AnnaStesia91 said:

Now I used to laugh and joke that the day that Prince died I would lose it, then that day came and I have felt an emptiness ever since.
The day before he passed I had a dream that I met him at Paisley and I said on Twitter that it is the best dream I've ever had, it is. It was the highest thing on my bucket list to meet him and to know that's never a possibility, not to mention I never got the chance to see him live .

I should've went to that Hit n Run show in Louisville a while back, I opted to pay a bill instead but the feeling I feel now makes me feel like the gas company could've waited another week

I've lurked on the Org for years now. I'm talking I was a freshman in high school and I turn 25 tomorrow. But this is the only place I know people will understand my grief. Goodness

I hear you. I'm better than I was, but it still stings when I think about it. I am surprised how much its affected me. I still can't listen to Way Back Home (and a few others) without getting a lump in my throat.

Poplife88 said:

I know how you feel. It has been almost a month and I look horriffic. My eyes are all swollen still and I just cannot focus.

Try to be strong. It is what he would of wanted.

I feel U. A few days ago, I played his Purple Rain album N could not stop crying. We are all going through this differently. Don't feel bad if U R still sad or R still in pain or crying. I love you so much.

Yeah. The shock and sadness comes and goes. Watching live performances makes me the most sick to my stomach. He lit up the stage, regardless of the event, song or era. I wont get to see him live again. Nobody will. Ugh.

Now, this may sound extreme. And sometimes I think the comparison is. My Mother...whom I was extremely close to...passed away 6 years ago this November. That loss devastated me internally. But I was able to still function. Went right back to work. Helped take my mind off the loss. When we lost P...felt just about the same way. Except, I had to LEAVE work to get my mind right. Now again, the comparison to losing my own MOTHER with losing someone I have never met sounds strange. But it's true. His loss has and will have an impact on me for a long time to come...

I completely understand you. Prince was easily the biggest influence in my LIFE. Kept me strong through the darkest of times and made the brightest moments even brighter. It's ironic that my sister had to remind me that my dad passed away on the same day as Prince back in '89. I'll always know Prince's birthday and passing and yet never remember those days for my parents. So much of my personality came from Prince. While I've always been accused of being secretive, Prince is said to be mysterious. Yes, the Org is for the most part a great playground to share your feelings but I will give props to the Purple Army on FB as well. Of course they're will always be a few people who aren't understanding but yes, I understand where you're coming from. Lean on us~

wishuhvn said:

I feel the same. I've never felt so sad in all my life. Every time I feel I might be getting somewhere it comes back and hits me hard. I physically feel it like a punch in my stomach. My heart is broken and I starting to wonder if I will ever feel normal again. I just can't believe that beautiful talented genius man is no longer with us. I want to wake up from nightmare

You're not alone. It's hard. Harder than I imagined it would be. Especially this late in the game. I imagine it will be easier to fully process once we have official answers. This grief that I (we) feel is hard to share with non-fans, and it's a big reason I'm here too.

Every day, the thought comes to my mind that Prince is dead! Like most of you, I don't understand why I think about this, and why I feel like I lost a loved one. I didn't know the man, he didn't know me, but he was a part of my life for so long, that I felt like I knew him. Like many, I've always had the fantasy of meeting him and seeing him in concert. My dream of seeing him in concert came true, but the other one of meeting him never will, at least not here on earth. Some people that wouldn't understand, would think that we are crazy, and it's a comfort knowing that there are those here that completely understand. For that reason, I like coming here, but at the same time, I don't, because we're all grieving and there's so much sadness. I never imagined that someone that I didn't know personally, that their death would affect me this way. I mean I thought about it, that if Prince died how would I feel, but I just thought that I would feel sad for a few days and move on, that hasn't happened. I loved Whitney Houston and Michael Jackson (more in my younger years), and when Whitney passed, I was so sad and felt like I lost a loved one, but I moved on after a little while, and with Michael, I just was sad for a couple of days, and then got over the sadness, but with Prince, it's so different. I can't seem to move past the sadness of losing him, and think of him everyday! In my mind, Prince wasn't supposed to die so soon, Prince was going to live until his 80's or beyond. I never thought that he would be gone at 57, the thought never crossed my mind, that is what is so hard to accept!

I think one of the things that many of us are just now starting to process is the extent of time and money we spent on Prince. This org is not filled with mere fans. We've been devoted completists, many of us buying albums we admitted we didn't like and filiing them in their chronological spot on our shelves because even though we weren't going to listen, we were going to own.

We've made so many lists and sequenced our own versions of albums. We've scoured eBay and second hand markets. The list goes on and on.

The point is...we've given over a lot of time to being a Prince fan, and there's an emptiness now. Depending on what happens with his estate, we could still end up spending quite a lot of time focused on Prince things. But we can't beat ourselves up too much right now. Truly, a part of us died.

I've never appreciated reading all of your messages more than I do now.

Kacey725 said:

I think one of the things that many of us are just now starting to process is the extent of time and money we spent on Prince. This org is not filled with mere fans. We've been devoted completists, many of us buying albums we admitted we didn't like and filiing them in their chronological spot on our shelves because even though we weren't going to listen, we were going to own.

We've made so many lists and sequenced our own versions of albums. We've scoured eBay and second hand markets. The list goes on and on.

The point is...we've given over a lot of time to being a Prince fan, and there's an emptiness now. Depending on what happens with his estate, we could still end up spending quite a lot of time focused on Prince things. But we can't beat ourselves up too much right now. Truly, a part of us died.

I've never appreciated reading all of your messages more than I do now.

Great points. But, I'd even go a step further. Even if you've only liked a single song of his. And that song was a major reason you got through a rough time, then it can have just as big an effect on you as someone who did buy those albums or scoured eBay to get them. Maybe you were going through a divorce? Maybe you were having a rough time at work? Maybe you were just struggling to get through life in general, if one of his creations helped you in any way, you are in the family. You are one of us. And as such, we will offer love and support just the same. At least I will anyway...