Hello, this is my first post on here but I wanted to share the experience I went through today. I was driving down the highway on my way home from work when I heard the radio playing Adore. I've listened to Adore numerous times before, but today hearing the song made me break down in tears. I pulled over to the side and I let all my frustration and sadness out through my tears. After I pulled over, I just thought back to all my favorite Prince songs and the excitement he gave us during his concerts, and now it's all a memory. For a very long time I have been in a disbelief phase regarding Prince's death. It's like I keep hearing people say he passed away, but it's more like jumbled up gibberish when it comes through my ears. I finally said out loud to myself, he's gone and there's no way I can change that. After I said that to myself, I felt an intense rush of emotions like a weight had been lifted a little. I have his music and pass live concerts which I'm grateful for, but I miss him. There's one thing I miss just as much as his physical being and that's his smile. The pure excitement and enthusiasm on his face from playing his music and watching us sing along with him at concerts. I only knew Prince through his music and it gave me comfort assuming that he's probably in Paisley Park creating great music he does every day. One thing I can't grasp is how a man who looked so healthy can pass away so quickly. I guess even the best have to leave sometimes. When I got home I pulled out all my Prince cd's and started listening with the hope it would uplift my mood. My mood is still sour. I'm sorry to bombard the forum with this sad story, but I really needed to get what happened and how I feel off of my chest.

Honey, join the club and welcome.

Acceptance of loss is a stage of grief and the loss of a loved one even if it is one removed by celebrity/showbiz status can be hard to take, especially when it is delayed over several months. All you can do is ride the tide of emotion, take stock of what you DO have, accept the comfort of those around you. Then there'e the org where you can converse with all of us. Things should get better.

Last night, I was watching Monday Night Football - Vikings versus Cowboys - with the love of my life, and they kept showing the Minneapolis skyline, all lit up and beautiful. I used to go to Minneapolis quite frequently (he had a job that took him there frequently and I often went with him), but haven't been there since Prince died.

I said to him, "I really miss Minneapolis, but going there never be the same again." I kept thinking about how Prince was supposed to do a big concert to "christen" the new stadium and how I'd missed the Piano and a Microphone shows at Paisley (because I was rehearsing a play at the time). All the "what ifs" came rushing in.

[Edited 12/2/16 18:03pm]

purpleemotions said:

I am sorry for myself for never having the opportunity to see Prince at Paisley Park. I had considered trying to attend his inaugural "Piano and a Microphone" show but did not, for fear of the cost and moreso, the inconvenience of travel during the winter season. It is my selfish regret that Prince did not make it beyond 21 April 2016. He himself might have appreciated such a feat greater than I, but then again, perhaps not! He has left all of his trouble and burdens behind. I can find peace in that.

I went through something like that too. I couldn't listen to Diamonds and Pearls without crying and would skip it when it would come up. One night a few weeks after his passing, I was listening to him before I went to bed as I usually do and Adore came on. I was fine up until the last few minutes of the song. I started sobbing into my pillow and turned it off. I can listen to Adore now but sometimes its still hard to get through the whole song

LBrent said:

Honey, join the club and welcome.

ditto. i seem to have blocked it out again. sometimes it's all over me, sometimes if feels miles away.

DarlingKris said:

I went through something like that too. I couldn't listen to Diamonds and Pearls without crying and would skip it when it would come up. One night a few weeks after his passing, I was listening to him before I went to bed as I usually do and Adore came on. I was fine up until the last few minutes of the song. I started sobbing into my pillow and turned it off. I can listen to Adore now but sometimes its still hard to get through the whole song

Right now, I'm trying to avoid listening to Adore at all costs.

mechanicalemotion17 said:

purpleemotions said:

Hello, this is my first post on here but I wanted to share the experience I went through today. I was driving down the highway on my way home from work when I heard the radio playing Adore. I've listened to Adore numerous times before, but today hearing the song made me break down in tears. I pulled over to the side and I let all my frustration and sadness out through my tears. After I pulled over, I just thought back to all my favorite Prince songs and the excitement he gave us during his concerts, and now it's all a memory. For a very long time I have been in a disbelief phase regarding Prince's death. It's like I keep hearing people say he passed away, but it's more like jumbled up gibberish when it comes through my ears. I finally said out loud to myself, he's gone and there's no way I can change that. After I said that to myself, I felt an intense rush of emotions like a weight had been lifted a little. I have his music and pass live concerts which I'm grateful for, but I miss him. There's one thing I miss just as much as his physical being and that's his smile. The pure excitement and enthusiasm on his face from playing his music and watching us sing along with him at concerts. I only knew Prince through his music and it gave me comfort assuming that he's probably in Paisley Park creating great music he does every day. One thing I can't grasp is how a man who looked so healthy can pass away so quickly. I guess even the best have to leave sometimes. When I got home I pulled out all my Prince cd's and started listening with the hope it would uplift my mood. My mood is still sour. I'm sorry to bombard the forum with this sad story, but I really needed to get what happened and how I feel off of my chest.

