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CharismaDove

"Sometimes It Snows in April" got me.

"Sometimes It Snows in April" got me. This whole thing has finally got me.

I never took it really seriously when I heard the 'Prince is ill' rumors -- Prince has pulled through everything, he would pull through this too. The moment I saw a "RIP Prince" reference on Thursday at around 12:30 PM on Facebook, my heart froze as I scrambled to double check the information, after which my heart sank. But all through Thursday and Friday, most of my feelings were extreme shock and curiosity over what the fuck just happened -- the death, even now, is so mysterious and unexpected and it gives me a bad feeling inside, it just seems shady to me -- and the shock that Prince ended up going out in his 50s just like Michael Jackson (their deaths seem somewhat eerily similar, right down to the weekday each of their deaths happened), that he didn't make it to his 80s or at least another solid decade. That a what-looked-like a bump in the road for Prince ended up being the final bump. But I was distracted through a lot because I was so focused on watching news outlets 24/7, and it brought joy and warmth to my heart seeing our hero Prince recieving such massive respect and attention on TV and social media (6 million tweets!), and then I was focused on making myself accept the fact he was DEAD... but even that I was distracted from because I was mostly focused on the autopsy/death info.

But I couldn't distract myself by watching tributes/clips/quotes/etc forever. At first, I heard his songs only through television and radio, and I was barely able to listen to them because I just felt a dull sensation in my chest and head, a foreboding feeling that was distracting me from REALLY listening to the songs in a new way (as everyone is now that our composer is dead). I didn't cry for 2 days. I didn't cry for "Purple Rain" or "Diamonds and Pearls" or "I Would Die 4 U" or any other song I happened to hear.

But I began sobbing when I played "Sometimes It Snows in April". Goddamn. I always liked this song but it's so unfair how it's now so synonymous with his fucking death. I felt almost like I was singing the song, and Christopher Tracy was Prince.

Because Prince died after fighting (what appears so now) a long-fought civil war, just after I played his music the day before for the first time in a few months and just jammed at how good it was and how Prince would always be the best in my eyes. And because Prince left a whole lot of fools back here - I don't give a damn if I disagreed with his internet policies, because now I feel sympathy for this guy who, although he might have been wrong in some of what he said, was played by the music industry in his prime, a lot of fools who made him out to be an out-of-touch idiot when in fact he was fighting for something he passionately believed in. Prince was "my only friend" in the way that I don't think any other artist touched me in the same personal way, a way that made me feel like I was their friend. He was "the kind of car that don't pass you every day." And I wanna see him again but life ain't that way.

And that's before you even get to the chorus... Sometimes it snows in April, sometimes a tragedy such as his death happens in April.. and it makes me feel so bad that I underappreciated what a hard-working man he was and wasn't grateful enough that he continued to follow his muse, release work, and tour endlessly. Even if I didn't like all the songs, I feel so bad I took him for granted as someone who would be there forever. And sometimes I wish life was never-ending and he was still here, but the best things in life never last. And when I see all his pictures all over now, It hits me even harder how no one was really like Prince. He was such a chameleon, such an original. Everything from the early disco to MPLS Sound to his mid-80s evolution to the busy 90s to the refreshing early '00s to the final albums to all the tours and all the movies and so much more. Why else do you think almost every kind of person has at least one Prince song they can relate to? To me, he refused to let the pressure of fame get the best of him. And then the last verse -- I do believe in heaven and I think Prince is there. He's probably found some new friends up there, maybe we'll see him one day again.

And then there's the last chorus, where Prince pronounces "I feel so bad" as "I feel so bayyyaaad", which is when I started crying. Cuz it's such typical Prince, with his powerful and unique vocalizations.

He's right. Love wasn't really love until he passed.

