My inner child doesn't have a problem with praising others for what they do to enrich my life and the child's. The child is pure and doesn't have any motives other than to please. I have a very enriched Spirit and it has gravitated to the same. Problem if anyone knocked on my door i wouldn't hear them over the headphones. I can't hear anything above the music. Blissed out me, can't help it. Won't either. I like the clearer more distinct profiles on this page since the new updates have been installed by Mzla. I hope that contains the let's say, gremlins. So being so enriched i have it in my heart to return it to the source of so much joy, i weep it overflows. Would i be there now, yes, i seem to have to be more patient than Job. Can do, no worries, have done and i have the feeling something will come to mind soon and i'll know exactly which way to turn. My son doesn't understand why i need him to hold my hand while i get the papers done. Filling in forms is very hard for everyone that has had traumatic brain injury. I mutter under my breath cursing the fact i didn't or my brother didn't get it sorted for me in the appropriate time. Does everyone live in denial that women are held up by either their friends or their families more or less to ransom and can't go anywhere just when they fancy. I'd have been there for all this time now if not for all the rigmarole with the travel papers. Honestly i don't know what any country would want me for. I am not that stupid. I'm an expense and a liability apart from that i can think up some good ideas when i hold my tongue at the right angle. Oh yeah i've got the same sense of humor as God has, that helps a bit. I've got to send these forms off with some dosh and wait for them to send it back. Honest to God with all the forms and fees it's no wonder i can't save the airfare. It looks like life is kiltered to cost two dollars to every one i save just now. I had it sorted and then the power bill came in the same time as i lost the specs and that wiped out most of it. I've been watching this for some years now. It's been interesting to find out how straightened a life has to be to just pay the bills comfortably and not go out never have a meal out and never have beauty treatments, hair dos, etc. i'm happy to have saved all that time on reclamation. It's a bit late now, it's total rebuild, hang on while i crack up. I've had ten times more fun than that. Blimey i'd have been bored out of my mind. This well Prince and this have made the last while like Christmas everyday when i wasn't sobbing in a heap at the irony of it. Oh that has it's benefits, i need to let all the pain out. I'm rather good at letting it go. Bill Withers' 'Soul Shadows.' has this effect that reduces me to howling sobs at the mention of Sachmo. Yup, then too. Funny he has this effect now. I never got to tell him how much i Love his music. I'm not missing out this time, Prince knows now. If anyone ever doubted before i have to make sure this is spread around, it does have an effect and grows Love where there isn't any. I'm not making this up. This is just as i'm feeling it. I don't care who knows how much this hurts to feel some times. On the one hand i Love that 55 in my chart and on the other it's a little intense for those not used to seeing genuine emotions. It stays balanced, as much bliss as bruising. The bitterness i pull up, is to pull me back down out of the clouds of sweetness or i swear i'll float away. Then of course that is so amazing it's more than i ever expected and i'm just happy with this and then i get all hot i mean 100 degrees and rising. I have to strip. It's better now he must have learned not to come so close. All this and oh God this just doesn't get any better. Oh ooow. The wonder of it is astounding. Oh and the other one, i have to stretch. I get a work out if he finds any stiffness. The most amazing man, I apologize to u all for not letting u know 25 years ago. I was still finding all this out too. I'm sorry we have to wait for these things to exist for so long before we find out why we haven't been able to see it all before. Children weren't looking. Many more have yet to see. I wonder what to do with me? I have to put 'Hardrocklover.' on repeat a few times when it comes on the shuffle. I just played it over and over when i got it. Oh we haven't heard anything yet. That's a taste of things to come people. He's just got our attention with that one. U don't think it's ever going to be better and it's stunning everytime. It's like he saw deep into my Soul with that and grasped where i came out of. He's my favoritest of all guitarists forever. I'm partial to his voice too. Very. Don't let him over do it, u know he will. I get the strangest feeling he's working too hard. Measure and leisure. There has to be some left for himself, he can't keep giving out energy all the time and not soaking some up. I've got the 'Musicology.' working for me and to complete the continuum it has to go back to him. Make sure he has time off when the rhythms are accummulating and crossing the line. Biorhythms are worth taking notice of in times of extra exersion. Though my mind races at a million miles a second my body just refuses to rush the pleasure. HOt, too hot, too hot. It must be the cashews i'm eating, that's my excuse i'm sticking to it. Hot, too hot. Oh God this is so much fun, i feel guilty he's not here. Ok his Spirit is, i mean the flesh bits too. Especially! See how could i keep clothes on around the furnace of Love that is his? I'm going to end up a puddle on the floor as it is. Pens, inks, paints, brushes and paper and the handful of books i like. That is all the essence of me. I have to choose the ones i want. The rest i'll leave. This is the children's inheritance from me. I'm going to run away and hide so i don't have to face the truth. I fear Love the most. It's a losing game, u have to fall in it. Fall in, I don't know if there isn't a newer paradigm on offer these new days, in this new age. I had to go up to meet God. I didn't fall in Him. I have the feeling that it doesn't sit right with me the idea that Love makes us weaker, i expect it to make him stronger not weaker. It's pretty useless Love if it doesn't. Oh but then i don't know about that sort of half hearted rubbish. Love makes me feel like i've got to sort out all the worlds problems to get them out of the way so i can totally submerge in the feeling, now piss off while i do ecstacy for once in this tatty little life. Don't disturb me i won't be out for oh i don't know about a month. I feel invincible with the slightest whiff of Love. I don't know what it does for others but there isn't any problem that can't be solved with enough Love and the will to have it so. It really makes me wonder what people have been learning all these years? I wonder if i get beamed up to another planet(Venus) when i'm not looking and this one stays the same. Pockets have learned and have learned to live and let live and help each other and other pockets, that have to think about their survival strategy in the future because we won't be able to rescue them once they've gone too far. I had to put my jacket back on and just then 'Hot Thing.' comes on. Haha. I have to hold him accountable for this. It was the Soul shadow he left in my mind. I just filed it away, he's way out of my league. By the time i watched Graffiti Bridge the movie, i was so hooked it wasn't funny. I don't believe in fairytales, men wrote them. They're as daft as a brush most of them. Sorry but he has spoilt me for others. He's the one that doesn't fit that mould. Sorry well u know this is my day 'on' Prince appreciation. I'm not biased, Graffiti Bridge was the first album i bought after i sacked the ex in 1990. They are the most beautiful eyes i've ever looked into. My children were both under 10yrs., i wasn't going off anywhere. Never in a million years would i ever be able to get beside him. I'd just split up. Well ladies he's the perfect Medicine man to put the pieces back together when u haven't been getting any Love from the man u pinned ur hopes on and finally gave the flick to. I personally won't have rebound relationships, i had a couple of flings during the 3 year put the pieces back together period. By the end of the 3 years and all the other new albums Prince released in that time i was ready to go get one. Oh crap they are all emotional wrecks with axes to grind and attitudes to boot. No, thanks, let's set up a Men's health centre and see if we can repair some of them emotionally first or i'm stuffed for finding one in decent emotional health to have around my children. Never mind the next 7 years battery. It didn't work, get over it move on. I lost all eleven of his albums i had in 1996. I found one 'The greates hits.' in the last 10 years. I was fading away. It took my son giving me the iPhone and me learning to load it up and then play all these and remember how it worked for me, oh that's right i did that before. Will it work this time? Yes, and why does this man have this ability to mend my tattered shell. To be continued. To u all in deep gratitude for this grant Infinite and eternal peace, joy and Love, take care, God Bless and Be Well.xxxxx