This is not just the last resort it is my only resort. Make her happy now or she'll lose it. It's the time of the year and it's all about the feeling of Love for each other and all i see is the commercial aspect and it just cracks me up. Then there's the reality of another two Mothers that get to know how God felt losing Christ and Mary losing a son. I'm waiting for 'Fury.' to come on the shuffle to belt out how angry i feel about the news out of New York. Not very inspiring for this Yorky. Come on cousins, get a grip of urselves this is not like the American i know and Love, pull ur socks up all of u. Don't u know how lucky u are to be living there. If u don't look after my homeland of the heart piss off out of it. I don't want to hear of people being ambushed like that. It's about time it was taken on the chin that we have to have a police SERVICE, to protect the weak and vulnerable from such things why, because well some will do this if we don't have a useful deterrant. (I'll indulge them on this level for one second, there isn't any such thing as 'loss', God gets the Spirit, Mother gets the compost. Personally i Love that to bits.) Now i can tell u honestly it's the worst feeling in the world for all of us that know the loss of a child, so piss off Christmas, i don't need u to pull my heart strings and jolly me up. i don't have small children to con that this is all about the treasures the Love of God brings and not the amazing crazy feeling of utter bliss because i Love u regardless of the time of year. I'd be pissed but i deliberately forgot to get some heartburn fuel. Life sucks enough why make it hurt more by spending on alcohol, no thanks, not my thing. I can't watch tv even, to take my mind off what it isn't going to be this year. Andrew the poor child has two females to care about this season. I'm freaking him out by insisting i go with him to see his sister. I put it on him to give me her number to text her, 'She'll castrate me, i want children.' (He's 29 single and available girls, form an orderly queue please. Warning, he's after a woman that wants homebirths for her children, guess he's after one like his own Mother! U go to the front of the queue, i'll marry this lad off if it kills me.) I said, (I'm only half stirring him!) 'It's ur responsibility to make her put the crap away and make this a happier time than it will be if we don't let this grudge of ours lay.' I have one,(equally ridiculous, she was 10!) because i feel betrayed by her for taking her father's side, i 'thought' she loved me. I have always loved both of them equally, obviously not enough, but it's a bond i thought couldn't be broken between two females and it was cut off. The father never facilitated my daughter seeing me. I kept away to stop the trauma i and Eden were being put through. I take full responsibility for my part breaking up that marriage. I couldn't carry all three of them without any emotional support from another single soul in this world. It felt draining. I haven't accumulated any social networks so when i say i walk alone i mean all the time usually. I then don't have anyone to blame for screwing up aye? I escaped from the blame game in childhood. Something about being my Mother's daughter, consequences were the result of my own actions and i'd better be prepared to cop them on the chin. I Love that woman. It's hard work trying to live up to her example i can tell u. I won't stop trying Mam. 11.55, just cracking up a little. That works, 'Better than u think.' always does the trick. Ah but it's naming the 'trick' isn't it, that counts the most. It's the 'off' switch to defuse the emotion that spills fluid out of the eyeballs. The lower notes in the opening sequence pulls the electrical current 'out of tune' and lowers the pitch of emotions. I can imagine it would be quite a trip with the right acoustics. I'm only using the iPhone with earphones. The sound is lovely compared to not having any at all but i'm a trained telephonist, i'm audiosonically a-cutely a-tuned, in the extreme. This portable player doesn't have a graphic equalizer that i can fiddle around with the bring up one or the other to suit the moment. I may not be a musician but i am a consumer of their work acutely aware of all it engenders, feeling it. I want it delivered RIGHT. That shiver up the spine is a high i want every time. I can get it too, it's in the opening of the one song i play first every morning just to make sure my senses are awake. A funny fault in the opening bars of 'Dance to the music of the world.' from the collectors edition, it makes my earphones sound faulty. I'm resigned to the fact it's going to take quite a bit longer for me to detach from this place. I've just planted more trees. The zuccinis and snow peas are up. I'm putting in more sweet corn. It takes ages to germinate. I was amazed to find a garlic bulb had 'flowered' and set seed. I planted them all out, fingers crossed. There's the beginning of twelve months waiting for it to swell up to be a useful size. It's long and hard for the Earth to feed up a garlic plant. There's no short cut or i would have found it by now. It's the reason it costs so much, out of season. It's a demanding and long drawn out process to grow the wonderful stinky little