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PURRR Therapy.

Hang in there, mate

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Do the social things first. Make you some friends, friend.

I've always thought of you as the official org defender of the therapeutic process...I was tempted to take on that role myself, but...heh...I'm so shamefully broken in so many ways...I just couldn't. But then the broken ones are the ones most skilled in using tape and glue, eh?

Therapy you are certainly one of the nicest, most growing person here..

I say start an indoor garden, get that Tai Chi tape. (If you can't afford it Org note me your address). Do it all, with your daughter. She can begin her life experiences with you.

Teller. I am crying. I think you hit it there in many ways.


The losses...do they hurt fully? Sometimes in the therapeutic process we're in such a hurry to heal that we forget to feel the pain...we want to be past it before it's really time.

Oh my goodness, this is so accurate. Yes, this is exactly what is happening. I don't want this pain, I have been wanting it to go for so long.

Or to put it really bluntly--sometimes you need to get more depressed first.

Part of you must die. Or has died, from the sound of it.

Again, very much yes. To both. I am still in the process of dying. And I have died. I don't think I have acknowledged an inner loss of the part of myself dying. I have acknowledged my feelings in relation to the loss of people though.

To make room for the new. Have your grieved for this inner loss, as opposed to everyone outside that has fallen away? Do you miss any parts of your old self? Oh, I so, so miss being able to go where ever I please, when ever I please

Fertile soil is wonderful...but what are you planting in this recently tilled-over garden? Purpose is the engine of growth. I'm looking at the soil. Every time I attempt to go forward by finding phone numbers for groups to attend with and without my son, I get no where. The people I call are all unavailable. It is the school holidays, so that will change though. Although, I am irrationally believing that I'll never be able to put the feelers out anywhere.

And of course...during times of loneliness, there is always this nutty bunch at the org. I know and thank you all man

I think sag10 is onto something...do something alone while you work through your depression. Then, when the time comes to go out into the world, you'll have a little flower already poking up out of your soil.