For the past few days it's just be choking me. I miss him so much that it's taking my breath away. It's different from the grief I experienced when he first left. My heart feels empty. I have a hollowness inside of me; a kind of cold that can't be warmed. I fucking miss him. I'm sick of him being dead. I wish I could call time on this death thing and bring him back.

it comes and goes, eh?

yep

u crazy...search ...find all the new stuff being uploaded....enjoy

Me too! I really wish he never started taking those medications, things didn't have to happen this way. Not how I pictured him leaving us, too soon! I wish I could have taken my son to see him in concert.

[Edited 7/11/16 19:55pm]

were those paisley videos with 3rd eye girl on youtube released officially? i never saw them before

LBrent said:

I've been crying on and off the past few days. More than I did when I first found out. Sometimes I just lay in bed watching everything I can find on YouTube. Sometimes I'll see him being particularly adorable and I sob. I know it's not healthy, but I can't stop myself. The closest I've felt to this level of grief is when my father died when I was 15 years old, nearly 40 years ago. I feel like I have to hide it too. Like no one but a fellow fan would ever understand why I feel connected to a complete stranger. But that's just it. Ever since hearing Soft & Wet when I was around 17 years old, he's been in my head and in my heart. I remember hearing a snip of some musical instrument and immediately knowing that either it was him or somehow related to him in some way. It was uncanny and pissed nonfans off for some strange reason. Lol I miss him so much that I'm nearly numb. The only thing that helps a bit is coming here where y'all don't think it's odd.

I know how you feel. Keep your head up! I think we can all say we do similar things.... my daily routine is Prince in the morning, Prince in the evening, Prince at supper time It is really comforting knowing other people (here) feel the same way...

PCEANDBWLD said:

luvsexy4all said:

u crazy...search ...find all the new stuff being uploaded....enjoy

Thank you so much for taking 5 seconds to minimize my extreme pain to fit into something your small mind can understand. And thank you for doing it in a space where expressing such feelings should be safe to do. You have a blessed day.

isobelfq said:

luvsexy4all said:

u crazy...search ...find all the new stuff being uploaded....enjoy

Thank you so much for taking 5 seconds to minimize my extreme pain to fit into something your small mind can understand. And thank you for doing it in a space where expressing such feelings should be safe to do. You have a blessed day.

Ignore it. we feel you.

(aslo it seems like luvsexy may be posting in the wrong thread? Their other post doesnt make much sense here.)

isobelfq said:

LBrent said:

I've been crying on and off the past few days. More than I did when I first found out. Sometimes I just lay in bed watching everything I can find on YouTube. Sometimes I'll see him being particularly adorable and I sob. I know it's not healthy, but I can't stop myself. The closest I've felt to this level of grief is when my father died when I was 15 years old, nearly 40 years ago. I feel like I have to hide it too. Like no one but a fellow fan would ever understand why I feel connected to a complete stranger. But that's just it. Ever since hearing Soft & Wet when I was around 17 years old, he's been in my head and in my heart. I remember hearing a snip of some musical instrument and immediately knowing that either it was him or somehow related to him in some way. It was uncanny and pissed nonfans off for some strange reason. Lol I miss him so much that I'm nearly numb. The only thing that helps a bit is coming here where y'all don't think it's odd.

Oh LBrent, your post really got to my heart. I feel you completely and too feel extreme sadness and find me binge watching anything on him, it helpls and then it hurts. I also agree with you, only a Prince fan could understand this. I have very few people in my life that grieve him the way I do, and I can only compare it to a loss of a sibling or parent, that is how strong this grieve and connection is. I did not need to know him personally. I have been listening to Prince's voice and musical genius since I was 9 years old (1982), so he has been woven into my being basically my whole life. Now that he is gone, I feel utter sadness like I haven't felt since I lost my mommi in 2015. I tell ya last year and this year sucks big time and I am being tested like a mutha sucka.

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I just wanted to reach out to you, to all of you, that I too am in deep pain and I thought it would get better with time, but for me it has gotten a little stronger - the pain. The org is total therapy for me and I don't know you all but I love you all because I feel your thoughts and emotions via your words. And it makes me feel a little closer to our main man that we lost. I find keeping busy with other things helps, but when I take a break I always jump on the org or YT and start my Prince searches all over again. I cannot stop. I don't feel as crazy when I find others are doing it too. I just feel we are still in a lot of pain and kinda still in disbelief that this frickin' really happened. My heart goes out to you!

