Yesterday i got the unfortunate news my grandpa had passed away=[

And the hardest part of this is being so far from family and being alone in my apartment trying to think about this or feel, Here in L.A i have ton's of friend's and my ex boyfriend who's also still my best friend are close to me but all in different towns around so yesterday and today i am sitting up here alone in my apartment it's very painful and i'm only 19 at the moment to .

Last year my Great Grandma died while i was still working i left work immediately and just went to the park by my house and was silent didn't cry or move really just sat in silence, As soon as i got home and saw my family i broke down like i never have before.

And my family being there really helped!, I Know i am an adult now and i'm mature but i realize it's so hard to go through thing's like this alone

Yesterday i didn't know what to do should i stand here and do nothing? walk around? Listen to music? Watch T.V? Play piano?

I Didn't know what to do idk i just felt so lost it was a dark feeling and i hated having it....

But anyway's this goes out to those who have ever lost someone and to those who had to go through it alone, ''HUGS''

Im so sorry about your grandpa... It so hard when loved ones die but we must carry on...

I am sorry to hear as well.....I was the only one who heard my dad crying before he died last year. I felt incredibly helpless although i pleaded and begged daily for someone to hear us......and i still live with the wonder of what i should have said or done differently..........although he had family and other children, i feel like i was the one who lost him.

Gunsnhalen said:

Yesterday i got the unfortunate news my grandpa had passed away=[

And the hardest part of this is being so far from family and being alone in my apartment trying to think about this or feel, Here in L.A i have ton's of friend's and my ex boyfriend who's also still my best friend are close to me but all in different towns around so yesterday and today i am sitting up here alone in my apartment it's very painful and i'm only 19 at the moment to .

Last year my Great Grandma died while i was still working i left work immediately and just went to the park by my house and was silent didn't cry or move really just sat in silence, As soon as i got home and saw my family i broke down like i never have before.

And my family being there really helped!, I Know i am an adult now and i'm mature but i realize it's so hard to go through thing's like this alone

Yesterday i didn't know what to do should i stand here and do nothing? walk around? Listen to music? Watch T.V? Play piano?

I Didn't know what to do idk i just felt so lost it was a dark feeling and i hated having it....

But anyway's this goes out to those who have ever lost someone and to those who had to go through it alone, ''HUGS''

i feel for your loss. the most precious thing in life is our loved ones.

tinaz said:

Im so sorry about your grandpa... It so hard when loved ones die but we must carry on...

Thank you so much your very sweet every hug counts whether real or through internet=]

myfavorite said:

I am sorry to hear as well.....I was the only one who heard my dad crying before he died last year. I felt incredibly helpless although i pleaded and begged daily for someone to hear us......and i still live with the wonder of what i should have said or done differently..........although he had family and other children, i feel like i was the one who lost him.

Ow my that is awful=[, I Am so sorry to hear that man........

Moments like those are very disturbing... I Rember last year when my grandma started talking to her mother 7 husband who had passed on it kind of freaked me out because for so long i thought that was a T.V & Movie cliche but it's very real....... and it upset me when i saw that happening

But once again sorry for your loss and at least we know our loved ones are in a better place

XxAxX said:

Gunsnhalen said:

Yesterday i got the unfortunate news my grandpa had passed away=[

And the hardest part of this is being so far from family and being alone in my apartment trying to think about this or feel, Here in L.A i have ton's of friend's and my ex boyfriend who's also still my best friend are close to me but all in different towns around so yesterday and today i am sitting up here alone in my apartment it's very painful and i'm only 19 at the moment to .

Last year my Great Grandma died while i was still working i left work immediately and just went to the park by my house and was silent didn't cry or move really just sat in silence, As soon as i got home and saw my family i broke down like i never have before.

And my family being there really helped!, I Know i am an adult now and i'm mature but i realize it's so hard to go through thing's like this alone

Yesterday i didn't know what to do should i stand here and do nothing? walk around? Listen to music? Watch T.V? Play piano?

I Didn't know what to do idk i just felt so lost it was a dark feeling and i hated having it....

But anyway's this goes out to those who have ever lost someone and to those who had to go through it alone, ''HUGS''

i feel for your loss. the most precious thing in life is our loved ones.

So very true and you realize just how precious they where.... thank you for the response every response means alot

Gunsnhalen said:

XxAxX said:

i feel for your loss. the most precious thing in life is our loved ones.

So very true and you realize just how precious they where.... thank you for the response every response means alot

it is nine years and five days since my father passed on...

hang in there

I'm so sorry for your loss and that you're so far from family at this time.

XxAxX said:

Gunsnhalen said:

So very true and you realize just how precious they where.... thank you for the response every response means alot

it is nine years and five days since my father passed on...

hang in there

I Will friend thank you so much bless you

Nothinbutjoy said:

I'm so sorry for your loss and that you're so far from family at this time.

Thank you for that friend and the hug=]

I send you a big hug from Spain

In 2007 my mother had surgery due to a brain tumor - that day I was alone at the hospital, and I will never forget how helpless I felt not knowing if she would resist the whole thing or not. Finally she completely recovered, only to pass away last year.

I send you

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kumala75 said:

I send you a big hug from Spain

In 2007 my mother had surgery due to a brain tumor - that day I was alone at the hospital, and I will never forget how helpless I felt not knowing if she would resist the whole thing or not. Finally she completely recovered, only to pass away last year.

I send you

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Thank you my friend that means a lot and i am sorry about your loss=[ that is terrible my heart goes to you

And interesting on a side note in my film class we have been dissecting the short story Hills Like White Elephants which take's place in spain!, We have had to give pic's of train stations building, costumes from 1920's Spain lovely place!

Acrylic said:

Thank you love=]

It's a horrible feeling that only fades but never fully goes away.

I lost my aunt who raised me when I was 22 and my dad 3 years later. They both had ben ill before for a long time. I know what you are going through .

vainandy said:

It's a horrible feeling that only fades but never fully goes away.

That's the truth my friend... but knowing there in a better place is the only thing that keep's me smiling=]

Serious said:

I lost my aunt who raised me when I was 22 and my dad 3 years later. They both had ben ill before for a long time. I know what you are going through .

Ow my that is awful i am so sorry dear=[

These pat and hug symbols really make me feel like i'm really being hugged strangely thank you and everyone so much for them much love to you all my fellow orgers