i'm new to the .org and really find this community comforting and help me not feel like such a freak. Never felt this kind of sadness and emptyness.

i took him for granted when he was here! why didn't i travel to see him???

When I had the chance....

HE SHOULD STILL BE HERE.. Why was he even alone that night, in that huge place.

then there are times when i feel he's not gone, I feel him all around even when I am not listening to his music

i feel like i lost a friend, thanks for letting me share and for sharing your emotions as well

it's like thearpy

Just thinking the same thing yesterday! The first 2 weeks after the news, I ha d a knot in my stomach. Finally got better, Now it's back! Prince, Why? Why? Why?!

I still haven't accepted his Death..

Prince DEAD?!? of a DRUG OVERDOSE?!?

WTF?!?

MD431Madcat said:

I still haven't accepted his Death..

Prince DEAD?!? of a DRUG OVERDOSE?!?

WTF?!?

EXACTLY!!! completely surreal

Me too. About once a week I find myself going on a YouTube binge and watching all this stuff I'd never seen before. Sometimes I look a the clock and realize I forgot to eat dinner. I still get the goosebumps like I used to but now they're coupled with that hard lump in my throatand the watery eyes.

It really comes and goes. The other day I put a post on facebook saying how sad i felt that day about his loss and most of my friends told me to pull myself together. It really is nice to come on here and see that other people feel the same. I have lost a lot of close people in my life but this hurts just as much which makes no sence even to me but I am so sad and crying all the time.

A hard pill to swallow is not appreciating loved ones while they were alive. Lesson I have learned in all of this is to appreciate the people in your life that mean so much to you while they are here on this earth. I understand what some are feeling too like why didn't I see this or that in Prince while he was alive, why didn't I make more of an attempt to see him live or go out to Paisley Park. These are all normal grieving reactions.

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I have had many a break down around family and friends over the loss of Prince, and someone put it to me as simply as this..."You just thought Prince wouldn't die so soon, that you just had more time." This is the truth. I naively thought that he would live forever. But I have thought this way also about dear family that were so important to me. I think when you love someone so much you kind of see them as immortal in a way. They are so strong in your spirit that they cannot die, even when they do.

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I just wanted to give you all hugs again. Never ever feel you are a freak or obsessed for watching and enjoying Prince on YT or FB or coming on the Org for comfort. You do what you gotta do to grieve and make peace with this whole situation. For me know, it's therapeutic to listen to his music and watch his concerts on line. I feel his presence - have feel I have some peace.

Love y'all have a Princey day!

I was thinking about Prince today and how sad I am that he is gone, and how cool he was and how lucky some people where to know him, and wonder if he would think I was cool. (He would) Then after that I thought how sad it is that he had no children and that he wasn't married and that on the day he left us, he was alone..that broke my heart. How did that happen? Millions of people loved him? He was a household name. People even know what this is; for cryin out loud. That not only makes me f'n miss him, but wonder WTF?

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ldmendes said:

I was thinking about Prince today and how sad I am that he is gone, and how cool he was and how lucky some people where to know him, and wonder if he would think I was cool. (He would) Then after that I thought how sad it is that he had no children and that he wasn't married and that on the day he left us, he was alone..that broke my heart. How did that happen? Millions of people loved him? He was a household name. People even know what this is; for cryin out loud. That not only makes me f'n miss him, but wonder WTF?

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I hear ya ldmendes. I too have had many of WTF moments, like why is this and that old musician still alive but Prince is gone?!? And I have asked God why wasn't Prince and Mayte able to have children, or why wasn't Prince able to have any children with someone else. It makes me sad too, for I feel there was a time he reallly wanted this. I personally believe in God, and I also believe we are meant to have certain things and meant to not have certain things. I still feel Prince was really blessed in his life, I mean look at the life he led. He was able to make music for a living and give back to the world in ways only he could, which I know made him tremendously happy. He got to travel the world and live and create in Paisley Park. He got to meet so any interesting people and give back to so many charities and causes.

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He was truly inspirational and this fact too makes me feel at times like, man it was not his time to go, he had so much more to do. Why do all the good ones have to leave us so soon?? I don't know why this sad fact is true. It stinks. I feel your pain. I play Prince music and his concerts all day long wherever I am at, and talk to people about Prince, and try to be kind to people and give back as much as I can. Prince is ALIVE in all of us, he is not gone. Yeah it sucks that his earthly body is not here amoung us, but is spirit is still alive and well. I feel it. And its up to us Prince fans to help preserve and support his legacy the best way we know how. And to never ever stop listening to his music and the words of his songs!

i'm missing him alot today - can't get my smile on today.

loveandkindness said:

I makes me feel good coming to the org. I do love watching and listening to Prince but it is bittersweet.....never is a long time. My dad is in the hospital sounds like he's not gonna make it we had second opinions so today I'm catching the train to visit him...one more time...this mortality, this life there ..is the everlasting I have no doubt. I love you all so much we are one in a sense ...for me this reminds me to be kind, love each other not to get wrapped up in the gossip, the lies the nothing's each day make it count ....hugs to you, I hope you feel better and know you are not alone....

