U know how i feel about sitting on this chair in this cold office writing on this contraption when i'd rather be sitting on where's the hot water bottle. Don't get used to this, i'm off this because its the only way i can stand a chance to take a little wander somewhere. i don't know where. i don't really want to go unescorted anywhere, i'm ok here just a little dead at times. Otherwise it's the perfect writers garret without the real hardship. Honest to God who would have believed i would give such a premium on having my own washing line? The other reason i'm stuck here is they are updating my iphone and it's taking a while down here in the antipodes. i'm getting a cloud thingy set up it says. Oh well they know what they are doing. How's Heaven? I'll find out when i get there if i bother with it that is. What am i going to do with this letter i wrote in all the colours i have in my desk. This is just a domestic thing nothing monumental. Gotta restart this thing it says while the apple is doing it's thing in the cloud. So i'll do the other when the iphone is finished installing. I'm as miserable as sin but i'm not taking any notice or i'd be weeping all day. I just can't handle it any other way so as far as i'm concerned Beloved U are just a wish away. Any time i need U near there U r and it all seems clear. We left a little room for doubt that U and Love r what life's about. U make us dance and scream and shout becoz Beloved that is what shows U our Love is all about. It's hard to breath it's not a joke. The phone is still off it makes me feel like i'm being choked. Apple verification failed. Well that's what it says. It could just be repeating it to verify it. It could also fail becoz the other reason i don't keep the downloads up to date is its a big chunk out of my pay and i can only stretch it so far. It will interrupt the download if i run out of credit on the pre paid account. Life in the fast lane it is not but all things considered i manage. It gets a bit rich for my blood at times i need to be careful it's rather addictive and i'm susceptible. It makes me very annoyed with myself. This world tends to devour weakness. I'm stuck here while that phone is doing it's updating and i've lost HitNRun Phase 2 from my itunes library because i let it continue updating before i downloaded it. I might have to buy it again. What has happend to the recordings P submitted to Warner Bros in February. I can only act on this if i'm asked to it's only me being so attached to his music that would drive me and that isn't enough to convince twerps this is a serious breach of ethics to treat the customers like they do. We're the idiots that make those useless talentless twerps rich after all. The artists making the product and us the customers for buying it. It pisses me off to think they can keep this material from us. The veins swell in my neck just thinking about what i would like to do and say to these brainless good for nothing suits!

Still messing around with the phone. I'm going to be stuck here all day. How can i get the recharges if i'm stuck here while they fix it up. No i prefer to go and buy a voucher not put my card details on here. I didn't want an icloud account. Disability Support pension doesn't stretch as far as silver service on the phone i hope they know. Surely they know. It's all in the recorded traffic. There isn't any. Recluses don't have that much in the way of a social life. I don't have the energy to spend like others do. These days every day all i want to do is sleep. I'm miserable so what. Life goes on it's going to whether i can handle it or not. I'm pulling the plug on this iphone installation it's taking too long and i'm needing to move. My age this sitting still for so long is clogging me up. It's the old emotional bankruptcy, nothing sweet going in and i'm all out of sugar for the time being. This phone is not making me happy the server is not recognizing it.Take care God Bless and Be Well.xxxxx