This is just kicking my ass. There's no other way to say it.

The world is less beautiful, funky, and joyful now.

I finally got up, it's about 10:40 right now, but I just got some tea, chocolate chip cookies, and a bag of Sun Chips and took a little walk.

I've watched Purple Rain and I've been watching the music videos on VH1 Classic for several hours now. That makes me feel better - like it hasn't happened. Watching him rock out feels amazing.

I feel like this event made me mature so much in such a short span of time. I haven't been the most compassionate kid since elementary school, I've always been a bit cold to everyone else's situations. But, now I feel like I can care. I've resolved to be a kinder, more helpful person. Just like Prince is/was.

Some of these lyrics - I just feel them in my soul now. They're just so inspiring, comforting, and enlightening.

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redaddict said:

I feel you. I'm in so much pain. I did not expect to feel like this. It actually never occurred to me that he could die. It was a shock. A massive shock and I think for me the worst thing is that I feel like I have to hide my grief. I feel like people think I'm crazy, like I shouldn't STILL be crying over someone I "didn't know". I feel so isolated. None of my friends are Prince fans. Some appreciate him as an artist but he hasn't been part of their lives the way he was in mine. I wasn't even a massive fan for 25 years. I mean, there would be periods where I wandered away from him but I always came back. I always loved him. I've dipped in and out of this site for years, various names (mostly lurking). To me, it isn't "sad" the way my friends keep saying, it's gut wrenching and heartbreaking. I didn't always understand him and I didn't always love every song he created but I always loved him. My sister said "it's ok because apparently there's so much stuff in the vault there'll still be new music". I didn't know what to say. I don't care. I don't want new music. I just want him to be alive still. See, how can you say that and not have people think you're crazy? I don't even understand it myself. Wish we could all meet up. Anyway, I'm rambling and crying and I just wanted to connect somehow. I hope you're all OK xxx

It sounds stupid, but I thought he was immortal. I'm only 18, but I thought he would out live me.

HarleyQ said:

redaddict said:

I feel you. I'm in so much pain. I did not expect to feel like this. It actually never occurred to me that he could die. It was a shock. A massive shock and I think for me the worst thing is that I feel like I have to hide my grief. I feel like people think I'm crazy, like I shouldn't STILL be crying over someone I "didn't know". I feel so isolated. None of my friends are Prince fans. Some appreciate him as an artist but he hasn't been part of their lives the way he was in mine. I wasn't even a massive fan for 25 years. I mean, there would be periods where I wandered away from him but I always came back. I always loved him. I've dipped in and out of this site for years, various names (mostly lurking). To me, it isn't "sad" the way my friends keep saying, it's gut wrenching and heartbreaking. I didn't always understand him and I didn't always love every song he created but I always loved him. My sister said "it's ok because apparently there's so much stuff in the vault there'll still be new music". I didn't know what to say. I don't care. I don't want new music. I just want him to be alive still. See, how can you say that and not have people think you're crazy? I don't even understand it myself. Wish we could all meet up. Anyway, I'm rambling and crying and I just wanted to connect somehow. I hope you're all OK xxx

Yea... I have same issues with ppl I kno and work with. But I have my sisters who understand alittle and went with me to PP and been kinda "fans" and but not like my deep fandom I have for Prince.

U kno... i was thinking.... We are a Prince Army. And he was a giving person. I think we should pick one day like his Birthday to help others in need. Like provide food for needy... teach kids to code... or give a cupcake party to senior citizens. Maybe do it as groups so we wont feel overwhelmed as single person or isolated. U kno?

I'm going to do that, now. Every time it comes around, I'm going to do something kind and generous.

AnonymousFan said:

renfield said:

It's still so difficult to fully comprehend and digest this. Iconic musician who died way too young? Nah, not Prince. He'll bury us all. Right?

