anangellooksdown said:

I'm glad to see people healing a bit. I also have reached some acceptance some of the time. It does feel weird because the blow was so hard and deep and has been so long-lasting that it's become a part of me to be grieving. Like NorthC said, there is some guilt for not feeling as horrible all the time as I did a few months ago. Yesterday morning I actually "said to Prince", "Don't worry...I'm not going to leave you." or something like that. I don't want to leave him out there alone. Oh shite, I just started crying again. But see this is where I have to do several things. Number one, I gotta trust God. He's got Prince safe and protected and at peace and I think even bliss and pleasure. And we're all gonna die. Number two, I have to recognize when I'm getting addicted to my depression. Ego does that. It wants us unhappy and not free. Third, I gotta remember that Prince had a very generous loving side to him and he would want us happy, not sad. So it's okay to move on from the sadness to other feelings...good feelings. I commend those of you who are letting yourselves actually feel the feelings. It's probably the one thing we humans try to run from.

Anangellooksdown: Thank you for sharing your feelings, so beautiful. Each day is a journey, and know you are not alone in this one. Bless you!

morningsong said:

roxy831 said:

Deep

It's just trying to fully understand the affect it had on me. There's a new normal to get use to. That's the accepting part.

Absolutely a new normal.

To be 100% honest with myself and all of you -

I still haven't accepted that Prince isn't alive anymore...

HE WAS THE MOST VIBRANT, FUNKY, COOL, SMOOTH,

TOGETHER, HEALTHY, SPIRITUAL,

PERSON ON EARTH!!!

What the hell happened?!?!?!

[Edited 11/10/16 16:53pm]

MD431Madcat said:

To be 100% honest with myself and all of you -

I still haven't accepted that Prince isn't alive anymore...

HE WAS THE MOST VIBRANT, FUNKY, COOL, SMOOTH,

TOGETHER, HEALTHY, SPIRITUAL,

PERSON ON EARTH!!!

What the hell happened?!?!?!

[Edited 11/10/16 16:53pm]

He got very ill, then he died. I'm amazed you didn't hear it in his voice on all those 3rdeyetunes you definitely downloaded for $0.88 each and could hear it in his voice couldn't you?

.

All I've used is the internet newspaper stock archive photos of Prince in 1984 - they almost appear grainy enough for me to accept that Prince mostly happened several decades ago, and all organic perceptions of time fade despite our current efforts preserve digitally the inherent racism that naturally falls from legalizing marijuana in 28 states.

[Edited 11/10/16 17:09pm]

^ Get down with your baad self!

roxy831 said:

MD431Madcat said:

^ Get down with your baad self!

my lungs are fkd. I've resorted to snorting Germoline. Seriously, did you not see any of the photos of Prince on his 2014 HitnRun tour of the UK? He looked sick as a badger which one would assume would come naturally from having to tour the UK but not getting better afterwards? Damn.

.

PS I am a robot

cloveringold85 said:

NorthC said:

What we're going to have to deal with is that this forum will never be back to what it once was. Ever again. Let's not make things worse by arguing amongst each other! [Edited 11/10/16 12:35pm]

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What I don't understand is how some people will go out of their way just to be rude. I mean, if you see a thread topic you don't like, why click on it and then proceed to read the comments, then post a rude and condescending comment showing your distaste for the topic content?

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There is no need to be nasty here.

Exactly

anangellooksdown said:

I'm glad to see people healing a bit. I also have reached some acceptance some of the time. It does feel weird because the blow was so hard and deep and has been so long-lasting that it's become a part of me to be grieving. Like NorthC said, there is some guilt for not feeling as horrible all the time as I did a few months ago. Yesterday morning I actually "said to Prince", "Don't worry...I'm not going to leave you." or something like that. I don't want to leave him out there alone. Oh shite, I just started crying again. But see this is where I have to do several things. Number one, I gotta trust God. He's got Prince safe and protected and at peace and I think even bliss and pleasure. And we're all gonna die. Number two, I have to recognize when I'm getting addicted to my depression. Ego does that. It wants us unhappy and not free. Third, I gotta remember that Prince had a very generous loving side to him and he would want us happy, not sad. So it's okay to move on from the sadness to other feelings...good feelings. I commend those of you who are letting yourselves actually feel the feelings. It's probably the one thing we humans try to run from.

