WHYYYYYY isn't this getting any easier??!!!! Everything is a Prince song... EVERYTHING I can't focus, it crosses my mind all day but mostly late at night... which puts "Power Fantastic" in my head, which now makes me cry... EVERY DAMN DAY I'm (unsuccessfully) holding back tears! I can't imagine what it must be like for those who knew him, it's just so fucking awful & it's gonna suck all over again when the autopsy report comes out. I just want to turn back the clock sooooo bad, more than anything right now

CalhounSq said:

WHYYYYYY isn't this getting any easier??!!!! Everything is a Prince song... EVERYTHING I can't focus, it crosses my mind all day but mostly late at night... which puts "Power Fantastic" in my head, which now makes me cry... EVERY DAMN DAY I'm (unsuccessfully) holding back tears! I can't imagine what it must be like for those who knew him, it's just so fucking awful & it's gonna suck all over again when the autopsy report comes out. I just want to turn back the clock sooooo bad, more than anything right now

I'm right there with you CalhounSq

CalhounSq said:

WHYYYYYY isn't this getting any easier??!!!! Everything is a Prince song... EVERYTHING I can't focus, it crosses my mind all day but mostly late at night... which puts "Power Fantastic" in my head, which now makes me cry... EVERY DAMN DAY I'm (unsuccessfully) holding back tears! I can't imagine what it must be like for those who knew him, it's just so fucking awful & it's gonna suck all over again when the autopsy report comes out. I just want to turn back the clock sooooo bad, more than anything right now

I agree. I can't even look at the photos, flowers, drawings, etc (that are all so beautiful), without tears forming in my eyes. Paisley Park is especially hard for me to look at. I thought that by now, I would be over all this, but how wrong I was! The tears are still flowing, I still can't listen to his music, and the sadness is still there! It just doesn't seem real.

I'm driving to work this morning "eye hate U" comes on the Ipod so I skip to the next song cause I'm just not ready to hear his music yet & the next song is "sometimes it snows in April" I pulled the car over & just start crying like a baby...God this pain is too much.

Thebigpill said:

I'm driving to work this morning "eye hate U" comes on the Ipod so I skip to the next song cause I'm just not ready to hear his music yet & the next song is "sometimes it snows in April" I pulled the car over & just start crying like a baby...God this pain is too much.

That would have broken me too I actually went through the trouble of removing him from my current playlists because I'm just not ready, but apparently it didn't make it onto my iPod Mini, & "Time" came on just now. I gasped, panicked a little, but for some reason I let it play. Welled up twice but didn't full on cry. I can't even claim to be getting over the hump because every time I think I am, I find I'm NOT "Hold On" by Alabama Shakes came on right after, it was fitting

Thebigpill said:

I'm driving to work this morning "eye hate U" comes on the Ipod so I skip to the next song cause I'm just not ready to hear his music yet & the next song is "sometimes it snows in April" I pulled the car over & just start crying like a baby...God this pain is too much.

haven t listen 2 sometimes yet ... eye know it will be 2 hard, so eye avoid it !

i watched "the love we make" @ the north sea jazz festival ... tears like the first day after

U R not ALONE !!

oldsoulonearth said:

Thebigpill said:

I'm driving to work this morning "eye hate U" comes on the Ipod so I skip to the next song cause I'm just not ready to hear his music yet & the next song is "sometimes it snows in April" I pulled the car over & just start crying like a baby...God this pain is too much.

haven t listen 2 sometimes yet ... eye know it will be 2 hard, so eye avoid it !

i watched "the love we make" @ the north sea jazz festival ... tears like the first day after

U R not ALONE !!

Thanks Calhoun & Oldsoul It was just too much to take I called off work & went home, I knew they would never understand so I come here. I really feel like we're family and I can communicate with people who understand.

I wish this song wasn't so hauntingly accurate

One last batch of new pics from Paisley Park, May 15, 2016.

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Just a note to users CalhounSq, Adore4ever, 1contessa, purplethunder3121, Thebigpill, oldsoulonearth....and to so many other users on this thread and forum:

I read your words of sadness and they are so helpful to me, and probably helpful to so many others because you each have a way of expressing what so many of us (at least speaking for myself) are feeling. Your words are eloquent and dripping with the same sadness I feel and so many of my Prince friends feel.

