what am I doing

nothings making sense

I've an awareness I'm running off a cliff,

yet continue on, headlong

into the unreality that ultimately brings death.

an unknown except for one certainty.

an unrelentingly vapid path.

one last huff, one last puff

the last of the traps

love and mist
cannot control
this feeling
consuming
heart and mind
the face I see
all the time
💕 😍



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[Edited 11/13/19 15:58pm]

Sowing Seeds of Doubt
The tiniest of seeds
flourish when tended
even overgrown weeds
their beauty surrendered
Has she entranced you so
stolen you from my arms
whispering a sweet word
to you using cunning charms
The fresh flower
you recently picked
lays by the wayside
withered, lacking power
dust clouds kicked
by passersby in stride
the blustery ill wind
blowing in from below
spins rage from within
yet dies mid-throes

tormented for loving
though feeling unqualified
as a lover
at first being desirous,
then switch to one
insecurity or other
scared to disappoint
lest being exposed as a fraud,
feeling ugly,
riddled with
unforgivable flaws

I have no fear
as I stand here
to absorb each hit
of barbs of twisted wit
from each blow I shant hide,
fearlessly, I brush them aside,
for true love I am as a shield
yet for true love, I do yield.

True love of fairy tales I’ve never believed to be true
There’s never a happy ending, only the two meant for the two

Nothing grand that will spin the world beneath your feet
Only humble helpings I have to offer, that may not be as sweet

Through trials, through adversity, through rain
Who’ll still always be there enduring through pain

When one is down, who’ll be there to lift the spirit
For good, for bad, for what may come, and still be in it?

clickity clack
the wheel veers
off track




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[Edited 11/16/19 7:07am]

Such renderings does things,
as a quixotic poet,
drunken, from the nectar,
from the passion fruit of love

You pour quiet relections over me, soft white lights tan my soul, your night blankets cover me, in the security of your embrace

love flows like oh so
bubbly liquid strawberry cream
or lava to ocean, trundling over earth in a hot molten stream