comfort to have this site and to know I am not alone in my grief! I think I am still in shock and wake up the last couple of mornings thinking was that a horrible dream? I can't believe all of this has happened. I thought he would always be around and I wish someone could have helped him or been there so he wouldn't have been alone I can't remember a time when I wasn't a fan of his. Its just so sad

I'm not coping with it, I can't, I am feeling lost, not much makes sense anymore, part of me died and I don't know what to do, I'm crying on and off for days now, this feels like the worst loss in my life and I'm not entirely sure it will get better with time, we're talking about Prince after all, a truely unique and once in an eternity force of nature ... he is irreplacable maybe I'm hoping that reading the many similar feelings of sadness on the org will make it more bearable for me I dunno ... we'll see

I felt better coming here and discussing with you all. Just remember we all deal with death differently and it is ok to be sad, cry, scream-let it out. We understand. I was feeling real bad yesterday after I read about the cremation and the private service then, I watched the color purple cast tribute to Prince which lead me to the quote "I bet it pisses God off when we see the color purple and don't see its beauty"{I know that's not quite right but just follow me} At that moment I started to thank God that He allowed me to get Prince, I had parents who bought Pince music, aunts who took their minor niece to Purple Rain, I boss who let me shope on ebAY for Prince items and let me change my work schedule to go to Prince concerts. I reconnected with on old friend on Friday and I thank God for that as well. My mourning has turned to joy. I prayed for all of U that you will find peace. But just know that it will be on your term and time!!!!

One day at a time. So many feelings, emotions come up. Every morning I go through telling myself he is truly gone. So fortunate that he left us with so much music and great memories.

I hope this comforts some a little, it resonated...

https://youtu.be/3REY918Ir-s

yep it sure was fun ..

It's not getting better, it's getting worse, but maybe that's the path to acceptance. I'm still in shock after one month. I keep asking myself, where is he? How can he be gone?

mourn n grieve ..

olb99 said:

IstenSzek said:

i'm off to listen to his post 9/11 ahdioshow. i think that might be fitting for today.

This is an excellent idea. Thanks.

I agree, that was a very somber, yet uplifting, Ahdio show. It was NPG Ahdio Show (Transmission #8). The track list was:

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NPG Ahdio Show (Transmission #8)

1. No - Prince (intro only)
2. The Plan - NPG Orchestra
3. Anna Stesia - Prince
4. Elephants & Flowers - Prince
5. I Wish U Heaven - Prince
6. Love... Thy Will Be Done (Prince Mix) - Martika (intro only)
7. Pearls B4 The Swine - Prince
8. 7 (Acoustic Version) - Prince and the New Power Generation
9. Space (Universal Love Remix) - Prince
10. Still Would Stand All Time - Prince
11. Into The Light -
12. I Will -
13. The Holy River -
14. New Power Generation (Pt. II) - Prince (outro only)
15. Positivity - Prince (outro only)

Coping the best way I can. Pulled out all the music, books, magazines, and photos. I haven't gone one week without crying, and I mean boohoo crying. Saturdays are the worst because there's nothing to devert my thoughts on the weekend. Today, I cried from the moment I woke up until abou 1:30pm. I just sincerely appreciate being a part of this community to share my thoughts, vent, and remember. It's been comforting, but just the thought of Prince not being on this earth, and the thought that somehow all this could have been prevented is tearing me up.