When I heard the news, via SMS from my brother, I was on the way to work, at the train station at about 6.30 in the morning local time. For that instant I didn't want to go; if I'd read the news at home on my phone - as I easily could have, and almost did - I might well have rung in sick. When I got to work I changed the background picture on my computer from a fractal image to solid black. "I want to paint it black," as somebody else sang.

Everyone who really knows me sent me spontaneous messages of condolence, for which I'm grateful, and after a few days I changed my background work computer image to a dreary grey landscape that I had saved in my pictures folder.

Today I put the fractal image back up. I'll never cease to mourn his loss or be angry - partly at *him* for leaving us before he needed to. My suburban GP would have kept him alive longer; I can guarantee you that. I was going to type that I'm over it, but maybe in typing this I'm realising that I'm not. My mother said of the death of my father, "You never get over it" - that shocked me when she said it, several years after his death; I suppose we don't really think of our parents as having been in love - some of us don't, anyway.

All I know is I'll go on listening to his music for as long as I'm of sound mind, and in some ways I'm glad that I haven't got every album - there'll be new Prince for me, at least, for a while to come; and with luck - and the Vault - for all of us.

God bless you all.

Thank you for sharing your mourning experience with us. I am guessing that a lot of us will probably relate to what you have just written in your post. I do. It ain't over yet...

God bless you too.

nursev said:

I'm not mourning any more but what will always bother me is it just seems like Prince was just discarded..I mean no proper memorial...nothing. It just feels wrong. Thanks for sharing with us though.

Maybe there will be one at a later stage, his family and friends might all still be too shocked to deal with it right now. It could all be very emotional for them at this stage. Just a thought. That aside, I agree, he deserves something big and beautiful in his honour.

nursev said:

I'm not mourning any more but what will always bother me is it just seems like Prince was just discarded..I mean no proper memorial...nothing. It just feels wrong. Thanks for sharing with us though.

His family is planning a memorial sometime in August.

I made a conscious decision to move on - on his birthday. I want to celebrate his life - I'll never stop feeling his loss and have stopped expecting it to hurt less. It doesnt hurt less, but it's made me DECIDE on happiness, rather than wait for it.

We have too much in this world to pull us down and while we breathe we have to make love, be happy and appreciate beauty. Thats literally ALL THERE IS.

PEACE & BE WILD - ALL I WANNA DO IS DANCE - TRY MY BEST TO NEVER GET BORED.

xoxo

terrig said:

sonshine said:

terrig said:

I made a conscious decision to move on - on his birthday. I want to celebrate his life - I'll never stop feeling his loss and have stopped expecting it to hurt less. It doesnt hurt less, but it's made me DECIDE on happiness, rather than wait for it.

We have too much in this world to pull us down and while we breathe we have to make love, be happy and appreciate beauty. Thats literally ALL THERE IS.

PEACE & BE WILD - ALL I WANNA DO IS DANCE - TRY MY BEST TO NEVER GET BORED.

xoxo

I like this! Your attitude is inspiring

Its hard - some days i still cry for him...but he really wouldnt want that - we know that...so i try to redirect myself to something joyful...JOY can be a choice I mean I got to wake up again today - I'm already having a good day lololol

Try to smile gang....even if its hard - we need to pull ourselves into the light

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I'm not sure what it is i'm feeling, i'm ok then with just a song, video or picture will just kick in and then i well up and i start bumming myself out, I don't know.... i don't like the way it's been dealt with, it's so unfinal. i still find it hard to believe he's gone.

His birthday was very difficult for me to get through. I cried very hard for several hours. Then I put on every extended 12" hit and danced barefoot. That seemed to mark a peak for my mourning. I am not done, but I am able to listen to other music now. The world will never be the same. As far as the stages of grieving, I seem to be stuck in denial, because I can't find anybody to bargain with. Acceptance? Not even close.

For me my way of dealing with the loss of Prince was to listen to his most groovy moments, namely Erotic City from the Birthday Show. His loss makes me sad, but his music still makes me happy

bigd74 said:

I'm not sure what it is i'm feeling, i'm ok then with just a song, video or picture will just kick in and then i well up and i start bumming myself out, I don't know.... i don't like the way it's been dealt with, it's so unfinal. i still find it hard to believe he's gone.

I agree. I was ok I thought but today I came across few video stuff on utube and I felt very miserable. I will always miss Prince. It's been a very long journey with him. I was collecting tapes at 12 and by 17 it was geat to be a Prince fan. Now that's been more than 20 years now.

I am looking forward to explore his music as always in the future.

nursev said:

I'm not mourning any more but what will always bother me is it just seems like Prince was just discarded..I mean no proper memorial...nothing. It just feels wrong. Thanks for sharing with us though.