onion thingy. Thing about garlic, i couldn't live without it and i eat parsley to get rid of the garlic breath if it bothers me. I've got some garlic chives that could strip the skin off the inside of my mouth they're so strong, takes two leaves of parsley to get rid of that. Thankful i am that my challenges are all so easily met. I must have been good in my childhood. More likely to have been a past life. I have quite a few to choose from. I'd be bored but it would insult my own intelligence. There isn't a jewel in this world can buy what i give freely to him and he knows it. I don't have any other reason to do this other than to see that as far as possible i can wrap him up in so much Love that nothing will ever bring him down again, i promise. I keep being refilled by the music and all he has to give and so it follows,'as the night the day' needs must it go home to where it came from Love. Do we fill God up with this overwhelming stuff? Oh God i Love that. The greatest jewel in the world is the light in his eyes when he's singing his heart out, me and God are hooked on it. I can't say where this comes from i never stop to ask. It feels it has the right to be and i don't need to know. The source is close and fills me up it flows out like a stream. I don't care how i came by this and lose myself in the dream. Then there's the reality and those aweful news reports i catch on the box at times to bring me back down to Earth. Oh Mother don't they understand that by lighting and burning off the gas from the coal seam gas fields those men are making a direct contribution to the state of global warming and they feel it's perfectly within their rights to endanger our collective lives because Geez people they are only feeding their families aren't they? Nothing will ever justify what they do knowing full well WE DON'T NEED IT. Yes, people at the expense of my having any Grandchildren and I DON'T LIKE IT AND I WILL SHUT THEM DOWN. That is like a decree from the Earth. I will go with my son to the next job he's doing, decommissioning the plant he's going to. I will give him a running commentary on the rape and pillage of his land by a pack of tripods that don't have an ecological bone in their bodies. Logic is part of the word 'ecological' that's probably why men don't get it, they don't have a logical bone in their bodies. Generally speaking. I didn't call this piece 'plain speaking' for nothing. In metaphical terms it's Earth dealing with metal types and they won't win, rust never sleeps. Guess i supply the Water element. It's not as if changing to clean energy is difficult, it's the media muck raking rot peddling brain dead boffins that make it sound like it is. One over here looks like he's on valium to keep selling the idea that global warming isn't a big issue. Tell the planet when She next explodes a volcano. Dr. Richard St. Barbe Baker in an interview on abc radio science program eloquently explained that if a physician finds his patient with a high temperature the first thing he does it all he can to reduce it. The humans on this planet on mass can make the simple changes to solar power where the funds are available this will be done quickly and very efficiently and all the jobs created by this shift to sustainable living will ameliorate all the tension caused by the loss of jobs in the dirty energy sector. Everyone must ask themselves who is peddling the ideas that we can't go solar power because we have to produce 'baseload' quantities. NO, WE DO NOT. I warned in the letter to Pres.Clinton that we would be spooked into thinking we have to supply industry, we don't, they are able to put in their own energy systems. I said we would all make better choices when the cost of the power to produce the goods was factored into the price and it has been and the bottom fell out of the markets. Don't believe me just watch, i have said that before, Love it when it works out. The domestic tariff that we have been paying is double that of the commercial sector and remember business gets to deduct every cent they legitimately spend making products also, now how do u feel about having to supply the industry with half price electricity while the bastards continue to poison us with their rotten products and the manufactury of them. Rack of hairy legs make ur own power and collect ur own water get off our backs, bloodsuckers. I don't have any respect for industrialists that think they have the right to extort us and rip us off. Imagine what is bubbling under the surface and this is all i can write from here. I'm only half aware of the world at present i'm moping because the fridge is on it's last legs and it's a debt to replace it i don't want just now. It's over two hundred to get a uk passport that wasn't in the budget. So in the last three months two price hikes directly benefitting public revenue have effected my budget, plus the cost of telecommunications here is outrageous for nothing more tangible than fresh air, i'm up for 100 per month and if they don't get it all my credit goes, no roll over. Talk about a scam. All the so called freebies, data or whatever would be better spent giving us cheaper deals. I was off air for more than five days i was livid. Not a thing i could do but wait it out as gracefully