I would have saved so much more money, though it's not too late.

insomnia said:

I would've not wasted time in a place that I hated,trying to make it work with a person whom was too damn difficult, and stayed put in my hometown of NYC. Not moving back sooner might be my only regret in this life.

I think this says it all to me. Basically why did I not call a red flag a red flag when I first saw it????

Send me back 15 years so I can play with all my Legos again.

PurpleJedi said:

angel345 said:

Well, like you say no to the men I've dated or had relationships with who didn't have my best interest. Wish that I have seen my grandmother and father before they died. Not going to go into details, but I forgive my father. I feel sorry for the people who worked in Enron. No pension or 401k's Just saying, and I know what you mean.

If I could change one small thing...instead of spending all of my resources 15 years ago planning a wedding that frankly could've waited a year (or ten)...I would've saved up airfare to so see my paternal grandmother in Honduras, who would always ask me "when are you travelling down to see me?", before she died.

That right there is something that has always weighed on me.

I understand how you feel. A part of me didn't get over my paternal grandmother's death. She was a big part of my life. She was what you would call a hellraiser, but I loved her anyway . During the ten years that my father was sick, I did not know he had leukemia, until I got a call from my mother stating that he's sick in the hospital. I saw him in 2004, but he never mentioned it. He was hospitalized in 2001, but I thought it was a stroke at the time. I went to see him in NYC this summer. He passed in late June. Then in July, my daughter's father passed away. If it wasn't for a third party, I would have never known. I remembered spending years hating that man, but in the end before he passed, I forgave him. If I can turn back 16 years ago, I would just be friends. We started out better that way. Forgive me for venting. All we can do is keep our love ones in our hearts and memories. Love the ones that are with us. You have some adorable kids. Best wishes to your other grandmother. Thanks for the hug, and here's one for you

HobbesLeCute said:

Send me back 15 years so I can play with all my Legos again.

You can play with Lego's today. I know if I had some, I would.

HobbesLeCute said:

ZombieKitten said:

HobbesLeCute said:

Send me back 15 years so I can play with all my Legos again.

I am still playing with mine!!! [img:$uid]http://www.thebricktestament.com/the_law/incest/lv18_17.jpg[/img:$uid]

Figures it would only be a matter of time before they came out with Legoporn.

ewwwwww

I started getting crazy ideas last night and tonight about my future, but I don't really know if I want it for the right reasons

I would have never started smoking cigarettes and herb. I would have gotten a job with the federal government.

ZombieKitten said:

HobbesLeCute said:

Send me back 15 years so I can play with all my Legos again.

I am still playing with mine!!! [img:$uid]http://www.thebricktestament.com/the_law/incest/lv18_17.jpg[/img:$uid]

Look at the right one's legs! Is this amputee porn?

Send me back 20 years, this time of the year in 1991 when I was starting my senior year in high school, and just give me one great big ol' DO OVER! My adult life has been a huge let down for the most part, nothing like what I envisioned it would be. In fact it's only been about the past 3 years or so that I've learned to be comfortable with the whos, whats, and hows of my life....

Adisa said:

Send me back 20 years, this time of the year in 1991 when I was starting my senior year in high school, and just give me one great big ol' DO OVER! My adult life has been a huge let down for the most part, nothing like what I envisioned it would be. In fact it's only been about the past 3 years or so that I've learned to be comfortable with the whos, whats, and hows of my life....

I feel the same about my adult & teen years honestly...But the stuff that happened to me wasn't in my hands in my teen years...

I would have been more social, not have eaten as much because Is suffered from depression, took guitar lessons, stayed in dance class. I would have had more confidence and smacked those who teased me.

I would have enjoyed my life more and not spent it feeling sorry for myself and my life. I would have not been afraid of getting to know people, maybe have confess my love to my crush lol. I would have done so many things differently, I wouldn't have been the fat girl that everyone made fun of but I would have taken better care of my body, because I didnt lose that weight until college. But now, I can never get those years back, but I made up for them! lol

HobbesLeCute said:

ZombieKitten said:

HobbesLeCute said: I am still playing with mine!!! [img:$uid]http://www.thebricktestament.com/the_law/incest/lv18_17.jpg[/img:$uid]

Look at the right one's legs! Is this amputee porn?

it's kinky I tell you!!

IamFunkay7 said:

I would have been more social, not have eaten as much because Is suffered from depression, took guitar lessons, stayed in dance class. I would have had more confidence and smacked those who teased me.

I would have enjoyed my life more and not spent it feeling sorry for myself and my life. I would have not been afraid of getting to know people, maybe have confess my love to my crush lol. I would have done so many things differently, I wouldn't have been the fat girl that everyone made fun of but I would have taken better care of my body, because I didnt lose that weight until college. But now, I can never get those years back, but I made up for them! lol

We were probably brother/sister in another life.

I know I complain too much too and have to stop feeling sorry for myself, which is why I tried pushing myself to do things outside my comfort zone, but would retreat again after it and isolate myself. You sound similar to me too in some ways purplejedi. I wish I took dance lessons as a little kid and went to private school and an arts high school, though I got go to private for one year only and took a good music course at high school that was different from the ones at other schools though I think my life could have turned out different had some people taken the time out to look at my interests and maximize them. Sure I took piano for years, but I also was put in extra cirricular activities I didn't want at all instead of the ones I wanted. I learned how to dance later on from mj and janet and studying them and other inspirations too and it felt better, but I dunno.... I've decided I'm going to go for dance lessons this fall though and do it for fun no expectations. I was going to do guitar, enrolled in art but haven't attended and have to drop it, so now I'm doing dance.

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PurpleJedi said:

IamFunkay7 said:

I would have been more social, not have eaten as much because Is suffered from depression, took guitar lessons, stayed in dance class. I would have had more confidence and smacked those who teased me.