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But you know, we have each other. Here. At the org. Each of us understands how we're all feeling. This place will become therapy for us. We'll help each other. We'll each be an ear for someone else who needs to be heard. A shoulder to cry on. I don't know any of you in person but I love you all. From KCOOL to Bart and everyone in between...I truly do love you all. You can fight with family but at the end you're still blood. We can fight with each other here but we're all still bonded by Prince, whether he's physically here or not. Even beyond the music, maybe that was his greatest gift to us.

Thank you for that.

I feel both extremely inspired and motivated to do something with my life, but also like I just wanna fade away into the elements at the same time.

Such an odd feeling. I've never felt this way before.

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redaddict said:

I feel you. I'm in so much pain. I did not expect to feel like this. It actually never occurred to me that he could die. It was a shock. A massive shock and I think for me the worst thing is that I feel like I have to hide my grief. I feel like people think I'm crazy, like I shouldn't STILL be crying over someone I "didn't know". I feel so isolated. None of my friends are Prince fans. Some appreciate him as an artist but he hasn't been part of their lives the way he was in mine. I wasn't even a massive fan for 25 years. I mean, there would be periods where I wandered away from him but I always came back. I always loved him. I've dipped in and out of this site for years, various names (mostly lurking). To me, it isn't "sad" the way my friends keep saying, it's gut wrenching and heartbreaking. I didn't always understand him and I didn't always love every song he created but I always loved him. My sister said "it's ok because apparently there's so much stuff in the vault there'll still be new music". I didn't know what to say. I don't care. I don't want new music. I just want him to be alive still. See, how can you say that and not have people think you're crazy? I don't even understand it myself. Wish we could all meet up. Anyway, I'm rambling and crying and I just wanted to connect somehow. I hope you're all OK xxx

You are feeling what a lot of fans are. In fact, I posted almost the exact same thing about people would probably think that I'm crazy, grieving over a celebrity that didn't even know I existed, and just like you, none of my friends/relatives were Prince fans either, and I felt isolated too, in my own little purple world. Growing up, many of them didn't understand what I saw in Prince or why I liked his music. Tonight, I was looking at pictures and the video of the funeral service, and started crying, only to have my husband and daughter come into the room at the same time, and asking me why I was crying? To be honest, I was a little embarrassed telling them it was because of Prince, not to mention the funny look I got from them after I did. Here, we understand one another's pain, and that pain is okay.

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1contessa said:

What has given me comfort is knowing that we must all transition to the after life. Prince moved into his new studio on 4/21 so he's now preparing great music for us to all be together again. When my day comes, I hope to meet him in spirit (which is everlasting).

I wonder if when Prince arrived - good times were rolling White, Black, Puerto Rican, everybody just a-freakin'

I haven't left the house since yesterday. I canceled everything today because I couldn't get out of bed. I don't want to see anyone, I don't want to talk to anyone.

I just want this not to be true. But it is. So I just want some kind of peace.

Iluvmusic78 said:

Iluvmusic78 said:

I haven't left the house since yesterday. I canceled everything today because I couldn't get out of bed. I don't want to see anyone, I don't want to talk to anyone.

I just want this not to be true. But it is. So I just want some kind of peace.

I know exactly what you mean. My family called me, but I just couldn't pick up. I just need to be alone in all this - I don't need their pep talks. They're just not comforting. The only thing that's really been helping me is watching footage of Prince (music videos, films, interviews, everything). I just can't listen to his music without a visual or else it comes back to me.

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I think most of us here can remember what they were doing over the years of there life by first thinking what Prince album was new at the time. I for one have always had this as a measure.

panpac777 said:

m33kn3ss said:

Prince moved into his new studio on 4/21 so he's now preparing great music for us to all be together again.

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That's such a nice thought.

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Anonymous... Glad to see you around again. Grief is a process and Time is the only thing that heals it. Music and Videos though of course are, as someone put it so succintly earlier, 'Prince's gold' he left behind for us, the fans, who love from afar and can't be close to MPLS or attend a funeral.

