Okay, so yesterday I was sitting on the couch, just mindin' my own when there was a video on FB dedicated to Prince. I watched it and for the first time since his death, I was able to really grieve. Tho it felt good to get rid of it, it also felt strange, because it literally took me almost 2 years to realise that Prince is really gone.

I didn't know that my mind didn't accept it for so long. I really thought I already accepted it back then, but I was wrong. It always felt strange to me that he's not here anymore, like, I really wished this was all a hoax and he faked it all. But he's not hiding (from what anyway?) and he won't come back. And it took me 2 years to finally accept it.

Anyone else?

ThatWhiteDude said:

Okay, so yesterday I was sitting on the couch, just mindin' my own when there was a video on FB dedicated to Prince. I watched it and for the first time since his death, I was able to really grieve. Tho it felt good to get rid of it, it also felt strange, because it literally took me almost 2 years to realise that Prince is really gone.

I didn't know that my mind didn't accept it for so long. I really thought I already accepted it back then, but I was wrong. It always felt strange to me that he's not here anymore, like, I really wished this was all a hoax and he faked it all. But he's not hiding (from what anyway?) and he won't come back. And it took me 2 years to finally accept it.

Anyone else?

I understand and still am grieving or not even grieving but just coming to terms that he is gone. In my mind, he is still in PP. He's there making music mentoring people etc. The one song that takes me back to him always is Love Thy Will be done. Its the drums, its the tone, the melody and words. This is a prayer, but really hits me hard. I can see him coming up with the melody, the drums --and some of the lyrics..I am still wanting to know which ones did he write and also did he provide any back vocals to Martika's. But in any case I am there with you. It does feel strange and still wish he had a child that could carry on his legacy. But he said it once that his songs/music are like his children.

There's always going to be an empty space in my soul until the day that I die. I grieved when he died and I still miss him immensely. I was able to go to Paisley Park last year in May and that helped- made me feel like a weight had been lifted that had been there since he died. I felt his presence there. The doves had been silent all morning until I was standing in the atrium, arms around my best friend and my niece, tears rolling down my cheeks and then the doves began to coo. It was magical. Our guide told us that the doves hadn't made a sound all morning until that moment. I'd like to believe it was Prince speaking through them saying it's going to be alright.

kingricefan said:

There's always going to be an empty space in my soul until the day that I die. I grieved when he died and I still miss him immensely. I was able to go to Paisley Park last year in May and that helped- made me feel like a weight had been lifted that had been there since he died. I felt his presence there. The doves had been silent all morning until I was standing in the atrium, arms around my best friend and my niece, tears rolling down my cheeks and then the doves began to coo. It was magical. Our guide told us that the doves hadn't made a sound all morning until that moment. I'd like to believe it was Prince speaking through them saying it's going to be alright.

I think he was <3

I get days when I still have not accepted it. It's like Prince said: "Time is a trick".

I'm new to these forums and someone who always liked some of Prince's well known tracks, and had seen him live once, but never really ventured into the albums past The Hits, and then Purple Rain, and Diamonds And Pearls, and a few others. However just recently I started watching some of his videos on the Youtube channel, starting at the very start and working my way through them in order, from first to last. I was really impressed and discovered a lot of new songs, so I went back and started working my way through the albums in order, and I've been absolutely blown away by his genius. In between listening to as much live stuff as I can, watching concert video footage from the tours accompanying each album as I listen to them, tv spots, and audio boots. I'm absolutely entranced by his music, his imagery, his skill. everything, but of course it's a pity that I'm only discovering this after he has passed. But here's the thing, I'm still working my way through his vast catalogue but at some point soon I'm going to come to the end. I'm going to sit down and press start on Hit And Run Phase Two, an album I've never heard before (I've not listened to any album past Planet Earth yet). And I'm going to be listening to it knowing that this is the final album recorded and released by Prince and I think it's going to hit me then that this is it. Sure, there will be other stuff released from the vault that we haven't heard, but this will be like the closing of a book, but what an incredible book it has been. So I think that then I'll be a little emotional. I remember years ago when I was a young man reading my way through the two volumes of Philip Norman's superb biography of John Lennon, The Life. It took you on a journey from a kid growing up in post-war Liverpool, his journey through childhood, to his early musical career, and the spellbinding path through his life to his untimely death. When I came to the final pages and saw how the journey ended, before time with a pointlessly random demise but with an incredible legacy, I'm not ashamed to admit that I had tears streaming down my face. And I know that when I get to the last track on Hit And Run Phase Two I'm going to have a very similar feeling. Something is going to feel very empty.

Thank you for this. It's great to see another new fan that has discovered Prince's musical genius. I envy anyone who is discovering the music/person of Prince for the first time. You're on an incredible journey, one that many of us here at the Org have taken and loved. My suggestion is to watch as many videos as you can and listen to all of the songs out there. Prince was truly one of a kind.

