purplethunder3121 said:

mimi1956 said:

For me a memorial would still leave the wound open. I think the only thing that would help is if we were told the underlying reason for the fentanyl. Just to say that's what killed him, to know what he was taking it for, that's really what killed him. I think then and only then may we start to move on from that and accept a future without him. Otherwise it still feels like a black hole has opened up and sucked the life out of the universe.

We were told the underlying reason for the fentanyl it was his pain. It's so strange though nobody helped him.

mimi1956 said:

For me a memorial would still leave the wound open. I think the only thing that would help is if we were told the underlying reason for the fentanyl. Just to say that's what killed him, to know what he was taking it for, that's really what killed him. I think then and only then may we start to move on from that and accept a future without him. Otherwise it still feels like a black hole has opened up and sucked the life out of the universe.

No matter what I feel like a hole will be left. I'm having mixed feelings about anything that'll be released from the vault for the sole fact that no matter how great it is, the overwhelming knowledge that he won't be around pulling his antics making us laugh, and standing on a stage performing the new material is a knife to the soul.

The only comfort I'm trying to take from this is I thank God all mighty that he didn't have some long painful hospital stay or had to be bedridden in which he faded slowly. I know he was suffering from pain for a long time but to think that a condition that would've put him down where he couldn't perform or play music? I think that'd been a fate worse than death for him. This whole thing is horrible.

nother thing i don't get is if he was in so bad a shape, and there were reports going back 20 years or so that he was told to stop dancing, what was he doing hopping running and trying to act young? maybe he was doing just that, but if he didn't listen to his doctors and his body, i don't know what could have convinced him. Anyway, he did not look like a guy who had to rely on pills to move.

Dazza said:

XxAxX said:

For me, I'm also waiting for answers. I'm hoping once the criminal investigation is completed, no matter the outcome, that investigators will tell us what they discovered, and that people will come forward to speak of what happened prior to his passing.

Also, I hope at some point that it will be decreed either there is or isn't a will, and if not, who the heirs are. Hopefully, if the torch is passed to heirs, they will honor Prince's legacy, but that remains to be seen.

In addition, since most of us can't travel to Minneapolis anytime soon, hopefully some public memorial will be televised that truly does honor the deep impact this man has had on all of us. Peace unto you, Prince.

It feels like there's something more, like this isn't the end. There has to be more.

Dazza said:

Not yet. I'm waiting for some Freddy Mercury style memorial concert. This HAS to happen

I really do think an artist of P's caliber absolutely deserves a real, bonified tribute in his honor. Not 5 minutes on some janky award show, but an entire event that celebrates his artistry & legacy.

& no, I feel no sense of closure at all.


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there will never be closure for me. his untimely death is 100% totally f'-ed up

StephanieThePisces said:

I feel no closure whatsoever yet.

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Like you, I feel like maybe if I could attend a memorial or gathering of Prince fans, just some kind of real life event that would let me feel the energies of actual people and where we could collectively mourn, reminisce, and celebrate this amazing person who connects us all and who touched our lives, maybe then I'd feel more at peace about his passing. I haven't been able to do that on my own, and while I'm very thankful for prince.org and being able to come here and do all those things I mentioned (mourn, reminisce and celebrate his life and career) it's just not the same as being around real people and sharing emotions and stories face to face.

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So I understand how you're feeling, sharonbell.

This is exactly how I feel too - spot on - the Org is great but on your own it is hard.

endiadj said:

SanDiegoFunkDaddy said:

there will never be closure for me. his untimely death is 100% totally f'-ed up

WELL PUT.

morningsong said:

XxAxX said:

no, i don't have closure. and i'm starting to spend way too much time here looking for 'answers' that are not forthcoming

morningsong said:

morningsong said:

This is a long term intense relationship that is abruptly over for no reason. It drives you nuts needing to know why. There's no simply turning off, forgetting about.

Very abrupt, but if you were alert - there was a week preparation. He knew for some months he was not in a good state. He possibly had accepted he couldn't overcome the drug issue so he gave up mentally. He was very fragile we saw it happening. They should have helped him.

How can there be closure?

Inner circle knows what happened to him, there was a two week window that Prince was going through hell and was all over place.

He was on a downward spiral for a while, for what reasons? we dont know.

Dimitri10 said:

How can there be closure?

Inner circle knows what happened to him, there was a two week window that Prince was going through hell and was all over place.

He was on a downward spiral for a while, for what reasons? we dont know.

Closure? Never. I keep thinking that if the autopsy report was released,maybe there would be some underlying terminal illness listed - an illness which would have claimed him within months. Maybe that would be easier to accept. Yesterday I read an article about the Orlando tragedy, and the columnist said that in this era of the internet and social media, it would be easier to walk through the grief by staying away from the computer. Check in once daily, but only once. Maybe that would help here. Back away a bit from videos and songs and sites and try to transition to gratitude for his life and his life's work.

