JuliePurplehead said:

I've been thinking about what I want for myself in the next 5 years and I realize how I'm living now is not going to get me there. I keep telling myself without risk there is no gain but I've been too scared to take those risks. I feel like I'm in a good place to change and since I'm consciously ready to make those changes, I feel something awakening in me. I've been kind of asexual for awhile now and now all of the sudden I'm noticing men. And more importantly I'm noticing them noticing me. I hope this lasts.

You know I found this book in, of all places, the dollar store called "Kick Start" to unleash your inner "shebiker". It was pretty good. Then I found another book that I know you can find at Amazon called "Calm, Cool, and Collected" I think the authors last name is Nelson. That is an excellent book and really cemented my doing a 180 with my life at the age of 50.

My sister almost died in March and while she layed there I realized that if she died I was soooo moving out of my hometown. I realized that I did not have forever to live either and suddenly I knew I had to live as the "authentic" me ASAP. I knew I was running out of time to pursue my dreams and that I would rather be a failure then a quitter. So I moved South and will soon begin pursuing acting.

connorhawke said:

I really need to stop playing Sims. It's sad that all my Sims are far more successful than I.

If I could combine all of the money I've made in "Grand Theft Auto 3, Vice City, San Andreas, Liberty City Stories, Vice City Stories, 4 [plus the Downloadable content]", I'd have enough $ to never have to work again, plus make sure nobody on Prince.org had to either [I've made hundreds of Billions of dollars on all those games]....

Deadflow3r said:

JuliePurplehead said:

I've been thinking about what I want for myself in the next 5 years and I realize how I'm living now is not going to get me there. I keep telling myself without risk there is no gain but I've been too scared to take those risks. I feel like I'm in a good place to change and since I'm consciously ready to make those changes, I feel something awakening in me. I've been kind of asexual for awhile now and now all of the sudden I'm noticing men. And more importantly I'm noticing them noticing me. I hope this lasts.

You know I found this book in, of all places, the dollar store called "Kick Start" to unleash your inner "shebiker". It was pretty good. Then I found another book that I know you can find at Amazon called "Calm, Cool, and Collected" I think the authors last name is Nelson. That is an excellent book and really cemented my doing a 180 with my life at the age of 50.

My sister almost died in March and while she layed there I realized that if she died I was soooo moving out of my hometown. I realized that I did not have forever to live either and suddenly I knew I had to live as the "authentic" me ASAP. I knew I was running out of time to pursue my dreams and that I would rather be a failure then a quitter. So I moved South and will soon begin pursuing acting.

Thank you. I'll check those out. I feel like I've wasted a lot of time already. It's time to get uncomfortable.

ZombieKitten said:

I love thai food so much I wish it was all I had to eat EVER!

Since you're in Australia it is not farfetched for you to vacation in Thailand. Do you ever go there? I also love Thai food more so then Chinese.

Deadflow3r said:

ZombieKitten said:

Deadflow3r said:

Since you're in Australia it is not farfetched for you to vacation in Thailand. Do you ever go there? I also love Thai food more so then Chinese.

It's not too far! I think 9 hours by plane? We have thai restaurants on every corner, I just wish I could go to them way more often (the master and offspring don't like thai food )

What type of food do they eat? Your husband is from Argentina and you are from Sweden: I don't know much about the cuisine of either of those countries. I am wondering where your kid got their tastebuds from and what DO they like to eat?

The reason I like Thai food is because the protein is almost an afterthought of a spice. There are a ton of vegetables and nuts. I love vegetables so much it would not be that painful for me to become a vegetarian. The only thing is I cook with eggs and some vegetables taste better, like collard greens, if cooked with a bit of meat added for flavor.

Deadflow3r said:

Machaela said:

Yes ~ and strangers and I used to do them HERE on the org ( only 1 card pulls ) I would need much more exchange time to do a full reading on a website ...

and Yes ... I have had mine read 3 times ( by a long time friend and pro reader ) in the past several month since Mom's death ~ and yes we do friend circle card info shares

I had a friend in Provincetown that did psychic readings and made her living off of it. She would say that if you keep asking the same question over again eventually the cards will lie to you. I miss having someone to do that with.

That's interesting ...