It's amazing to believe that this song would end up being so prophetic. Maybe just to me, but I sincerely think other fans agree somewhat with my assessment. I can never listen to it in the same way, it's just too crazy for me right now. But that's what Prince was all about -- he lived an epic, long, colorful life, and even his death seems heartbreakingly similar to what he spent his life singing about (I'm not even gonna bring up the elevator thing or the #7 coincidences, I'm talking about April snow). I don't know if this matters to anyone, but this morning I realized something else haunting. I'm only 18, and when I got into Prince I was about 12 (don't worry, I became a hardcore fan really soon). I just find it haunting how I got into Prince, who felt like my own secret, my own personal fave, when I was just finishing childhood and entering adoloscence; and throughout all the following years of it, Prince's music was non-stop in my life. He helped me grow, evolve (especially sexually lmao), see things different, and just mature as a person. He was the soundtrack to my entire life from age 12 to age 17. And it just feels so haunting that the person who I discovered at 12 and cherished throughout my entire teenhood ended up dying the year I entered adulthood. It's a coincidence, I know. But I feel like he was here to help me through a phase in my life, and it's just so... (I don't have the word for it)... that he died as a new stage in my life just begun. But rest assured, he'll forever stay in all phases of my life. Although I swear I'm gonna need at least 2 weeks before I can muster listening to his catalogue again.

Thank you Prince for the amazing effect you had on my life. You were one of the most talented people who ever existed, and I'm so so lucky I got to spend years on the same planet as you and appreciated you years before your death. Thank you so much for sharing your gifts with the world, and you will never be forgotten. We all love you like crazy.

Now throw the best damn concert there ever was up in heaven. rose

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Reply #1 posted 04/23/16 2:02pm

CharismaDove

Sorry for such a sappy post. But his death just really hit me so damn hard

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Reply #2 posted 04/23/16 2:13pm

derico13

i m feeling exactly as you feel.

same with this song but live 2002 washington.

Brings tears to my eyes everytime.

Hugs and best regards.

fred

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Reply #3 posted 04/23/16 2:14pm

TraSoul82

I'm with you, man. I've actually been avoiding that song. The day of, I had nothing. Yesterday I broke down watching the Superbowl performance. Today has just been an ongoing thing even though I haven't listened to much today.
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Reply #4 posted 04/23/16 2:45pm

rudeboynpg

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Rewatching his videos to "Betcha By Golly Wow" and "Holy River" about his marrage to Mayte and having a baby, being reaired repeatedly on MTV and BET, is what got to me. So so sad. He died alone, wifeless, no living son and no daughter. Even no living parent. I don't even think he was dating anybody anymore. His sister Tyka is likely going to inherit his estate, Pasiley Park, NPG Records, all of his music, and the vaults of hundreds, thousands? of unreleased music, unreleased videos and concert footage, etc. wow.

[Edited 4/23/16 17:38pm]

Goodnight, sweet Prince.
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Reply #5 posted 04/23/16 2:47pm

dJJ

I refuse to listen to the song. It's way too painful.

Not just the lyrics. And of course the song itself.

It reminds me of magic moments during concerts, especially the one I went to in London.


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Reply #6 posted 04/23/16 2:50pm

lrn36

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Check out this guy on youtube named Casino who does a cover. This is probably one of the best covers of Prince song I've heard.

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Reply #7 posted 04/23/16 3:11pm

AnonymousFan

CharismaDove said:

"Sometimes It Snows in April" got me. This whole thing has finally got me.

I never took it really seriously when I heard the 'Prince is ill' rumors -- Prince has pulled through everything, he would pull through this too. The moment I saw a "RIP Prince" reference on Thursday at around 12:30 PM on Facebook, my heart froze as I scrambled to double check the information, after which my heart sank. But all through Thursday and Friday, most of my feelings were extreme shock and curiosity over what the fuck just happened -- the death, even now, is so mysterious and unexpected and it gives me a bad feeling inside, it just seems shady to me -- and the shock that Prince ended up going out in his 50s just like Michael Jackson (their deaths seem somewhat eerily similar, right down to the weekday each of their deaths happened), that he didn't make it to his 80s or at least another solid decade. That a what-looked-like a bump in the road for Prince ended up being the final bump. But I was distracted through a lot because I was so focused on watching news outlets 24/7, and it brought joy and warmth to my heart seeing our hero Prince recieving such massive respect and attention on TV and social media (6 million tweets!), and then I was focused on making myself accept the fact he was DEAD... but even that I was distracted from because I was mostly focused on the autopsy/death info.