as i could. I got a call from them to change my plan from prepaid mobile and i can get a new iP6 on the plan too. Five hours we chatted on the phone for, nah, i like to have the control of how much i spend on this luxury. The lass said i should have my own talk show. Ha, silly girl, i used to be paid to talk pleasantly to people for 8 hours a day, i was using the call as an excuse not to go out and finish the mowing. It was lovely to chat away without worrying about the cost. They know i don't get any calls or make many. The one i make to the USA is always busy. There's hundreds of dollars of unused credit, not that i've paid for it, it's their little teaser to keep me hooked in. These starched stuffed shirts and others that make decisions about how much they should charge the public, should be made to clean toilets for a year to get some humanity about them. In the first year at the school of philosophy we got to clean the toilets for the whole school, top to bottom. Pardon the pun. U'll know what i mean when i say i'm very down to Earth. I mean it literally. I'm a mass of contradictions that make me who i am. U know there's more to me than meets the eye, i will fool u if i can. While one side of me will seem to sway, the other looks around. Looking for the answering vibe that fills my Soul with sound. I've a taste for life but starve to death living in a desert land. I'll feed it up and make it cool, it's all now in my hand. My Soul screams for me to make this whole land bloom. It's just a big garden to me. One little hand is all it takes and She'll 'go off' and flourish. Honest to God, She doesn't need much encouragement and She's away. I have to watch Her. I've got roses sprouting all over the place. There's 15 snowpeas up, 5 zuccinis. U have to put multiple plants in some don't do well and others feed bugs if u have them. I'm being relaxed i usually 'sex' the seeds and only plant 'females' of the species, they bear better. All's peace around here, number 9 up the street is vacant or was. The nature of the 9, to make better beginnings if they weren't and to set endings that need changes. I would definitely swap that with the police for a 'safe house'. It's made for it, up there. Change is the nature of 9. The latest intel from the estate, the grandmother said he knows it's him that's lost them the children. He is in depression over it but won't work at changing his behaviours. There isn't a cure for scitzophrenia(?) and the pills cause bad side effects so change it to herbs, better than weed. There's sure to be some in some culture that the west doesn't know about. It would be worthwhile to invest in scouring the planet's cultures for the correct treatments. We have to go through this level of suffering in the flesh to make the Spirit stronger. It hurts too but by God i wouldn't have it any other way. I have suffered for what i know of the human side of this life. I'm giggling with Him just now. He's in deep do do if He doesn't get His finger out. Now i don't know what i expect God to come up with but u never do know, that's the fun of it. Now if i just cocoon the poor little lamb i may get her through this without falling apart at the seams. Well, all together falling apart, a little is unavoidable. I'm going to cry with both feelings, joy and sorrow. It's this time of year and i don't have family around. It happens every year i'm away from home. Too long away i can't call uk home anymore either, this isn't home, i don't have a home anywhere on this planet. God has to be home to me. Hey that would make the Universe my home. Cool as. I Love U God. Ooow it's a BUZZ and a half when i feel Him Love me back. Not fair i like getting away with it when He doesn't expect it. I like sneaking them in all day when His back is turned. When i'm in that frame of mind i mean. I'm not blowing hot air up God's drawers all day, only some days. When i'm feeling mischievious. Good fun. I'm not playing 'Time' off one of the new albums i don't like being told i'm not ready. I know i'm not ready for whatever it is. I'm never going to be ready, it's not possible to be ready for something undefineable. I don't know how. Least said the better. One day we'll know where all this comes from and it will make perfect sense. We already know who caused it, him, wotsisname, u know him, thingy, Prince. Butterflies tickling in my belly. Cheers me up no end this does. I could keep going forever but i'd feel like i was hogging the line. Keep an eye out for that next comet coming around it's my Dragon, catch hold of the tail, we'll go for a spin around the Cosmos. It's only a breath away. How light weight heavy duty seems. I'm not choosing my words carefully i'm letting free associations happen. It's a matter of mind over matter or matter will have it over mind every time. That's an amalgam of Linda Goodman's thought and my experience first hand. I recall wanting to claim my workers comp to build some factories to make the curvy pipes to droughtproof this arid land to get Her greened up a bit more, well a hell of a lot more than She is now BOYS. I'm coming to emasculate the bastards if they don't play ball with this land i promise. I just have to look them in the eyes and they will know an Earth Mother Empress is staring them