AnnaStesia10 said:

The thoughts in my head in no particular order:

Why are you dead? Why aren't you here? I can't believe you're not alive. Why am I still alive when you're not here? Hey, I saw this thing which reminds me of you...that you might like...oh..right...I can't tell you...it's so weird I have these dreams about you and I can't tell you about them...this thing makes me sad because it means you are really gone...

[Edited 7/12/16 21:54pm]

Everything on this thread

Very comforting knowing we all feel the same and can relate to each other. I hope everyone has a great day! XOXOXO!

when you have a tendency to be a bit dyslexic the title of this thread can be shocking.

isobelfq said:

Me too, I feel very empty and infinitely sad knowing there will never be another concert. I still do not think even my closest "Prince buddies" that I know in real life feel the loss as deeply as I do. Everyone seems to have moved on. The FB groups I belong to irritate me, they seem to trivialize him.

CROWNS1 said:

I was going through my DVR recordings from when Prince past and there was a picture that I hadn't seen and I just started bawling. So I am sending a group hug for everyone who is still working their grief out.

PurpleBabied said:

The thoughts in my head in no particular order:

Why are you dead? Why aren't you here? I can't believe you're not alive. Why am I still alive when you're not here? Hey, I saw this thing which reminds me of you...that you might like...oh..right...I can't tell you...it's so weird I have these dreams about you and I can't tell you about them...this thing makes me sad because it means you are really gone...

[Edited 7/12/16 21:54pm]

Thoughts in my head.

How are you dead when xyz is/are still alive. I can't believe I have to go through the rest of this life without you. I wish you would be reincarnated so there was some part of you on this earth again but I know you're finished and have no need to come back. I will never love anyone the way I love you. I've lost the love of my life. My soulmate is gone.

CROWNS1 said:

when you have a tendency to be a bit dyslexic the title of this thread can be shocking.

That too...

I just wanted to take this moment to thank you all. I love all of my fellow purple army/purple hippies. Thank you for being there and understanding. We need to support and love each other through this.

sulls said:

isobelfq said:

For the past few days it's just be choking me. I miss him so much that it's taking my breath away. It's different from the grief I experienced when he first left. My heart feels empty. I have a hollowness inside of me; a kind of cold that can't be warmed. I fucking miss him. I'm sick of him being dead. I wish I could call time on this death thing and bring him back.

Sounds like it's really sinking in. Me too, man.

It hurts. I've found myself listening to a lot of Maxwell over the past 24 hours, as it has become too painful to listen to Prince sometimes. Maxwell kind of reminds me of Prince, so, for me, this is a sort of safe middle ground.

isobelfq said:

luvsexy4all said:

u crazy...search ...find all the new stuff being uploaded....enjoy

Thank you so much for taking 5 seconds to minimize my extreme pain to fit into something your small mind can understand. And thank you for doing it in a space where expressing such feelings should be safe to do. You have a blessed day.

wow..excuse me for trivializing your pain...just thought u would feel good by hearing unheard material...works for me

luvsexy4all said:

isobelfq said:

Thank you so much for taking 5 seconds to minimize my extreme pain to fit into something your small mind can understand. And thank you for doing it in a space where expressing such feelings should be safe to do. You have a blessed day.

wow..excuse me for trivializing your pain...just thought u would feel good by hearing unheard material...works for me

im in NYC also...

luvsexy4all said:

isobelfq said:

Thank you so much for taking 5 seconds to minimize my extreme pain to fit into something your small mind can understand. And thank you for doing it in a space where expressing such feelings should be safe to do. You have a blessed day.

wow..excuse me for trivializing your pain...just thought u would feel good by hearing unheard material...works for me

Perhaps you meant well, but I was also taken aback by your response. Writing "U crazy" makes it sound like you lack any kind of empathy. If only the grief of losing Prince could be overcome by simply listening to uploaded stuff (none of which I know to be new).

Prince lives on through his music and the effect he had on so many people. But that doesn't fill the hollowness. Though time will diminish the pain, the loss will remain forever. I know how you feel, isobelfq.

airth said:

luvsexy4all said:

wow..excuse me for trivializing your pain...just thought u would feel good by hearing unheard material...works for me

Perhaps you meant well, but I was also taken aback by your response. Writing "U crazy" makes it sound like you lack any kind of empathy. If only the grief of losing Prince could be overcome by simply listening to uploaded stuff (none of which I know to be new).

Prince lives on through his music and the effect he had on so many people. But that doesn't fill the hollowness. Though time will diminish the pain, the loss will remain forever. I know how you feel, isobelfq.

Thank you.