mcknzlrk said:

Guitarhero said:

isobelfq said:

today I cried because I couldn't find my black african soap. but of course I was crying over Prince. I miss him so much. I also suffer from mental illness. I have clinical depression and a Generalized anxiety disorder. Plus I'm seriously introverted so I really like to be alone. I guess what I'm saying is that this is a recipe for another deep, deep depression. I miss him so much you guys. I miss him so much. It hurts so bad and I don't know what to do about it.

I hear yah , i have depression don't really like to talk about that, am up and down. Thank god i have this place with so many knowing how it feels. Hold in there please.

Depression is a MF and I know this because I'm constantly in and out of it. Hugs to you both

DoItAllNight4U said:

Guitarhero said:

I hear yah , i have depression don't really like to talk about that, am up and down. Thank god i have this place with so many knowing how it feels. Hold in there please.

Depression is a MF and I know this because I'm constantly in and out of it. Hugs to you both

I honestly don't know what I would have done without this forum. It's like a collective-virtual-therapy-shelter. Thank you orgers and other people involved for keeping this place up and going after so many years. It has somewhat helped me soothe the deep pain (it's not completely gone yet and don't know if it ever will). I guess the pain has been in proportion with the greatness of the artist and how important Prince was for all of us. I also think (at least from reading a majority of posts in here) that he seemed to have touched a lot of very perceptive/ receptive people, which I guess you would have to be to appreciate his music. So that's probably part of the reason why we are currently finding it so hard to deal with. Big hugs to everyone.

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DoItAllNight4U said:

mcknzlrk said:

DoItAllNight4U said:

Depression is a MF and I know this because I'm constantly in and out of it. Hugs to you both

Yeah, I have borderline personality disorder, with that comes my anxiety disorder and severe depression. This forum is helping me cope, mental illness is hard. I was diagnosed when I was only 9 so I don't really remember a life without it.

I believe I've been going through episodes of depression since I was 11. I remember beng in middle school and quickly shifting moods. I could be extremely mad/sad one minute and then I'd be really ahppy the next. I'm not old enough (apparently) to be diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder but I am 99% sure I have it and I even had a psychiatrist give me mood stabilizers so that's enough confirmation for me. I've been going through a Manic episode for a month already so I haven't been able to fully process the grief and emotion of Prince's passing. I can't even calm myself down and read every post on here and I'm not really feeling anything. I feel like my mind is constantly racing even as I type this so it's quite difficult for me to focus.

Such cool people here . Hugs back at yah all.

After the tears will just come the goosebumps when you listen to the music. To know the highs of happiness we have to sometimes feel the depths of despair. Life isn't always easy and growing older even harder.

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I sometimes wonder how hard it was for Prince, after having experienced such highs after performances, to deal with the returns to reality.

Yeah, I thought I was over the crying phase. Nope. Not even close. Now I'm crying and furious and sad all at the same time.

isobelfq said:

Yeah, I thought I was over the crying phase. Nope. Not even close. Now I'm crying and furious and sad all at the same time.

I'm not very happy either. There is an emptiness inside me (and tons of questions) but I try not too think about it too much, nearly like pretending that he hasn't gone. I even try to think that maybe he hasn't gone at all. After all because we haven't witnessed anything, that is possible too. In fact anything is possible. Whether he is here or not doesn't matter because we won't see him again. So let's just pretend he is here and enjoy his music - and there's lots of it - as we always have done, and that won't go away.

CherryMoon57 said:

I honestly don't know what I would have done without this forum. It's like a collective-virtual-therapy-shelter. Thank you orgers and other people involved for keeping this place up and going after so many years. It has somewhat helped me soothe the deep pain (it's not completely gone yet and don't know if it ever will).

Agreed.

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I feel your pain. I discovered this forum literally a week before the news broke of Prince's passing. I I regret never being able to see Prince live. I've always been a fan. I hope in some strange way I can make up or go easier on myself for not being able to share in the joy of seeing him live that so many have expressed here. How do I let myself be okay with that and still enjoy him? Does it make me less of a fan because I never saw him in concert? I thought Prince would be with us well into his golden years. Sadly, that isn't so. I shouldn't of taken him for granted. I take each day as it comes. Some days are better then others. Some days I feel more productive then others. Some days I feel frozen. I experience a myraid of emotions. I constantly feel on the verge of having a major breakdown. Yes, I am type of fan. His music soothes me and helps me hold it together. Any thoughts or suggestions would be helpful. I'm so glad I joined this community.

purplestainedtears said:

I feel your pain. I discovered this forum literally a week before the news broke of Prince's passing. I I regret never being able to see Prince live. I've always been a fan. I hope in some strange way I can make up or go easier on myself for not being able to share in the joy of seeing him live that so many have expressed here. How do I let myself be okay with that and still enjoy him? Does it make me less of a fan because I never saw him in concert? I thought Prince would be with us well into his golden years. Sadly, that isn't so. I shouldn't of taken him for granted. I take each day as it comes. Some days are better then others. Some days I feel more productive then others. Some days I feel frozen. I experience a myraid of emotions. I constantly feel on the verge of having a major breakdown. Yes, I am type of fan. His music soothes me and helps me hold it together. Any thoughts or suggestions would be helpful. I'm so glad I joined this community.

I've been a fan for 6 years and I had promised myself this year that I would go see him if he ever came to Texas but he never did. I think he came to Austin in 2014 but I was taking a break from him during that time. So in the end, I never got to see him live either. I feel so heartbroken about that honestly. Most of the longtime fans have seen him live at least once but I'm a 90's baby and didn't know who Prince was till I was 9 and didn't become a fan till I was 11. Most of it is not my fault, but I still feel really bad for how things turned out. I'll be regretting this for the rest of my life.