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I put some daffodils in a beautiful lake this afternoon during a walk which turned from sunshine into hail and very cold. So typical of April which is all over the place. The hail reminded me, that just as it comes from the sky, lands on the ground, melts with the earth and then either gets sucked up the sun, helps something grow, and/or gets absorbed into the air again up high, that Prince is like all the beautiful people in our life, always there. The form changes but the experience is within.

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Talking about numbers it's always so funny. Prince had 740 tweets. 7+4= 11 - If I say eleven.... Instagram had 217 posts. 21 April - 7-2-1= 4 . I can just imagine how someone saw the posts as a Symbol. It's creative and amazing how everyone finds something in something to honour the spirit of Prince, now that his body is not here. I know in time we will honour the Humanitarian more, but knowing how much creativity was still in that small frame of a man, life just seems such a b***** at the moment. But we the Rainbow Children will Rise....just like the Sun.

Bohemian67 said:

AnonymousFan said:

Iluvmusic78 said:

I haven't left the house since yesterday. I canceled everything today because I couldn't get out of bed. I don't want to see anyone, I don't want to talk to anyone.

I just want this not to be true. But it is. So I just want some kind of peace.

I know exactly what you mean. My family called me, but I just couldn't pick up. I just need to be alone in all this - I don't need their pep talks. They're just not comforting. The only thing that's really been helping me is watching footage of Prince (music videos, films, interviews, everything). I just can't listen to his music without a visual or else it comes back to me.

Exactly. I had to go to work today. But I just can't stomach being around people. I can't talk about him with anyone. Except you guys. It just hurts too much. SO I'm hiding at work. Doors locked for as long as I can.

redaddict said:

Iluvmusic78 said:

I haven't left the house since yesterday. I canceled everything today because I couldn't get out of bed. I don't want to see anyone, I don't want to talk to anyone.

I just want this not to be true. But it is. So I just want some kind of peace.

Are you OK? I know how you feel...I think. I just want you to know you're not alone. Sending love 💜💜

I did get some sleep last night. Not much. But as soon as I come back into consciouness, I hear his voice singing to me. "Nothing compares to U". Then I remember he's gone. And the heaviness comes again.

Iluvmusic78 said:

redaddict said:

Iluvmusic78 said: Are you OK? I know how you feel...I think. I just want you to know you're not alone. Sending love 💜💜

I did get some sleep last night. Not much. But as soon as I come back into consciouness, I hear his voice singing to me. "Nothing compares to U". Then I remember he's gone. And the heaviness comes again.

Iluvmusic78 said:

Revolution said:

The day he died, i had a moment that i can only describe as hyperventilation. The thought of never hearing new music, a world without prince put me in a state to where i couldnt breathe for a few moments. I am ok for the most part now but still have moments where i cry & i know i will be crying forever over this loss. I wish i could give all orgers a group hug. We are all mourning in our own way. I love the idea of doing nice deeds on june 7th (and the 4th day of november...the world needs a purple high!). Lets get behind it!! Purple t-shirts for the group. The world needs to know that Prince raised us right!

Why November 4th?

Revolution said:

"4th day of november, we need a purple high" - All The Critics Love U In New York

renfield said:

It's still so difficult to fully comprehend and digest this. Iconic musician who died way too young? Nah, not Prince. He'll bury us all. Right?

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But you know, we have each other. Here. At the org. Each of us understands how we're all feeling. This place will become therapy for us. We'll help each other. We'll each be an ear for someone else who needs to be heard. A shoulder to cry on. I don't know any of you in person but I love you all. From KCOOL to Bart and everyone in between...I truly do love you all. You can fight with family but at the end you're still blood. We can fight with each other here but we're all still bonded by Prince, whether he's physically here or not. Even beyond the music, maybe that was his greatest gift to us.

Beautiful words. Thank you.