airth said:

Still shocked. Get teary/chocked up almost daily when listening/watching him. Even more so when reading/watching someone else discuss him.

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Doesn't help that there's still so much speculation about his finals days. All of it is starting to wear me out.

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Currently living in Melbourne (from London) and some of my belongings are at my wife's family home in Auckland, that includes my tea chest of prince stuff. Missing that. Have some bits with me that I've bought in Aus over the last 4 years..

been really effected by all this.

just put this on Facebook

Ol' Death and I have an interesting relationship. For lack of a better term, I've been lucky to know when he's coming for a visit in my life. I mean that the ones close to me who have died - my grandparents and my mother - have all had lead ins to dying. They were sick, were in the hospital, etc. It was never sudden like cardiac arrest, or a fatal car crash. It never 'just' happened.

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But with Prince, it's been a different process. It's a bit like being really hungry, and finally getting to eat, then about 6 bites in, someone snatches your plate away, without warning and you get no more food. Yet, you're still hungry. Or frankly, because we're talking about Prince, it's like getting laid, and your partner cums before you, then hops off and hits the showers, while you're laying there like "WTF?"

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So, I've always been able to readily accept death's presence around me. With the forewarnings in the past, I've been able to more easily make peace (the best I can) with the process, and the pending end to it all. With Prince, not so much. The videos of churches paying tribute to Prince thread, I was bitterly crying again last night. I've only been able to listen to Phase Two, because it doesn't remind me of why I fell in love with Prince and his music. It's more generic to me. It's when I listen to Sign O The Times, or 1999 that it gets me. Live performances are the hardest. I've still not listened to Atlanta.

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Holding up? We're all functioning. None of us are in bed, depressed, and unable to go to work, or take care of ourselves or our families. We're not stunned anymore, or speechless, although it sounds more dramatic to say that. For me, I'm mad. It's so easily avoidable. I'm fearful of how the whole estate is going to be handled. I'm sad for everyone who knew him personally and was close to him. Hell, us fans feel just as close, really. His girlfriend, Tyka, and others have all said he loved the fans, and felt the love from them every day. That is comforting, that despite our bitching, and griping, that we really did love him. That's all I can do to hold up and move forward - is just continue in the love.

gollygirl said:

Charm4ever said:

Not good, I am up @ 2;15am in the morning looking at youtube vids of Prince. I have decided no more after today. Seeing him singing, and dancing with so much life and energy have physically become much too painful-no more listening to his songs or watching any vids for a while-It feels like I am torturing myself by doing this, enough is enough-

Eye Miss U "prince"

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I understand what you are saying, I am consumed with it too

I know gollygirl, this is so heartbreaking

I am finally starting to a bit feel better and listen to his music without too much pain. It's finally sinking in more that he's gone. Obviously I appreciate the music and performances more than ever and has made me more acutely aware how fragile life truly is.

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I still have moments of intense sadness, but not so many tears now so probably through the worst of it. Prince would want us to be happy and celebrate his music and listen to it just like we always did. That was his gift to to us and to the world.

I seriously don't know. I'm not crying every day but I can feel it, the depression, the lonliness, the sadness, the emptyness, sitting in my chest. I'm so angry. This didn't have to happen. And I'm afraid. I'm afraid that I'm going to forget him. I don't want to. I can't, but I'm afraid that when the pain stops (or reduces to a livable size) i'm going to forget him. The thought is actually terrifiying.

Not feeling as bad as I was, still sad though. 12:34 pm was right about the time I was told. A bit painful.

Reading everyone's responses has made me feel all kinds of emotions. From happy to sad. I still can't listen to Adore or Diamonds and Pearls without crying, but I'm able to look at pictures/footage of him so I'm making progress. I finally heard the audio from his last show in Atlanta and its brought some type of closure but I just want to know what happened so it can bring me some type of peace. He still pops up in my dreams every night and the hole in my heart is still there, but if I learned anything from this is that we need to love and support these artists because you never know when they will be taken away from you

isobelfq said:

I seriously don't know. I'm not crying every day but I can feel it, the depression, the lonliness, the sadness, the emptyness, sitting in my chest. I'm so angry. This didn't have to happen. And I'm afraid. I'm afraid that I'm going to forget him. I don't want to. I can't, but I'm afraid that when the pain stops (or reduces to a livable size) i'm going to forget him. The thought is actually terrifiying.

