leslievette said:

ActUrAgeMomma said:

Thank u!! Listening 2 it right now!! "Ur ass is sooo tight"

Let me tell you, I DIED when I first heard it

... and now I'm extremely curious about this song.

ForeverPaisley said:

Not sure what it was about today, but had a few surprising, sudden tears today. Lyrics to Legacy from Fefe Dobson (a song I generally love, and the video, as it is a tribute to those lost), struck me hard. "If I die tonight, at least a left a legacy. If my lights go out, I'm forever in your memory." Even typing those seem to stir those same feelings.

And, oddly enough, same thing with the extended version of Thieves in the Temple.

Trying to focus on this beautiful happy face, but still...it's stings today.

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i love his canine teeth! anybody have pics of him with white/silver hair?

Nope. It's not helping.

I miss him.

leslievette said:

ActUrAgeMomma said:

Thank u!! Listening 2 it right now!! "Ur ass is sooo tight"

Let me tell you, I DIED when I first heard it

oooaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh, I am going to love grooving to this tonight. any way I can rip this?

SpinsterSister said:

leslievette said:

Let me tell you, I DIED when I first heard it

oooaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh, I am going to love grooving to this tonight. any way I can rip this?

I have it ripped and on my ipod already orgnote me your email and I'll send it

SpinsterSister said:

ForeverPaisley said:

Not sure what it was about today, but had a few surprising, sudden tears today. Lyrics to Legacy from Fefe Dobson (a song I generally love, and the video, as it is a tribute to those lost), struck me hard. "If I die tonight, at least a left a legacy. If my lights go out, I'm forever in your memory." Even typing those seem to stir those same feelings.

And, oddly enough, same thing with the extended version of Thieves in the Temple.

Trying to focus on this beautiful happy face, but still...it's stings today.

[Edited 7/17/16 19:16pm]

i love his canine teeth! anybody have pics of him with white/silver hair?

ForeverPaisley said:

Nope. It's not helping.

I miss him.

Me too hun. Gonna try 2 make u smile...listen 2 the dialogue on "Vibrator". P's sooo funny.

leslievette said:

SpinsterSister said:

oooaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh, I am going to love grooving to this tonight. any way I can rip this?

I have it ripped and on my ipod already orgnote me your email and I'll send it

Me 2 Leslie?? Plez.

leslievette said:

SpinsterSister said:

oooaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh, I am going to love grooving to this tonight. any way I can rip this?

I have it ripped and on my ipod already orgnote me your email and I'll send it

Thanks again Leslievette! I love this purple family, thanks for being so open, horny and patient with each other, love y'all!

leslievette said:

ActUrAgeMomma said:

Thank u!! Listening 2 it right now!! "Ur ass is sooo tight"

Let me tell you, I DIED when I first heard it

I like the.."I'm a good kisser" .... Mmmm. Thanks again hun!

I know I haven't seen this one.

ActUrAgeMomma said:

ForeverPaisley said:

Nope. It's not helping.

I miss him.

Me too hun. Gonna try 2 make u smile...listen 2 the dialogue on "Vibrator". P's sooo funny.

Thanks Momma. I really don't know what it is about today. Lots of tears for him

(I was at Tim Hortons when the earlier tears started! )

Like reality is trying to sink in.

Will listen to this and the one Leslievette sent after I tackle a chore or two. *distractions*

Be back in a smidge.

Is it a bad sign if I can't tell if this is cheering me UP or making me sad?

Oy vay!

ForeverPaisley said:

ActUrAgeMomma said:

Me too hun. Gonna try 2 make u smile...listen 2 the dialogue on "Vibrator". P's sooo funny.

Thanks Momma. I really don't know what it is about today. Lots of tears for him

(I was at Tim Hortons when the earlier tears started! )

Like reality is trying to sink in.

Will listen to this and the one Leslievette sent after I tackle a chore or two. *distractions*

Be back in a smidge.

K, my love.

ForeverPaisley said:

Is it a bad sign if I can't tell if this is cheering me UP or making me sad?

Oy vay!

Half the time I can't tell anymore myself

We'll get through it together

Jeez, first FP and now me.

I'm in my room on my laptop minding my own business listening to P. My Dad walks by my room and casually says "It's time to let it go" I don't think he realizes how much that just hurt me. Wtf. Don't you think I would if I could? Let it go, sure. Just goes to show that nobody understands other than my family here on the org. That just set me back. Why can't P just be here? Why do we have to go through all this? I feel like I'm questioning my sanity on a daily basis

ActUrAgeMomma said:

4 GH. Mimi?...I think u like this look on him as well...CNN interview?

Oh Momma, where did you find this? Magnificent!!!!

For 4EverPaisley, Leslie and 4 those of u with a heavy heart 2day.

Hope they atleast made u smile.

