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Thread started 05/05/16 2:53pm

KenGloria

I'm still going through it ya'll

sad I'm just sayin. I'm still trying to wrap my head around this.
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Reply #1 posted 05/05/16 2:59pm

Guitarhero

We all are.

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Reply #2 posted 05/05/16 3:04pm

SPYZFAN1

hug

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Reply #3 posted 05/05/16 4:57pm

cardinal

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i feel like someone scooped out my insides and made me look at them before walking away empty.

still empty.

"do I have a friend tonight?" --prince at his last concert in atlanta bawl
[Edited 5/5/16 16:58pm]
"If u love somebody, your life won't be in vain
And there's always a rainbow, at the end of every rain."--peace and love, dear prince.....
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Reply #4 posted 05/05/16 5:07pm

RiotPaisley

I know, I'm sobbing as I type.
Surprise, surprise.
Another treat. Another trick.
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Reply #5 posted 05/05/16 5:24pm

KenGloria

SPYZFAN1 said:

hug




thx
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Reply #6 posted 05/05/16 5:25pm

KenGloria

My favorite artist of all time. I know no else music like I know Prince's
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Reply #7 posted 05/05/16 5:52pm

jds

I think I'm getting worse. At first I wanted to listen to some of his old albums again, and they were good, and made me feel good. Now I just get sad and have stopped listening to Prince. Even the happy songs make me feel sad. Breakdown was in hindsight not a good track to listen too, but Art Official Cage just made me feel bad too, just thinking it was all over.

And the references to song lines on here get's me too, so much of his music is completely and forever imprinted in my brain, tracks that most people have never heard of I know word for word. I guess people on here understand that, but nobody in real life around me does.

No other music affected me like this, and no other artist has been there through so many important parts of my life.

I hope he was happy, I'm not sure if he was or not, but he deserved to be. Maybe he should have taken some time off, just to enjoy life and get away from work, but I guess the music is what gave him happyness, so he probably was very happy when he was making music.

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Reply #8 posted 05/05/16 6:11pm

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This is like the MJ nightmare all over again. But worse. sigh

"Music gives a soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination and life to everything." --Plato

https://youtu.be/CVwv9LZMah0
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Reply #9 posted 05/06/16 12:46am

PeteSilas

you ain't the only one. I know that plenty of footage has been uploaded to you tube but I'm so obsessed with dealing with what went wrong and what it means that I haven't watched very much of it. From the time I get up, or wake up, mid-sleep, I check for updates, in my spare moments I check. Just trying to come to terms with losing a guy I was 90 percent sure would be around at least until his seventies and probably longer. You know, when you've got the music in you, some guys just seem ageless, i thought he would be one.

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Reply #10 posted 05/06/16 3:47am

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I'm still waking up each morning in disbelief he's not around anymore. Just knowing he was 'there' was comforting. He's always been in my life in one way or another. I know he's not family or a loved one, so it makes me feel even more weird that I should miss him this way.

I bought an old Prince 'For You' Album on vinyl. It arrived yesterday.. it's amazing. It helps me to listen to his music and watch the videos. Everyone's different though.
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Reply #11 posted 05/06/16 3:53am

bookwomen

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I have been surprised how hard this hit me too. His music has been in my life since 1978 so it is hard to believe he is gone. I do find watching the concert vids makes it a little better. He got such joy in playing live. I like seeing him happy and that twinkle in his eye.

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Reply #12 posted 05/06/16 4:01am

OnlyNDaUsa

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Me too... i found some Yogurt at wrok that expired 4/21/16 I had a little meltdown... and the thing where they played Nothing Compares 2 U (even if I was hoping they would play his studio version) i was pretty crused againg. (and that was the same day they said he had plans to enter rehab on the 22)

"Keep on shilling for Big Pharm!"
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Reply #13 posted 05/06/16 4:15am

monkeyrose

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My cleaning ritual is 2 put on Prince Music and go 2 town cleaning started tearing with SOTT first song, do u know how hard it is 2 sweep with water in ur eyes! I turned the volume down so i could barely hear it and continued eventually shutting it off completely

It’s so hard 2 get back 2 normal

As long as we keep our luv strong we'll never shed no tears
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Reply #14 posted 05/06/16 4:25am

OnlyNDaUsa

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monkeyrose said:

My cleaning ritual is 2 put on Prince Music and go 2 town cleaning started tearing with SOTT first song, do u know how hard it is 2 sweep with water in ur eyes! I turned the volume down so i could barely hear it and continued eventually shutting it off completely

It’s so hard 2 get back 2 normal

i still remember hearing SOTT for the first time. on an old Hifi with huge headphones on. I got disorientated and it felt like i was falling.... falling into the sound.

