I was revisiting my blog today, wanting to get back into writing. I had written nothing since August because I've been struggling with life, been trying to still come to terms with April 21st. While revisiting my blog, I looked at the last blog I had written. It was a letter to Prince, about my inability to say "good bye", my need for closure, my desire to let Prince know just what he meant to me. I realized it was fitting that this was the last blog I had written in 2016 because that year was the year of Prince for me. From January 2016 (actually, months previously in 2015, too) through December 31st, 2016, my heart, my thoughts, every endeavor, every encounter, was done with Prince on my mind, in my heart, permeating my soul. 2016 was the year of Prince for me. Prior to 2016, I got every album, I listened to every song, I joined his online websites, but never had I ever put my entire being in razor sharp focus on Prince. Life would get in the way. I would focus on other things. I could go days, weeks, months, without thinking about Prince because I had my life to live. But from right before January 2016 and through this entire year, he was always in my hair.

I wanted to share that last blog of 2016 with you, my inability to say good bye to our Dear and Beautiful Prince.

https://onevoice4peace.co...view=true

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Inasenselost said:

Oh, benni...I remember reading this in August...brought tears to my eyes again re-reading it today. We've shared before about our experiences at the magical Atlanta concerts in April, and I so relate to you when you say 2016 was "the year of Prince...it was for me as well. Sending much healing light to you. So glad you are writing again, and thank you for sharing your beautiful blog with us. Never saying goodbye to our sweet Prince... [Edited 1/1/17 18:52pm] [Edited 1/1/17 18:53pm]

I have come to realize that I will never be able to say good bye to Prince, either. Much love to you Inasenselost, too. And thank you for your beautiful comments.

Hi Benni....

Just found this..I hadnt read it earlier...

I always love that Tweet..

You and I met first on a thread talking about Princes Spirituality....and by conincidence..One of my MY NICK names in real life is Benni....

Thank you for sharing your deeply personal feelings....You blog, is beautiful and Ill be back there...

I felt such a bitter sweet Painful Bliss reading your words Dear Benni...

Prince what did you do to us......?

That is THE Question isnt it ?

He is NO Ordinairy Being.....In time this will become more apparent...

grateful to be holding on to the special kind of Bliss...

The only SOLACE and Relief is when I deepen my own personal quest to KNOW and LOVE god...

I falter a lot,,,,but Im sticking to the path becasue I know thats where Ill find

............HIM...

BIG LOVE from AUSTRALIA

Benni

[Edited 1/2/17 6:15am]

Lovejunky said:

Hi Benni....

Just found this..I hadnt read it earlier...

I always love that Tweet..

You and I met first on a thread talking about Princes Spirituality....and by conincidence..One of my MY NICK names in real life is Benni....

Thank you for sharing your deeply personal feelings....You blog, is beautiful and Ill be back there...

I felt such a bitter sweet Painful Bliss reading your words Dear Benni...

Prince what did you do to us......?

That is THE Question isnt it ?

He is NO Ordinairy Being.....In time this will become more apparent...

grateful to be holding on to the special kind of Bliss...

The only SOLACE and Relief is when I deepen my own personal quest to KNOW and LOVE god...

I falter a lot,,,,but Im sticking to the path becasue I know thats where Ill find

............HIM...

BIG LOVE from AUSTRALIA

Benni

[Edited 1/2/17 6:15am]

Thank you, Love, for your kind words. Btw, my nickname in real life is benni (given to me by my younger sister when she was 2 - she couldn't say my real name, so she started calling me benni and has always called me benni). I sat at the login for The Holy River chatroom back in 1998, trying to think of a name to use. I didn't want to use my real name and realized "benni" had always been my name by one of the three that mattered most to me in my world, the one I spent a childhood protecting, keeping safe, raising, so I used what I considered to be the real me. And I've become known for this name and now have many that call me benni, and not just my sister. lol (More info than you wanted, I'm sure.) I've wondered if I realized on some level how important the people in that chatroom would become to me through the years and I wanted them to see the real me.

Thank you for sharing Benni...