I'm sorry, loveandkindness. I lost my grandfather and I lost a mentor within the last eight months.

AnnaStesia10 said:

ldmendes said:

I was thinking about Prince today and how sad I am that he is gone, and how cool he was and how lucky some people where to know him, and wonder if he would think I was cool. (He would) Then after that I thought how sad it is that he had no children and that he wasn't married and that on the day he left us, he was alone..that broke my heart. How did that happen? Millions of people loved him? He was a household name. People even know what this is; for cryin out loud. That not only makes me f'n miss him, but wonder WTF?

[Edited 7/15/16 13:20pm]

I hear ya ldmendes. I too have had many of WTF moments, like why is this and that old musician still alive but Prince is gone?!? And I have asked God why wasn't Prince and Mayte able to have children, or why wasn't Prince able to have any children with someone else. It makes me sad too, for I feel there was a time he reallly wanted this. I personally believe in God, and I also believe we are meant to have certain things and meant to not have certain things. I still feel Prince was really blessed in his life, I mean look at the life he led. He was able to make music for a living and give back to the world in ways only he could, which I know made him tremendously happy. He got to travel the world and live and create in Paisley Park. He got to meet so any interesting people and give back to so many charities and causes.

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He was truly inspirational and this fact too makes me feel at times like, man it was not his time to go, he had so much more to do. Why do all the good ones have to leave us so soon?? I don't know why this sad fact is true. It stinks. I feel your pain. I play Prince music and his concerts all day long wherever I am at, and talk to people about Prince, and try to be kind to people and give back as much as I can. Prince is ALIVE in all of us, he is not gone. Yeah it sucks that his earthly body is not here amoung us, but is spirit is still alive and well. I feel it. And its up to us Prince fans to help preserve and support his legacy the best way we know how. And to never ever stop listening to his music and the words of his songs!

I think as time goes by he will become even more famous, his vault is such a mystery and that is exciting. Buildings, streets, children, planets all will bear his name, and I'll be able to say I was there. I live in Massachusetts and I want to make a pilgimage to Paisley Park and I hope to do to soon. I'm a little concerned it will become a little Disney-ish, but it's important to me to go. Take care and thanks y'all

MD431Madcat said:

So do I.

Me too...

Still thinking about this all the time...

Loveandkindness I am really sorry to hear what you are going through right now. Stay Strong. People keep telling me that I am still talking about Prince as if he is still here. Like if I don't say it it will not be true. Just like I can't delete any of the news or shows from the night od April 21st. Its like if I do I am somehow deleting him. I know this is dumb but what can you do.

Me too. I just got the Montreux DVD this morning in the mail and I'm watching it now. I can't believe he's gone

LBrent said:

I've been crying on and off the past few days. More than I did when I first found out. Sometimes I just lay in bed watching everything I can find on YouTube. Sometimes I'll see him being particularly adorable and I sob. I know it's not healthy, but I can't stop myself. The closest I've felt to this level of grief is when my father died when I was 15 years old, nearly 40 years ago. I feel like I have to hide it too. Like no one but a fellow fan would ever understand why I feel connected to a complete stranger. But that's just it. Ever since hearing Soft & Wet when I was around 17 years old, he's been in my head and in my heart. I remember hearing a snip of some musical instrument and immediately knowing that either it was him or somehow related to him in some way. It was uncanny and pissed nonfans off for some strange reason. Lol I miss him so much that I'm nearly numb. The only thing that helps a bit is coming here where y'all don't think it's odd.

I feel exactly the same way. My only source of comraderie is here on the org. My family and friends are looking at me with a raised eyebrow these days. I spend a lot of time in my car with my stereo and Prince. It's balancing being able to come here........

I've just chosen to not accept it....

Loveandkindness I am so sorry for your loss. There is nothing anyone can say to help I really feel loss is such a personal thing that we all have to go through in our own way. I know when I lossed my Mum and Dad which happened within 10 weeks of each other Prince's music helped me cry and learn to smile again. All you can say is take it a day at a time cry when you need to and know that there are people out here that understand. Sending a big hug.

loveandkindness said:

Thank you all so much for your kindness... I arrived safely to go see dad and he passed over before my train arrived.....ugh It came unexpected and sudden I am feeling lost. I'm truly looking at one day at a time and am looking at this mortality thing we all must face. Yes indeed I am appreciating each and everyone of you. I'm going to listen to The Ladder Prince created such healing songs. Hugs

Oh no. I am so very sorry for your losses. Please do NOT beat yourself up over not being with your Dad when he passed. I've had similar experiences and just know that you weren't supposed to be. For what reason, we don't know. But the "if only and the what if's" will worsen the grief.

While having completely different roles in your life, I can't imagine losing both Prince and a father so close to each other.

Know that we care and support you...

loveandkindness said:

Hugs thanks....I love you guys have a purple Monday!!!!

Hugs back to you and Happy Purple Monday to you all!

I just wanted to tell you I am so sorry for the loss of your Father.

I feel for you, and you are not alone we are all here for you!

Me too. I think about him everyday and miss him everyday.