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PrintableI'm at the point where I feel guilty. Guilty that I didn't listen to him as much as I used in the last few years or that I didn't make enough of a effort to see him live (sorry Prince.) I feel empty inside and it feels like the longest April fools joke. Being here and reading everybody's stories about seeing/meeting Prince is a little bit comforting and I have to admit I'm a bit jealous lol. Right now its settling in a bit more as in the fact that he is no longer with us. I have a Prince dream every night and honestly it hurts. My depression got really bad over this and to be honest, this is the only place I can go to for support because nobody gets it. He will always have a place in my heart no matter what. Forever In My Life, forever in my heart. I love you Prince Rogers Nelson  | |
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This has been a bizarre time in my life. I saw Prince just over two months ago, in Sydney. I went to his afterparty, too-- saw him through a door frame in a back room of this club, sitting with his heels up on a glass table in a purple room full of candles, working on something on his Macbook.
Long story short, get this: His performance at the Opera House was so overwhelming to me emotionally that it made me realise I was transgender.
A lifetime of repressed emotion surfaced and I saw things with clarity for the first time. Imagine feeling five or six years of emotions in about a week. I changed my name to Joni-- because Prince sang "A Case of U", and because she is someone we both admire. I took Nelson as my middle name.
Then, he didn't just die. He died on the day of my birthday party, under a full moon.
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FormerlyKnownAs said: I'm still depressed and in shock. Sometimes the Org really helps because I read posts like these and don't feel so strange or alone. Other times, I log-in here and am reminded of what a ride we've all had -- and the person responsible for bringing us together isn't around any more. I have so many unanswered questions, it is hard not to get really pissed off! People have said it best here: we feel this way because we have not been given proper closure. They did save his DNA, for potential paternity tests "Almost all art is trying to become an anaesthetic and at the same time a healing session drawing up the magical electrics.” | |
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. Damn, you nailed it. Sadly, your post is just so right. . All I can add is there is nothing at all wrong with enjoying what is here now. Why think about future missed opprtunities? When someone does pass rule one is you never sit there and think about future events. "He won't be there at my wedding...He won't see me graduate college..." Too overwhelming and painful to do that. No, you don't go future, you go past. You think about all the wonderful things that person brought you. And Prince brought us some wonderful things (OK, we'll excuse "N.E.W.S.") But even his clunkers were fun little adventures. . Don't think about "what's next" because there is no next. Think about, "Wow, that stuff was fun and it's still here! Now let me put on Disc 3 of 'Emancipation'." | |
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That's awful, that he passed away on your birthday. It hurts now, but one day it won't anymore. He clearly made a significant impact on your identity and your life. You honor him with your embracing of his spirit and influence. Yours is a beautiful story. | |
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He was so great and fun, and his work still is. But yes we have to live with the idea that he isn't. But none of us are here forever!
It's really crazy... last week I heard a distant friend who was a creative comedic funny guy had some kind of health scare, but no one knew exactly what was up. Then yesterday he was found dead alone. He was found by the landlord after he didn't answer the phone form his wife who was travelling. And none of us distant friends know yet what exactly happened, but there is of course some health ailment speculation. There is now a closed facebook group, there has been a gathering of people in LA and New York, and there will be here in Houston. Gatherings of people celebrating and telling stories of him. People are posting videos of him doing comedy bits and short films, and standup... I just bought a new fund raising t-shirt of a comedy quote of his (he's not famous, it's just he had tons of friends because he was a great guy). People are raising funds in his name to support aspiring comedians.
and it's so strange for me. So parallel to what just happened with Prince. These past few weeks reality seems to have twisted, and I have to re-figure it out. [Edited 5/16/16 23:55pm] My art book: http://www.lulu.com/spotl...ecomicskid
VIDEO WORK: http://sharadkantpatel.com MUSIC: https://soundcloud.com/ufoclub1977 | |
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Exactly that and what a lotof you all have just said. No more tracking him or what is the new show coming up. People have already stopped asking and kind of expect you to be normal and to a certain extent I am being normal. Aside from the excessive drinking which needs to stop. I just can't deal with it all. Whatever you heard about me is true
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MrSquiggle said: This has been a bizarre time in my life. I saw Prince just over two months ago, in Sydney. I went to his afterparty, too-- saw him through a door frame in a back room of this club, sitting with his heels up on a glass table in a purple room full of candles, working on something on his Macbook.
Long story short, get this: His performance at the Opera House was so overwhelming to me emotionally that it made me realise I was transgender.
A lifetime of repressed emotion surfaced and I saw things with clarity for the first time. Imagine feeling five or six years of emotions in about a week. I changed my name to Joni-- because Prince sang "A Case of U", and because she is someone we both admire. I took Nelson as my middle name.
Then, he didn't just die. He died on the day of my birthday party, under a full moon.
Yeah. Thanks for sharing your story. What an experience and what a memory to have of Prince and that night. There was a brilliant full moon the weekend Prince played in Sydney too, I have a photo. I'm really sorry he died on your birthday  | |
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JediNation said: When Prince passed, he was in a way more alive than ever. There were TV specials, online tributes in word, music and video. you go to the store, he's on every magazine cover. The flood of videos on youtube, the flood of people coming here, etc. But over the past few days, I've really started to feel the emptyness. Being a Prince fan was always so much fun (what's he gonna do now, where will the next show be, what's next) Now I'm starting to feel the reality there is not going to be a "What's next" and today, I'm sad and empty. anyone feeling me on this? [Edited 5/16/16 9:12am] AGREED "Drop that stereo before I blow your Goddamn nuts off, asshole!"