Nothing has helped me get through all of this more than reading all of your heartfelt posts. In the days and week immediately after his passing I could not watch the news, play the music, or read the articles. Seeing his image on TV the last 4 weeks crushes me. The only therapy I had were reading the words of those going through the same things I felt. The words from each of you...

I saw Prince in concert probably 25-30 times with most of those between 1988-1996. I miss him dearly. Like so many of us, he was the soundtrack to the most important days of my life.

So to each of you - thank you for doing what you do. It's actually helping many of us, especially me.

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When my world takes a pause,

I miss him so

At times I become angry,

I miss him so

His music isn't enough,

I miss him so

I grew with him, he made me different,

I miss him so

I still hurt, my friend died alone and in the cold,

I miss him so

So please, somehow know that your true treasures were left in the hearts of all of us who love you,

still.

cc3078 said:

Just a note to users CalhounSq, Adore4ever, 1contessa, purplethunder3121, Thebigpill, oldsoulonearth....and to so many other users on this thread and forum:

I read your words of sadness and they are so helpful to me, and probably helpful to so many others because you each have a way of expressing what so many of us (at least speaking for myself) are feeling. Your words are eloquent and dripping with the same sadness I feel and so many of my Prince friends feel.

Nothing has helped me get through all of this more than reading all of your heartfelt posts. In the days and week immediately after his passing I could not watch the news, play the music, or read the articles. Seeing his image on TV the last 4 weeks crushes me. The only therapy I had were reading the words of those going through the same things I felt. The words from each of you...

I saw Prince in concert probably 25-30 times with most of those between 1988-1996. I miss him dearly. Like so many of us, he was the soundtrack to the most important days of my life.

So to each of you - thank you for doing what you do. It's actually helping many of us, especially me.

[Edited 5/18/16 18:36pm]

this place is oddly comforting right now - it's all about him, yet we're all feeling the loss so hard, at least we aren't alone in this heartbreak!

Adore4ever said:

These testimonies are very heartfelt and express what others are feeling all around the world...if you are a real fan of Prince he made his way into your heart. Even if he wasn't in concert you knew he was somewhere making music. Then to hear about all the things he did behind the scenes to help ppl. Wow he was a generous soul. He lived his life on his own terms and i admire that. This is still so hard to understand...

Agreed - the thought of him not flitting around PP in the wee hours anymore, cooking up something good... it just breaks me a little every day

This may have been posted prior, but here's a nice article about grieving over this loss, written by a freelance writer in Minneapolis.

Click here or paste this URL here into your browser:

http://www.onbeing.org/blog/to-be-yourself-completely-the-collective-grief-of-losing-prince/8640#.VygnsW814Zg.facebook

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05/2016
Credit: TheGuardian UK

Prince’s last guitar was made by Simon Farmer, AKA Gus of Gus Guitars.

He hand-made the custom Purple Special nine years ago, but only got it to Prince a few weeks ago. In a photo taken five days before his death, Prince is showing Gus’ guitar off to a select audience at Paisley Park. In this exclusive video, Gus talks to the Guardian from his small studio in East Sussex.

Short video

SNIP -OF4S

There might be a more appropriate thread to post your Youtube issues

Just realized that I never posted this here...only shared with Orgers on Facebook. This is a print I ordered by David Mack, called "Dearly Beloved". Mack is a comic artist who has worked on Daredevil, Alias: Jessica Jones and his creator-owned title Kabuki:

If anyone wants to order their own print of this piece, you can get it here:

http://www.gallerynucleus...tail/20611

Mack donates a portion of all sales to various charities, so it's a good thing all around!

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Mumio said:

CalhounSq said:

WHYYYYYY isn't this getting any easier??!!!! Everything is a Prince song... EVERYTHING I can't focus, it crosses my mind all day but mostly late at night... which puts "Power Fantastic" in my head, which now makes me cry... EVERY DAMN DAY I'm (unsuccessfully) holding back tears! I can't imagine what it must be like for those who knew him, it's just so fucking awful & it's gonna suck all over again when the autopsy report comes out. I just want to turn back the clock sooooo bad, more than anything right now

I'm right there with you CalhounSq

im here with you this is still mind numbing like in my mind i just cant wrap my head around it still