But I couldn't distract myself by watching tributes/clips/quotes/etc forever. At first, I heard his songs only through television and radio, and I was barely able to listen to them because I just felt a dull sensation in my chest and head, a foreboding feeling that was distracting me from REALLY listening to the songs in a new way (as everyone is now that our composer is dead). I didn't cry for 2 days. I didn't cry for "Purple Rain" or "Diamonds and Pearls" or "I Would Die 4 U" or any other song I happened to hear.

But I began sobbing when I played "Sometimes It Snows in April". Goddamn. I always liked this song but it's so unfair how it's now so synonymous with his fucking death. I felt almost like I was singing the song, and Christopher Tracy was Prince.

Because Prince died after fighting (what appears so now) a long-fought civil war, just after I played his music the day before for the first time in a few months and just jammed at how good it was and how Prince would always be the best in my eyes. And because Prince left a whole lot of fools back here - I don't give a damn if I disagreed with his internet policies, because now I feel sympathy for this guy who, although he might have been wrong in some of what he said, was played by the music industry in his prime, a lot of fools who made him out to be an out-of-touch idiot when in fact he was fighting for something he passionately believed in. Prince was "my only friend" in the way that I don't think any other artist touched me in the same personal way, a way that made me feel like I was their friend. He was "the kind of car that don't pass you every day." And I wanna see him again but life ain't that way.

And that's before you even get to the chorus... Sometimes it snows in April, sometimes a tragedy such as his death happens in April.. and it makes me feel so bad that I underappreciated what a hard-working man he was and wasn't grateful enough that he continued to follow his muse, release work, and tour endlessly. Even if I didn't like all the songs, I feel so bad I took him for granted as someone who would be there forever. And sometimes I wish life was never-ending and he was still here, but the best things in life never last. And when I see all his pictures all over now, It hits me even harder how no one was really like Prince. He was such a chameleon, such an original. Everything from the early disco to MPLS Sound to his mid-80s evolution to the busy 90s to the refreshing early '00s to the final albums to all the tours and all the movies and so much more. Why else do you think almost every kind of person has at least one Prince song they can relate to? To me, he refused to let the pressure of fame get the best of him. And then the last verse -- I do believe in heaven and I think Prince is there. He's probably found some new friends up there, maybe we'll see him one day again.

And then there's the last chorus, where Prince pronounces "I feel so bad" as "I feel so bayyyaaad", which is when I started crying. Cuz it's such typical Prince, with his powerful and unique vocalizations.

He's right. Love wasn't really love until he passed.

It's amazing to believe that this song would end up being so prophetic. Maybe just to me, but I sincerely think other fans agree somewhat with my assessment. I can never listen to it in the same way, it's just too crazy for me right now. But that's what Prince was all about -- he lived an epic, long, colorful life, and even his death seems heartbreakingly similar to what he spent his life singing about (I'm not even gonna bring up the elevator thing or the #7 coincidences, I'm talking about April snow). I don't know if this matters to anyone, but this morning I realized something else haunting. I'm only 18, and when I got into Prince I was about 12 (don't worry, I became a hardcore fan really soon). I just find it haunting how I got into Prince, who felt like my own secret, my own personal fave, when I was just finishing childhood and entering adoloscence; and throughout all the following years of it, Prince's music was non-stop in my life. He helped me grow, evolve (especially sexually lmao), see things different, and just mature as a person. He was the soundtrack to my entire life from age 12 to age 17. And it just feels so haunting that the person who I discovered at 12 and cherished throughout my entire teenhood ended up dying the year I entered adulthood. It's a coincidence, I know. But I feel like he was here to help me through a phase in my life, and it's just so... (I don't have the word for it)... that he died as a new stage in my life just begun. But rest assured, he'll forever stay in all phases of my life. Although I swear I'm gonna need at least 2 weeks before I can muster listening to his catalogue again.