Thank you for this.

The sadness has lightened up for me considerably. But that's happened many times before since April, and then all it takes is 1 song or some unexpected mention of him on tv/radio and my eyes fill up with tears again and it feels almost worse than it did before.

[Edited 11/10/16 19:43pm]

laurarichardson said:

roxy831 said:

This is the first month since his death that I can go days without crying or feeling heavy-hearted about his passing. It feels weird, like I should never stop mourning him. I know I was tired of crying. I know I wanted to move forward, but now that I'm here, it feels weird. How's everybody else doing? Purple love to you all.

-- A lot of it is because his death is so senseless. If he had died of old age it would make sense.

Exactly, he was suppose to get old, that's what hurts so much.

anangellooksdown said:

I'm glad to see people healing a bit. I also have reached some acceptance some of the time. It does feel weird because the blow was so hard and deep and has been so long-lasting that it's become a part of me to be grieving. Like NorthC said, there is some guilt for not feeling as horrible all the time as I did a few months ago. Yesterday morning I actually "said to Prince", "Don't worry...I'm not going to leave you." or something like that. I don't want to leave him out there alone. Oh shite, I just started crying again. But see this is where I have to do several things. Number one, I gotta trust God. He's got Prince safe and protected and at peace and I think even bliss and pleasure. And we're all gonna die. Number two, I have to recognize when I'm getting addicted to my depression. Ego does that. It wants us unhappy and not free. Third, I gotta remember that Prince had a very generous loving side to him and he would want us happy, not sad. So it's okay to move on from the sadness to other feelings...good feelings. I commend those of you who are letting yourselves actually feel the feelings. It's probably the one thing we humans try to run from.

This is so so beautiful, and just how I feel. It made me cry too, when I read this, just now, at this moment, post election, post 6 months, when I feel things have shifted too, in some deep way. Suddenly I'm ok now to let him go from his bodily life, and content to accept as more familiar his cosmic omnipresence, perhaps more powerful now, then when he was here with us in his body. love and peace everyone, truly. lets lift to our best selves.

oliviacamron said:

roxy831 said:

This is the first month since his death that I can go days without crying or feeling heavy-hearted about his passing. It feels weird, like I should never stop mourning him. I know I was tired of crying. I know I wanted to move forward, but now that I'm here, it feels weird. How's everybody else doing? Purple love to you all.

I been avoiding this thread. Hit it by accident. All I can say is yea that. Now I have to go. Not ready for this thread

I'm patient, olivia. Take your time.

Wlcm2thdwn3 said:

The sadness has lightened up for me considerably. But that's happened many times before since April, and then all it takes is 1 song or some unexpected mention of him on tv/radio and my eyes fill up with tears again and it feels almost worse than it did before.

[Edited 11/10/16 19:43pm]

Yes, I almost had a moment yesterday. Drove with my boss to a training session, and he had P on his playlist in the car . Mind you, Baby-Boomer and my boss . He's like a 'dad' to me. Anyway, Whitney Houston came up on the playlist and my heart sank....Luther, Michael, Whitney, Prince. My heros all gone. Dear, God.

rainbowchild said:

MD431Madcat said:

To be 100% honest with myself and all of you -

I still haven't accepted that Prince isn't alive anymore...

HE WAS THE MOST VIBRANT, FUNKY, COOL, SMOOTH,

TOGETHER, HEALTHY, SPIRITUAL,

PERSON ON EARTH!!!

What the hell happened?!?!?!