I 've been following this forum for the last 7 years and been a fan hearing "When Doves Cry" since I was 12 (and that is ouch... 33 years ago). It's very comforting that there's other people out there grieving since the event. I read that a lot of you have a hard time playing his music or seeing his pics. For me, the only way to fill the gap is by playing his work of art out loud. Every day, every night. And how I love to dig deep into the more obscure side, today more than ever. Just now, I rediscovered "Dance With The Devil", not to find any messages behind it, but just to make the lyrics sing and make the sounds sink deeper. Since March 21, I spend my time relistening and rebuilding my playlist of +3000 songs. Other than that, I enjoy the public video uploads so much and share, share, share (and I don't have to dig into my bootleg collection that way . That is my cure. That is where I find relief over this grief. Deep in my heart, I know this is what he wants. To be remembered by heart and soul. And yes, I know I will be doing this for the rest of my life. It keeps me alive. It keeps him alive. Thanks Prince, for having touched my life and shaped my mind about music and so much more. UR forever in my life.

cc3078 said:

The photos below are taken from Paisley Park today - May 15. I have about 50 to share in all. Beautiful day outside and perfectly cloudy - just like the ATWIAD album cover. Today was my first day towards coping with this loss.

How did I spend my time there? I took my iPod - sat on the grass facing the front fence so I had a clear view of Paisley Park - and played ATWIAD from start to finish as I watched all the fans and friends walk along the fence.

The fence appears to be about 200 yards long - and is jam packed with memorials. There was a consistent flow of 100-150 people walking along the fence during my entire 2 hours there. Traffic wasn't too bad and I was able to park nearby.

I would say some 'official' car would enter those locked gates every 15 minutes or so. So whatever is going on with the estate is still happening even into the weekends.

I didn't see any tears flowing but I also wore dark sunglasses to hide mine. The final 5 minutes of the drive to the Park was the hardest - realizing the totality of the loss and what the next 2 hours would bring back for memories. I was able to hang a couple letters and poems and some new flowers.

I encourage anyone to bring more flowers - the original ones from those awesome fans the first week have now mostly died due to the elements. Most of the balloons have gone flat. The fence could use a slight refresh but the memorial taking shape is stunning. You would need 5 hours to walk along the entire fence and read everything. It's beautiful.

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Thank you so much for taking us with you on your trip to Paisley Park when we couldn't be there. It means so much.

Second The Thunder - Great capture of the whole along with private tributes we can share. Amazing photos, so much heart.

JediMaster said:

Just realized that I never posted this here...only shared with Orgers on Facebook. This is a print I ordered by David Mack, called "Dearly Beloved". Mack is a comic artist who has worked on Daredevil, Alias: Jessica Jones and his creator-owned title Kabuki:

If anyone wants to order their own print of this piece, you can get it here:

http://www.gallerynucleus...tail/20611

Mack donates a portion of all sales to various charities, so it's a good thing all around!

[Edited 5/19/16 13:08pm]

Wow... I am so glad you shared this. Back in the day I collected all the Kabuki comics. David Mack is so versatile and brilliant as both an artist, writer (not to mention a fantastic storyteller), I would tell people he was 'the Prince [Nelson] of Graphic Novels.'

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How absolutely fitting. And what a beautiful rendering of an even more beautiful soul. It is so touching to witness an art virtuoso paying homage to the memory of a music virtuoso. Game recognizing game. Both men shared an uncommon brilliance. Prince in spirit must be so honored by this.

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Thank you David. I think i'm gonna order this print.

cc3078 said:

This may have been posted prior, but here's a nice article about grieving over this loss, written by a freelance writer in Minneapolis.

Click here or paste this URL here into your browser:

http://www.onbeing.org/blog/to-be-yourself-completely-the-collective-grief-of-losing-prince/8640#.VygnsW814Zg.facebook

Thank you so much for the link to this wonderful artiicle and the beautiful photographs from Paisley Park.

I have to say that both have reduced me to tears, but somehow in a good way. Reading some of the really moving messages left at PP by peope from all over the world does feel like a comfort even if it sets the tears off again.

And the article provides a wonderful explanation of why so many are grieving - even those who didn't follow Prince's career that closely.

He truly was an inspiring individual.

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Looks like a lot of the current memorial items at Paisley Park are coming down today and being saved for good use! I see this as a good thing in that weather had taken its toll on many of the beautiful items when I was there 5 days ago and I'm sure we're allowed to add more items in the future.