When I was in here last night (my night, the orgs day...), I took part in the thread about Icenine v's all orgers.

This morning, I was sitting on my kitchen worktop thinking to myself. Thinking about what I had written last night. Then I thought about what I was giving my energy to, spending my time thinking about here and I thought 'What the hell am I doing thinking about all of this for?!'

I know that I think about certain things a lot if they puzzle me for some reason. I have to do this, as by thinking about things a lot, I usually end up breaking through my own barriers and coming up with some answers, or a way of moving forward with my own issues.

I thought about the theme and message of the thread and then it hit me... I don't know if others feel the same, yet I believe that what has been going on here is about finding a place to belong. 'Where can I exercise my identity here?' 'How can I get a sense of belonging with the people here?' It's not just about this virtual world, I feel this in my life in general.

I think that from RedFeathers thread, I have worked out that it is sometimes tricky to be myself and exert my identity in a way that I feel satisfied with. I believe that there is room for everyone and I guess on some level, I am still feeling my way around, checking out the ground, elbowing for a bit of room and space for my voice etc. As here, so in my life in general...

I just wanted to share this... I know that some may think that I'm looking a bit too deeply at all of this, but that's who I am!!! That's my identity!! I'll carry on this way to exert who I am... And I am happy that I can learn such things by coming here, which benefit my life in general.

cheers to you all

You know what, I've thought the same things recently from time to time. My girlfriend sometimes makes fun of me for writing on here... but at the same time she understands that it is because I love the music and that for me, as a musician, I learn stuff on here about a musician whose work I really enjoy.

Oh yes, do understand you very good Therapy.



Since early 1999 I am like this! I feel as Dino!

Therapy

I love your honesty & insight, girl I've been thinking about this stuff too lately - why do I like coming here so much? Why am I hooked on this place? Is it strictly the music or is it something about me that keeps me visiting? I've come to a conclusion just today, but I'm not quite sure I wanna share it. I'm sure I'm transparent to some already, but still...

Anyway, thanks for your thoughts as always

I feel the same way.

I think this place is appropriately called an "Online Fan Community"...it makes total sense that everyone plays a part.

In every community there are all types, the org is no different.



wanted to you too

LaVisHh said:

Well said Lav!

Lleena said:

Lleena! it's hug day at the org!

CalhounSq said:

Thanx for your warmth Calhoun

After reading what you have written, I have come up with another personal insight, which is about the quantity of time I spend here, which I have been thinking about for a while, similar to what you have mentioned... I just read some interesting literature, which was saying something about self care... I think I come here to 'tune out' - what would work for me better is coming here and expressing myself in quality, rather than spending hours here monging out. I don't take care of myself by spending hours here, because I sometimes am not actively engaging with my self, its like I am ignoring myself.

There's more to that puzzle I feel that I haven't worked out yet... Thanx for inspiring some constructive self reflection

LaVisHh said:

I totally agree, everyone does play a part. I think that I had a few problems knowing where my bit of space was and expressing myself with integrity.

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[This message was edited Sat Jan 25 7:39:17 PST 2003 by Therapy]

Therapy said:

"Monging out"???... ...Adding that to "Chest rug" (or izzit "Chest carpet") and "Pleasure Trail"...lol

And I am the exact same way, Therapy...I think I hit the internet, and this site, to tune out of certain things in life that would have been better for me to address head-on...I've cut back drastically on my hours online, and I don't miss 'monging out' (lol) here at the Org at all... I still visit and post, and it's still enjoyable......only now I do it here and there instead of everyday for hours...

SalaciousV sent me an orgNote recently which really underlined something I already knew about myself, and your introspective thread here just drove the point home...so thanks...

Hi WB - it is chest rug and its treasure trail!!! Heh...!!

Glad you found my introspection useful 4 u - I thank Calhoun for mine... funny how the chain works... I wonder who she heard, lol??!

D'oh! (slaps forehead)..."Treasure Trail"...

Keep doin' what you do, Therapy. Set an example, one of many here...

You don't need a therapist to work on yourself, and the work is never done.

CalhounSq said:

I know one reason you come here.
Same as me. Hahahaha! (private joke)
Check the mail Monday or Tuesday...Wednesday at the latest.

Oh, I also come here because I like meeting people's minds.
In my town, I meet many people, but how many times do you
get into their minds? I have come to know people all over
the world from the comfort of my great room. I know on a first
name basis Australians, Germans, Dutch, French, Orientals,Polish,
folks from the UK...I even get mail from all over.
The other day, a very talented orger sent me his CD from Germany.
I traveled to Minneapolis and shared a room with an orger that I met here
from California. I could go on and on, But the reality is
this is a pretty safe place to mingle.
Where else could I have such a wide range of experiences?
Face it. What are the real alternatives? TV? Movies? Books?
You still have time for that.
It's not like we are rich and can hop on a jet and go to Hawaii when it's too cold here
and Canada when it's too hot like Prince does.
Some of us have kids in school and are tied to responsibilities.
So don't analyze so hard (unless you are here 24/7).
Take advantage of the Org. Loosen up. Meet folk. Enjoy.
Other folk are gossiping on the phone or dozing in front of
the TV in their spare time. To me, being on here is like taking
a sociology class (and sometimes a Bible class), and meeting
people,sharing their experiences and growing.
If they could put us all in one football stadium for a day,
don't you think we would have a hilariously good time? I do.
Y'all are all right!
[This message was edited Sat Jan 25 18:12:41 PST 2003 by SensualMelody]

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