"Keep on shilling for Big Pharm!"
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Reply #15 posted 05/06/16 4:45am

EddieC

A few days ago I spent about 10 or 15 minutes wondering in the back of my mind about things that might be holding up Phase 3, and thinking "well, maybe he changed his mind and is on to something else" before I thought, "Oh. Yeah. He's dead."

The fDeluxe thing got to me. And I'm still not listening to much of his music, probably because of the mixture of feelings. I've worked on organizing my files, and caught some other things that have shown up different places (because if I don't they might be hard to find later), but mostly without listening to it.

I think I'm on hold until the explanation of his death is done. I want to know what happened so I can try to process it all at once. The idea that this last few years, during which it seemed from out here that things were going pretty well for him, were really a time of marked physical decline and unhappiness--that's something that's upsetting for me, on top of the actual death. I know that it's possible to misread people (on a personal face-to-face level I'm terrible at it), and obviously I had no real connection to Prince, but I certainly missed that one. So let me know what all I'm sad about, and then I'll just let go.

At least, I hope that knowing more about what happened helps, and lets it get better.

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Reply #16 posted 05/06/16 7:18am

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EddieC said:

A few days ago I spent about 10 or 15 minutes wondering in the back of my mind about things that might be holding up Phase 3, and thinking "well, maybe he changed his mind and is on to something else" before I thought, "Oh. Yeah. He's dead."



The fDeluxe thing got to me. And I'm still not listening to much of his music, probably because of the mixture of feelings. I've worked on organizing my files, and caught some other things that have shown up different places (because if I don't they might be hard to find later), but mostly without listening to it.



I think I'm on hold until the explanation of his death is done. I want to know what happened so I can try to process it all at once. The idea that this last few years, during which it seemed from out here that things were going pretty well for him, were really a time of marked physical decline and unhappiness--that's something that's upsetting for me, on top of the actual death. I know that it's possible to misread people (on a personal face-to-face level I'm terrible at it), and obviously I had no real connection to Prince, but I certainly missed that one. So let me know what all I'm sad about, and then I'll just let go.



At least, I hope that knowing more about what happened helps, and lets it get better.



i also don't think i can make much more "processing grief" progress until we know what happened. not that i expect to make a ton of progress afterwards either. I have a bad feeling that we are going to learm that physically/medically at least, things were much worse than anyone knew. whether due to an underlying disease, chronic overuse pain, etc, i think he was suffering much more than he let on to anyone. just a gut feeling, i have no inside info. and i have a great fear about how things may have gone in that elevator, but i try and shut that out. as to his emotional state/loneliness, etc, i can't even go there. i will think of him as creative and happy until the end, unless evidence comes out to force me to think otherwise.

cliff notes version: i fear things will get worse for many of us before there is even a chance they can start to get better.

"do i have a friend tonight?" --prince at his last concert in atlanta bawl
"If u love somebody, your life won't be in vain
And there's always a rainbow, at the end of every rain."--peace and love, dear prince.....
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Reply #17 posted 05/06/16 8:50am

DoItAllNight4U

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I don't know how to explain this, but I almost don't feel anything. I can cry but it will only be for 30 seconds to a minute. I'm still in shock. I don't know. I feel so weird for not feeling anything. I keep reading all these posts about people going into depression-like episodes and not eating for days, but I'm not going through anything near that. I don't know what's wrong with me.

"I was here in the beginning and I'll be here forever more"
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Reply #18 posted 05/06/16 9:24am

KenGloria

Listened to Lovesexy this morning..... whole album
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Reply #19 posted 05/06/16 9:32am

dolphinkiing23

the fans never really had a chance to say goodbye.. so theres absolutely no closure.. no true public memorial or tribute.