I would have enjoyed my life more and not spent it feeling sorry for myself and my life. I would have not been afraid of getting to know people, maybe have confess my love to my crush lol. I would have done so many things differently, I wouldn't have been the fat girl that everyone made fun of but I would have taken better care of my body, because I didnt lose that weight until college. But now, I can never get those years back, but I made up for them! lol

We were probably brother/sister in another life.

We probably are

I would have aproached a lot of things differently!

I would be so much more assertive at the job I had and would have hold the people responsible for their own deeds. In stead of trying to solve and work out their mess.

Same for the builder and architect that I hired to renovate my house. I'm still dealing with their bad work. If I would have been more strict with them and not have myselft intimidated, maybe things would have went better.

I would have not get involved with the lousy men I have been involved with. I would have just said NO and waited for the time that I knew what I wanted/needed in a guy and see if he was a match. Would have saved me a lot of trouble.

Man, I can't stop dwelling on this, I just had another good cry about how differently life would have turned out if I did things my way instead of trying to please others too much, including god, and just missing out on a lot and being blind to what a hypocrite I was. I found old diaries of mine, read over them and shocked with a lot of things I wrote cause I'm not that way nowadays and have matured since though I don't always feel it. I really would have been more indepdent and comfortable/confident today without feeling useless had I left home for school. My neighbor did that recently and I see myself in her so much, except she made a good decision and will realize later on she did the right thing. And though I know I'm sad about the whole MJ thing and regret not seeing him, I also feel really bad for what he was put through and feel like we fans enabled him though we couldn't have known about the insomnia, and I regret not going to travel to see him at events though I had a few chances. I know I just have stupid voids to fill and am just running away from my current struggle, it's fucking stupid as hell and people have worse problems. I made a decision to get away from the trial now and feel good about the choice, but still feel sad, but know it's all me.

Immesurably.

I'd like these years back 25-34 please.

17-27 back

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alphastreet said:

Man, I can't stop dwelling on this, I just had another good cry about how differently life would have turned out if I did things my way instead of trying to please others too much, including god, and just missing out on a lot and being blind to what a hypocrite I was. I found old diaries of mine, read over them and shocked with a lot of things I wrote cause I'm not that way nowadays and have matured since though I don't always feel it. I really would have been more indepdent and comfortable/confident today without feeling useless had I left home for school. My neighbor did that recently and I see myself in her so much, except she made a good decision and will realize later on she did the right thing. And though I know I'm sad about the whole MJ thing and regret not seeing him, I also feel really bad for what he was put through and feel like we fans enabled him though we couldn't have known about the insomnia, and I regret not going to travel to see him at events though I had a few chances. I know I just have stupid voids to fill and am just running away from my current struggle, it's fucking stupid as hell and people have worse problems. I made a decision to get away from the trial now and feel good about the choice, but still feel sad, but know it's all me.

Are you serious? It's not that big of a deal because it could never happen. It's just hypothetical....Hopefully you stop crying. You must have made some pretty bad decisions.....

I did a lot of good things in the past 10 years and there are good things that came out of it and a lot to be grateful for, but I was running from personal happiness too and not realizing. I was limiting myself in a lot of ways and just became unhappy. I'm already hard on myself for decisions and take responsibility for it cause I know I can't be mad at other people. I understand the roots of why things turned out as they did and what drove my decisions, but I shouldn't have let it rule me though I knew what was happening. Plus it's hard dealing with mental illness at the same time, and back then not realizing that was part of it too.

My struggle right now is finding a good job and paying for my overspending, and working on screwing my head back on

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[Edited 10/15/11 20:34pm]

If we get a choice, then my choice is years 19-29 back please.

You know what..... I wouldn't do anything differently. Failed marriage included. I'm grateful for all the lessons I've learned, even if I had to learn some of them the hard way. And actually, aside from that, my life is pretty freakin' awesome.

Glad to hear that Militant I used to say for years I had no regrets, but changed completely since. Today I'm having an okay day where I feel so grateful for what I have. I feel grateful about the good things I have today, but feel sad about what happened before for me to move on.

I probably would go back to my college-first job years. A lot personally and professionally I'd do differently.

Just finished crying again. I wish I could move out, but I have no money and am in debt. I spend a lot on entertainment events to feel that rush and feel better about myself, but then I feel like shit again. And though I love my religion, I feel like being around the people I was has really harmed me and has damaged me from loving it the way I could have. It can't be undone I'm afraid I just need to leave really badly, cause I'm mentally going crazy and would like my own space. I'm too misunderstood, dealing with too much mentally with mental people including myself, I don't know what I want to do with life. I really feel like shit today.

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alphastreet said:

Man, I can't stop dwelling on this, I just had another good cry about how differently life would have turned out if I did things my way instead of trying to please others too much, including god, and just missing out on a lot and being blind to what a hypocrite I was. I found old diaries of mine, read over them and shocked with a lot of things I wrote cause I'm not that way nowadays and have matured since though I don't always feel it. I really would have been more indepdent and comfortable/confident today without feeling useless had I left home for school. My neighbor did that recently and I see myself in her so much, except she made a good decision and will realize later on she did the right thing. And though I know I'm sad about the whole MJ thing and regret not seeing him, I also feel really bad for what he was put through and feel like we fans enabled him though we couldn't have known about the insomnia, and I regret not going to travel to see him at events though I had a few chances. I know I just have stupid voids to fill and am just running away from my current struggle, it's fucking stupid as hell and people have worse problems. I made a decision to get away from the trial now and feel good about the choice, but still feel sad, but know it's all me.

Now I feel that's the least of my worries and doesn't matter, I'm the one who feels like shit regardless