ShaggyDog said:

I'm new to these forums and someone who always liked some of Prince's well known tracks, and had seen him live once, but never really ventured into the albums past The Hits, and then Purple Rain, and Diamonds And Pearls, and a few others. However just recently I started watching some of his videos on the Youtube channel, starting at the very start and working my way through them in order, from first to last. I was really impressed and discovered a lot of new songs, so I went back and started working my way through the albums in order, and I've been absolutely blown away by his genius. In between listening to as much live stuff as I can, watching concert video footage from the tours accompanying each album as I listen to them, tv spots, and audio boots. I'm absolutely entranced by his music, his imagery, his skill. everything, but of course it's a pity that I'm only discovering this after he has passed. But here's the thing, I'm still working my way through his vast catalogue but at some point soon I'm going to come to the end. I'm going to sit down and press start on Hit And Run Phase Two, an album I've never heard before (I've not listened to any album past Planet Earth yet). And I'm going to be listening to it knowing that this is the final album recorded and released by Prince and I think it's going to hit me then that this is it. Sure, there will be other stuff released from the vault that we haven't heard, but this will be like the closing of a book, but what an incredible book it has been. So I think that then I'll be a little emotional. I remember years ago when I was a young man reading my way through the two volumes of Philip Norman's superb biography of John Lennon, The Life. It took you on a journey from a kid growing up in post-war Liverpool, his journey through childhood, to his early musical career, and the spellbinding path through his life to his untimely death. When I came to the final pages and saw how the journey ended, before time with a pointlessly random demise but with an incredible legacy, I'm not ashamed to admit that I had tears streaming down my face. And I know that when I get to the last track on Hit And Run Phase Two I'm going to have a very similar feeling. Something is going to feel very empty.

kingricefan said:

Thank you for this. It's great to see another new fan that has discovered Prince's musical genius. I envy anyone who is discovering the music/person of Prince for the first time. You're on an incredible journey, one that many of us here at the Org have taken and loved. My suggestion is to watch as many videos as you can and listen to all of the songs out there. Prince was truly one of a kind.

ShaggyDog said:

I'm new to these forums and someone who always liked some of Prince's well known tracks, and had seen him live once, but never really ventured into the albums past The Hits, and then Purple Rain, and Diamonds And Pearls, and a few others. However just recently I started watching some of his videos on the Youtube channel, starting at the very start and working my way through them in order, from first to last. I was really impressed and discovered a lot of new songs, so I went back and started working my way through the albums in order, and I've been absolutely blown away by his genius. In between listening to as much live stuff as I can, watching concert video footage from the tours accompanying each album as I listen to them, tv spots, and audio boots. I'm absolutely entranced by his music, his imagery, his skill. everything, but of course it's a pity that I'm only discovering this after he has passed. But here's the thing, I'm still working my way through his vast catalogue but at some point soon I'm going to come to the end. I'm going to sit down and press start on Hit And Run Phase Two, an album I've never heard before (I've not listened to any album past Planet Earth yet). And I'm going to be listening to it knowing that this is the final album recorded and released by Prince and I think it's going to hit me then that this is it. Sure, there will be other stuff released from the vault that we haven't heard, but this will be like the closing of a book, but what an incredible book it has been. So I think that then I'll be a little emotional. I remember years ago when I was a young man reading my way through the two volumes of Philip Norman's superb biography of John Lennon, The Life. It took you on a journey from a kid growing up in post-war Liverpool, his journey through childhood, to his early musical career, and the spellbinding path through his life to his untimely death. When I came to the final pages and saw how the journey ended, before time with a pointlessly random demise but with an incredible legacy, I'm not ashamed to admit that I had tears streaming down my face. And I know that when I get to the last track on Hit And Run Phase Two I'm going to have a very similar feeling. Something is going to feel very empty.

AMEN

ThatWhiteDude said:

kingricefan said:

Seahorsie said:

kingricefan said:

Thank you for this. It's great to see another new fan that has discovered Prince's musical genius. I envy anyone who is discovering the music/person of Prince for the first time. You're on an incredible journey, one that many of us here at the Org have taken and loved. My suggestion is to watch as many videos as you can and listen to all of the songs out there. Prince was truly one of a kind.