I agree. Everything just seem to go from one point to the other, very fast, and I feel like we didn't get any closure at all. Prince died and then was cremated so quickly, it was like he just vanished, one day here and the next, just gone. That's still hard to deal with.

nursev said:

I'm not mourning any more but what will always bother me is it just seems like Prince was just discarded..I mean no proper memorial...nothing. It just feels wrong. Thanks for sharing with us though.

I'm still mourning. I don't know when that will end. I wake up some days and think ..ok.. he's gone and I go about the day. But then, later on ..or the next day, it hits me like a tone of bricks all over again and I think ..this can not be happening. At least seems I'm done thinking this has got to be some sort of a cruel joke. ..I guess that's progress. However, I agree with you. What in blazes was the rush? He was taken straight from the morgue to the fire. I truly resent that. No funeral. No gravesite. ..Nothing.. Before you could even get it through your head that he was gone and grab a plane ticket..there was nothing to grab one for. Perhaps, someone will say, "Well maybe that's what they thought..or knew..he wanted." ..I don't care. I felt hit in the heart all over again. I will always, always miss him. The music was him; but he was so much more than the music.

bigd74 said:

I'm not sure what it is i'm feeling, i'm ok then with just a song, video or picture will just kick in and then i well up and i start bumming myself out, I don't know.... i don't like the way it's been dealt with, it's so unfinal. i still find it hard to believe he's gone.

I feel the same

1contessa said:

nursev said:

I'm not mourning any more but what will always bother me is it just seems like Prince was just discarded..I mean no proper memorial...nothing. It just feels wrong. Thanks for sharing with us though.

I agree. Everything just seem to go from one point to the other, very fast, and I feel like we didn't get any closure at all. Prince died and then was cremated so quickly, it was like he just vanished, one day here and the next, just gone. That's still hard to deal with.

No closure whatsoever

Marta said:

nursev said:

I'm not mourning any more but what will always bother me is it just seems like Prince was just discarded..I mean no proper memorial...nothing. It just feels wrong. Thanks for sharing with us though.

I'm still mourning. I don't know when that will end. I wake up some days and think ..ok.. he's gone and I go about the day. But then, later on ..or the next day, it hits me like a tone of bricks all over again and I think ..this can not be happening. At least seems I'm done thinking this has got to be some sort of a cruel joke. ..I guess that's progress. However, I agree with you. What in blazes was the rush? He was taken straight from the morgue to the fire. I truly resent that. No funeral. No gravesite. ..Nothing.. Before you could even get it through your head that he was gone and grab a plane ticket..there was nothing to grab one for. Perhaps, someone will say, "Well maybe that's what they thought..or knew..he wanted." ..I don't care. I felt hit in the heart all over again. I will always, always miss him. The music was him; but he was so much more than the music.

I know it was done to prevent any death photos but I feel like somebody couldve given him a memorial in April and not in damn August.

vladimir said:

When I heard the news, via SMS from my brother, I was on the way to work, at the train station at about 6.30 in the morning local time. For that instant I didn't want to go; if I'd read the news at home on my phone - as I easily could have, and almost did - I might well have rung in sick. When I got to work I changed the background picture on my computer from a fractal image to solid black. "I want to paint it black," as somebody else sang.

Everyone who really knows me sent me spontaneous messages of condolence, for which I'm grateful, and after a few days I changed my background work computer image to a dreary grey landscape that I had saved in my pictures folder.

Today I put the fractal image back up. I'll never cease to mourn his loss or be angry - partly at *him* for leaving us before he needed to. My suburban GP would have kept him alive longer; I can guarantee you that. I was going to type that I'm over it, but maybe in typing this I'm realising that I'm not. My mother said of the death of my father, "You never get over it" - that shocked me when she said it, several years after his death; I suppose we don't really think of our parents as having been in love - some of us don't, anyway.

All I know is I'll go on listening to his music for as long as I'm of sound mind, and in some ways I'm glad that I haven't got every album - there'll be new Prince for me, at least, for a while to come; and with luck - and the Vault - for all of us.

God bless you all.

I don't know when I'm going 2 stop grieving, i pray everyday for God 2 help me.

vladimir said:

I'm still not over it either. Prince was always a constant part of my listening habits, but I've been listening to him pretty much all the time now for the simple fact it just makes me so damn happy. Then once in a while all of a sudden realisation kicks in and I remember he's passed on and my heart just drops the same as when I first heard the news.

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nursev said:

I know it was done to prevent any death photos but I feel like somebody couldve given him a memorial in April and not in damn August.

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I really hope no such photos surface. I remember when MJ died and they put that photo of his body on a hospital stretcher all over the front page. I'm terrified because I know if I'm out and about and see photos like that of Prince on the front pages I won't be able to stop myself from breaking down there and then.