I do not often ask the cards anything

If I read for another I ask THEM for a small amount of info on what they desire ( I usually ask them to silently ask/tell the deck as they hold them ) and then I just lay / read their cards and then AFTER I ask them if they want to share what their desires/needs/questions were with me ...or how well the cards helped them ( or not ! )

I try very hard to stay in a centered space and remove the "me" part from the cards and just let them do their own work

I have never charged $ for a reading ~ never ...

Machaela said:

Deadflow3r said:

I had a friend in Provincetown that did psychic readings and made her living off of it. She would say that if you keep asking the same question over again eventually the cards will lie to you. I miss having someone to do that with.

That's interesting ...

I do not often ask the cards anything

If I read for another I ask THEM for a small amount of info on what they desire ( I usually ask them to silently ask/tell the deck as they hold them ) and then I just lay / read their cards and then AFTER I ask them if they want to share what their desires/needs/questions were with me ...or how well the cards helped them ( or not ! )

I try very hard to stay in a centered space and remove the "me" part from the cards and just let them do their own work

I have never charged $ for a reading ~ never ...

How did you do it on the org? Was it in the chat room or was it on a GD thread?

Did the person have to remain online while you pulled a card on their behalf? Or, could they walk away and you'd just concentrate on that orger and then pull?

The last time I had a reading it was in New Orleans maybe in the year 2000. I went to where the psychics line up in between Jackson Square and the Cathedral. I chose a young girl that was not all decked out in hippie/gypsy lady shtick. Her reading wasn't that interesting and given that there was a ton of stuff going on in my life at the time, well it really was a poor reading.

So, I would be up to it again but only a card reader that came highly recomended.

Deadflow3r said:

Machaela said:

That's interesting ...

I do not often ask the cards anything

If I read for another I ask THEM for a small amount of info on what they desire ( I usually ask them to silently ask/tell the deck as they hold them ) and then I just lay / read their cards and then AFTER I ask them if they want to share what their desires/needs/questions were with me ...or how well the cards helped them ( or not ! )

I try very hard to stay in a centered space and remove the "me" part from the cards and just let them do their own work

I have never charged $ for a reading ~ never ...

How did you do it on the org? Was it in the chat room or was it on a GD thread?

Did the person have to remain online while you pulled a card on their behalf? Or, could they walk away and you'd just concentrate on that orger and then pull?

The last time I had a reading it was in New Orleans maybe in the year 2000. I went to where the psychics line up in between Jackson Square and the Cathedral. I chose a young girl that was not all decked out in hippie/gypsy lady shtick. Her reading wasn't that interesting and given that there was a ton of stuff going on in my life at the time, well it really was a poor reading.

So, I would be up to it again but only a card reader that came highly recomended.

GD threads

No they did not have to be online the whole time

I only let people I know personally read my cards and would never just let a random street reader

I've literally had "Get your shit" by Wiz Khalifa on repeat for THREE days now. No idea why at all. I CANNOT keep myself from hitting the play button when it ends. Once or twice okay fine but this has seriously been going on for three days straight now? I think it's some kind of sign.

SaraWright10 said:

I've literally had "Get your shit" by Wiz Khalifa on repeat for THREE days now. No idea why at all. I CANNOT keep myself from hitting the play button when it ends. Once or twice okay fine but this has seriously been going on for three days straight now? I think it's some kind of sign.

I am not familiar with this song. I have had Prince songs on over and over again. Is it the lyrics tha t speak to you?

Right now it is 12:30am where I am and I am wide awake. That is due to eating fried chicken at 6pm and then laying down for a "nap" that went til 9pm. Now it really is bed time and I have thrown off my sleep pattern. I really need to cut that shit out.

At this point in time I am by myself, living with a friend and have no problems. My daughter is back in Massachusetts. I am scared as shit because I am not a focused person. Totally ADD (no hyperactivity) and it is so easy to just piss away my days. I need to make a list of goals or something. Luckily I hate T.V., it makes me irritable, or I could see myself sitting on a couch day after day as if I was an invalid and could not do anything else.

Tomorrow I need to send stuff to my daughter and sister and then check out downtown and the bus routes, etc.

I also need to see what is available here acting wise. If I am really going to pursue a career as a character actress I need to start now and do it right where I am. I also need to take daily walks and take better care of myself.

I am just way too good at pissing away valuable time and money too!

Deadflow3r said:

SaraWright10 said:

I've literally had "Get your shit" by Wiz Khalifa on repeat for THREE days now. No idea why at all. I CANNOT keep myself from hitting the play button when it ends. Once or twice okay fine but this has seriously been going on for three days straight now? I think it's some kind of sign.