Happened to me a couple of weeks ago when 'Purple Rain' came on the radio at work. Right then and there I felt it come over me and I almost brokedown. Luckily I was able to snap out of it and had the sense to leave the room and distract myself so it could pass. It could have gotten ugly [Edited 12/2/16 18:31pm]

Agreed, when I start crying over Prince's passing it's not the prettiest.

purpleemotions said:

DarlingKris said:

I went through something like that too. I couldn't listen to Diamonds and Pearls without crying and would skip it when it would come up. One night a few weeks after his passing, I was listening to him before I went to bed as I usually do and Adore came on. I was fine up until the last few minutes of the song. I started sobbing into my pillow and turned it off. I can listen to Adore now but sometimes its still hard to get through the whole song

Right now, I'm trying to avoid listening to Adore at all costs.

I couldn't listen to it for months. Too hard

It feels nice knowing others understand why I feel sad about his passing. Thank you all for the comforting comments.

wavesofbliss said:

LBrent said:

Honey, join the club and welcome.

ditto. i seem to have blocked it out again. sometimes it's all over me, sometimes if feels miles away.

I feel this exactly. We'll get through it, together.

Welcome to the Org! I'm glad you jumped in and shared was was on your mind and on your heart. This IS the only place that I've found that people GET it and it's such a relief to not have to censor your feelings regarding Prince for those who just don't understand how you/us/we could still be so upset over 'someone you didn't even know/never met/a celebrity.' This 'wave' of the grief coaster shall pass too. Hopefully the next one will be a smidge easier and so on.

Welcome....

We all know how you feel...and even after all this time, the separation pain can catch you...

I sobbed Today...

I found this

YOUTUBE~Prince - I Can't Love You Anymore From I'll Do Anything soundtrack unreleased

Your comments give me serious comfort. Thank you everyone.

You are definitely not alone. I still tear up too.

My merchandise order from Paisley Park came in the other day, and I just kept looking at the name "Paisley Park" in the sender section. At that moment, I thought, "Oh, God, he's gone." Now I know this, but more concrete evidence of the tragedy. You are not alone. We are all still grieving.

The pure excitement and enthusiasm on his face

YES

mechanicalemotion17 said:

AnnaStesia91 said:

The other night I was having Braxton Hicks pretty bad so I was just UP at 3am and I felt compelled to turn on Prince. It has honestly been a couple of weeks. I was okay until I got to the guitar solo on Purple Rain. I don't even like that song but the second half, how his guitar sounds like it's crying, has always really gotten to me. It's a reality that I struggle with, the fact that hes not here. I know that it happened and I know he wasn't invincible but that doesn't make it hurt any less. I struggled with MJs death for years and I wasn't even CLOSE to as big of a fan. But I remember a couple of years ago when that "Love Never Felt so Good" video came out and I BALLED my eyes out because there were little kids who were influenced by him and were babies when he died and just showing how the children really carry the torch and carry on the legacy. I'm hoping in 4-5 years we can see his influence in little fans that want to be like him.

We will! Prince's legacy will live on forever and it's up to us as the fam to make sure of that. I have already seen little kids who are influenced by Prince whether it be his fashion, music, or style. I played a live censored version of 'DMSR' for my 7 year old nephew and he absolutely enjoyed it! He danced the entire song.

Oh man PurpleEmotions, your story really got to me. I was blasting Adore today listening to the full SOTT album and so love this song it's a big part of my childhood. So it made me sad to hear this one got these sad emotions outta you. As other purple fam have stated, you are not alone we all feel your pain and are with you. I miss him completely and still cannot believe he is gone. In order to feel him I need to play his music every single day and I wake up to some random Prince song in my head. To this day I still cannot hear Sometimes It Snows In April without balling my eyes out. I just wanted to say my heart goes out to you, and anyone else who is hurting and missing Prince.

PurpleEmotion I feel you on everything you've said. I still cry about his passing. It just doesn't seem real to me. So many of his songs bring me to tears, including "Sometimes it Snows in April" and the instrumental last half of "Purple Rain". It all just doesn't feel right. His life was so fully lived and he did so much for the world in so many ways. I hope that he knew how much he was loved and that he knows now how much we miss him and try to honor him in our daily lives. I have a suspicion that he lived his life as fully as he knew how and that he was comfortable with his mortality, knowing that we all can leave this earth at any time. He was a man of great faith, talent, and heart that I try to emulate in my day to day life. I think that's what he would want us to do. I have found the org to be my therapy, and it is so helpful to come here and see that I'm not alone in my grief.