Thank you Prince for the amazing effect you had on my life. You were one of the most talented people who ever existed, and I'm so so lucky I got to spend years on the same planet as you and appreciated you years before your death. Thank you so much for sharing your gifts with the world, and you will never be forgotten. We all love you like crazy.

Now throw the best damn concert there ever was up in heaven. rose

I too am 18. I also share your pain.

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Reply #8 posted 04/23/16 4:11pm

CharismaDove

derico13 said:

i m feeling exactly as you feel.

same with this song but live 2002 washington.

Brings tears to my eyes everytime.

Hugs and best regards.

fred

I regret that I just listened to this right now sad

Maybe eye do, just not like eye did before pimp2
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Reply #9 posted 04/23/16 4:13pm

CharismaDove

rudeboynpg said:

Rewatching his videos to "Betcha By Golly Wow" and "Holy River" about his marrage to Mayte and having a baby, being reaired repeatedly on MTV and BET, is what got to me. So so sad. He died alone, wifeless, no living son and no daughter. Even no living parent. I don't even think he was dating anybody anymore. His sister Tyka is likely going to inhart his estate, Pasiley Park, NPG Records, all of his music, and the vaults of hundreds, thousands? of unreleased music, unreleased videos and concert footage, etc. wow.

CNN was saying Prince had a GF though. I didn't catch the name or any more info if there was any. But yeah, the fact he died having no kids is sad. But at least he's with his two children now.

Maybe eye do, just not like eye did before pimp2
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Reply #10 posted 04/23/16 4:14pm

CharismaDove

Thanks for all the responses, it's nice to see that this song is impacting fellow fans too

Maybe eye do, just not like eye did before pimp2
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Reply #11 posted 04/23/16 4:38pm

meagemini2

Don't apologize - that's what were here for. We ALL get it. BTW - cried like a baby when I heard this song on my mix tape. Thought many of the same things you did and I am sure so did everyone else. Peace and love to you.

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Reply #12 posted 04/23/16 4:38pm

MIRvmn

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dJJ said:

I refuse to listen to the song. It's way too painful.

Not just the lyrics. And of course the song itself.

It reminds me of magic moments during concerts, especially the one I went to in London.



I agree, it's really painful and the song makes me cry. It's hard for me to listen to any prince music at the moment
Welcome 2 The Dawn
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Reply #13 posted 04/23/16 4:42pm

MissMarySharon

I've always loved this song. It's eerie and sad that it now feels so appropriate for him. I'm actually playing it quite a lot. I find it comforting, goodness knows why, but right now, whatever gets me through etc etc...

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Reply #14 posted 04/23/16 4:47pm

rudeboynpg

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CharismaDove said:

rudeboynpg said:

Rewatching his videos to "Betcha By Golly Wow" and "Holy River" about his marrage to Mayte and having a baby, being reaired repeatedly on MTV and BET, is what got to me. So so sad. He died alone, wifeless, no living son and no daughter. Even no living parent. I don't even think he was dating anybody anymore. His sister Tyka is likely going to inhart his estate, Pasiley Park, NPG Records, all of his music, and the vaults of hundreds, thousands? of unreleased music, unreleased videos and concert footage, etc. wow.

CNN was saying Prince had a GF though. I didn't catch the name or any more info if there was any. But yeah, the fact he died having no kids is sad. But at least he's with his two children now.

Oh? We'll likely find out info like that after the investigation is complete instead of just all the rumors, like what he was doing at Walgreens, etc.