I am not familiar with this song. I have had Prince songs on over and over again. Is it the lyrics tha t speak to you?

I haven't been into rap since I was in middle school.. but this "rap" song had been on repeat for three days... here's the lyrics:

I'm tired of arguing and fighting girl
every night you keep callin me with the same shit
I'm goin insane
I swear I love you but this ain't right for us
I never thought it would end this way, its gonna kill me to say
but you gotta..

pack your stuff, leave my keys, get your shit, gotta go
pack your stuff, leave my keys, get your shit, gotta go
pack your stuff, leave my keys, get your shit, gotta go
told you that I'm movin on you didn't well you oughtta know

to have to shape and mold you I admit was my mission but everything went wrong there
cuz you

SaraWright10 said:

Deadflow3r said:

I am not familiar with this song. I have had Prince songs on over and over again. Is it the lyrics tha t speak to you?

I haven't been into rap since I was in middle school.. but this "rap" song had been on repeat for three days... here's the lyrics:

I'm tired of arguing and fighting girl
every night you keep callin me with the same shit
I'm goin insane
I swear I love you but this ain't right for us
I never thought it would end this way, its gonna kill me to say
but you gotta..

pack your stuff, leave my keys, get your shit, gotta go
pack your stuff, leave my keys, get your shit, gotta go
pack your stuff, leave my keys, get your shit, gotta go
told you that I'm movin on you didn't well you oughtta know

to have to shape and mold you I admit was my mission but everything went wrong there
cuz you

start actin different
the day you ran up on me I was smokin, chillin
swore you was tryin to roll ain't know I was so appealin
fast forward I'm on the road, you at home
callin me back, forth
can't deal with this relationship but this what you asked for,
ask for them pictures of them bitches,
Shit, I probably wouldn't be wit em if your ass wasn't trippin,
not to mention you actin' like a kid, is the fuck shit I gotta deal wit
send a text, leave me a message try not to listen bring a wrap, you was the main player,
I had to bench you when I showed yo ass how to ball that Louie I bought it all.

[Chorus]
I'm tired of arguing and fighting girl (uh)
every night you keep callin me with the same shit
I'm goin insane
I swear I love you but this ain't right for us
I never thought it would end this way, its gonna kill me to say
but you gotta..

pack your stuff, leave my keys, get your shit, gotta go
pack your stuff, leave my keys, get your shit, gotta go
pack your stuff, leave my keys, get your shit, gotta go
told you that I'm movin on you didn't, well you oughta know

Gone on the road and I'm hardly home on the weekend
you'll be blowin my phone up, try to see who I'm seein
but I'm chasin this paper, so for this paper I'm reachin
might fuck one or two bitches but don't consider it cheatin
I consider the fact I will break up anyway, anyway
based on all the shit that you don't appreciate..
me switchin states, workin hard, meetin dates
n you were thinkin everything was sweet, piece of cake.
well that all changed
what we had was big but you gonna miss the small things..
n that lil cash I spent, that was small change, but above all things,
I still love you but I gotta do my own thing.. uh

[Chorus]
I'm tired of arguing and fighting girl
every night you keep callin me with the same shit
I'm goin insane
I swear I love you but this ain't right for us
I never thought it would end this way, its gonna kill me to say
but you gotta..

pack your stuff, leave my keys, get your shit, gotta go
pack your stuff, leave my keys, get your shit, gotta go
pack your stuff, leave my keys, get your shit, gotta go
told you that I'm movin on you didn't, well you oughtta know

How come I never come back now when you call I never call back
cuz I gotta new girl. Yeah, I gotta new girl.
Everything was all good then went all bad and no I don't think bout the times that we had cuz,
I gotta new girl. Yeah, I gotta new girl. Yeah.

oh, oh, oh, oh. [x8]

Are you going through a break up or something? Do you live by yourself? 3 days of repeat is a lot for those around you to take .

I bought a ton of groceries yesterday and salmon was on sale. I got a little over a pound and a quarter for $10.00 so it was still not cheap. Anyway I went on line today for a recipe and I had all the ingredients in the first one I pulled up. I am not too sure if I did it correctly because mine does not look like the picture but it was very good.

After 3 days if rain you'd have thought I would be running out of the house at the first sight of sunshine, well you'd be wrong. By the time I got ready to leave and catch the bus it was too late to go to half the places I needed to go to. I was ready to leave about 2:50pm and just missed the 2:40 bus. The next bus would not take me downtown until 3:40 and I wouldn't actually arrive downtown until after 4.