[Edited 7/17/16 20:10pm]

SpinsterSister said:

AM I THE ONLY ONE ONLINE NOW? THAT MAKES ME SAD.......

'' Nope. I'm here and sure appreciating your posts.

mimi1956 said:

ActUrAgeMomma said:

4 GH. Mimi?...I think u like this look on him as well...CNN interview?

Oh Momma, where did you find this? Magnificent!!!!

Hi my ! Popular site under "P percussion and splits". It's pretty short but, I found the whole dvd of Rave Un2. Was gonna make some gifs 4 u out of it but, I think u'll beat me 2 it.

leslievette said:

Jeez, first FP and now me.

I'm in my room on my laptop minding my own business listening to P. My Dad walks by my room and casually says "It's time to let it go" I don't think he realizes how much that just hurt me. Wtf. Don't you think I would if I could? Let it go, sure. Just goes to show that nobody understands other than my family here on the org. That just set me back. Why can't P just be here? Why do we have to go through all this? I feel like I'm questioning my sanity on a daily basis

I hear ya leslievette! Some days I can function just fine as things around here have been crazy and giving me the distractions I need to get by. Then it is at night before I go to bed, when everything is quiet and my mind is trying to quiet down too that I start to hear his voice singing his sweet songs... my heart stops and I close my eyes hoping I can see him in my minds eye. I know he's there so I wish him love and God's light. I wish at times I could forget...the sadness that weighs in my heart is troubling and I don't want to lose my sanity, but I can't. No one understands, not even my sister, only you beautiful org fam knows the sadness that lingers in our hearts. Don't worry lovey, we will be here for you.

leslievette said:

Jeez, first FP and now me.

I'm in my room on my laptop minding my own business listening to P. My Dad walks by my room and casually says "It's time to let it go" I don't think he realizes how much that just hurt me. Wtf. Don't you think I would if I could? Let it go, sure. Just goes to show that nobody understands other than my family here on the org. That just set me back. Why can't P just be here? Why do we have to go through all this? I feel like I'm questioning my sanity on a daily basis

Ladies, I completely understand and face harsh criticism too. My mother told me late last week, "It's not like you KNEW him or anything - you're getting obsessed". Hmmm, well actually, we do know him, to a point, through his music. We have eyes and that special female sense that sees what is turning in his head (at times). The emotional turmoil, it was painfully obvious he was incredibly lonely despite what he or his camp may say. We may loving "lust" over the man on this thread and secretly in our dreams - but - given the chance to just "be there" for him to confide in, no doubt most of us would be there without needing reciprocation.

I know last night at the gym, I was feeling "alone" while listening to his music. Every once in a while, it does creep through and when it does, it is a pit in the stomach coldness that overtakes me. He didn't have to go this soon. He didn't have to be alone. Then I start blaming myself for not doing something - send a tea basket, send a basketball - heck, before all this started, just a darn card to PP. He may have thrown it out (as he said he does) but I really think he does not do. With all this shit going on in our country now, he could've been a voice of reason, education and comfort to us on the board, let alone the country through his music and words.

There was a thread started about the loss of P or is it the loss of our collective "childhood" that we mourn. I can't say I mourn the man because to me, it really has not happened - he is still here with us - just out of sight in PP as usual. I don't want to face it, it's not right - it is just not right. There are times, I hate God for allowing such senseless things to happen.

Damn it, now I want a couple of stiff drinks. And as I am listening to the Girl extended mix (Thanks Leslie!) now and "Gosh, I could have an orgasm just thinking of you" just rang out.....yea Prince, so do we and quite frequently I will add.

leslievette said:

Jeez, first FP and now me.

I'm in my room on my laptop minding my own business listening to P. My Dad walks by my room and casually says "It's time to let it go" I don't think he realizes how much that just hurt me. Wtf. Don't you think I would if I could? Let it go, sure. Just goes to show that nobody understands other than my family here on the org. That just set me back. Why can't P just be here? Why do we have to go through all this? I feel like I'm questioning my sanity on a daily basis

U are NOT going crazy. U are grieving. Remember that, k? Sometimes people can be insensitive and be very black and white about things... ur dad sounds like my dad. He also doesn't want u 2 be feeling the pain associated with... Anyways, I'll be here 4 u 2day and when my tears come u'll be there 4 me. We'll all be here 4 each other even if no 1 else 'gets it'.

leslievette said:

ForeverPaisley said:

Is it a bad sign if I can't tell if this is cheering me UP or making me sad?

Oy vay!

Half the time I can't tell anymore myself

We'll get through it together

Sometimes I think it's getting harder, because we're getting farther away, I don't know why I feel that way. I guess spatially. But each day really brings us closer to when we'll all be together. It still is to much to absorb sometimes especially seeing him so much here, looking so young and healthy.

leslievette said:

Jeez, first FP and now me.