[Edited 11/10/16 16:53pm]

ditto that

I know that he's no longer here, but I don't know if I can call that acceptance or not, because I still can't believe he's gone from this world. It still seems unreal to me, and it still hurts my heart when I really think about him no longer here on earth. Sometimes it like I have to really tell myself that Prince is dead, and even saying those words hurt, because I don't like how they sound in my head, forcing me to face the truth. I still don't want this to be true.

1contessa said:

I know that he's no longer here, but I don't know if I can call that acceptance or not, because I still can't believe he's gone from this world. It still seems unreal to me, and it still hurts my heart when I really think about him no longer here on earth. Sometimes it like I have to really tell myself that Prince is dead, and even saying those words hurt, because I don't like how they sound in my head, forcing me to face the truth. I still don't want this to be true.

Totally understand...

Yes..

roxy831 said:

1contessa said:

I know that he's no longer here, but I don't know if I can call that acceptance or not, because I still can't believe he's gone from this world. It still seems unreal to me, and it still hurts my heart when I really think about him no longer here on earth. Sometimes it like I have to really tell myself that Prince is dead, and even saying those words hurt, because I don't like how they sound in my head, forcing me to face the truth. I still don't want this to be true.

Totally understand...

AlgeriaTouchshreek said:

MD431Madcat said:

To be 100% honest with myself and all of you -

I still haven't accepted that Prince isn't alive anymore...

HE WAS THE MOST VIBRANT, FUNKY, COOL, SMOOTH,

TOGETHER, HEALTHY, SPIRITUAL,

PERSON ON EARTH!!!

What the hell happened?!?!?!

[Edited 11/10/16 16:53pm]

He got very ill, then he died. I'm amazed you didn't hear it in his voice on all those 3rdeyetunes you definitely downloaded for $0.88 each and could hear it in his voice couldn't you?

.

All I've used is the internet newspaper stock archive photos of Prince in 1984 - they almost appear grainy enough for me to accept that Prince mostly happened several decades ago, and all organic perceptions of time fade despite our current efforts preserve digitally the inherent racism that naturally falls from legalizing marijuana in 28 states.

[Edited 11/10/16 17:09pm]

Algria, what the hell are you talking about? Please... step away from the crack pipe. Your comment almost made sense until I got to the end. Yeeesh already!

lunabelle said:

anangellooksdown said:

I'm glad to see people healing a bit. I also have reached some acceptance some of the time. It does feel weird because the blow was so hard and deep and has been so long-lasting that it's become a part of me to be grieving. Like NorthC said, there is some guilt for not feeling as horrible all the time as I did a few months ago. Yesterday morning I actually "said to Prince", "Don't worry...I'm not going to leave you." or something like that. I don't want to leave him out there alone. Oh shite, I just started crying again. But see this is where I have to do several things. Number one, I gotta trust God. He's got Prince safe and protected and at peace and I think even bliss and pleasure. And we're all gonna die. Number two, I have to recognize when I'm getting addicted to my depression. Ego does that. It wants us unhappy and not free. Third, I gotta remember that Prince had a very generous loving side to him and he would want us happy, not sad. So it's okay to move on from the sadness to other feelings...good feelings. I commend those of you who are letting yourselves actually feel the feelings. It's probably the one thing we humans try to run from.

This is so so beautiful, and just how I feel. It made me cry too, when I read this, just now, at this moment, post election, post 6 months, when I feel things have shifted too, in some deep way. Suddenly I'm ok now to let him go from his bodily life, and content to accept as more familiar his cosmic omnipresence, perhaps more powerful now, then when he was here with us in his body. love and peace everyone, truly. lets lift to our best selves.

Thank you both, and yes "Angel", I too cried when I read your post. I told Prince the same thing, that I would never forget him and I would do all in my power to not let others forget him either. I'm pretty sure I'm insane, but there are times when I feel his spirit all around me and a warm tingle runs up my spine. And of course I start bawling again. I even have a name for these "outbursts" now. I call it "losing my sh!t".

