I'm not dead yet

2 b continued.....

i am hungry.....

i have seen the future and it will be...


to be continued

haning with o'l skool company



to be continued...

"A man had a fig tree, planted in his
vineyard, and he went to look for fruit on it, but did not find any.
7So he said to the man who took care of the vineyard, 'For three years
now I've been coming to look for fruit on this fig tree and haven't
found any. Cut it down! Why should it use up the soil?'
8" 'Sir,' the man replied, 'leave it alone for one more year, and I'll
dig around it and fertilize it. 9If it bears fruit next year, fine! If
not, then cut it down.' "

an ode to an open book....


i waited and you never came, its ok cuz its all the same, before, now and in the end, an open book not yet again, an open book for all to read, but why do the pages in between, remind me of magazines, i am much deeper than another ad for fragrances and the latest fads, so do you all undone dearest open book have a gun so that i can erase those pages read because of you i was close to dead.....
[Edited 4/6/09 22:48pm]

i think i'm in love again

i am getting that feeling once again
that strange sinsation that i understand
it coming on me like a vivid dream
and there is nothing i can do..

unless i run and hide.

but i won't not this time


still i find it hard to breath.

its ok to feel this way
to have a chance that i might say
something that could bring forth
another day

its the way you look at me
the sound you make when you speak
knowing that you don't judge me
even after i've reveal my dreams
i am not asking for anything
i just enjoy the way you are with me
and that make me feel comfortable just being me
i like how you have shown me that i don't need
to be abused, misused, or manipulated..
and that being in this world doesn't have to be complicated
its so refreshing when you except my obsessions
as just another apart of me
and that helps me let go of the things
that are not healthy for me
you don't asked me of anything
and how you are always there for me
never once saying i only think of me
you make me want to be a friend to you in the right way
and after all that i have been through
i can see clearly how that is to be



to be continued...

song listings...

Love Scars
Rude Boy
Take Me Away
Give It Up
Kurve
Sex
Don't Give Up
The Twin
Guilty
Waiting For The Sun

Videos include....




more info to come....
[Edited 4/10/09 15:11pm]

soon i will be leaving and i will not return.....


the org has prepared me for something wild..


but not until the release of 777: The Never Ending Story


stay tuned as my days are numbered....
[Edited 4/11/09 21:55pm]

a mans face is not who he is....
his soul doesn't belong to him
his words are borrowed
and his mind is yet
a grain of sand on the beaches of over there....

3 hours ago
Clear Chat History
11:26pmJew
i wanna make chocolate cake
hearing jason cry when i left broke my heart
11:27pmCatherine
awww
!!
i wish i woulda known that
got like 3 boxes
11:28pmJew
lol
11:29pmCatherine
seriously
hey cried himself to sleep
11:29pmJew
ahhhh
noone has ever cried for me like that
11:29pmCatherine
i almost did
11:30pmJew
almost don't count
lol
11:30pmCatherine
but thats a whole other book
chapter
hmmpphhff
11:30pmJew
lol
what am i gonna do with u?
11:31pmCatherine
hmmmmm
11:31pmJew
gutter
11:31pmCatherine
noo
11:32pmJew
a man with no love is nothing
11:33pmCatherine
soo your saying that you are nothing to me??
11:33pmJew
i am saying i am nothing
11:33pmCatherine
you are what i see
11:33pmJew
without love
11:33pmCatherine
which is beautiful
11:34pmJew
oh yeah prove it!!!
11:34pmCatherine
i allways prove it
im talking to doc now
11:36pmJew
tell him he should befriend me
11:36pmCatherine
i will
11:39pmCatherine
what am i saying 2 u
i'd bore you
the family thing is not you
11:40pmJew
a man with no family is noone
11:42pmCatherine
i wanna have more kids
eventually
like 2 more
make a family
and live happily ever after
with my own prince

11:43pmJew
my name is prince and i am lonely
i am a man with no home e
i did not cum
11:43pmCatherine
seriously
11:43pmJew
to night or last
11:43pmCatherine
lol
11:43pmJew
wen i finally get it
11:44pmCatherine
like in the one video
11:44pmJew
its gonna happen fast
11:45pmCatherine
aww
11:47pmJew
i don't know love... the way that its told end the in fairy tales
i think i might me afraid of that love
because like chocolate cake
it burns when left in the oven
11:49pmCatherine
i feel you
11:49pmJew
to long
11:49pmCatherine
you have to take your time
and care
and know when
the time is right
11:50pmJew
i find time irrevelant
and care is deady
11:50pmCatherine
hmmppf
11:50pmJew
especially
11:50pmCatherine
sometimes i do too
11:50pmJew
if its withheld
11:50pmCatherine
but you know
when it is right
11:51pmJew
what if the time is write but the circumstances
prevents.....
the vision
11:52pmCatherine
what ever is meant to be..will be
11:54pmJew
this is going in my post.... i'm not dead yet
b right back

so what happens when substitutes
are late for class ?

26"In your anger do not sin"[a]: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, 27and do not give the devil a foothold. 28He who has been stealing must steal no longer, but must work, doing something useful with his own hands, that he may have something to share with those in need.

most people think i don't have a life outside of this....


they have no idea...

Long Live Wendy & Lisa

Hope you're alright Jew, if I can help, write.

Times are rough right now, I can tell u first hand.

if i never learn to love again
i cherish these moments with you my friend
and if i never find a smile again
a walk with you is heaven my friend
if i never sing another song
i know that it could never be wrong
to share with you a healing heart.

as a mans man in gifted flight with broken wings and all my might
soaring high through summer skies
you are the warmest light within the storm of the dark night
no matter what you say
no matter what you do
i believe and trust in you
and i will follow you anywhere

Slave2daGroove said:

? 4 U Jew DreamFirstBorn...


Is it possible for you to leave prince.org without some controversy?
if so how?
if not what's up?


are you leaving The DownLoad Society as well?


i know you still have the funk, i know you have a secret that you have been keeping, i know you want to be free from this all, yet You are who You are. no matter where you go.. There will be someone watching..


someone hiding behind,
this loveletter

maybe is the most beautiful word in the dictionary....

this is not a loveletter yet a note 4 my friend,


"your so incredibly beautiful, to look into your eyes is to be purified"
[Edited 4/21/09 1:12am]

the lack of love sometimes forced me to persue something that was irrelevant to the survival of my soul...

and to change my course
doesn't mean a divorce
just because we go seperate ways
does it mean that i never knew love
and it doesn't mean you never knew me
but it is safe to say
sometimes not knowing is better
than being
in the know..

if you asked me to stay would i? I don't know

"open your heart open your mind a train is leaving all day
a wonderful trip threw our times
and lauphter is all you pay"

now that was one ride i could afford.

dreamfirstborn said:

i have seen the future and it will be...


to be continued

Planet Earth
on the rise today
coming up on the hurizon


the last day.

It took me a little bit 2 realize that Ur posts were N "Xperimental" form of Art/Stories/Interpretations... It looks as tho as of l8tly they were taking on a more positive twist.... It would B sad 2 C it go.

I (also) really Injoyed the "PaperCrayons" paintings... R U the Artist that painted them? If not, please let me no who it is.

Hope everything is Good with U... Nd U stay around.





+

Yes PaperCrayons are my creations.. thank you very much for the compliments. I adore them. thanks also for the comment on the positive twist. ;o)


as for me leaving the org...


stay tuned.


my quote of the day

"I have loved you with all that i am... and it was wonderful"
-DreamFirstBorn, Jew

the smile on my face is sincere.