AMEN

I miss Prince every single day. The first time I saw sing on MTV. I was really taken aback my this man. I saw Purple Rain at the theaters with my Daddy and Two older brothers. I was 10 1/2 at that time. I saw and knew which songs that Prince had coming out on MTV if it was not for my deceased Father. I was 16 when I had asked my Daddy: If I meet Prince. Could I date him? My father immediately had said yes. This is how much he knew that I loved Prince. October of 1991. I was finishing on watching Prince's music video" Cream. My annoying sister Shana came out of nowhere asking me? You still like him! I turned and said no. I love him! My brat of a sister had asked me questions on how I know that I love Prince. I answered these questions. 1. If you were to meet Prince. He saw you. Ask you out. Would you go out with him. Y. ( my sister a shock look on her face). 2. If you and Prince date for two years. He asked you to marry him. Would you marry him? Y( still another shock look on her face). 3. How many kids do you want with Prince? 4. Only 4! Yes. 4. You know how men are? I had a dumbfounded look on my face. Shana( my sister) had said at that time. All men want to have a big family. What if Prince wanted more than 4 kids? Me" If Prince wants more than 4 kids. We will have to sit down and talk about it. I was 18 at the time. I forgot how I thought I could get my older to use his date of birth, so I could go out on a date with Prince back in '86. At first, I cried over hearing that the man that I loved all my life is no longer living. It broke my heart deeply. I had dreams about Prince only twice. The first was back in 2016. I was in my on college. Prince was sitting across from me. I had asked him a question. Some people say that you are dead. It this true? Prince had turned to me and smiled. I could not make out the words that he was saying. Last year in December. I dreamt that Prince was on stage giving a speech. I walked up to him and kissed him.He kissed me back as if the two of us were a couple. Then I woke up. When I hear songs from the '80's. I imagine in my head that I wish that I could go back to the '80's again! At least Prince would be still alive

I'm sorry I abandoned this thread. It's always nice to see that you're not alone with your grieve. <3

I still grieve...periodically. I continue to heal so its less frequent. Feelings less pervasive through my days. Recently I've been able to get my head into a real positive, empowered place if I really put my mind to it, and then I can think of him in a comfortably loving way that doesn't hurt. But I still can easily trigger a fresh wave of deep grief just by, well--just by thinking about him. Feels like I'm living without my heart. I've done a lot of emotional therapy to get through it. I can function now, though not near as well as I could. It was a terrible blow. A pretty f*cked up struggle for me for a very long time. Real bad. I still feel it sometimes but working to reframe my thinking to continue healing. Basically, do or die. Learn to live again or drown in a pool of my own tears. I've never experienced a bond with anyone like I felt with him. Intellectually speaking, I understand he wasn't everything in my life. But emotionally, he meant the world to me.

anangellooksdown said:

kingricefan said:

There's always going to be an empty space in my soul until the day that I die. I grieved when he died and I still miss him immensely. I was able to go to Paisley Park last year in May and that helped- made me feel like a weight had been lifted that had been there since he died. I felt his presence there. The doves had been silent all morning until I was standing in the atrium, arms around my best friend and my niece, tears rolling down my cheeks and then the doves began to coo. It was magical. Our guide told us that the doves hadn't made a sound all morning until that moment. I'd like to believe it was Prince speaking through them saying it's going to be alright.

WOW. Love it. Yes, I believe the doves were comforting you.

I believe it too. In the past year I've had a couple of highly coincidental and improbable things happen surrounding the deaths of two loved ones that convinced me that the soul lives on outside the body. Souls do visit and they will leave signs to get your attention and identify themselves.

Everyday you grow stronger. I never met Prince in person, but I felt such an emotional bond with him through his music. His music was the soundtrack to my life- he was there everyday for me through the great times and through the horrible times, more so than any friendship I had with a real person or with a relative. I depended upon Prince for direction in my earlier life. He made me want to be a better man and I tried to live up to his examples. It was certainly a huge explosion inmmy world when he passed, one that I have come to terms with and, like you, I have managed to step beyond the grief and continue on with my life. The pain will never go away but it is possible to overcome it and find joy in life again. Just listen to his music and it will happen.

Bluu said:

I still grieve...periodically. I continue to heal so its less frequent. Feelings less pervasive through my days. Recently I've been able to get my head into a real positive, empowered place if I really put my mind to it, and then I can think of him in a comfortably loving way that doesn't hurt. But I still can easily trigger a fresh wave of deep grief just by, well--just by thinking about him. Feels like I'm living without my heart. I've done a lot of emotional therapy to get through it. I can function now, though not near as well as I could. It was a terrible blow. A pretty f*cked up struggle for me for a very long time. Real bad. I still feel it sometimes but working to reframe my thinking to continue healing. Basically, do or die. Learn to live again or drown in a pool of my own tears. I've never experienced a bond with anyone like I felt with him. Intellectually speaking, I understand he wasn't everything in my life. But emotionally, he meant the world to me.

There was an article about how Prince was the hero to all of the strange kids, the ones who didn't fit in. I was one of those kids in the 80's.

To me Prince was my favorite cousin and when a new album came out it was like he was coming to visit and we were going to have a good time. I knew he was coming every year too!

When Purple Rain Deluxe came out I was getting that feeling like my cousin is coming but then realized he was gone.

The feeling wasn't the same.