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GottaLetitgo said: I was actually thinking about this last week. It is the celebrity version of when a family member dies and for 3 weeks to a month after, everyone is bringing you dinner and checking in on you. And then of course, they go back to their lives and the mourning are left with the loss. When my father passed, my Mom had people bringing food to her every night for about three weeks and then it just kind of stopped. Prince impacted a lot of us on this site more than he did the public at large. The media, the buyers of the Very Best of Prince, they were casual friends, distant relatives who shared a moment or two, maybe they forgot how much fun that moment was. Now what will be left is those of us who checked Prince.Org several times a day to see if the concert was headed to our town. The factions who sais chart hits don't matter versus those who liked to see him do well in Billboard. Tony M discussions, and "just around the corner" references. We still have the in-jokes and the inside knowledge but the timeline has reached a halt where there will be nothing new to add. The only new will be what was old to Prince, gems he recorded for himself or eventual release. It's like finding an email from a past relative in your deleted folder, one you never read. My gosh, in writing this I have just depressed the hell out of myself again. I've been on the Org about 17 years. This was one of my favorite posts ever. Thank you. "Drop that stereo before I blow your Goddamn nuts off, asshole!"
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GottaLetitgo said: You really do start to understand the Elvis fans more that spotted him at Burger King and the gas station and said he was still alive. It's hard to let go. I have been a fan of actors, musicians...at any given point in my life there have been celebrities I've followed. But Prince was more of a long-term investment. Many of us put our eggs into this one basket because he always kept us guessing, it was genuinely interesting to see what he would do next, even if we didn't like what he did next and just came on the site to moan and groan about it. That was part of it. I'll go back to my father again, and look it is different losing your father than losing your main celebrity focus. My Dad and I would have these long "porch talks" a good part of my teen and adult life. I would screw up and at first there would be fussing and then we'd end up on the back porch and we would talk for hours, maybe at first about whatever started the whole mess and then just about life, all these different topics. Sometimes I didn't pay attention to everything he said, now I wish I would have recorded every word. Whoever we indivdually personified as Prince, not the real guy but who he was to us, communicated to us, struck a nerve, and to know there won't be any more new words, no more new topics is strange as hell. A lot of times when I dream of my father, and I do a lot, he's stuck in time, it may be the present but his knowledge doesn't extend to our world 5 years later because he no longer lives in it. Maybe others are different but the bummer about all this is Prince is frozen in 2016. We will move on, we will go on with our lives because that is what we do; death is a part of life and it's not a secret. But it's weird to think about a future where Prince is in past tense. Actually, THIS is one of my favorite posts. THANK YOU AGAIN. "Drop that stereo before I blow your Goddamn nuts off, asshole!"
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lezama said:
That actually made me cry. I am still a fucking wreck. "Drop that stereo before I blow your Goddamn nuts off, asshole!"
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You see how quiet the 'MJ Sticky' is? When all is said and done...
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I'm hoping for a steady stream of vault material (music & videos) I'm expecting a big old wait for the start of that though. |
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Everything reminds us that he has passed, but should I be hearing some typical Prince style new music with his voice and some background idea to the intention of being released I am sure I would get excited as before. His music has nothing to do with his death. Prince I will always miss and love U. | |
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I miss people around here criticizing or making fun of Prince. Somtimes it would get out of hand, but that was part of the flavor of this site. Now that we know Prince would frequent this site and got a kick out the craziness makes it even sadder. |
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My heart is broke...literally broke! What saddens me the most is that he died alone. I'm also sad that because there was no Will, he may have believed that he still had a lot of music time on this earth. I miss his spirit and presence on the earth. | |
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indeed we all do | |
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This is great! Thanks! I laughed ... then I sent it in emails to a few friends...
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lezama said:
 sorry I will take my place, In the great below | |
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its really sinking in now. the tv outlets are all politics, nothing on prince in a couple of days. even dr drew hasn't covered him in a couple of days, and for a few days before that, it was just five minutes. i am sure if major news breaks, it will be covered for a minute or two before they go back to the political bs. every single person in my life has moved on. i am more functional than i was a week ago, but prince is the first thing i think of when i wake up and the last thing i think of before i go to sleep. i still can barely watch him perform and have a hard time hearing him sing. i can watch interviews, but i have pretty much gone through them all, some several times. i have finally come out of denial...i know he is gone, but now there is just sadness, and even worse, lonely sadness, since almost everyone has just put him into the past. and on top of all that, i keep thinking of how much he gave all of us, only to never find his soulmate, never have kids, and dying alone on the floor of an elevator, which i understand he did not like much. its all just so unfair "If u love somebody, your life won't be in vain
And there's always a rainbow, at the end of every rain."--peace and love, dear prince..... | |
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gold31 said: Not to bring anyone down any further, but June 7th is right aroung the corner. That's gonna be a rough day for a lot of us. I'm hoping it won't be a rough day for me as I've shed enough tears. I'm seeing Beverley Knight perform in Brighton. I'm going with another huge purple fan & knowing Beverley loves/loved him as we do will be a huge comfort. I've actually met her twice (at a Rahsaan Patterson gig & Grace Jones gig) & we chatted away about P like long lost friends. She admired my symbol pendant on a necklace & showed me her symbol on her key bunch!! She may even do a tribute to him if it's not too difficult for her. Also staying in a hotel for a couple of days & if the weather is nice will enjoy picnics & wine on the beach. ----- I See All Of Ur Creations As One Perfect Complex, No One Less Beautiful Or More Special Than The Next... | |
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