I'm in my room on my laptop minding my own business listening to P. My Dad walks by my room and casually says "It's time to let it go" I don't think he realizes how much that just hurt me. Wtf. Don't you think I would if I could? Let it go, sure. Just goes to show that nobody understands other than my family here on the org. That just set me back. Why can't P just be here? Why do we have to go through all this? I feel like I'm questioning my sanity on a daily basis

That's awful Leslie! I'm sorry he said such a thing. Likely unintentionally but still a heartless thing to say. People just don't understand. To be honest, even I don't get it to the extent that it's consumed a lot of my thoughts, my mind and much of my free time. I wish that he was still here with us and none of us were going through this. It's just too much to deal with. I too question my sanity on a daily basis. At some point, life must go on as intended, and it IS - but just in an alter-paradigm off-kilter sort of way. *le sigh*

graciebabiie said:

leslievette said:

Jeez, first FP and now me.

I'm in my room on my laptop minding my own business listening to P. My Dad walks by my room and casually says "It's time to let it go" I don't think he realizes how much that just hurt me. Wtf. Don't you think I would if I could? Let it go, sure. Just goes to show that nobody understands other than my family here on the org. That just set me back. Why can't P just be here? Why do we have to go through all this? I feel like I'm questioning my sanity on a daily basis

I hear ya leslievette! Some days I can function just fine as things around here have been crazy and giving me the distractions I need to get by. Then it is at night before I go to bed, when everything is quiet and my mind is trying to quiet down too that I start to hear his voice singing his sweet songs... my heart stops and I close my eyes hoping I can see him in my minds eye. I know he's there so I wish him love and God's light. I wish at times I could forget...the sadness that weighs in my heart is troubling and I don't want to lose my sanity, but I can't. No one understands, not even my sister, only you beautiful org fam knows the sadness that lingers in our hearts. Don't worry lovey, we will be here for you.

Only this fam does get it. Thank goodness for you all. I would SEVERELY be worried about my sanity if not for knowing I am NOT the only one feeling this way still.

leslievette said:

Jeez, first FP and now me.

I'm in my room on my laptop minding my own business listening to P. My Dad walks by my room and casually says "It's time to let it go" I don't think he realizes how much that just hurt me. Wtf. Don't you think I would if I could? Let it go, sure. Just goes to show that nobody understands other than my family here on the org. That just set me back. Why can't P just be here? Why do we have to go through all this? I feel like I'm questioning my sanity on a daily basis

That's exactly the thing. Do they think we want to sit around crying all the time, that we wouldn't love to move on. We can't, there is something between him and us that is keeping him very alive and we can't let him go. My husband is getting to the mad stage, always compling about this, and about he is all I listen to on the car radio. I don't understand why I, we feel like this, but there is something about him and us and his leaving this way. Like a building fell on us. And nobody but those on here get it.

[Edited 7/17/16 20:55pm]

SpinsterSister said:

leslievette said:

Jeez, first FP and now me.

I'm in my room on my laptop minding my own business listening to P. My Dad walks by my room and casually says "It's time to let it go" I don't think he realizes how much that just hurt me. Wtf. Don't you think I would if I could? Let it go, sure. Just goes to show that nobody understands other than my family here on the org. That just set me back. Why can't P just be here? Why do we have to go through all this? I feel like I'm questioning my sanity on a daily basis

Ladies, I completely understand and face harsh criticism too. My mother told me late last week, "It's not like you KNEW him or anything - you're getting obsessed". Hmmm, well actually, we do know him, to a point, through his music. We have eyes and that special female sense that sees what is turning in his head (at times). The emotional turmoil, it was painfully obvious he was incredibly lonely despite what he or his camp may say. We may loving "lust" over the man on this thread and secretly in our dreams - but - given the chance to just "be there" for him to confide in, no doubt most of us would be there without needing reciprocation. --> in a heartbeat !

I know last night at the gym, I was feeling "alone" while listening to his music. Every once in a while, it does creep through and when it does, it is a pit in the stomach coldness that overtakes me. He didn't have to go this soon. He didn't have to be alone. <--- I don't think I will ever make piece with these two realities. Ever.

Then I start blaming myself for not doing something - send a tea basket, send a basketball - heck, before all this started, just a darn card to PP. He may have thrown it out (as he said he does) but I really think he does not do. With all this shit going on in our country now, he could've been a voice of reason, education and comfort to us on the board, let alone the country through his music and words.

There was a thread started about the loss of P or is it the loss of our collective "childhood" that we mourn. I can't say I mourn the man because to me, it really has not happened - he is still here with us - just out of sight in PP as usual. I don't want to face it, it's not right - it is just not right. There are times, I hate God for allowing such senseless things to happen.

It's absolutely not right. And I think THAT is why it's so painfully difficult to wrap our hearts, minds and souls around. That's why it's so difficult to 'let it go' as Leslie's dad so kindly suggested.