Rainbow1 said:

ThatWhiteDude said:

Okay, so yesterday I was sitting on the couch, just mindin' my own when there was a video on FB dedicated to Prince. I watched it and for the first time since his death, I was able to really grieve. Tho it felt good to get rid of it, it also felt strange, because it literally took me almost 2 years to realise that Prince is really gone.

I didn't know that my mind didn't accept it for so long. I really thought I already accepted it back then, but I was wrong. It always felt strange to me that he's not here anymore, like, I really wished this was all a hoax and he faked it all. But he's not hiding (from what anyway?) and he won't come back. And it took me 2 years to finally accept it.

Anyone else?

I understand and still am grieving or not even grieving but just coming to terms that he is gone. In my mind, he is still in PP. He's there making music mentoring people etc. The one song that takes me back to him always is Love Thy Will be done. Its the drums, its the tone, the melody and words. This is a prayer, but really hits me hard. I can see him coming up with the melody, the drums --and some of the lyrics..I am still wanting to know which ones did he write and also did he provide any back vocals to Martika's. But in any case I am there with you. It does feel strange and still wish he had a child that could carry on his legacy. But he said it once that his songs/music are like his children.

It's precisely stuff like this that gives me the power to keep up the fight.
The fierce power of brave faith and loving generosity conquering grief, overcoming pain.
His self-fulfilling prophecy was to be a vector ("Victor"!) for it.

The best we can do is to continue spreading and sharing his Work with the unaware,
in the hope they can discover their own inner brave new world, and with luck they will get the same feelings
we were able to experience while he was there, and now that he's gone.

Not to make him a myth (as if he wasn't already), but to affirm
that popular music can be much more than just entertainment.
Art is fundamental in a world that tries to reduce us human beings as mere economical agents.

Let's make him Popular, with a capital... P.

42Kristen said:

I miss Prince every single day. The first time I saw sing on MTV. I was really taken aback my this man. I saw Purple Rain at the theaters with my Daddy and Two older brothers. I was 10 1/2 at that time. I saw and knew which songs that Prince had coming out on MTV if it was not for my deceased Father. I was 16 when I had asked my Daddy: If I meet Prince. Could I date him? My father immediately had said yes. This is how much he knew that I loved Prince. October of 1991. I was finishing on watching Prince's music video" Cream. My annoying sister Shana came out of nowhere asking me? You still like him! I turned and said no. I love him! My brat of a sister had asked me questions on how I know that I love Prince. I answered these questions. 1. If you were to meet Prince. He saw you. Ask you out. Would you go out with him. Y. ( my sister a shock look on her face). 2. If you and Prince date for two years. He asked you to marry him. Would you marry him? Y( still another shock look on her face). 3. How many kids do you want with Prince? 4. Only 4! Yes. 4. You know how men are? I had a dumbfounded look on my face. Shana( my sister) had said at that time. All men want to have a big family. What if Prince wanted more than 4 kids? Me" If Prince wants more than 4 kids. We will have to sit down and talk about it. I was 18 at the time. I forgot how I thought I could get my older to use his date of birth, so I could go out on a date with Prince back in '86. At first, I cried over hearing that the man that I loved all my life is no longer living. It broke my heart deeply. I had dreams about Prince only twice. The first was back in 2016. I was in my on college. Prince was sitting across from me. I had asked him a question. Some people say that you are dead. It this true? Prince had turned to me and smiled. I could not make out the words that he was saying. Last year in December. I dreamt that Prince was on stage giving a speech. I walked up to him and kissed him.He kissed me back as if the two of us were a couple. Then I woke up. When I hear songs from the '80's. I imagine in my head that I wish that I could go back to the '80's again! At least Prince would be still alive

This is really sweet. I think about him everyday too. People that loved him do think about him everyday. Even Chris Rock. Just know that you are not alone and that people on the org are here too. I come on this site because I want to know more about him and I still think about him.

I've come to the conclusion that I'll probably never completely get over Prince's death. There's just too many years (memories) where his music was an important part of my life. And just like some others, i was a preteen when i first got into Prince's music. And being a preteen-teenager with a developing brain, Prince influenced me a lot.

It not like i "miss" Prince everyday. Sometimes I'll go days without thinking about him not being alive anymore. But when i do think about it, it oftentimes causes me to feel a profound sense of loss(about a lot of things)...The loss of him as a person, the loss of his musical contributions, the loss of my life's time, the loss of loved ones etc. Prince's death(among other closer deaths) made me realize that the past is gone, and that things are no longer what they were(in my life, and in the world).


IDK, I've just been tripping on a lot of shit lately...



Anyway, what stirred things up for me was watching some Prince videos on Youtube. Seeing those early 80's videos took me right back to that period, and...

Sucks to the most extreme.

But please folks, fully step into where we are now and move through this.

Have to.

He would have by now, no doubt.