Goodnight, sweet Prince.
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Reply #15 posted 04/23/16 5:07pm

liltalkm

Funny how many thought "Fams" was silly compared to "Fans", but Prince made us feel like family.

Cause tomorrow is taking too long
and yesterday's too far away
and the reality that you believe in begins to bind.
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Reply #16 posted 04/23/16 5:27pm

rudeboynpg

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Nothing silly about fam. Prince liked to call us that, and his own Nelson family didn't always treat him like family in his formative years, they didn't seem to want him around, until he got rich and famous. Fan is short for fanatic, and the definition isn't pretty.

[Edited 4/23/16 17:27pm]

Goodnight, sweet Prince.
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Reply #17 posted 04/23/16 5:42pm

KoolEaze

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Great post. I ´ve read and enjoyed every single line you wrote and can totally relate to your feelings.

And...I was also 12 when I first got into Prince´s music but that was in 1984. And his music helped me get through some very tough phases in my life, but also was the soundtrack to some very good phases, and to me he was a great inspiration, teacher, role model and motivator.

The song makes me very sad, and ever since he passed away I´ve been a complete mess.

" I´d rather be a stank ass hoe because I´m not stupid. Oh my goodness! I got more drugs! I´m always funny dude...I´m hilarious! Are we gonna smoke?"
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Reply #18 posted 04/23/16 5:49pm

SoulSplash

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I always kinda had a hard time listening to this song anyway just because it was about his character's death... a name he took as his own as a songwriter ("Manic Monday") and in the UTCM movie. So weird too that the song, according to Wendy, was conceived and birthed (written and recorded) on the very same day he would die, April 21st.

btw, i also was 12 when i first got into his music.

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[Edited 4/23/16 17:53pm]

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Reply #19 posted 04/24/16 6:21am

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SoulSplash said:

I always kinda had a hard time listening to this song anyway just because it was about his character's death... a name he took as his own as a songwriter ("Manic Monday") and in the UTCM movie. So weird too that the song, according to Wendy, was conceived and birthed (written and recorded) on the very same day he would die, April 21st.

btw, i also was 12 when i first got into his music.

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[Edited 4/23/16 17:53pm]

When and where did Wendy say that? I´m surprised that she still remember that date.

I tried to find her twitter or FB but to no avail. I did find the Wendy and Lisa page but it hasn´t been updated in a long time.

" I´d rather be a stank ass hoe because I´m not stupid. Oh my goodness! I got more drugs! I´m always funny dude...I´m hilarious! Are we gonna smoke?"
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Reply #20 posted 04/24/16 6:47am

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i'm 21 (so bit older, but i got into Prince when i was around 12 too) and i have the same thing now.. now i start to realise some things i didn't before about him... and i feel guilty...

i still can't listen to his music, i just don't want to face reality and the emotions i have. i'm still in shock. it hasn't hit me yet, i only cried once so far. because it's so surreal and i don't want to face the reality.

''He's right. Love wasn't really love until he passed.''

yes, you are right. although i always knew how much i loved him, but sometimes you actually forget, if you get what i mean.. what someone really means to you. for me at least, it just hits me now how much he was part of my life. part of so much stuff i went through and experienced.

Sometimes It Snows in April... that song is the most painful one, i always had problems listening to this song, because i always felt sadness. i saw it live, it was same thing, tears... sadness. i never understood why exactly, it just reminded me of things.. i guess. (of course it's a beautiful song and it is sad). the song is just so surreal right now. he died in april. its like he knew.. and it actually started snowing yesterday and today in my country, it's unbelievable... i'm speechless, i just don't know..

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Reply #21 posted 04/24/16 7:25am

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CharismaDove said:

Thanks for all the responses, it's nice to see that this song is impacting fellow fans too

I've been listening 2 this one and sharing it with everyone

Thanks 4 sharing your feelings

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