Soo I forced myself to go for an hours walk. I had on my new curvy bottom sandals and I was exausted when I came back. Hopefully I do that daily.

My roomate put a full length mirror in my room and I realized my stomach was pretty much the same as it was when I was pregnant!!! I am all belly.

Deadflow3r said:

SaraWright10 said:

I haven't been into rap since I was in middle school.. but this "rap" song had been on repeat for three days... here's the lyrics:

I'm tired of arguing and fighting girl
every night you keep callin me with the same shit
I'm goin insane
I swear I love you but this ain't right for us
I never thought it would end this way, its gonna kill me to say
but you gotta..

pack your stuff, leave my keys, get your shit, gotta go
pack your stuff, leave my keys, get your shit, gotta go
pack your stuff, leave my keys, get your shit, gotta go
told you that I'm movin on you didn't well you oughtta know

to have to shape and mold you I admit was my mission but everything went wrong there
cuz you

start actin different
the day you ran up on me I was smokin, chillin
swore you was tryin to roll ain't know I was so appealin
fast forward I'm on the road, you at home
callin me back, forth
can't deal with this relationship but this what you asked for,
ask for them pictures of them bitches,
Shit, I probably wouldn't be wit em if your ass wasn't trippin,
not to mention you actin' like a kid, is the fuck shit I gotta deal wit
send a text, leave me a message try not to listen bring a wrap, you was the main player,
I had to bench you when I showed yo ass how to ball that Louie I bought it all.

[Chorus]
I'm tired of arguing and fighting girl (uh)
every night you keep callin me with the same shit
I'm goin insane
I swear I love you but this ain't right for us
I never thought it would end this way, its gonna kill me to say
but you gotta..

pack your stuff, leave my keys, get your shit, gotta go
pack your stuff, leave my keys, get your shit, gotta go
pack your stuff, leave my keys, get your shit, gotta go
told you that I'm movin on you didn't, well you oughta know

Gone on the road and I'm hardly home on the weekend
you'll be blowin my phone up, try to see who I'm seein
but I'm chasin this paper, so for this paper I'm reachin
might fuck one or two bitches but don't consider it cheatin
I consider the fact I will break up anyway, anyway
based on all the shit that you don't appreciate..
me switchin states, workin hard, meetin dates
n you were thinkin everything was sweet, piece of cake.
well that all changed
what we had was big but you gonna miss the small things..
n that lil cash I spent, that was small change, but above all things,
I still love you but I gotta do my own thing.. uh

[Chorus]
I'm tired of arguing and fighting girl
every night you keep callin me with the same shit
I'm goin insane
I swear I love you but this ain't right for us
I never thought it would end this way, its gonna kill me to say
but you gotta..

pack your stuff, leave my keys, get your shit, gotta go
pack your stuff, leave my keys, get your shit, gotta go
pack your stuff, leave my keys, get your shit, gotta go
told you that I'm movin on you didn't, well you oughtta know

How come I never come back now when you call I never call back
cuz I gotta new girl. Yeah, I gotta new girl.
Everything was all good then went all bad and no I don't think bout the times that we had cuz,
I gotta new girl. Yeah, I gotta new girl. Yeah.

oh, oh, oh, oh. [x8]

Are you going through a break up or something? Do you live by yourself? 3 days of repeat is a lot for those around you to take .

I NEED to be going through a breakup haha.

and no i don't but ive had headphones on

I just wanted to post this pic somewhere.

FauxReal said:

I just wanted to post this pic somewhere.

The bear looks real, like he's really sitting at this particular picnic table waiting for his corndog.

I random stupid pics.

40 I'm not looking forward to turning 40 in 2 years. but I'm starting to think it will be a make or break it kind of thing for me. I'm already starting to feel like somethings gotta change and if it's not changed by the time I'm 40 I will have to make it happen....but I also don't know if I can hold out another 2 years.

I'm scared.

Shorty said:

40 I'm not looking forward to turning 40 in 2 years. but I'm starting to think it will be a make or break it kind of thing for me. I'm already starting to feel like somethings gotta change and if it's not changed by the time I'm 40 I will have to make it happen....but I also don't know if I can hold out another 2 years.

I'm scared.

I have been thinking a lot about you lately. What kind of things are you looking to change? You are not working am I right?