down. They will care. I prefer my nice quiet unassuming life thank u, don't poke the Dragon or i will make laws that will be Draconian and will last a millenium to make humans suffer for their greed. Look in the shops now, all that produce was made by the sweat of children not yet born, can they afford the greed of all the world, each one in their own way wants Mother to provide. I got some ginger pfussen stuff, imported this time of year specific. No, i'm not listening to 'Breakdown' it makes me cry. I can take these words literally i have to be careful i feel over the top as it is. Lovely blue sky, i have to go and do a bit of Archery. I got a bullseye the other day, it's embarassing. All these years i could have been doing this. How strange i did the same actions that last time i was getting off on Prince's music. I went and bought a kids Archery set in 1992/3. I went further this time. I got the kid's one and then i got the seriously dangerous 6ft recurve laminate oooow sexy. Then to freak me out even more it turns out i was right i do have a gift for the thing too. WOW. Prince caused that the first time and the second too. It's as if he makes it necessary to find out what it is, i/anyone, that Loves' his work has in them to profit from for themselves. His example is that it is possible if u believe in urself to BE all of what u are capable of. 'U Know.' is on, let's not worry about that #1, is it her ego or mine that keeps us apart, am i not allowed to have an ego, not in this, it's not, it's manners and where did hers go? Who gave her permission to disrespect her Mother, her pa. The society she grew up in, the pigs. Society is scum. Not a damn thing u can do to protect ur children from it. When i could i educated mine about it though. The curse of Motherhood is to worry about ur children from the day they are born to the day u die. I Love it, it's a valid excuse for me. I'd find something to worry about in order to come up with a solution. I'm a chronic worker outera. I've just got to nut it out and find a possible solution or i won't sleep. Stuff that i have a valium now. I had to impose limits on me, allowed to worry 9-5, Mon. to Friday only. I told someone, my son maybe, it's better to worry when there are people in offices paid to help out. I'm not daft, no flies on me, lots of black spots u can see where they've been but no flies! U should see the fly drill. Well, when that one comes around and starts to buzz the face don't just bat it away once it knows that one and will keep coming back, bat one way and then bat the other and if like me u have the music on u can do it in tune to music, it confuses the fly no end. Piss off u sod once won't do it, i do one way and the other and tell the prick i don't intend to stop until it gets the message and racks off it's hairy legs. It's almost a new dance move. If i'm sitting on a chair i bounce up and down in time too. Oh yeah, that's a good beat to swat flies by,'I would die 4 u.' It works. They get the hump and rack off. I look at it like this if that fly wants to pester me it had better understand i intend to pester it right back, they don't like that. Word soon gets around the fly kingdom. Second line of defence i carry around a little bottle of Tea tree oil. I wear it like perfume. It hides under the other pongs i put on. Thank u for valuing what i write more than i do. i didn't disconnect, the line dropped out i expect is the reasonable assumption. When another decides for me, that is not ok. I may not have the desire to write again. I have some in the journal but when i hit a trough it's all the way, like i wished i hadn't been born when i ran out of credit and couldn't get on for so long. Can't be helped i didn't choose it but i did use it. When i didn't know how to get on here i had to rely on my own resilience, the other problem i had was the pain in my joints from resentment that i have to wait before i can recharge, only because i didn't know how to transfer the data credit i may have on the phone to the computer. It isn't a matter of being a bit more 'hip' it's not having family around to get me up to speed. Could be going for 4,000 don't plan just maybe. i have to chuff off now because it's long enough in this one position and i don't like the computer doing flashes and stuff when i don't know what's going on. This is too precious to me to be frigging around. To u all in deep gratitude for this grant Infinite and eternal peace, take care, God Bless and Be Well.xxxxx

Can you repeat, please? I wasn't paying attention

PARAGRAPHS ARE UNITS OF COMPOSITION. They help you organize your ideas so that they flow freely from one to the other.

Change paragraphs:

1. At a change of place.
2. At a change of time.
3. To show a specific case as related to your topic.
4. To change to a more specific time.
5. When the speaker changes.

Different paragraphs do different things.

1. Opening and closing.
2. Find subdivisions in your topic.
3. Provides support for your ideas.

PARAGRAPHS ALLOW YOU TO:

1. Control your ideas.
2. Provide concrete examples, reasons and illustrations.
3. Comment on your ideas--give your opinion.
4. State your main point again in other ways.
5. Summarize for other people by stating what you believe or what you learned.