How did ya overcome your Saddness?

Zelaira said:

Omg, what's wrong, Zelaira?

yeah what's wrong girl

Would u like a cup of coffee?

A so Called Doctor has Caused me to Not wanna live anymore for what he did to me. He Lied to me and now there are Complications. I cannot Cope . I am going to Collapse on the Street . I cannot Smile anymore. I am So Sad. I am Hurting badly. He Killed me. I don't want to Live. i want to Stay in the Hospital and not even Concerts can make me Happy. I Can't Function anymore. It's Over...

My Child is going to Not have a Mother soon cause I don't wanna live anymore.

To answer in short, yes...even taken it to the extreme - but I won't go there right now

Stay safe and even tho it's hard try and see the bright side of life - they're everywhere if you DO feel that bad you can't cope - PM ME!!!! I've been there so I know how bad it can get...

TAKE CARE!!!!! and let us know how you are

I'm Not Sure if I'll Make anymore Concerts even though I have tickets. I would just rather stay in the Hospital . I Cannot Function anymore. Why Pretend? I thank whatever friends I have but I don't wanna live anymore over this situation. It's Beyond me and I'm Devestated. I Cannot even Try to Pretend. I Don't Care about Anything. I'm Very Unhappy for what he did to me. I'm having Seixures shaking because I'm so Nervous and Upset over this. I Cannot take care of my Child ever since the operation.

Zelaira said:

that's selfish.

I can't Function anymore for her.

Zelaira said:

even if you cannot function for you... you better find a way.

starkitty said:

I agree, Zelaira...for your daughters sake you GOTTA FIND A WAY!! even tho you may not see past it now there IS a way, sweetie...as I said in the orgpop give me a phone number so I can CALL YOU!!! please don't do anything silly that your daughter will have to live with all her life

I'm so sorry to hear about that, Zelaira.

Whenever I encounter a serious problem/issue that plagues me like that and to the point where I feel that there's nothin else to do, either I pray, spill my guts to a loved one.

Now, as for your condition, just consider that doctors DON'T know everything. Last year, I was in a very serious accident and some doctor told me that I wouldn't live 24 hrs.

But I'm sitting here typing to you now.

I don't want to get sappy with this, but keep ya chip up, girl, cause the sun will shine again. Believe me, it will. But please don't do anything drastic.


[This message was edited Sun Jun 6 23:48:45 2004 by kiss85]

I just wish and I Never,Never Take drugs but I Wish I could just Numb Myself fromthis Event. I seriously feel like I Need Massive Drugs. I Can't stand how sad I feel. I don't wanna feel this anymore. I'm Not into Pain. I Need to be OBLIVIATED and So like Numbed. Maybe they will find me something so I can no longer FEEL!

althom said:

see that's what we love about you...you always find a way to lighten it up

I just want my friends from Ny. I Miss them.

Zelaira said:

so if you miss them STICK AROUND!!!!! as I said, if you are serious about what you're saying here GET SOME HELP, girl do not reach out like this and not take our help - I'm right here and can call you IF YOU NEED IT OK?

I will Run to get Medication tommorrow. But still I will need to Take alot cause I Cannot Function with this situation.

I have been eating Chocolate like Crazy. It's Not Helping.

you know, i'm no doctor, and i can't diagnose depression, and i can't tell you what you have to do, Zelaira. you won't listen to me.

you need help for real, and you won't get it here. you need a doctor or a counselor. i'm sure this has been said before. but i can't in good conscience take this as a joke when you say your daughter won't have a mother. that's fucking bullshit. she deserves a mother, you owe it to her - if no one else - to get help.

if you listen to nothing else i say... look at your baby.

get some help.

Thanks for this StarKitty. But how do you make a bad thing Good again? It's Impossible.

You know what would cheer you up Zelaira? A new avatar!!!!!

Al, i always enjoyed what you said to me in my threads. I am NOT The Same as 5 years ago. I Don't Care.. I Don't wanna live anymore..Everything Sucks. I am Not Happy Anymore with Any of My Situations. I Cannot Heal. I look at the Funeral Homes everyday and say I want there. I Know it will be soon. I Don't Care. And Unlike some the First Time will Suceed. Because I Cannot Take this Pain everyday. I Cannot Cope with this.
[This message was edited Mon Jun 7 0:09:32 2004 by Zelaira]

Zelaira said:

it's not.

but you can't see it when you're in it. deal with it first, then you work on making it better.

get your foundation right, girl.

Every Day I am working on my Body to look good but I Collapse Crying Hysterically Every Day Cause Emotionally because of this Problem I Collapse and cannot Sleep and well eat Chocolate.

I need Medication cause Nothing is helping me with this. I'm Crying all over the place.

Don't you think my avatar idea is good?