When I'm in public and I feel one of those moods coming on, I say to myself "Hey, don't lose your sh!t right now - pull it together" LOL! Pathetic, I know...

DiamondStarr said:

lunabelle said:

This is so so beautiful, and just how I feel. It made me cry too, when I read this, just now, at this moment, post election, post 6 months, when I feel things have shifted too, in some deep way. Suddenly I'm ok now to let him go from his bodily life, and content to accept as more familiar his cosmic omnipresence, perhaps more powerful now, then when he was here with us in his body. love and peace everyone, truly. lets lift to our best selves.

Thank you both, and yes "Angel", I too cried when I read your post. I told Prince the same thing, that I would never forget him and I would do all in my power to not let others forget him either. I'm pretty sure I'm insane, but there are times when I feel his spirit all around me and a warm tingle runs up my spine. And of course I start bawling again. I even have a name for these "outbursts" now. I call it "losing my sh!t".

When I'm in public and I feel one of those moods coming on, I say to myself "Hey, don't lose your sh!t right now - pull it together" LOL! Pathetic, I know...

.

No, you are not pathetic at all. You are only human and your feelings are your own; so, don't run away from them. Embrace those feeling you have. I was really touched by what you said.

CalhounSq said:

It is starting to feel different for me. I'm still sad of course, & have been moved to tears just a few days ago, but somehow it feels a pebble less heavy. I guess I'm starting to accept it, or maybe enough other awful things have happened in the world & are taking up room. I don't always want to be so sad about him, I don't want to sigh & feel that painful ping in my heart every time I see a photo. I'll never get over this, but it's a bit of a relief that it's getting slightly less awful. Time heals, or as he said, time is a trick... It really is

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In time, the pain will be less and less, but the love will always be there. I know what you mean--sometimes, when I hear him sing, I start to break-down. We have to remember the good things about Prince. Think about his smile and his wonderful laugh and just the incredible person he was, outside of his music. All the wonderful stories about his practical jokes, playing basketball in heels, making pancakes and omelets for his friends........Those are the things that warm my heart. I will always love Prince and always miss him, but we all are so blessed with the wonderful gifts he gave to all of us!! Peace & Love!!

This is wonderful. Thank you so much!

anangellooksdown said:

I'm glad to see people healing a bit. I also have reached some acceptance some of the time. It does feel weird because the blow was so hard and deep and has been so long-lasting that it's become a part of me to be grieving. Like NorthC said, there is some guilt for not feeling as horrible all the time as I did a few months ago. Yesterday morning I actually "said to Prince", "Don't worry...I'm not going to leave you." or something like that. I don't want to leave him out there alone. Oh shite, I just started crying again. But see this is where I have to do several things. Number one, I gotta trust God. He's got Prince safe and protected and at peace and I think even bliss and pleasure. And we're all gonna die. Number two, I have to recognize when I'm getting addicted to my depression. Ego does that. It wants us unhappy and not free. Third, I gotta remember that Prince had a very generous loving side to him and he would want us happy, not sad. So it's okay to move on from the sadness to other feelings...good feelings. I commend those of you who are letting yourselves actually feel the feelings. It's probably the one thing we humans try to run from.

It really doesn't feel real to me either. Obviously we all will die, but Prince had a way of making himself feel eternal in music, confidence, charity, love, etc etc

1contessa said:

I know that he's no longer here, but I don't know if I can call that acceptance or not, because I still can't believe he's gone from this world. It still seems unreal to me, and it still hurts my heart when I really think about him no longer here on earth. Sometimes it like I have to really tell myself that Prince is dead, and even saying those words hurt, because I don't like how they sound in my head, forcing me to face the truth. I still don't want this to be true.

You all are really all I (and others) have to move through this process. I want the record to show that I appreciate you all (the kind, the neutral, and the baligerant...lol). Without you, I don't know how I and others who love this man (present tense I might add), could make it through this time SANE! Blessings to you all!