at the hands of your family members who for years treated you like dirt, confused your mind, etc...and you couldnt fight them......im just not too sure right now.....

I feel like they all took over my life, including their dad, which left me crazy and now they feel im in their way.....another fleeting moment perhaps, im tired of going through this seemingly ever other week, who wouldnt be......

if i talk to a friend, they swear im hurting them. everything i say or try to do that makes sense they minimize it and make like im crazy which causes me to be more determined, and usually fail...

#fretover...

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almost....

i feel like the simplest things i want to accomplish always come back to explode....im basically a modern hermit....

and ....i feel like people expect me to want something...and i just dont! i want my fam to not play sides as to whose camp im gonna stay in.....jeez!

am i talking too much?? >

I dont know the full story & dont understand everything you have written,but I do understand people hurting u & u being a 'modern hermit' as i'm basically the same! I cut certain people out of my life & its been alot calmer ever since,i feel 1 of the few choices we have left is the company we keep & who we spend our time (life!) with,it wasnt easy 2 do,alota people acted up but i'm glad I did it. Have u ever heard of a little book called the kybalion? Check it out it may help u 2. U were not born 2 be 'treated like dirt' ,used,or vampired off. Good luck & blessings 2 u. (p.s 'stress' kills,so in effect peoples fuckry/drama IS killing u, theres people out there who wil lift u up not cut u down,clear out the trash & branch out! ) xxx

nina, doll, ...no kybullion doll,

lets face it, they turned me into a frikkin witch aaannnnd a dumb one at that!!!!...dagnabbit!