Deadflow3r said:

Shorty said:

40 I'm not looking forward to turning 40 in 2 years. but I'm starting to think it will be a make or break it kind of thing for me. I'm already starting to feel like somethings gotta change and if it's not changed by the time I'm 40 I will have to make it happen....but I also don't know if I can hold out another 2 years.

I'm scared.

I have been thinking a lot about you lately. What kind of things are you looking to change? You are not working am I right?

Shorty said:

Deadflow3r said:

I have been thinking a lot about you lately. What kind of things are you looking to change? You are not working am I right?

you have? cool ugh...my life basically. yes, I am working, hopefully that won't change or..change for the better. actually it's my marriage....there I said it.

Yeah I have. Wish that we could have spent more time together or I had met you before fleeing New England. There is a thread in P&R on libertarians and I wish I could sit and talk to you more about it.

Meanwhile, I have never been married nor have I been in a successful long term relationship so basically I would not know what I was talking about. However their are orgers who have been happily married for years. They would be the ones I would seek advice from, Doffieparker, Michaela, even zombiekitten. If prb were still around I would definitely suggest her.

How long have you been married?

Deadflow3r said:

Shorty said:

you have? cool ugh...my life basically. yes, I am working, hopefully that won't change or..change for the better. actually it's my marriage....there I said it.

Yeah I have. Wish that we could have spent more time together or I had met you before fleeing New England. There is a thread in P&R on libertarians and I wish I could sit and talk to you more about it.

Meanwhile, I have never been married nor have I been in a successful long term relationship so basically I would not know what I was talking about. However their are orgers who have been happily married for years. They would be the ones I would seek advice from, Doffieparker, Michaela, even zombiekitten. If prb were still around I would definitely suggest her.

How long have you been married?

yeah...I'm not really good at talking about it but this is a start. well...9/9 will be 11 years married, but 10/8 will be 23 years together. I'm only 38 so basically my first and only boyfriend, been together since I was 15.

Shorty said:

40 I'm not looking forward to turning 40 in 2 years. but I'm starting to think it will be a make or break it kind of thing for me. I'm already starting to feel like somethings gotta change and if it's not changed by the time I'm 40 I will have to make it happen....but I also don't know if I can hold out another 2 years.

I'm scared.

Wishing you well love.

Shorty said:

Deadflow3r said:

Yeah I have. Wish that we could have spent more time together or I had met you before fleeing New England. There is a thread in P&R on libertarians and I wish I could sit and talk to you more about it.

Meanwhile, I have never been married nor have I been in a successful long term relationship so basically I would not know what I was talking about. However their are orgers who have been happily married for years. They would be the ones I would seek advice from, Doffieparker, Michaela, even zombiekitten. If prb were still around I would definitely suggest her.

How long have you been married?

yeah...I'm not really good at talking about it but this is a start. well...9/9 will be 11 years married, but 10/8 will be 23 years together. I'm only 38 so basically my first and only boyfriend, been together since I was 15.

tinaz is another one I thought of. I think Michaela is married to her childhood sweetheart. So you are coming up quickly on your 11th year anniversary for being legally married. How many children do you have? You seem to have spent many years together without having children.

I have a friend who was married for 14 years without children. She had miscarriages. Unbelievably in her late 30's she gave birth to twins, 1 boy and 1girl, (without fertility treatments) and then 18 months later had another daughter. Her marriage took it hard. I think there were about five not so great years there. They seem to be on better footing now.

i know i have to have the surgery, but i don't really want to. it's going to hurt a lot and keep me from doing things for three months. still, it has to be done. next week i will rely on all of you to distract me from the pain. that, and oxycontin

XxAxX said:

i know i have to have the surgery, but i don't really want to. it's going to hurt a lot and keep me from doing things for three months. still, it has to be done. next week i will rely on all of you to distract me from the pain. that, and oxycontin

Wishing you well love.

Lisa10 said:

XxAxX said:

i know i have to have the surgery, but i don't really want to. it's going to hurt a lot and keep me from doing things for three months. still, it has to be done. next week i will rely on all of you to distract me from the pain. that, and oxycontin

Wishing you well love.

thank you. kinda freaked out. they're going to fuse my wrist ...

XxAxX said:

Lisa10 said:

Wishing you well love.

thank you. kinda freaked out. they're going to fuse my wrist ...

Like the joint? Does that mean it won't be so mobile after?