I have read similiar posts like this all over the .org. I dont know any of you personally, but if I did I would be very concerned about your state of mind. I can't say that you need help to cope with this, because we all deal with death differently. I hope you know you will get through this. The only advice I can offer is that you might have to really think about staying calm. Think about your own well being, rather than wallowing in sadness.

When I wake up in the morning, among my thoughts is the one that tells me "Prince is dead", then I lay in bed and think about the fact that he's gone.

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[Edited 10/1/16 9:38am]

I can't believe that it's been a month since Prince left us. I'm still heartbroken. I can't believe I live in a world without Prince. It hurts to see his birth-death dates all over internet and magazines, and knowing that he was cremated. I can't even listen to some songs like Nothing Compares 2 U and Little Red Corvette without tearing up. I regret that I didn't get the chance to see his Piano and Microphone tour two months ago in Montreal. I'm trying my best to cope with all of this.

I just don't understand why I keep losing my favs. I'm lost for words, sorry

it's hitting me harder now than when it happened... I have a sense of guilt, because on the org i was always very critical of my posts/comments about him... i have come to realize how much of a person he was behind the scenes, you know the media will try to paint him as a drug abuser... How he helped people and learning more of the human side of him... i have been a fan for 30+ years and to know I will never see him perform again live or hear any new music...puts a lump in my throat, tears that sting my eyes and a emptiness in my chest...

Seeing, the photos and headlines of DEA agents at Paisley Park was like a MAJOR gut-punch for me. It's shocking, really. I accept that Prince has left this world, but the deafening silence of those around him is the thing that troubles me most. Not a single call for justice from anyone in Prince's family or inner-circle...

I know we all don't know each other, but this for all of yah.

I feel a lot like some of you. Tears have subsided, going about things as one must do, but I can tell you....it's just different. The world seems a little different...off kilter. I was listening to his music every day since - not interested in hearing anything else....but for some reason the other day, it sounded different. I can't explain. I am hearing his voice, but he is not here. His energy/light is not here. One of the saving graces is the Org. So many DO NOT GET IT - but y'all do. And that is really helpful and comforting. Can I say that the picture thread is unparallelled? Thank you. Another saving grace for me was to create my own tribute/memorial for Prince with pictures and music. It was helpful in healing and something I can look at in the future. Finally, like many, I love watching all the videos and interviews that are on the internet - and try not to feel guilty about it. And a good day is when I find a picture or video where is joking /laughing or wailing on his guitar! Peace and Love.

isobelfq said:

He's my first thought every morning, and my very last one every night. My heart hurts, but after one really good, long cry and several days of rage, I'm doing better now. I'm at peace momentarily.

I joined this place a couple weeks ago to grieve with other longtime Prince fans, and you guys helped, you really did. Now, though, I'm trying to wean myself off of Prince, in a way. I still listen to his music every day, but I've been trying to avoid spending so much time reading articles and books, and watching videos, beause it'll just get me down all over again. It's been working, but I figured I'd stop by here today to see how y'all were doing at the one month mark. Hang in there, guys. <3

hifidelity67 said:

I need therapy over this ..

hifidelity67 I want to make it very clear that my comment is not directed at you, it is just how I feel about some other posts here.

Not to make light of how you might feel over this whole thing, but jugding from what some other folks are posting on this site, I honestly think they may need to seek out some type of therapy. In the last month I have read some very frightening posts by some fans who seem unable to handle this. It seems like Prince's death has caused them to become unstable. I have read more than a few posts from fans who say they cry themselves to sleep every night. Tears are okay, but if it affects your life to the piont of not being able to function, that's when it becomes dangerous to you.

Sick. Just sick. Had sort-of gotten over Bowie and then this.

I've won a couple awards for portraiture, I've been thinking of some kind of painting I could do of them both.