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Reply #20 posted 05/06/16 9:39am

KenGloria

dolphinkiing23 said:

the fans never really had a chance to say goodbye.. so theres absolutely no closure.. no true public memorial or tribute.




I know the past members are working on something but it's gonna be like the Jackson 5 without Micheal. .... They'll be better performance though.
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Reply #21 posted 05/06/16 9:54am

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dolphinkiing23 said:

the fans never really had a chance to say goodbye.. so theres absolutely no closure.. no true public memorial or tribute.

There's one in L.A. today. I don't know why they don't stream it live online...

"Music gives a soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination and life to everything." --Plato

https://youtu.be/CVwv9LZMah0
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Reply #22 posted 05/07/16 4:10am

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OnlyNDaUsa said:

monkeyrose said:

My cleaning ritual is 2 put on Prince Music and go 2 town cleaning started tearing with SOTT first song, do u know how hard it is 2 sweep with water in ur eyes! I turned the volume down so i could barely hear it and continued eventually shutting it off completely

It’s so hard 2 get back 2 normal

i still remember hearing SOTT for the first time. on an old Hifi with huge headphones on. I got disorientated and it felt like i was falling.... falling into the sound.

the best!

As long as we keep our luv strong we'll never shed no tears
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Reply #23 posted 05/07/16 4:54am

dopedog

Thought i was good. Managed to listen to sometimes it snows in April, then Free in the car on the way home from work last night and i kept it together. But then Free Urself came on, and i blubbed again. I dont know if it's the tune, or the way he sings it, but it just got me going all over again. This is so hard.
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Reply #24 posted 05/07/16 5:22am

FUNKNROLL

KenGloria said:

Listened to Lovesexy this morning..... whole album


Yeah, did that too and during moments found it impossible to accept he's dead.
I guess it happened, but accepting it is too weird.
Walked into Chipotle yesterday thinking about what to order and randomly thought to myself - "yeah, let me get a fruit cocktail - I ain't too hungry". Been feeling kind of short/easily annoyed too.
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Reply #25 posted 05/07/16 5:24am

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Thought i was good. Managed to listen to sometimes it snows in April, then Free in the car on the way home from work last night and i kept it together. But then Free Urself came on, and i blubbed again. I dont know if it's the tune, or the way he sings it, but it just got me going all over again. This is so hard.


Yeah I imagined that as the new "Cream" aka what if he wrote that for/about himself.
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Reply #26 posted 05/07/16 6:23am

Grog

I had a busy day yesterday, which was good because it kept my mind off all of this for a while, but then I dropped into a supermarket to pick up a few things. Everything was fine until I approached the checkout line and saw the endcaps filled with special issues of Newsweek and People. They were at paced at eye level, so there he was, looking like the Prince we have always known, if not better, and part of me was happy to see him on the cover of a magazine and part of me wanted to pick up the magazines and possibly buy them, but I couldn't. I just stood there for a moment feeling terrible and reverted back to denial. He was looking directly at me, eye to eye, on the Newsweek cover and I couldn't bear it. I left the magazines on the rack. I'm not ready for them yet but I feel as if I NEED them to help me come to terms with everything. I listened to Art Official Age on the drive home and started to feel the same way I felt on April 21--a mixture of confusion, anger and disbelief. I thought I was further along, but like KenGloria, I'm still going through it too.

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Reply #27 posted 05/07/16 6:25am

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Hang in there! It's not gotten much easier for most of us

For me watching all the amazing live performances I have not seen is truly mind blowing! So much amazing video of his genius until the very end. Seeing it all finally surface en mass has been quite liberating and comforting to me.
The greatest live performer of our times was is and always will be Prince.

Remember there is only one destination and that place is U
All of it. Everything. Is U.
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Reply #28 posted 05/07/16 6:38am

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Im still struggling too, thought I would be getting it together by now, but nope - still feeling bad and even thought sometimes through the week I just did not want to wake up coz it is a nightmare (but I would not do anything silly) but I am sure you know what I mean

Thank you Prince for every note you left behind 💜
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Reply #29 posted 05/07/16 7:52am

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Everytime I think I'm over I come across something on twitter, a comment, a commemoration, a photo.. or a song, and I start getting nostalgic again.

Change it one more time..
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