PeteSilas said:

nother thing i don't get is if he was in so bad a shape, and there were reports going back 20 years or so that he was told to stop dancing, what was he doing hopping running and trying to act young? maybe he was doing just that, but if he didn't listen to his doctors and his body, i don't know what could have convinced him. Anyway, he did not look like a guy who had to rely on pills to move.

Exactly, he moved to fluidly for me to accept that as what went wrong. He didn't lean on the cane, he carried it as always. Most of his canes had rubber tips to make sure they didn't slide as he moved it, no purple banana peel there. I know people get mad if somebody else doesn't agree with them that is was pain and drugs that killed him, but I can't help my gut feelings, what I feel deep inside of me. So I respect other feelings and I hope people will respect mine also.

OzlemUcucu said:

Hi all, I'm new here. I've been reading for sometime but this is my 1st post. I didn't know where to go or who to talk to after he died. Prince has been my guilty pleasure and secret love since I first saw him dance on MTV. I knew my family and friends would not understand a 55 year old woman going on about a dead rock star. The one thing that has brought a smile to my face is that my 11 year old son has now discovered him and thinks that Prince and his dear old mom are the coolest things ever! He finally started playing the guitar that has been collecting dust for a year and for weeks now has been creating Prince inspired art on his PC.

Youtube has been a both a source of pleasure and pain. My son would have never seen the concert performances without it, but I still can't watch some videos or even old interviews without tears. I too am not expecting closure (not the right word in his case) but I hope to find some acceptance and peace. I was so excited to hear he was writing a memoir, having that to read after his passing I think may have helped. But now I fear it will never see the light of day, even the little he manage to write. Hearing his account of his own life in his own words, would have been gold to me. My son smiles at me now when he sees me sad and tells me it's going to ok. I hope he's right, for all of us. Thank you all for being here.

gollygirl said:

StephanieThePisces said:

I feel no closure whatsoever yet.

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Like you, I feel like maybe if I could attend a memorial or gathering of Prince fans, just some kind of real life event that would let me feel the energies of actual people and where we could collectively mourn, reminisce, and celebrate this amazing person who connects us all and who touched our lives, maybe then I'd feel more at peace about his passing. I haven't been able to do that on my own, and while I'm very thankful for prince.org and being able to come here and do all those things I mentioned (mourn, reminisce and celebrate his life and career) it's just not the same as being around real people and sharing emotions and stories face to face.

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So I understand how you're feeling, sharonbell.

This is exactly how I feel too - spot on - the Org is great but on your own it is hard.

It is hard on your own, for sure. I think real life, in person sharing of energies, emotions and touch and voices is very important to the healing process because through all those things, you "feel" the person who has passed in each person who's there at the gathering, and in that way you're able to say goodbye in more (speaking for myself) profound way but also you're reminded that the person who's passed, Prince in this case, continues to exist as long as he is the hearts of those that loved him, followed his career, love his music, etc. i don't know how well I'm explaining this. :-/ The tangible and the collective real life human element are what is helpful to me anyway - and prince.org is so special because it's one place to go to where you can do that to an extent...but not like I'd described.

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Hugs, gollygirl.

No closure yet. Maybe after the memorial then again maybe not. Can't help it.

morningsong said:

morningsong said:

This is a long term intense one-sided from a distance fan crazy relationship that is abruptly over for no reason. It drives you nuts needing to know why. There's no simply turning off, forgetting about.

:HUG: yes it is. and even though he never spoke to me i'm still missing dude thanks for understanding.

I gotta keep moving forward ... Bowie and Prince .. oh fuck my 1-2 artists gone .. god whatta killer blow .. its as tough as tough can be .. But a ton of others I loved are no longer with us. It sucks now but as with others itll be ok .. Take care of yourselfs best you can.

a long term intense one-sided from a distance fan crazy relationship

definately that

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XxAxX said:

morningsong said:

morningsong said: This is a long term intense one-sided from a distance fan crazy relationship that is abruptly over for no reason. It drives you nuts needing to know why. There's no simply turning off, forgetting about.

:HUG: yes it is. and even though he never spoke to me i'm still missing dude thanks for understanding.

Exactly how I feel! Nice to know I'm not alone and not off my rocker (yet,lol)

endiadj said:

XxAxX said:

the thing just doesn't add up. it's like when you strike a bell and instead of a ringing tone you get a slap sound

it adds up for me. he'd been suffering from severe pain _hip,knee) for decades it seems. he started taking pain meds and became dependent and od'ed. sometimes things really are just that simple. i feel some want him to have some horrible longterm disease to justify his od, but severe pain is also justifiable.

i take your point. i'm sure with time this feeling of uneasy will wear off and/or the urgency will pass. right now, to me, it feels as though the story is incomplete. as to his OD, i don't blame him for a thing. i never had to walk in his shoes, so to speak, and imo the constant pressure to live up to his own image with a spotlight on his life and chronic pain must have been hard to bear

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Nodin said:

XxAxX said:

:HUG: yes it is. and even though he never spoke to me i'm still missing dude thanks for understanding.

Exactly how I feel! Nice to know I'm not alone and not off my rocker (yet,lol)

we're not alone. collectively, one big heart throbbing to prince's quirky beat